TheOne&OnlyHyriah

Relink!!!!

2010-04-05T20:22:00.000+08:00

No more updates here though it will still exist.

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While we try on our U1...we....

2010-03-26T22:46:00.003+08:00

Please try not to scream when you see this. yes you.

Actually got more uhh.... but lazy uhh.

tired

2010-03-26T22:09:00.003+08:00

Finally, i have the chance to sit and play!

I know that its kind of a little too late. But please, not that i dont want, but i cant, prepaid 0 and i never touch the computer.

So here it comes:

Happy Birthday to Dearest Huda!!!!

Happy Birthday to Dearest Rouhui!!!!

-My 17 yr old folks... :P

Infact i superdupergilerrabaksampaitaktercakap Miss you guys!!! Meeting you guys tomorrow!!! Yayyy!!! Feeling emotional now.

Once upon a time, there was a girl named hyriah. One day, she had to run 2.4km around her school. It was a cool breezy morning. While she was running, she was doing great one of the first few infact. Come second round, like a humpty dumpty she fall on the ground. Ouch! She continue to ran, upon reaching the school, she then decided to clean her wounds before starting her third round. And so she did that. She said "Its okay, end whatever you started." And to her surprise, even after the time wasted cleaning the wounds she managed to ran pass others and completed in 21 minutes.

Pds...super tiring. Hands and legs are cramped. For all the standing and chicken-wing.

Whoosh

2010-03-23T20:10:00.003+08:00

Okay, i shall blog a "little" for today...

It was sports heats today...
Participated in 100m and 800m.
100m okay uhhs.
Felt like pee-ing, shit-ting and cramps all over. Felt like backing out at first. But they persuaded so okay luhhs. Just run.
800m, i swear this is the craziest stupidest thing i have ever done in my sport life.
For 5 years in school, i have never ran 200m and 400m. And suddenly 800m. Bodowww kan???
Never even had a trial round, never trained, never practiced.. My muscles all shock seyh...
Initially, i didnt want to run, but after the 1o0m it kind of boost my confidence so i just gave it a try. There were many sports people running. And i am of no match to them. I dont run often you see. In the end, came in 6/8 position. Damn shiok!! Damn happy larh seyh... Weird right?? At least not last. :) (not saying that its a bad thing, but it was my goal, just dont be the last.) Satisfied.
Thank you so very the much to those who supported and cheered me on. I ran in honour of you guys. THANK YOU!!!
Anyway... next on the list is PDS. Scary. This Friday, they are coming to watch. Die!! People, lets get our engine running. Just give it our best shot at Macau. Okay??!!

If we cannot be the best at least we all know we did our best!! :)

33 weeks of study week. Is it enough??

Just dont panic and dont stress yourself. Slow and steady, slow and steady.

Jia You to all!!! Sports day, tests, PDS, Speech day...

And oyeah, Congratulations to all Campcraft girls for being 9th out of 100+ other schools.
Really proud of you guys!! :) superfabulousmarvellousextremelygreat job!

Okay ciao, need to study... teehee...

pfft... *-*

Melodramatic

2010-03-21T15:46:00.002+08:00

Hello... Okay great!! Im posting...
Thought of blogging for many many times but i never did.

First and foremost sorry guys!!!! I know i have missed out on a lot of study dates at Mac.
Blame the weather, it was so cooling to sleep but of course i didnt sleep the whole day.
Sorry Ros, Sha, Has, Kha, Dou, Har, Khi.
And you bet, i regret skipping that Saturday day out with you... even when i have to run. Goosh...
I see my phone expecting MIND-YOUR-OWN-BUSINESS to appear. Yes i named you that in my contacts. It was suppose to prevent nosy people from reading our texts but some still read and asked.
And im so unhappy that i cant text anyone. I wanted to ask my parents to top up for me but when i think again it will only piss them off... So nevermind.
Tomorrow schooling anyway.

And i must say today im bored. Im done with my homeworks and i cant find chemistry homework if there is in the first place.
Am i really done with my homework?
Half way through my revisions for Science. More to go.
Im thinking of re-reading the whole textbook for Humanities. Wah seyh... banyak kaper...

On a random note: I dont understand why some people want to pretend like they are some other race other than their own. Such a poser larh pleassseeee!!! Malay with over dyed BLONDE hair so tak kene cann??

There is this boy in school, prolly a sec 2 kid. He looks like a malay but i realised he was wearing a cross around his neck so maybe he is not and he is constantly tagged with a chinese girl. Mind you this girl looks fierce. But what disturbs me the most is that this boy when he smiles it look so bloody damn fake. Its like when he walks he is too full of himself that he feels everybody is watching him i bet he didnt even listen to whatever the girl was saying. But the irony here is that no one is watching him but he is watching people. He looks at you and give you the fake "macho" smile. And im thinking eeewww. *-*

When you didnt even try and you make assumptions that tells me what kind of a person you are.
One that i shouldnt even bother.

Study dudette

2010-03-14T16:38:00.002+08:00

~Wow!! I realise that im not the only one that dislike you.
~And, will really appreciate it that you keep your hands off other girls since you already have a girlfriend.

Yesterday was Public Performance thingy. It was superb but i dont want to elaborate on it. People who go will know.
Love my brother.

Today is study study study. Been studying since 9am. Now is my short break. Back to studying soon. I hope these notes can help.
Homeworks:
Maths 8.2 & 8.3 (Thanks Ms Normala :D) Thanks for the practice that i needed.
English Compre 1 & 2 with summary. (Thanks Ms Chua for giving me something to read & to think during the "holiday")
SS essay on Venice (Thanks Mr Sng for the essay... i will squeeze my brain for that.)
did i miss anything out?

PS. im no being sarcastic

My prepaid is going low. I dont want to spend my holiday not being able to text you. Im saving it...
Would you say it please??

O----my.....Goodness...

2010-03-10T19:32:00.004+08:00

Hello people!!

This is going to be a very short post...or so i hope.

Well, school has been okay... but the pressure of trying to memorise a whole load of facts is really getting tense. Its the whole book of Geography and Social Studies textbook and understanding Chemistry and Physics. Lots and lots of maths practice...

The warmness in your soul comforts me. Sometimes, i dont want to let it go.

And to HOT!!!, if you tell him who you are then he would thank you.

You & I

2010-03-07T19:10:00.002+08:00

Hello humansx!!

My Sunday morning was spent, at Raffles Place!! I took part in the Blindfold Trail, Singapore Guiness Record. Apparently, it was organised by Club ESQ 165, and i was wondering why my friend didnt participate...Hmmm, i thought she was part of the Club...
Anyways, back on track, we had to complete the trail of 750m BLINDFOLDED!! Yeapp, with the scorching heat and being blind well all of that is a real challenge!! As many as 127 participants, shoulder to shoulder, blindfolded walked through the city with the help of the buddies to guide us through to avoid any accidents like banging into a pole or walking across the road... The buddies were great supporters cheering us on knowing that our hands, legs and mind cramped. The fact that when we walked through this places not knowing where you are or how the place looks like and the fact that people tell you that there is the Esplanade, The "Durian" but you cant see it, it gives you a wake up call... Hey you should appreciate the gift of sight that Allah has given to you, when some dont even get the chance to see the work of man-kind.
So overall, i had a nice experience and on top of that, i received a certificate of participation...and free FOOD!!! And im sure Lil Brother had a great time too! :)
The event ended around 12.00.
Took the MRT to Yio Chu Kang and bused home.
Reached home around 1.

Had an hour's rest and off i go to McD for study date with study mates... Teehee *-*
Did chemistry and maths... spent at least 4 hours there studying, laughing, eating and of course cuci mata!!! haha...

Then after that off we go to Hougang Ave 8 for Hayati's haircut... Bangsx!! Wakaka

On a random note:
Congrats to Girls' Campcraft Team for getting into Top 10!!

Thanks to HOT!!! for the tag... really... my brother would like to know the person who just praised him. He wanted to thank you in person. So let us know a little bit about you. Kays?? :P

To my lovely 1st sister, it breaks my heart to see you suffer a lot with your job, but nevertheless, sis DONT GIVE UP!! Lets show those people, what the KAMIRS' are made off. What doesnt kills us, makes us stronger!! Yeah!! Anyway, you got your hubby-to-be to make you happy always.

And my Big Bro, is going to be out of NS soon and pursuing his studies at Temasek Poly soon!!
Hooray!! Soon everyone will be in POLY!!

And i am so looking forward to our family year-end adventure!!

I miss you!!

Its the heart that stopped beating

2010-03-03T20:57:00.002+08:00

When im with you, i forget the world.
When im with you, its you all i see.
What is this madness i feel?
You bring me to cloud nine.
But once i touch the ground, i know ive crossed the line.
Its knowing what i want, having to have what i need.
In my life its all about abiding.
And with you i can never be.
Why does it have to be?
Why do i have to end it?
How can i make you understand?
In this life, my heart can never be amend.
Its me not being able to let go.
Because its me im feeling sorry for.

Till that day...

2010-03-03T19:55:00.007+08:00

If its a broken part, replace it.

If its a broken arm, then brace it.

If its a broken heart, then face it.

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

So, what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again?
Woooaaah, so I never want to leave you and the memories of us to see
I beg don't leave me

Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day ]
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home

Hello poeple!! Long time uhhs...
Lets get down the list.

Monday blues... didnt feel like doing anything, didnt feel like studying, listening or even bother about anything. Unfortunately, received my results. I had to do something. Calculate to see if i pass.

So far so good, none failed yet. Pending for social studies results to determine if i had done well for CT.

Though the satisfaction level wasnt really felt. But i should be grateful that i passed because some did even more worse. phiissh...

Tuesday, alls well ends well. Good day i supposed? Probably i felt happy after spending time with someone though we talk mostly crappy stuffs. I just love to piss him off. But i hope he knows that i didnt mean any of the mean stuffs.

Wednesday, i just wish it would rain some day sooner. Its getting really really humid. I could die of dehydration. Its like being baked in an oven.

And i am happy to say that i am getting the hang of practical science. Hope i can really do well for my 'O's. Even if i dont, i hope im not one of those who will commit suicide. Avoiding excessive stress, bad for my health.

Why do some people choose to live a obssesive studious life?? Morning school-study, afternoon tuition-study, night revision-study.

Oh my geesh... How do you live with that?? Is your life all about studying?? Where is the fun??

one word, respect.

2010-02-27T17:52:00.001+08:00

Do not be nosy of other people's business. Ever heard of MIND-YOUR-OWN-BUSINESS before? yea so try to hide that low self-esteem of yours, really not necessary.
oh btw,I dont need TUITION to have naturally SMART BRAINS. peace!

If you chinese people wants to be racist, please remind yourselves on whose land you are living on-A MULTI RACIAL COUNTRY.
Haven't anything the government's been trying to teach ever get into your head?

Patience has its LIMITS, dont ever cross the line.
Now that i just had to post it here just means you went overboard, lady.

P.S i had to write this down because i feel that Singapore lacks of respect towards other races. what happen to all the RACIAL HARMONY thingy the government's been teaching us eversince i was born? if you wanna be racist, surrender yourself to the police.

i justify that i did not do anything wrong/crime or anything that breaks the law of the beautiful RACIAL HARMONY Singapore above. if you're pissed, that just goes to show that you're GUILTY and you know it. (:

I have No Idea

2010-02-24T17:02:00.002+08:00

Hellosx Humansx!!

Okay... Changed my blog skin again... Cant find anything interesting that suits my taste well so i have decided to use the default templates as my last resort.

Common Test 1 has ended... A Great Relief eventhough i have much to regret about.
First was, not trusting my first guts and the reason why i hate to check my work... first answer correct, check, doubted, edit and then wrong... Phiiisssh...Lost 2 marks for that in Chemistry Paper... Second, why didnt it cross my mind? I memorised it but didnt thought of it. what the hell. Again lost 2 marks for Physics...
Maths... if its wrong it must have been careless.
English... always having the problem of choosing a question... and forgetting the format.
Geography... was fine... yeah...i practically wrote the notes here and got to know that some actually read it. hahax
Social studies...hmm i manage to complete both questions and i hope that spells PASS.
Whatever it is, i studied and did my best.

Cats and Roses

2010-02-20T13:10:00.000+08:00

CNY reunion with beloved Squadmates soon!!
Miss them a lot!!!

i want to play guitar!!!

Geography: Types of Natural Vegetation

2010-02-20T12:59:00.001+08:00

Natural vegetation: plants that grow with little or no human interferance.
Ecosystem: community of living organisms
Biome: the living part of an ecosystem

Forests: Tropical Rainforest, Temperate Deciduous Forest, Temperate Coniferous Forests
Grasslands: Tropical Grassland and Temperate Grassland
Deserts: Hot desert and Cold desert (tundra)

Climate: the atmospheric condition of an area over a considerable period of time
~Temperature and Precipitation
Global Distribution of Natural Vegetation: closely related to the latitudes.

Tropical Rainforest:
-tropical equatorial climate
-high temp: about 27 dc
-high rainfall: above 1500mm
-constant throughout the year
-between 10 d N & S of the EQ
-Amazon basin, Congo Basin and SEA Basin

~Structure of Forest
[] 5 Vertical Layer
[] Emergent Layer: 30-50m. Crowns above the canopy layer
[] Canopy Layer: 15-30m. Umbrella-shaped crowns, wide and shallow, forms a continuous leaf cover.
[] Understorey Layer: 6-15m. narrower, oval-shaped crowns, grow where gaps in the canopy layer allow sunlight to pass through.
[] Shrubs layer: up to 6m. Tree saplings and woody plants
[] Undergrowth Layer: Max 5m. Grasses, mosses, ferns and fungi. Very little sunlight reaches this layer.

Epiphytes: Bird's Nest Fern and orchids. Grow on trees for physical support. Rainwater and decaying leaves provides nutrients and water for the plant.
Lianas: Thick woody vines that wind around trees to reach for sunlight. Up to 90m in length.
Parasitic Plants: strangling fig wraps itself around the trunk of its host tree to compete for space, sunlight and nutrients. Cause the death of the host tree.
Fungi thrive in dark, moist places conditions. Grows and feeds on decomposed fallen logs.
Leaf litter forms a layer of humus.

~Diversity of plant species
750 tree species and 1500 other plants species per hectare.

~Density
Extremely dense. Grows very closely to one another. Abundant vegetation.
Due to high temp. and rainfall throughout the year.

~Leaves
Evergreen, constant high rainfall.
Do not shed leaves.
Broad to maximise surface area for photosynthesis.
Waxy with drip tips, to allow rainwater to drain off easily. Prevents harmful bacteria from growing.

~Flowers and Fruits
Produce fruit throughout the year.
Colourful and sweet-smelling, to attract insects for pollination and animals for seed dispersal due to the still air below the canopy.

~Bark and Branches
Thin and smooth barks.
Branches only at the top 1/3 portion of trunks.

~Roots
Shallow and spread widely as they do not need to reach deep into the soil for nutrients.
Buttress roots, to support the great weight of trees.

Tropical Monsoon Forest:
-tropical monsoon climate
-high temp: about 26 dc
-high rainfall: over 1500 mm
-distinct wet and dry seasons.
-between 10 d & 25 d N & S of the EQ
-Mangalore

~Structure of Forest
[] 3 Vertical Layer
[] Canopy Layer: 15-30m. More spread out.
[] Understorey Layer: 6-15m.
[] Undergrowth: Max 6m. Bamboo thickets and grasses grow densely during wet, but sparse during dry season.

~Diversity of Plants
Around 200 species of plants per hectare. Due to inconsistent rainfall

~Density
Abundant and more spreaded. Crowns do not interlock. Dense undergrowth. Luxuriant during wet season.

~Leaves
Deciduous, shed leaves during dry season to minimise water loss through transpiration.
Waxy with drip tip.
Narrow leaves of bamboo plant.

~Flowers and Fruits
Bear fruit during dry season while they are leafless.

~Bark and Branches
Thick and coarse to protect the tree from heat and dryness during dry season. Withstand extreme heat from natural forest fires.
Branches are located at the middles of trunks. Sunlight is able to reach the lower parts of the forest.

Mangrove Forests:
-tropical climate
-coastal areas
-high temp: about 20 dc-30dc
-high rainfall: 1000-2000mm
-between 23.5 dc N & S of the EQ

~Structure of Forest
[] 3 Horizontal Zones
[] 2-40m. Average height: 15m. Muddy soil cannot support tall trees
[] Coastal Zone: nearest to the sea. Adapted to saltwater. Flooded during high tide. Breathing/aerial roots. Avicennia and Sonnaratia
[] Middle Zone: Prop/stilt roots. Rhizophora
[] Inland Zone: Least tolerant to saltwater. Knee-like roots. Bruguiera

~Diversity of plants
HALOPHYTES

~Density
Dense and luxuriant due to high temp and rainfall. Continuous canopy, compete for sunlight.

~Leaves
Evergreen. No seasonal change.
Broad with drip tip. Allow water to flow off easily.
Thick and leathery. Reduce water loss through transpiration.
Salt secretors, Avicennia: secretes excess salt on their leaves which are removed by wind or rain.
Salt filtrators, Sonnaratia, Rhizophora, Bruguiera: absorbs salt and removes excess salt by storing it in old leaves which then fall off.

~Flowers and Fruits
Colourful to attract insects for pollination.
Buoyant, float on water to be washed away to a new coastal area.
Fruits of the Rhizophora germinate while they are still on their parent tree and drop directly on the ground to take root. Elongated structure with sharp tips.

~Roots
Aerial roots exposed duting low tide, allows to take in oxygen.
Prop/stilt roots provides support for the trees on muddy soil.
Kneed roots provides support for trees on soft soil.

Coniferous Forest:
-cool temperate continental climate
-60 d & 70d N of EQ.
-experience seasonal change
-summer: 21 dc
-winter: -40 dc
-precipitation: 300-635mm throughout the year.
-Scandinavia, USA

~Structure of Forest
No distinct layer. Grow generally uniform height (20-30m). Grow close together.
Little undergrowth. Low amount of sunight.

~Diversity of plant species
Only a few. Pine, spruce and fir. Trees grow in pure stands or a mix of 2-3 species in an area.

~Density
Low temp and precipitation cannot support dense vegetation.

~Leaves
Do not shed leaves. So that photosynthesis can still take place whenever temp rises above 6 dc.
Needle-like leaves have small surface areas that help to reduce water loss through transpiration. Store water for use during winter.

~Flowers and Fruits
Trees bear cones, part of the reproductive system. Female cones produce seed while male cones produce pollen. Dispersed by wind or animal.

~Bark and Branches
Thick barks to protect them from long cold winter. Flexible branches that slope downwards to enable snow to slide off easily.
Conical shape of trees also helps them to withstand strong winds.

~Roots
Trees have shallow, spreading roots which enable them to absorb water from melting snow.

makan, makan and more makan

2010-02-19T22:38:00.000+08:00

Shiok ar!!! Today, went to Clarice's house after school of Chinese New Year celebration... She fed us with all the sweet stuffs and kuihs...their kuihs are almost the same as ours...Layered cake, pear, sweets and drinks... Too full after having our lunch in school...And back to school for NPCC.
Looked for Sec 1s, taught them basic drills and stuffs started to be harsh towards them. Blearghxx...
Well thats my style.

Then anyway... had a short talk with Ms James, she is really nice. Kind of miss her being my teacher because at least she cares. Met up with dearest Priya after NP... Chit-chat, catching up on her current affairs. Boys-studies-stress-cats-squadmates-kids-home sweet home.

Reach home, blablabla and eat SUP TULANG, woohoo!!! Damn shiok!! Yesterday had Pizza and today this, i wont be surprise if i actually get fat...oopsiee.

Now, learning how to play Use Somebody-Kings of Leon on the guitar. Getting the hang of it. A good start for a newbie like me. Greatt!!! Off i go now. :D

Go study luhh!!

2010-02-17T20:16:00.000+08:00

Ay Yaw!! Humansx!!

Percy Jackson is a real good show. Though some stuffs doesnt make sense, but drowning into the show is really painless. I feel great after that. And i want more POPcorns!!! : P

Exams are this Friday!! Haiyah!! PANIC AT THE CLASSROOM!!!
DONT WASTE TIME! After some time that big quote pasted on the front wall, makes me shivers.
And i find myself, changing habits. Now i prefer to study at night. My once enthusiasm to write down notes are fading. I prefer to write less think deeper more.
I realise that i should learn to embrace Social Studies and start LOVING IT...

Sometimes i feel like i have switched souls with my brother...
He is getting more and more hardworking. Getting more of the spotlight. Being more enthusiastic.
Whereas, Me, im going slack, and not anymore of the spotlight and aint any more enthu.
The people in NPCC are different. Less of those shiok people!! Like my SQUADMATES!!
And i have to admit, NPCC is getting boring day after day. The only thing that interest me is PDS, the only challenging thing there is and not to forget Sec 1's, our future, because no offence the current batch of Juniors especially some knows no respect and are less reliable...haiishh
I guess, im just too tired and really cant be bothered anymore. My time has past, and now its my brother's turn.
And i am so PROUD OF MUHAMMAD KHIDHIR BIN KAMIR BIN KAYAT BIN KANAWI!!!
Yesh!! That is how you spell his name to all you admirers of him.

Tip: If you like him, be more friendly, because this one guy, doesnt socialise he knows only people who make an effort to make him know you.

Will it kill you to take it slow?

2010-02-16T10:17:00.001+08:00

Yay!!! Blogging...

Interesting and non-interesting stuffs going on.

Lets take a few steps back into History.
14th February 2010
Special request by Mum that Me and Bro accompanied her to a Wedding Celebration at Woodlands...
The wedding card states the names of the Groom and Bride, the address, the map but not the bus that leads us to the place. Righttt... Took Mrt to Woodlands, intended to take the taxi from there to the venue but hell rightt, taxi stands there were like taxi stands in a Ghost Town, hardly see any taxis... Didnt waste any time, went down to the bus interchange and there lies the Great Map of Woodlands. okayyyyy....looked at it... And tadaa!!! We saw which bus stop we should alight and what bus to take. Isnt that great??!! Okayy!!! If only i could input a sound that plays the moment we were riding the bus...
Look left and look right. Looking out for the block numbers... And.... we missed the bus stop. Dropped at the next bus stop and reverse direction....
Finally!!!! Walk to find the block. But it was surprisingly quiet.
But then smarty pants Hyriah says why not we go upstairs...?? And there we go... Feels like an amazing race...
Eat drink eat drink then ciao... Waited at the nearest bus stop which only has one bus. And at the bus stop there were a few others... Waited and 15 minutes has past. And a bus came... Mum alerted us, then suddenly everyone else was standing...And the most cruel thing was the bus didnt even stop it was a OFF SERVICE bus. The next bus came but like the previous one. Then forget it. Bought ourselves a drink thanks to the humid weather that sucks up all the hydrates that we barely have. Went to the initial bus stop we stopped at.
And there lies an old man sleeping with his mouth wide open and like nobody's business. Funny thing is, he sleep but he doesnt move I made a comment in malay, but i said something like "He sleeps but he doesnt move at all, i wonder if he ever fell from the bench...could he be dead??" At my last word, he moved!! "Does he understand my language?" ooppsiee... then nevermind... the weather was scorching hot and my brother good heartedly fan that old man with my mum's hand fan. Everyone at the bus stop was laughing seyh...haha
Few minutes later, the bus came... Before that we made an effort to wake him up... "Oi oi, wake up lah, bus come already." In the bus cant stop laughing... "Bus come so late until the apek fell asleep."

Head home, stopped at McD for a while with friends... they were studying...

15th February 2010
Woken up by the sound of the Chinese road band... What was it really called anyway?
Cant sleep again after that. Nevermind... Started my studying for CT1.
All the way until afternoon.
Seriously, studying social studies never fails to make you sleepy.
Reading but nothing goes into my head. Change subject, Physics, Maths, Geog. Practically all the subject in one day. Damn tiring.
But i was going really slow.
Slow and steady. This year is an important year, stressful year. Ironically i worked hard last year for this year. Bleargghx
Better slow and steady rather than sprinting and get tired earlier. Right??
At least i still studied.

16th February 2010
Going out to watch movie with family!! Yayy!! After so long...
When everyone is a grown up, its hard to get everyone together.
Left only me and bro in our teens. The young ones...

Valentines day??

2010-02-13T13:38:00.000+08:00

I dont celebrate Valentine's day. I cant understand why some Muslims out there make it into such a big deal...Dont they know??

Its history leads back to the Christian Priest Valentine. Its is said that once upon a time, the Roman Emperor, disallowed their men to get married reason being married men did not make good as a soldier. But then, this Priest Valentine had secretly performed marriage ceremonies...And he was arrested... At one time, the Emperor tried to persuade the Priest to converting to Roman paganism in a bid to save his life instead the Priest also tried to make the Emperor convert to Christianity. Both failed.

Instead of celebrating Valentine's day on the day itself... why not celebrate Lovers' day before or after?
At least that makes you look less like a fool about not knowing the meaning or the purpose of the celebration.

Priya!!!

2010-02-11T22:21:00.000+08:00

I read Priya's blog and i was touched...
Im sorry about the blog. No intentions of blocking anyone from my blog. But my blog looks ugly with the background like dont know what...cant even read...

I Love My Priya!!!

And im happy for you!!!

Happy that you are happy in school!!!

That is what school should be right? Fun! (how i wish i could say that boldly.)

Grudge?

2010-02-11T21:56:00.001+08:00

Hello people!! So sorry for the blog private stuff.... Something went wrong with my blogskin and i had to replace it but i just cant find any spare time to do that. So im just using my previous skin...

Anyway, since im on the computer, like finally... Maybe i will just blog a little bit.

A lot has been happening to me quite lately. And all i did was to let the matters rest without solving it yet.

Just want to say a few words...especially for someone whom i think still has a problem with me after all this while...
Why dont you just let go of the past? Just let go of whatever that has happened between us in the past. Why hold the grudge and hatred? After all, i did. I let go. I dont hate you. I dont blame you either for the mistrust, suspicion, tension and hate. Eventhough i still cant believe it, its like being stabbed in the back but then i dont care that much. Now that, you are with someone new, you are happy and i assume you have moved on. Then just forget everything. I thought we cleared things out between us or was all that just pretense?? But then again, i dont care. I just thought you should know that im happy for you anyway and i forgive and forget. Just hope you would to. Case close, after this i dont bother.

And people, dont judge people without even getting to know them. Because everytime you think you know that someone it is always the other way. Dont judge people just because of some conflict you had in the past.
And to you, you dont know me. You only see me at my worst when greed took control of me. I was protecting what was mine at that time. Human-Greed. But im sure if you had took an extra step to knowing me better i am never the kind of person you think i am. PEACE :)

Off i go for Vampire Diaries...

2010-02-08T10:20:00.001+08:00

IGNORE THIS POST, ITS NOT VALID ANYMORE. READ LATEST POST.

Eiiissshhh. I thought you were good, the nice polite one. But i guess not?? Tigers have permanent stripe that can never be altered even when you try hard.
If you have GOOD time management... then why are you struggling to do your homework?? Despite that, you make people wait for you. You took 15 mins to change to what? --Pt kit?? And by the way, do you know whats the meaning of respect? Dudette, who is the authority then?? I dont care whatever reasons you have, but when you are given instructions you jolly-well abide it. And just admit it you were late. And i have all the right to take actions, but did i? I just gave you a simple short advice that might sound like a warning. Dont have to be so brusque. And since you can choose to do anything you want if you want to then why didnt you?? Why didnt you spare yourself the nag from me then?

What is true friendship? A true friend is someone who loves you unconditionally and who has always and will always be there for you. Someone who forgives you every time you screw up . ... True friendship demands total honesty. Being honest with God can be scary, because it means that you have to be honest with yourself.

2010-02-06T20:09:00.001+08:00

I suck at being a friend...

2010-02-05T23:48:00.001+08:00

Down with flu and God-knows what else...

2010-02-05T21:47:00.001+08:00

OPuckYou

2010-02-02T20:37:00.001+08:00

Why should i live up my life to your expectations?
Why should i live up my life to satisfy your wants and your needs?
You are not even my mother or father!!
I dont know why i even bother to bother.
Mygawd. Give me some space to breathe, Yaw??

Stop putting me in a bad position.
Making me feel bad if i were to decide either way.
OMummymummymummy!!!
Help me pleeeeaaassseee.......
I hate to hurt your feelings and i hate hurting my own feelings!!

Anyways, Priya you are dearly welcomed. See carebear, see me okay?? Fat hope for me right??
And enjoy school lah! :)

I never do any of my homework... im gonna be a deadskunk.

It was January back then but now its February :)

2010-02-01T22:23:00.000+08:00

Had a great February start... Yeah right... Lots and lots of homework piled up... and piling up. Yeapp that includes my maths test paper 2 and oh by the way paper 1, i planned to fail it and then again i have SS essay, English essays and Chemistry test and more to come i feared... Singaporean students are equivalent to stressed students. Sometimes i thank God for choosing Singapore as my motherland, a disaster-free country but i just wish it had been an easier life for me...

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

A Day Out

2010-01-30T23:42:00.000+08:00

hehs... Went out with 2nd sis and lil bro.
Mrt-ed to Orchard. Walked around at Far East Plaza looking for my shoes. Saw a few nice ones, but the price was affordable but just not worth it and some were wayyy expensive.
Then we had our lunch at Dahlia Restaurant.
Walked and Mrt-ed to Bishan J8.
Decided to watch movies, but then something happened.
So Mrt-ed again to AMK.
Watched Legion, wanted to find out how stupid the show is.
A little waste of money but definitely amusing laughing at their storyline.
People!!! Do not watch Legion! It suck!!
Stupid crappy storyline.
And if you dont have a strong hold of a religion, you are so gonna be fooled by this movie.
Yeehaa!!

And anyway, i finally bought something that i had promised to someone. The question now is how to get it to her. Must find time.
And oops i didnt do my homeworks...
Tomorrow my sprint through them.
So thats it for now :)

2010-01-29T23:33:00.000+08:00

Did that through scrapblog.

Look okay lah...

Anyway, my first try... teehee :D

My confessions:

I really dont know what i want.

I dont know how to react towards you.

Im not sure if its you that i need.

But somehow, i have seem to wrap myself around

by just being me.

I am weird.

I cant express myself right.

I laugh at a moment of sadness.

I smile at the moment of shock.

Im amuse at the sight of pain.

I cry at a celebration.

And persuading and consoling people have never been my thing.

If you dont want it, then thats okay. Whatever i will say.

I admit, if i see someone crying i dont know what to do.

If i see someone angry, i dont know what to say.

I feel awkward anyway.

I dont know how to show my farewell.

I depart and never look back.

It will took me a while before i realise it.

If you show me love.

I dont know how to show it back to you.

I feel lousy anyway.

But what can i say?

And half the time, i pretend like i dont care.

But then i do.

But people always misunderstood.

But do you think i care??

I hate to say this, but i have drifted away.

Further away from you.

Im neutral.

Between hate and love.

Im going with the flow.

To wherever it takes me.

Fly over the moon.

2010-01-29T21:48:00.000+08:00

Nice moon tonight...

Finally can touch my computer...

Been busy for the past few days especially with PDS...
Wahhh, all our efforts and sweat are finally paid off, Bowen was selected to represent Singapore!!! Yeahh!!!
Im flying... oooohhh
Macau here i come!!!

Okay thats all that im posting.
Dont know what else to talk about.

Oyeah, went for shooting just now. Scored 28 points only. Still lousy. Haiyahh...

Cool english homework. Play with Scrapblog.

Im still unfixed.

2010-01-24T21:58:00.001+08:00

Heart, im not ready to accept anyone.

Im not ready for you but im lost without you.

How i wish i could ignore you.
But i simply cant.

And you are not the reason why i want to hold on.

And im tired of love.

I need to be alone.

But im not sure if i want to be alone.

Let me settle my problems.

Let me find peace in the comfort of my own.

Let me be independent.

I need to fix myself.

Fix my broken heart.

Heal my saddened soul.

Nasty But Noble

2010-01-24T21:40:00.000+08:00

Im starting off my blog with some of what you people might call "bitch-talking".

Hate is a strong word, but right now i just really really really dont like you. Everything about you pisses me off, it makes me want to fart at your very fugly face! You know, you may think you are cute and bla bla bla just because people at your home pampers you like some baby girl of theirs. But hey you are 15 going 16!!! You dont expect people to be oh-so-really-nice to you!! Dont ever think that you are cute! And I dont even know what is it that they see in you, probably you put a spell on them. You made my friend cry not once, not twice but thrice in a day!! Fuckdamnit! And i hate that!!

And to that guy, i really cant understand why in the first place that you actually liked her.
Are you f---ing blind or what??
Cant you see?? She is only using you to get what she wants and when she does and gets tired of you, she will dumb you.
Think!! Remember!! Who have you been waiting for all this while before you got distracted with that girl. Remember, she has been waiting for you to ask her again. She has feelings for you! A pure one!!

Okay just ignored that part if you dont have any idea what im talking about.

And really, im just so evil...
Me and my prank smses... geeshhh
Seriously, what is it with girls sms-ing strangers with an excuse to make more friends. That is totally bullshit. Who knows if whoever you were messaging turns out to be some pervert, rapist or even a con man. Please lah girls, dont present yourself to criminal minds. You are just opening gates for them to take advantage of you.
And who the fuck has been spreading my number??
Im getting weird messages from weird people.
The last time was some Indonesian guy/gay calling me in the middle of the night like persistently. Despite all my rejections he kept calling me. And the best thing was after getting the fuck word from me, he said sorry and goodnight. Like what the fuck? My night has been ruined thanks to you!!

Tomorrow is Monday, Monday spells school.

Another Misery in My Life

2010-01-23T14:10:00.000+08:00

Heart pain sia!!!!!!!!

I almost finished my video larh seyh.....
Then everything gone again!!!
Because of one ************ who accidentally switched off the lap top...
I havent even get to save the video.

ArggghhhhhhHHHhHhhhhhh!!!!! BOOOODDDOOOhhhh!!!!!

Fikir senang aper nak buat video!!! Taik!!

Off-Mood

2010-01-22T21:43:00.000+08:00

Haisshhh... i just hope that it is a rumour.
Just as when i want to start respecting you. Just as when i thought that i could trust you.
If this turns out to be true.
Well, i will be superly unhappy about it.
I didnt give 4 years of my life for a shit nothing.

Telling us from the start is better than to keep it unknown from us, giving us fake hope and then getting disappointed after knowing the awful truth.
How can you fairly judge a crowd when you have only been looking at one?

I see you as a role model. I see you and i respected you. Please dont tell me that it is a mistake to do so.

Is there corruption in our system?

Anyway, i will randomly end my post by congratulating my friends on their 2nd month. Eventhough its only 2 months and its nothing much compared to some other couples. I wish you guys a long-lasting relationship. To the boy, you better treat the girl good. :)

And in two days, in case i dont get to post. Happy 9th monthsary?? To Huda and Fareez...

Who else??

Im bored and currently living a misery and nightmare.

I dream a lot, I know you say
You've got to get away
The world is not yours for the taking
Is all you ever say

I know I'm not the best for you
But promise that you'll stay
'Cause if I watch you go, you'll see me wasting
You'll see me wasting away

'Cause today you walked out of my life
'Cause today your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life

Goodbyes are meant for lonely people
Standing in the rain
And no matter where I go
It's always pouring all the same

These streets are filled with memories
Both perfect and in pain
And all I wanna do is love you
But I'm the only one to blame

'Cause today you walked out of my life
'Cause today your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life

(But what do I know if you're leaving?)
All you did was stop the bleeding
But these scars will stay forever
These scars will stay forever

And these words they have no meaning
If we cannot find the feeling
That we held on to together
Try your hardest to remember

Stay with me or watch me bleed
I need you just to breathe

'Cause today you walked out of my life
(Stay with me or watch me bleed)
'Cause today your words felt like a knife
(I need you just to breathe)
I'm not living this life

An asshole I Am.

2010-01-21T22:05:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.... i dont know what i did...but i think i just locked my SIM card and i have no idea how to unlock it. Tried to call Starhub a couple of times but to no avail. Too busy to serve me i guess... sad seyh... i want cry to sleep lah.
Tapi, one thing im relieved about is that i didnt foolishly locked my phone. So still can use my phone but currently incontactable.

Andand, this week i feel really sick and i suck. Like a Dumbass Hyriah.
I have super moodswings.
Always feeling like wanting to pick a fight or just total ignorance.

And today, i swear i wasnt in a peak of mood.
Last night found out about stuffs that i wasnt favourable of. It breaks my heart.
But nevermind, i must learn how to let go of the past. learn to let live with it.

Wednesday, went for campcraft training. Not in the team, but for the sake of looking around.
I mostly observed the flagstaff. Im experienced but it was like 2 years ago, so i have yet to remember all the small details and stuff. Trying to recall them all.
Anyways, campcraft team... Its probably because it has been weeks since they last trained. So i think they needed the time to get back on track, get themselves tuned in to campcraft channel. But they are wayyyyy out of timing. Come on guys!! Give me a better timing. :)
Needs a lot of patience, perseverance, speed and knowing-what-to-do-next.
Competition is in a month's time. Not much of training left. So need to buck up eyhhs...
Pitied all the peggers who have injured themselves.
For all the trainings, i have never bled. I have a very soft skin that is sensitive of friction, it blisters almost everytime. It must have been the method you peg.

And im sorry if i hurt you.
Im just not ready. And im confused.

Nutshell!

2010-01-16T23:07:00.000+08:00

One whole week in a Nutshell.

Well, lets go by day.
Monday, received my 'O' Level result.
Maths B3 (not bad after constant failing of maths paper during exams)
HMT C6 (surprise to know that i passed. Because i have never passed HMT paper)
Though i should be crediting myself for getting such results but i feel like i can do much better.
So im re-taking my maths paper.
Oyeah, i didnt even bother to show my result slip to my parents.
Simply because its not really a good one. No point showing anyway. Wait until i get better results then i shall show it to them. teehee :)

Tuesday, nothing much happened. Not one that i can remember of.

Wednesday, same too.

Thursday, cant remember of any.

Friday, NPCC!! Sec One Orientation. Hmm... expecting a new batch of hyped cadets.
Great. Expecting a busy schedule for NPCC.

Saturday, today...
I shall post it tomorrow. Im tired. Yawn!!!

2010-01-10T21:24:00.000+08:00

Now im fucking pissed off because i just typed a whole story and now i lost it!!!! FUCK!! Fuck!! Fuck!! I wanna cry!!!! NOw fuck hell i have to re-type again!!

nO fUCKING mOOD aLREADY lARH cb!!fUCK!! bloody hell!! bull shit! knn!! Fed up larh sial!!

Rolling on my bed laughing, cursing, and feel like crying because i wrote it damn long and now its just gone poof!! Just like that!!
Now am i crying or laughing??

I think im getting my period soon because i just cant control my emotions!! Banging my head on the pillow!!! Bad mood. Bad mood. Bad mood!!!

CCA Openhouse

2010-01-09T20:37:00.000+08:00

hehs.. im not in the mood to blog but im bored.
So perhaps i will just make it short.

Cca openhouse went smoothly but then, i didnt think we managed to get many people to sign up, but hopefully we would at least get about 30 cadets to join us. Everything else was great. We really have to give the credits to the current ncos, they really did a good job. Nice one guys!! Especially the gift, that one was a really great idea and it takes a lot of effort to do so. So sec 3s learn from them! Creative and Hardworking!! However, the cadets somehow didnt really impress me as well as the ncos did. During the march around the school especially which made the nco and seniors ncos frustrated due to their so spiritless and totally uncoordinated marching. I meant what happened?? Did we not practice our drills on Friday? Whats the point of training but in the end not doing it right on the actual day? And also, making a fool out of yourself? The parents were literally giggling...
And the most irritating part is, to echo after your leader. Cant you cadets shout?
Is shouting something that is so hard to do?

Anyways tomorrow is Edusave Scholarship Award Presentation at Xinmin Sec... must wake up early..

330th post...

2010-01-07T19:56:00.000+08:00

Happy People!!

Changed my blogskin again... I find everything on one page is way easier than buttons.
Its funny how i can actually find time to do all this complicating stuffs.
Luckily it didnt take me long to find a nice blogskin.

Done with my homeworks... yeah...except that out of laziness, i decided to skip my Geography revision.

Anyways... today, my eyes are making problems again... I hate it, hate it hate it very much. Why do i have too sensitive skin?? Goosshhh!! pfft
Hope it gets better and the faster it does, the better. Yeahh :)

Andand... yeah in one day i managed to watch four episodes of Vampire Diaries consecutively. Did my maths homework, english and part of physics. I intend to complete the physics paper during my free period.

O level results out next monday, 11/01.
Scared for my Maths and HMT paper.
I hope i pass my Maths so that i dont have to retake again. Because honestly, my maths are getting rusty, needs some sharpening.. Haiyoo.

Lastly, i love you people!
To those i might have scolded or show a little attitude, im sorry but
sometimes you just deserve it. Now i know why people dislike you. Hate is a strong word, but right now i really really really dont like you. Face it, you are one lousy ******. :|

my 329th post. :)

2010-01-04T17:21:00.001+08:00

Hello people!!!
First day of school.
Feel super weird coming back to school.
Feel very alien-ed... ;)
phheehhehehe

Saw the timetable, and i realised i have a lot of free periods.
Slacking/ schooling... but hehee, nevermind lah, can use those periods to do revision... :)
Sounds rajin of me... ooopppss...macam aje...
Then anyway... after school... Go jalan-jalan...
Went to Hougang Point. McD full house only got the high table, not comfortable... so waited at KFC...but i wanted to eat ice-cream, KFC no ice-cream lah...so back again to McD. Wait for one auntie to eat finish, but she take damn long luhh... haiish. At last got seat...
Saw Afiqah a couple of times. Some times, buat tak nampak... sorry uhhs
She likes to daydream seyh...
Saw her staring at empty space like a lot of times...
Thinking about boyfriend is it?? ;) haha

A few add-ons...
Watched Alvin and the Chipmunks 2, yesterday with Rosma and Shahira. The two guys Hariz and Khairil dont want to watch so they ended up walking around E-hub and then later on went home. Why dont guys like cute stuffs?? They are missing too much FUN. teehee :)

Andand Shahira, Thank you for the uniforms!! :) I was planning to buy one, and just trying my luck by asking you if i could have one since you said you have a lot and some you dont even wear... but didnt think that you would really agree to that. :) Thank you babe!!

And yeah, Hayati i saw my name on your blog!! haha... thanks eyh... i wish i could actually join you guys in the sec one orientation. I had so much fun with you guys last year. i wanted to, but wast sure if i could haiisshh...but its okay its alright. at least i can still see you the rest of the year :) right??

And hey, Ms Normala is now a Police Officer?? Inspector Normala... Cool or whatt?? Im jealous... She is pretty and she is an officer. I think she just inspired me. awwww... and she is my form teacher!! And i am from 5A1...has always been since sec 1.
1A1. 2A1. 3A1. 4A1. 5A1.

Kau Ilhamku

2010-01-02T19:56:00.001+08:00

Beribu bintang dilangit
Kini menghilang
Meraba aku dalam kelam
Rembulan mengambang
Kini makin suram
Pudar ilhamku tanpa arah

Sedetik wajahmu muncul
Dalam diam
Ada kerdipan ada sinar
Itukah bintang ataupun rembulan
Terima kasih ku ucapkan

Izinkan ku mencuri bayangan wajahmu
Izinkan ku mencuri khayalan denganmu
Maafkanlah oh...
Andai lagu ini
Mengganggu ruangan hidupmu
Kau senyumlah oh...
Sekadar memori
Kita di arena ini
Kau ilhamku
Kau ilhamku...

Heyyo!!!

Urrrmmmm, above is a lyric of a very old song... I dont know why but recently i have been listening to old songs... neyh i think i just want to get that old feeling...hehe :)

And anyway, today happens to be my last day @ work...haiisshh, kinda heart-rending... would LOVE to stay longer but circumstances doesnt allow it, anyhow maybe im going back after 'O' level. Should i?

People @ Carrefour are good-natured and out-going.

I guess im really blessed to be working with them for my first work experience. :)

And i should say, i really learn a lot from this experience. Most important lesson is that, there are a whole lot of people from all walks of life. Its a real eye-opener that there are all kinds of people out there. Especially, making friends with a lot of people that lets you have a better understanding and introduces you to more stuffs. Though many of my colleagues smokes, and where at some point of time i am a little tempted but also there are some time when you tell them that you dont smoke, you are kind of proud of yourself. teehee :)

They are still good people, with a heart of gold.

School starts in 1 day.

Put your hands up!!!

yeehoo!!

On a random note, i think that if someone tells another person not to leave them...Isnt that kind of sound pathetic, that you have to ask/beg the person not to leave you. Its like, are you feeling insecure or what?? Saying, "dont ever leave me. Or else i am nothing without you." Is the same as saying, "dont ever leave me. You dont know what i can do to you." I think some of you might be laughing at this sentence but yeahh... thats what i think... Sometimes it sounds like a threat. Its just my thinking lah.. Kalau terasa, not my pasal... oopss=.='
And next is, whenever a guy promises to a girl, that they will always be there to help the girl whenever she faces a tragic incident...but here is the deal, most of the time they dont know that they are the cause of the tragic incident. So how are you going to help when you are the problem?? =.='
And pppplllleeaasseee!!! Dont tell me you need the 3 words, "I love you"... What??? Doesnt your partner tell you "i love you" enough??? =.='
And this is just a random note, i shall remind you again. If somehow you find any similarities to what you might have wrote on your blog. Please you might want to think again. These examples are actually taken from a person's blog but please dont think its yours. Think positive. Just think that i wrote it based on someone else's blog okay?? :)

I am laughing my ass out!!! hahahahxx :)

01/01/10>>> Cool huh?...

2010-01-01T21:39:00.000+08:00

Heylo people!!

Dogs are also welcomed! :)

Hhhmmm, feel very lazy to go to work these days... Cant wait to get back to school. Yeahyeahyeah!! I miss school!!! :(

So the next few paragraphs are dedicated specially for 2009. :)
Honestly typing, some were wrote on a carrefour plastic bag...
Mostly its my reflection... It may get boring, but yeah whatever lah eyh...

2009 ~ A beautiful Tragedy

Well, i must say, last year wasnt a really hoohahh-feeling-good-everyday year.
Though for the first few months it felt like it, before everything changed. But yeah, i have past over it.

All the stress and sadness were a burden yet it was beautifully painful. These pains were made to last.

It still feels real, but its beginning to fade...

Life is never the same after all the dilemas.

I have changed and so has everyone else. Either good or bad. ;)
And definitely, everything that has happened has shaped me to what i am today.
From Npcc, Passing-Out-Parade that has made my squad wayyyy united! Indeed i love them very much and none can replace anyone of them. They are uniquely them that fills every space perfectly thats makes up a more than a billion words picture.
And most of all i would like to thank every friend and enemies for existing in my life. No friend, my life would be lonely. No enemy, my life wouldnt be so exciting. ~~(I am someone who finds amusement in pissing people off, so if you layan me, you have just amused me...teehee)~~
Especially my friends who have been with me all along through thick and thin. Faced with many challenges, but still we hold on tight and stayed together. Like a never-ending journey, we didnt know which path would lead us to where but we have never lost each other. And most importantly, THANK YOU for tolerating my nonsense all these years, understanding me and being with me! And i could continue bragging about you guys, but it still wouldnt be enough for me to say how thankful i am to God for creating my destiny that involves you people! :))

I have forgive and i have forget.
2010 is a new scrapbook for me to scribble on! Yeahhh!!!

Tomorrow last day of work. I wanna cry. 8'(

28/12/09-30/12/09 >>> SQUAD CHALET! :)

2009-12-30T14:34:00.000+08:00

Hiding in Downtown East Costa Sands... for 3 days! :)
With my lovely squad mates. :))
I love them luhh!!

28/12/09
First day check in, faced some problems.
We needed someone who was 18 yrs and above to help us sign in.
An unexpected aid came, very lucky of us, it so happens that Peter the Head councillor was also having chalet there so he was kind enough to help us sign in. And he is 18.
Damn thankful to him lorr!! Thanks eyh bro!
So into the room. Throw everything into one corner and watch TV.
Haha :)
Then i cant remember exactly what we did.
After a few hours, we went to find FOOD!! VERY HUNGRY!!
KFC...sian...but nevermind larhs...
Went to find a gift for the Gift-Xchange session!
Unfortunately, Xiang Yi, Priya, and before that Khalid and Soon Lam went home. :(
Gift-Xchange session was postponed to the next day.
Went back to the room.
Booked 11.30pm tickets for Avatar...
It ended around 2am plus.
After which we went back to the room again to watch Pirated New Moon.
I swear the quality damn shit (what do you expect? pirated sia.)
Almost the whole show, people were complaining about the lousy and plus totally irrelevant subtitles and the only thing we could see was all black screen. ;)
Haha :)
That ended around 4am.
Some others played Taiti the whole night/morning
The boys was super noisy.
Then everyone tired already... Sleeping time.
But the guys keep slamming each other.
We get to bed at 4 but we can only sleep until it was 5am.
Super funny sia the guys!
Keep laughing and shouting siott.
And some random stuffs.
A totally MAD night!
Everybody siao already...
Even then after 5am some still cannot sleep.

29/12/09
Second day... woke up at 7am. Seriously cannot sleep.
Toss and turn, toss and turn.
Suddenly got people open the fridge, drink water and look for food. ''_''
And then around 10 am i went home.
Bought school books at Bowen and disturbed the Sec 3 PDS training.
Hehe ;)
Damn tired.
Then went back to chalet.
In the bus, sleeping.
Oyeah, saw Hariz and Khalid a couple of times.
Outside school and at the bus Interchange. @.@
I think they were stalking me... haha... perasan sakk...bahaha :0
Reached chalet... Hoohaah hoohaah again.
Gift-Xchange!!
Jon Lim got my elmo and i got Nabil's Cadbury Chocolate. :)
Im not a fan of chocolates larh... But nevermind larh, its the thought that counts. :)
And Nabil got a pillow from Dou Heng! Cute sakk.
Haha
Then the guys went swimming.
BBQ nite.
Amira came! woohoo! Long time never see her seyhh.
BBQ lasted for quite some time.
Food! Food! Food! Food!
By 10pm, people started to head home.
After cleaning up, we had a personal talking session. :)
Talked about BGR and Npcc! Relive all the memories. :))
Fabulous!
Slept at 4am again...

30/12/09
Home Sweet Home Not!
Dont feel like going home.
Want to stay longer seyhh.
Check Out and went to Hougang Mall eat at MacD.
Everyone was so zombied.
Too tired...

One Hell oF a Rideeeee!!!

2009-12-27T18:32:00.000+08:00

yoohoo people!!

Just got back from a cool ride @ Pulau Ubin with Fam.
We went on a more rougher route.
We had to overcome steep slopes, muddy and rocky terrain.
How unlucky i was, i got a heavy bike. I dont know how or why. But it is a real challenge for me. It takes out a lot of my energy.
But hell, i may look like those unactive people, but looks are deceiving, im sporty alright.
Come on, i may look like some simple ordinary chic, but who knows i have commanded a squad??
So back to the story, woke up in the morning depart for Pulau Ubin, rent a bike and then off to campsites.
I love it when you cycle down hill, at high speed, bends and all the stuffs.
And i overcomed my high speed-steep slope fear.
Im so in it again now.
Wanna do it, do it, again again!!
We even cycled to Npcc Camp Resilience.
Then it started to drizzle, but who cares?? We just continued.
It lasted for almost 3 hours before we returned the bike and then went to Changi Village for our lunch.
Back in the car, 3 of us dozed off.
teehee :)

Today Rocks! I hope tomorrow will too! :)
Tomorrow is SQUAD CHALET. Woohoo. And most importantly, my pay will be in.
I need the munneh!!

Short blog post, i suppose!!

2009-12-25T21:11:00.001+08:00

Greattt!!!
And its Merry Christmas!!
Work was as per normal, not much of a very long queue. expecting it actually.
Did cashiering for 1 and a half hours and then the rest of the day, we were doing packing.
Cool or whatt??
I only made a sales of about $300+
Usually it would be almost $9 000...and sometimes more than that.
Released from work early today... 2 hours early i tell you. Out intentions of collecting more pay, crushed!!

BUSTED. 

Received gifts from Mira and Hamidah!!
And then candy canes, chocolates and a keychain. I liikee!!!

Anyways, met up with Rosma during/after work.
Then all the five of us, went to our favourite spot at Hougang Mall.
Slacked there!!
Talk talk and laugh laugh like mad people.
Then got this security guard, very funny and very very talkative. But he is cool. I mean, he was trying to advise us... sort of...
Neyh...i dont know how to describe that part.
Cool day yeahh!!
Had fun with my buddies!! Yeah, you guys rock! Love you guys!!
Time is too short, so i will say it now before its too late.
You guys, make my life a whole lot Brighter and definitely Interesting!!
I'm referring to ALL OF YOU, that has made a great impact in my life! And i thank all of you for that!

And im reading Being A Happy Teen!! Its very interesting. Laughing to myself.
Good for people, who always feel miserable or facing a never-ending problems.

And to those who think that their parents dont give a damn or dont care for them and to those who is so fucking rude to their parents. For God's sake, if you want people to understand you, why dont you try to understand people?! Remember that your parents are also humans and no humans are perfect. SO dont expect them to be perfect in taking care of your ass! I just fucking hate it, when someone just post on their blog (telling the whole world) talking about how much they hate their parents and bla bla about parents not understanding them. Its just fucking annoying! I know that its your damn fucking blog and you have every right to write about anything you like to. But please, give your parents and yourself some respect. Do you realise how people think of you when you write bad stuffs about your parents on your blog?? Its such a pain in the NECK! Just remember where you came from. You were a product of your Dad's sperm and your Mom's egg. Got That? If you hate them, you hate yourself. If you have something to complain about your parents, please dont do it on your blog, do it somewhere else as long as its out of bounds to public. Geeshhh!
And if you got a problem with this paragraph of mine. I wont mind debating. ;) bring it on.

Eye Drops

2009-12-24T14:13:00.000+08:00

Yeehoo people!!

Wondering why im blogging at this time?? haha
I skipped work sio!!
Tsk tsk tsk.
Anyway i got my reasons ohkay?!!
I was sick and my eyes were creating a huge problem.
Went to Polyclinic, get it checked. Waited for so long, only to get Eye Mo!! wasted sia. But at least get MC. hehehex
Tomorrow, is Christmas!!
Preparing mentally, for havoc tomorrow!! hahax
mampus ko Hy!!

Faaaannnntaaasssstttiiicc!!!

2009-12-23T20:28:00.000+08:00

hey people!!
Hhaha, had a fantastic day today.
Work was alrights...
Though i wasnt feeling well.
Carrefour was damn packed lah. Customers kept coming and coming and you just couldnt get the space to breathe.
Haiiishh...
Then after break, i told my supervisor that i wasnt feeling well and to just let me do some packing.
A lot of people told me to go home, but heyyy, i survived the day mann!
Yeapps...cool cool cool.
They sent me to Atrium, the wine fare thingy... Alamak!! See a lot of wines!! I wonder how they taste like.... ooppss.

I makan sup tulang!!!! Yummyy!! :)
Im so full!!! :P

Heart Ache

2009-12-22T15:27:00.001+08:00

What's this pounding in my chest? Why do these tears keep flowing down my cheeks? My heart throbs in pain with the realization of just how much I care for you, my sobs remain within me, though the hurt I experience is too much to keep sealed. You done it again, done it to me, added another deep, painful memory to my collection. You healed my recent scars and mended my broken spirit, made me believe that I could love once again, then tossed me aside without a care. The promises you made were but more lies, the smile that plays upon your lips hide the way you truly think of me, the glimmer in your eyes must be created by the exhilaration you get while you watch me fall easily into your well-planned trap.

Who do you think you are? To take my heart, offer me more than anything I ever asked for, and then rip it all away without a warning. You say you care, that you don't mean to and don't want to hurt me, yet it's all you've done since I expressed my feelings. Your cruelty has taken over, and you now see how weak I have become. You take advantage of the fact that I trust you so easily, plotting every scheme you can think of the night before you take action. Then, with more confidence than a grown, proud man, you pounce on me when I'm oblivious. I handed you my heart and soul, I allowed myself to be the true me, and you shredded every ounce of trust I had for you.

You do these things which add gashes to my heart, you say these words which drains every thought of love I had. You do and say these things... I can't trust you anymore, I know you'll just hurt me again... Yet, even as my heart cries out in anguish, I continue to feel that unwanted love for you... With a heart-ache and a heart break, with tears staining my face, I still love you.

Half Day- Im Barney-ing!!

2009-12-22T13:36:00.000+08:00

Hola people!!
Im bored...
Just finished watching tv. Damn, so boring. Listen to music, watched Oprah Winfrey, Hi-5 and Barney.
Haiiishh...
Mum said, if bored then clean the house. I said sian!! I dont want do house chores lah.

Wahh seyh, Mohan today last day at work... Sad lah pantart!!! He is so funny lah, if no more him, then work is superly boring!!
Aiyayayah, no more interest to work lah.
Yesterday, carrefour called asking whether i can work today... I said NO. Sian...
Now im waiting for 5pm, then get ready to pick up sister from the airport.

Barney! Barney! Purple Dick!!

Somebody, anybody? Entertain me!!

My Big Girl!!

2009-12-21T22:15:00.000+08:00

RavenEden On DragonAdopters

Cycling!!

2009-12-21T21:12:00.000+08:00

Woohoo!! Had a super great day today with besties Rosma, Priya and Xiang Yi.
Eventhough its only the four of us, it was reeealllyyy FUUUUNNN!!

Yeah... from Bowen to Hougang Mall to get ourselves some snacks and then to Pasir Ris.
There were a lot of empty unoccupied BBQ pits, but we chose to sit on the "rock"/ breakwater. The wind was supppperrr strong!! Mad-women hair!!
And so we munch on our snacks while enjoying the scenery. Avoiding to look at the lower part (not really nice, got rubbish), the upper part was more interesting. You could see the like duhh, sea, ships and the opposite island... ;)
Then it started to drizzle, so we pack up and migrated.
Walked under the rain.
Walked all the way to the Bicycle Rental Kiosk.
Paid $5 for 2 hours. Not bad actually considering that the bike looks super Not Rusty!
And so this 4 *planless girls, cycled from one end to another.
*Planless because when we went there we didnt really have any plans.
We just do whatever we felt like doing. :)
In the end, Xiang Yi and Rosma never swam.

After returning the bicycle, we took the bus to the Interchange and walked to White Sands. Hungry...but dont know what to eat. I guess everyone is now just so sick of fast foods. Sat at MacD, trying to find an idea of what to eat.Half-hearted to eat at MacD. It took us some time before we decided to just go and buy something and EAT IT! I think i hate Mc Spicy. :[

After that, walked around and bused home.

~

I am one who believes that Love Can Be Nurtured. Nurtured Love Got Hurt.
And that only time can heal the wounds.
21 days has past.
I still need time to heal.
I feel sick!
9 more days! Thats all i have.
I have got to Stand Up.
Got to move on!
You are never coming back anyway.

~

For the past hour that i have been blogging.
I have been pinching my nose...
I really cant stand the smell.
Because somebody in the room has been farting like a Farting Machine/ Mad Cow!
And the stink fills the whole room!
I feel intoxicated!!
The contaminated air makes it so hard to breathe in Oxygen!
And that somebody refuse to fart somewhere else.
My gooosssshhh!!
I had to wait for 20 seconds before i can really get Fresh Air!!!!

2009-12-20T21:41:00.000+08:00

And yea...my prepaid low Again...
I cant reply, so i will just say this.
To those who is going cycling tomorrow, meet at Bowen at 10.00am since you guys requested that.
I have not decide on the venue, so that one will be an open decision. We will decide when we meet okay?

And for those looking for jobs. There is vacancy at Vivo's Timezone as informed by my friend. So if you are interested, go there to find out more. :)

Avatar

2009-12-20T21:34:00.000+08:00

Im back!!! Back from watching AVATAR!!!!!!!!!!

I think its super gerekkk!!!
Love the movie mannn!!
Extra-ordinary graphic effects. Great sound effects. The whole movie was Magnificent!!
They let the audience be immersed with the characters.
At some point of time, you feel anger and then you feel like there is still hope.
And sometimes you just wished you could be living in that kind of place. How not??
Trees and flowers that lights up at night. Opportunity to ride on a "dragon" but known as banshees... You and an animal, special bonding. You get to control an animal. To be part of the people, the Omanicaya, a Navi. And so much more.
If life was like that, it will be super interesting.
And then my last sentence would be, I HATE GREEDY PEOPLE <> WHO DESTROYS LIFE FOR MONEY! Its like Blood Diamond.

And i had Black Pepper Chicken. It's spicy. I mean thats the whole purpose, but yeah, its spicy and its chicken. Im getting sick of KFC.
Had a Great day!

Shooosh!!! Im reading

2009-12-20T11:20:00.001+08:00

"Into the hands of every individual is given a marvelous power for good or evil-the silent, unconcious, unseen influence of his life. This is simply the constant radiation of what man really is, not what he pretends to be." -William George Jordan

Okay yeaps, im reading like finally during the holidays!! bahaxx

The 7 Habits Of Highly Effective People.
Powerful Lessons in Personal Change.

Its a cool book, though for people like me who have tendencies to left a book half-read, i will try to complete it. Because i find it useful and i think i want to practice them.

And the quote above, meaningful right??
I will come up with more, whenever there is in the book. :)

One thing

2009-12-19T21:06:00.000+08:00

When i said, i was going to give my 120% attention on studies. No boys!! Just studies and Npcc.
Actually a little bit of boys would be fun. :)
I just need to know my limit. teehee
Thats all.

I love the people!

2009-12-19T19:38:00.000+08:00

I have been thinking. And this thinking saddens me.
I have to resign soon, and i am so gooooiiiinnnngggg to miss my newly-made friends. They are a bunch of awesome people! And i am lucky enough to have them and to be surrounded by friendly people like them especially when it is my first workplace!
Nevertheless, i still have to think about my studies. Its TOP in the List!

They make working a great experience.
When scanning items bores you over time, its the people that drives you to work.
When you are sad because of a customer, they are there to tell you "eyh chill ah! ..."

2nd January isnt far.
I want to make my time here a fruitful one.
And yes, i think after 'O's i want to come back and work, but that depends who still works there.
And yeah, i love my job!

Work today was super hectic.
The queue was super long.
And people dont just buy 2-3 items, they buy a full-trolley of items.
I was doing B2. Where delievery is more often made.
And my hand still pain larh seyh!!
Why do they make me suffer??
Carried a lot of heavy items. Cartons of can drinks, dozens of wine bottles, dozen pints of milk and the list goes on. It was super tiring. But lucky me, i have people helping me to carry all the heavy items, some customers even offered to help (i love these kind of customers). 8)
And yeah, time flies fast when you are busy.

~

And yes people, next week i will be busy.
From Monday to Saturday.
So if you intend to ask me out, please consider Sunday.
Monday> Going cycling
Tuesday> She's coming back!
Wednesday> Work
Thursday> Work
Friday> Hey its Christmas!! Work
Saturday> Work
Sunday> Free.

Book me early or else i will be somewhere else with someone else.

Heat Blast smokes??
... :(
He still is cute, but neyh nevermind, since my friend also likes him, i might as well just give way.
And please eyh, i give way, but please dont be too over emotional, its so dramatic. jangan nanti, resign dia cut lagi... macam case Lutfi. Selenger! ;)

Results are Out!!

2009-12-18T22:11:00.003+08:00

Foohhhh!!!

You know what? I think im quite lucky. First, i didnt get punished for my negligence at work or maybe not yet. Second, my results turns out great!!
I liiiikkkeeee.... ;)

Hehe... Super fun day!!
Was working in the morning. And then had to rushed to school. Its a weird feeling when you change from your work uniform to your school uniform. Its like work-girl to school-girl transformation. teehee :)

And yeah, finally after the what-seem-to-be-hours speech by Principal and Vice-Principal results are finally announced.
And i must say, im proud of myself and it was really unexpected. I thought i really did badly but then they always say, expect the unexpected. :)
And in total i scored 11 credits, 3 points away from the unexpected top student. Not bad at all!!
And the best thing is, all my best friends managed to get promoted too! Yippie!!
Rosma and Shahira really gave me a suspense larh. They cried...then at that time i was the first to get my results, waiting for theirs and i was like, what the hell happened, is it good news or bad news??
I was totally speechless when i got my results. The teachers was asking, "So do you want to continue to Sec 5 or opt for Higher Nitec?" and i answered, "I dont know!!, I havent decide yet..."

And i really Thank God, Alhamdulillah!!
And as promised, i will be a good girl!!
Im soooo going to give my 120% attention to my studies! No boys!! Just Studies and Npcc.
I want to give myself the very best. 8)
Cooool!!!

AndAnd by the way, i saw that Boy today!!
Tsk tsk tsk, saw him outside school gate, with dyed hair and trying to spray black. Yo!! It doesnt work lah. (he got caught anyways)
And yeah, i really dont need that arrogant and egoistic look. A simple Hi and Bye would really do you good. Come on, dont you think you owe me an APOLOGY!?? Redeem yourself lah dude!!
I was being nice when i smiled at you owkay!!
And arent you like going to ask me "How am i?" or "How was your results??"
geesshh!!
And girls!! These kind of guys, they aint worth your time. They are just simply a 4-letter-word that begins with the alphabet 'J'. But then im being too nice to call you this, some people would have encouraged me to say something more worse and more vulgar. But lucky you, i dont usually curse people that much or at least i always try to limit myself the degree of my vulgar languages.
And i shall declare that liking you in the first place was a HUGE Mistake. Thus, i WILL bury this Chapter of My Life here! With a thumb-size Full-Stop! And i dont think there is a need for your apology anyway, you dont seem to have the grief in you. And i totally understand why you cant even make an eye-contact when i persistently tried to and you just avoid it. Literally, you are a Loser! My mum, my dad, my brothers and sisters wanted You to know that.
And i dont think so that you may be reading this. 89% unlikely.
But i hope that maybe some of your friends might come by and stumble upon this and perhaps would help me to pass this message to you.
Things like this go around very fast. It wont be a problem.
You Suck Big Time. Muahahaxx
I would really like to pass this message to you directly. And i tried but i realised that i NO Longer have your number. So yeapps. :) And i almost forgot, Congratulations for your results. :)

And yeah...enough of that boy and lets just continue with a fresh paragraph.
So! After our results and i would like to take this opportunity to really thank Priya and Xiang Yi for coming down to meet us, really appreciate it. Thank You very much!! :)
Oyeah, after our results went to eat at MacD, then we went to AMK to catch a movie. And how lousy, its was fully booked. So we had yoghurt and walked around. I hate walking around, i had enough of walking around at carrefour, helping customers to look for items. Then we headed for Hougang Mall, there is no place called home-Hougang. Went to arcade, i dont know how much they spent on arcades, okay!! This is why, my mother never encourage going to arcades, they are so addictive, LAN games too!! And i only contributed $1. They got pissed off. But then after that, treat them bubble tea since their pockets are all burnt thanks to arcade! ;0
Hmmm...Speaking of LAN-games i kind of miss going to NetForce Games with brothers,we used to go there and have a Need For Speed challenge. haiishh

And this is not gossip, its the fact. When you have evil plans up your sleeves with the desire to see someone fail, your plan just backfires and instead you are the one who failed! And i will say, Booyah!! Serves you right and face-flat!!

And i love my carrefour friends!! They are so funneh!!
And thanks Syamirul, i learnt a new short phrase from you, "Beautiful Tragedy", i think its really cool. And i liiikkkkeee...
Heat Blast!! My Ben-10!!
Shoooshhh...
And did i mention? I saw Mrs Samuel, my P6 teacher at carrefour last week?
I miss her so very much!
She was my most favourite fierce teacher ever!! She retired last year by the way.

Bleargh!

2009-12-17T20:05:00.001+08:00

Hello people!!

Last night forgot to charge my battery then this morning, battery flat. Just now, on my phone already got 14 messages... Alamak!! haha
Paiseyh, sorry never reply your messages.

Tomorrow, taking results... scared seyh...nervous like mad!! @.+
Even then tomorrow morning must work from 10-1pm... *****
Only got 1 hour from work to school. And better still need bring uniform to work. Leyceyh larh seyh!

Anyway Goodluck to those taking their results tomorrow. :)

Andand, nothing happened at work... I wonder what happened to my "punishment"
And this one sucks, my favourite first manager is going to leave soon. Really love her mann!! She's the coolest!!
And im wondering what to get for christmas gift exchange, and most importantly,to who shall i give??

Came to work, with a bandage around my wrist and people thought i hurt myself. =.=
How many times must i say??
And there is this salesperson, who approached me to talk about credit cards, mygawd!
Why some people just cant accept it when people say no? example: me!
I am like offering you a free drink and food and you said no!? Nevermind, next time i wont offer you anything. Im fed up of being "rejected". Ya' know!

Pwned!

2009-12-15T18:40:00.001+08:00

Pwned!

I LOVE this videoh!!
Haha, i was laughing my ass...
You should watch more of their video, whenever you are bored. teehee :)

And yeah, i just changed my blogskin.
Time for a change.
Still i will stick to my favourite colours. teehee :)

Face Off

2009-12-15T13:27:00.002+08:00

Somehow, i dont look forward to work tomorrow and i think the only solution to that is to totally forget that i had problems at work. Then act like im surprised upon hearing it. hahas, like that would work, but most importantly, is to settle the problem as soon as possible and not have it interrupting my sanity.

And yeapps, i am looking forward and not looking forward to results this Friday.
First things first, i dont know what they have in store for me in that certificate.
But i really want to know what my fate is.
Next, there is possibility that i will see that guy.

And i dont know how i should react to that.
Should i pretend like i never see him??
Should i give him a pissed off face?
Or should i just smile?

But one thing i am hoping for from this short meet-up is me learning to let go, including forgiving him and letting the whole past rest in peace.
Because i will admit, that few weeks has past and yet i still havent accept the fact.
And i am hoping that after that, i can just drift away from the past and sail out into the open sea.
Its going to be hard, but it doesnt mean that it cannot be done, either way for my own sake, i will still have to do it. Its a do or die.

Spent my morning, doing the laundry and clearing my wardrobe which almost looks like rubbish storage center. haha... i keep chunking in everything inside the wardrobe. The "chunking and next time i will fold it up" attitude. This is the case of, i took out a shirt but decided not to wear it and dump it back inside. :) teehee

Last night was FUN sleeping alone. But i had the door slightly open. But in the morning when i woke up, it was wider and i saw a figure beside me... My mom was looking for something in my sis's wardrobe lahhh. Where is the knock before you enter culture?? But then again, she is my mom...Sweeeet...

And right now, there is only me and my brother at home and we have no idea what to eat. And it has been quite sometime since we ate Maggi... Maggi, menu of the day...

I Love My New Boyfriend!!

2009-12-14T23:00:00.001+08:00

Yeahh!!! His name is Mikhail!! Yeahh!!!
haha!! Its super cool and i love it so much!! Yupp its an IT, my phone lah!!
I decided to call it Mikhail!! And my new boyfriend.
haha... I sound so retarded. haiish, signs that i am super bored!!

This one is specifically for someone: Dear, my life is so boring without you, but baby had wished that your life would have sucked MORE!! Bluueekk!! hate you hate you hate you!

Okay, back to where we stopped from the previous post.
So i met them at YCK pri at 1pm or rather 1:12pm, i was late for 12 minutes. Not bad actually!! Here comes the part where i WILL COMPLAIN!! Back then i was complaining why we had to meet there, and now there is a very good reason why i should be MAD at that idea too!! First, the weather is freaking hot, next from my house to YCK, its quite a distance, and then found out that the very place that we are heading to is Hougang Plaza, which is beside Hougang Mall!! I could have took bus 72 to Hougang Interchange goddammit! Make me walk all the way, for NOTHING! Phiishh!

So reached there, went to the place, but it was fully booked and we had to wait. And keeping in mind that we dont know how to play pool, we decided to change our plan to Bowling at Kovan, and then upon reaching Hougang NEL, we decided, No, we dont want to go Bowling, instead we went to Dhoby Ghaut...visited Carrefour to meet Huda, Fareez and Khalid and some other colleagues. Bought chocolates and then we continued our journey to Marina Bay...thought of taking the Free shuttle service but then since bus 400 came first, we took that one instead... Reached there, first it felt like as if we are walking in Great Wall of China...bahahxx, so we mess around there, had ice-cream and walked around like nobody's business... Sat for hours and watched the sea and some mat sallehs...hoohoo then continued walking... Toured the exhibition and snap a few photos.
Continued out crap-talking and then off we go to the sky park.

On the way home, saw a lot of Bangladeshis...and plus the place was so dusty... You can get sore-eyes by just walking there. haiish...

Then trained back to Hougang, went to Hougang Mall again for a meal at KFC.

Then i meet Mom, Dad and Bro @ NTUC FAIRPRICE to shop for groceries, but most of the time i was Missing In Action, got separated a lot of times. bahahx, if at Carrefour, i would have took some time before i finally found them.

kkay kayy kaay... had a lot of fun today with my boyfriend. :)

Priya, cheer up okay!!!
Wei Wei, get something to do!, Get a life. I pity you sia, got absolutely nothing to do.
Rosma, i love your new blog skin.
Huda, you are good!!
Shahira, your hands look ugly. Im not impressed. I hope you will be happy with the scars that it left. :)
Rouhui, im looking forward to chalet.
Khalid, please dont quit so early.
And everyone, please take care of yourselves.
Someone died recently... me.
Coii!! why am i cursing myself? alamakk!

They left me sleeping alone in Singapore...
Greattt!! 1st sis, is on a business trip... 2nd sis is in Vietnam, fighting mosquitos and lizard and complaining... im sleeping alone tonight. Anybody care to accompany me?? haha
Im scared...

Love my New Toy :))

2009-12-14T10:00:00.000+08:00

So hello again people!

Went to Yishun. Last night's meeting was pretty good, i think everything i piecing up great. I can picture the event larh seyh!! I hope everything will be smooth because 9 months isnt that long after all. Ended around 10pm, reached home about 11 plus and was hungry so we called McD Delivery. Teppanyaki Burger!! My fave!!
Great or what?? MacBreakfast and MacSupper!!

My gooshh!! Results are like this Friday!! OMG!!! I am so Frightened!! Will i be killed or will i be spared?? Somehow, im thinking this week, is the week that i should be 24 hours cautious. I have to watch out for work and results. Im am so seriously going to be DEAD!
But still there are good news, found out that i will be receiving an Edusave Award, and EAGLES Award. I just hope that these are good omens. Please i beg you GOD!!! Get me to SEC 5 and i promise i will be a GOOD GIRL for the Year 2010!!
(innocent face :))

Speaking of my new toy...
Im busy trying to transfer all my music (a must) and pictures..

Meeting people at 1pm at Yio Chu Kang primary... why there?? I have to walk long distance tauuuu!!! Playing Pool?? I dont have any idea of how to play that...

I so L.O.V.E. Today!!! :)

2009-12-13T18:32:00.001+08:00

OMG!!! I love today very very very very much!!! And I Love Him too!!!!! (Him refers to my Dad)
I am so bloody damn happy and excited!!! My gossh!!!

See!!! Good things still turn up even when you are in trouble.
And i realise that, even when things go bad, there are still good ones to look forward to. Phehehe :)

And with everything that is going on, i forgot that today is Sunday.

Hehs, went shopping @ Tampines Mall with family...Mom, Dad, Bros, 1st Sis and Future Bro-in-law...
Guess what i bought for myself???
I got a new handphone!!! Fuuyoo!!!
My dad, paid it for me but i still have to pay him back...
This is what i call, get the item first and pay later. :))
I got an LG GT505.
Even though i had wanted the GM730, this one isnt that bad either. In fact, i got it at a good price since it was on a promotion. Greattttt!!!
And then, mom and i got ourselves a pair of Levi's jeans. Cooooooool!!!
Then we went to look for a wallet for myself. I needed a new one. :)
And mom got herself a bag too!
Then next we went to eat at a food court @ Century Square, ate yong tau foo/fu.
After eating, went to the Atrium of Century Square, bought a bottle of Adidas perfume and some other stuffs.
Today is just my day.
Love it mann!!!
This is just the perfect time for everyone to go on a shopping spree...
They have sales everywhere.
Gerrreekkann??!!

Shahira, jangan jealous eyh, i got my phone first!! Bleahhxx ;)

And i have to go now... Following 1st sis visit the catering service for her wedding preparations...
Ciao!!

Love you people!!

My life at stake

2009-12-12T21:49:00.001+08:00

Hey yo whats up people?!!

Really, i miss you people. Frankly, i dont know who i am exactly referring to.
Neyahhahax

Honestly right, i am scared to go to work next week...Because i am in a big big double triple in trouble. Shucks!!! Lousy seyh. This week i am so bad-lucked. Stupid machine breakdown, i still have to pay, and due to my own negligence, maybe i still have to pay. And my life is at stake, and its in the mercy of my boss!!Please i beg you, spare me!!! (Praying like mad) (wont be able to sleep tonight)
Haiish, sian.

Thenthen today early in the morning, at work, bored so i thought to myself, that maybe i should just give another chance, chance for what(?)i dont know...dont ask me, those who know, good for you, those who dont know you can play assumptions with yourself then. But then ahh, during break, talked with my girlfriend Shahira and found out that the guy that i like turns out to be a Bastard also. haiyahh... Sian... Then must find a replacement as said by Shahira. She asked me to find another one. LOL, she make it sound so easy...hhmmm
And i just want to complain here, Am i like magnetic to Jerks and Basses?? Why is it that guys that i like are always somewhat a nonsense?? bleaargghh. Phhuiii!!!
After hearing the story, i was thinking(W)was better... haiishh

And today,not only I receive a bad news, Shahira did too. We found out that the guy that she likes is resigning... And today was like his last day working with Shahira... Tomorrow will be his last day. I know how she feels. Its a heart pain, after all he was the one who helped her heal her wounded heart. At least he was the one who kept her alive, lifted her spirits, gave her the reason to hold on. And i bet when she reads this, she will be so touched that in the next few seconds tears are rolling down her cheeks. And i will say girlfriend, its okay we are in the same boat. :)
I feel sad too...Haiiish...why must he resign so early. School havent started yet larh!!
By the way, girlfriend i am MAD at YOU! BODDOHH!!! Why the hell did you cut yourself??
And please larh, when you cut, please cut nicely, at least make it look like a barcode and not some UGLY lines everywhere. Geesshhh!! You need some lessons on that. Use proper materials to do so.
Tips before you start to do it: The PUD Method!!!
1)Prepare wet tissues
2)Use a clean pen-knife and not some dumb compasses or whatever you call it.
3)Decide on how many slashes you want to make, how long and how deep.. kkay kayy??
And by the way, relax suaa, i dont play with pen-knifes already!! Blueeks. I cut NO MORE!! I promised with (W), so i shall keep it.
You see, when i make promises with someone i trust, i keep it and not suddenly change my mind and then just walk off. Bleaahh...

And i replied to all of your tags. And thank you guys for making my blog lively when i am not around. And when i am dead, please continue to do so. Because i am soOo going to be DEAD;work problem... shITT!!! Im scared... @.@

Blogger creating problem again.
Shoots, imissyou.
Why am i still thinking of you?

Thats not my name.... :(

2009-12-11T21:42:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey... posting here...
Eventhough tomorrow must wake up early in the morning... as early as 5am...haiish... working...
But looking forward to it though. :))

So its 2nd sis's 3rd day in Vietnam, hints are telling me that she is burning ass there...
Anyways, sis enjoy your day, cos everynight im enjoying the space, the whole queen size bed all to myself.

Hmmm.... Huda and Fareez joined the Carrefour family too!!!
And guess who is their trainers...?? Its none other than me and Shahira. S U R P R I S E!
My jaw-dropped at first when they asked me to train Fareez...like i just started not a month ago (hello!!!). But good lah like that, means they trust me/us. :))
But everything went fine though. Except that i lost $19, and they wrote my name on that list, now everybody knows me. But that lost, wasnt my fault, its that damn machine that hanged, okay if you dont get what i mean: machine suddenly shut off!! And they didnt do any post void. Bloody hell!
At least im not the worst on that list. haiyah!!!

Randomly: I prefer my name to be spelt and pronounced as Hyriah, not KHAIriah (with the strong emphasis on Khai, those are only appropriate when you call a guy's name like KHAIril, KHAIrul... get it??), its a silent K, you get me (??), and NO its not Khairah, nope not Kahirah, and definitely not Shahirah by the way its spelt Shahira. Please!! I rather be called Khai, though i hate it. Just call me Hy, if you have difficulties pronouncing my name. They call me Khai, they call me Khairah, they call me Kahirah, but thats NOT MY NAME!! THAT'S NOT MY NAME.

Im thinking of working on Mondays too!!

Note: I know i kind of make it sound like i like that guy and stuffs... i mean his cool and all. But, there is just something that is pulling me back, and im not sure either if its the right thing to do. And you guys are excited for me, and for yourself that im finally or am trying to move on, but please do me a favour, pull me back. Dont support the idea. I said NO for many of a reasons at which i am not sure of myself yet... pathetically...but yeahh, just stop me from feeling it "IT". I dont want to get involved with this things again, partly the reason why i am denying that i like that guy. Liking only is already a sin for me. But i will admit, he does make me melt...when he smiles.
I mean he is irresistable. That is why i find it very irritating!!! I cannot resist him.
If i can resist other people, why cant i resist him??? Irritating larh seyh! Even when i am typing this, im smiling to myself, cos i remembered his face.
But still...no way!!
I cant bring myself to that anymore.
Cant find that bad girl in me anymore.
Arrghh!! Can somebody help me?? Get me out of here.

She's going off...

2009-12-08T18:18:00.000+08:00

Hehs...
I have decided to change my mind and continue my post...
Priya, if you are feeling empty, im feeling empty too.
Much more emptier.
So we both are going to keep telling each other to Cheer Up.

haiish...
Tomorrow...work... sian liao...Because this time round tomorrow im going to be bombarded by Khalid with his never ending questions...80% is going to be stupid questions... Like can bring bag or not?? huh huh huh??
And Khalid, Good Job.
See!! I told you so... you will have fun.
Make more friends and you are going to have more fun.

My back still aching seyh...
haiiyayyaya...
Today, nothing much happened.
Stayed at home most of the time.
2nd sis last minute fell sick.
She's flying off to Vietnam tomorrow morning.
Will be there for TWO weeks.
Sian... nobody to touch at night. sounds wrong...but yeah... going to miss her i guess...eventhough i know she wont miss me... that sucker!!! bahahax

I miss you too Priya!!
I miss my squadmates!!

~

2009-12-07T19:03:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a great day! Had a freaking lot of fun @ Sentosa.
I was the only girl who never swam, never bring any extra clothes, clearly a plain laziness on my part.
So all i did, was watched the sea, watch them and look after the stuffs. Did i mention?? 70% of the time, i was munching and drinking... damn full.
Hahhs...
Took a lot of photos, but yeah, none of them is with me.
Superb day!!
We had MacBreakfast and MacDinner, cool or what??!!
I can get FAT seyh... hmmm must exercise more and eat more fruits. :)

However, somewhere along the way, my mind slipped away, and so did my heart.
The day ended with tears.
And somehow, everyone in the house seem to know what had happened. I thought i hid it pretty well. But i guess the flaws was still recognisable.
Perhaps this happened because somehow your name was mentioned several times yesterday.
And everytime it was about you, i get tongue tied.
And last night, i voiced out my heart.
It got so bad that i couldnt pull myself together.
I wanted to cry it all out.
I didnt want to bury it inside anymore.
Because the pain was suffocating me.
Even with all the distractions i put myself through, you were somehow, unavoidable.
Even with all the lies i make myself believe in, you were somehow, unforgettable.
I cant...cant do it anymore.
That puzzle i made for you.
I cherished the moments when i made that for you. Still clear in my mind.
I gave you my heart. If we ever have to part. Dont forget to remember me.
And your version.
Somehow im tied to it.
But then i had to twist it a little, so i wont be bounded by it.
We never have to part, but you wanted it so its not necessary for me to remember you anyway. =)
Haiiish...
Im still not over you.
Yesterday i terribly missed you.
But now, that is forbidden.
My heart should never felt that way.
It made me weak, you made me kneal down, you made me surrender to circumstances.
When i shouldnt have.
When i should have not swallowed my pride.
I wanted to vent that anger.
Vent it on myself.
I had wanted to place a broken glass in my hands and fist it tightly.
I was so close to that last night.
Now, shall i hurt you first or directly to myself?
I remembered everything you said.
And honestly, i went from one flirtatious guy to a guy who was supposedly known to be a "loyal" guy, yeah you!! I thought it was a good idea. But i guessed, both ways, both guys burnt me alive. I dont know what the hell or which part i went wrong to deserve this fuck!!!!Its a fuck fuck fuck word!!!
I am so frail that it took me only 2 guys to tell myself, Hy, you Suck in this things, give it up!!!
Im burnt, im ruined, im gone.
I am so fucked up with myself!!
That if i continue with this post with this kind of anger. Its going to be censored!!
You make me lose control.
I couldnt find the answers to my questions.
I couldnt find the part when you could have lied.
Your eyes couldnt have lied.
It is in the eyes, i remember of someone, it is in the eyes that i understand people, it is in the eyes that allows me to trust someone.
You must have created the most beautiful lie and i must have been the perfect denier.
I understand the need to let you go, but if my heart was resisting it how could i??
Shouldnt have gave you my heart.
Yet again, my perceptions have deceived me.

Try breaking a piece of glass with your bare hands, see if that hurts.

2009-12-05T18:42:00.000+08:00

Hello hello and hello people.

Im back and im not DEAD yet..hehe
So let me see, this past few days, same, working, and i had to work overtime yesterday. Damn bloody TIRED.
My legs feel like nak mampus already.
This morning almost overslept.
Hehs, me and Shahira came a little late.
Today i had to do the POSB counter. Damn complicated sia. I was wondering why they had to asked me to do it when there is like a few old-timers who can do it, why ask a 1 month experienced girl to do??
Luckily i learned fast, but i was very very nervous!!!
Then after that, my partner had to go for her break, so left me alone down there. Sialan... haiish
But not that bad anyway, its just time-consuming. oops
Then went to break alone, because Shahira went home early. She wasnt feeling well. haiish...im alone again. phiish

Other than that, i was so pissed with Esprit, yeah i said it.
Is Singapore so big that it takes a week for my Jacket to arrive and Tampines One from dont know where Novena?? huh? huh? huh? Take so long for what sial? Its not like its from overseas import to Singapore right right right? Bodoh sial!!

Andandand, Shahira please stop teasing me with that guy... i dont like him, or maybe i do, but at any case, NO! Its a NO! No way im getting involve in this messed up affairs again.Shooh shooh shooh all those thoughts!! Stop daydreaming!! Remember, you are there to work, your mind musnt fly away to somewhere else!! But i saw him today!! :) Heartbeat a little off. But still NO!!!!!!!!!!!

Oyeah, i must say this. KHALID IS WORKING AT CARREFOUR TOO!!!
He works 6 days!!! Monday to Saturday!!
Now he has work!!
And i would LOVE to see him SUFFER the first few days!!! muahahah
I hope he gets Fancy as his trainer, she is good and naggy!! :))
And Khalid, Carrefour got a lot of pretty girls, go pick one!!! hahaxx ;)

-oh-Oh-oh, I found out that Nadu's dad is working at Carrefour too. No wonder, like familiar...but i had no idea. And i also know where she is working...haha... shall go there and eat some time. Pizza smells delicious, right Raihan??

oH-MY-gOD suddenly that guy's face pops out... no!!!!

And yeah, forgetting him was too easy.
Maybe, i didnt like him in the FIRST PLACE either!!! HAhah!
Tsk tsk tsk, He really plays dirty, but he doesnt know that i played dirtier even before he did.
Im so OVER you!!!!
And soon soon soon i think i will forgive you...
And maybe soon soon soon i wont hate you.
takes time lah. :)

Cant wait for tomorrow, im begging my dad to let me join. Daddy please!!!!!!
Im begging begging youuuuuuu!!!!

New song that i have been blasting into my ears...

Surrender By Entwine

I'm on my way
I'm on my way to lose it all
I'm a stranger to myself, I can't go on
I'm all outta space
And I'm surrounded by the wall
I believe that my mind has caught a million storms
Falling down
When you lose all that you are

I surrender
I kneal down
I surrender...
I'm outta faith
I think I'm frail design of life
Deep inside in denial
The shades have grown in silence
I hide my face
I close my eyes
Deep inside in my mind the pain has
corner around me
Falling down
When you lose all that you are

I surrender
I kneal down
I'm dying to find the reason to hold on
Call the lies! Call the lies!
I surrender...

one step at a time

2009-12-02T20:14:00.001+08:00

Hello, people...
I am tired and i am sick.
I am shivering right now. Its weirdly cold.
I know i should be resting, but even then i wont be sleeping, and if i dont sleep, means i will be staring at the empty ceiling and then this brain of mine starts thinking and thinking wont be a great idea for the next few days...
Went to work as usual, but on the way... i sort of think about something and got emotional.
So i shoo-ed those thoughts away.
Concentrated on my work.
They were gone.
Then break had to come, and i was left alone.
Got someone to text me.
And to that person, i really appreciate it.
Oyeah, and then Huda and Fareez came...
I shock siott...
I was thinking why this customer never put their items.
Then see their face, like familiar.
Then ough...its them.
I slow reaction larh seyh...
Thanks guys for the concern.
And no worries, i will be strong!!
As strong as Popeye!!
And thanks everyone for wanting to help me!!
I am really touched.
I really need you guys to distract me.
If my mind is not with my body, please please please pull my mind back. :)

And Shahira...tsk tsk tsk...
Tak habis-habis.
Good for you larh.
Happy larh sikit kan, kalau tidak asyik emo jerrr...

WoW, Khairul, that song you told me, Welcome Home by Coheed and Cambria

Is it one of the songs that you are currently playing?
Anyway... the lyrics are cool, but the words are kinda too harsh, even then, i have a very perfect person to dedicate the song too...hahah pfft...

Accidentally

2009-12-01T16:03:00.003+08:00

Hello hello people!!
Lets start off the post with happy stuffs eventhough today, 1st Dec happens to be One of my most suckiest days!!

Accidents:
Early in the morning i accidentally swallowed a whole cup of Listerine. Phuuekk!!
And then while eating half-boiled egg, i accidentally poured too much Soya Sauce and then too much pepper.
The egg turns out to be a sweet-sandy-half-boiled-egg.
Selenge of me...
But i kinda enjoy being selenge..bhahah! :)

Then went to Hougang Mall with Bro to get some stuffs...

Then 3pm had to came.
I dreaded...

It was almost as if i was expecting it to come, eventhough i had imagined the worst.

Turns out what i had feared was a reality.
After he explained, i just said i understand him.
And then he continued.
While he was talking i removed the key chain he gave to me that i was holding on to.
And i returned it to him.
I dont want to keep it anymore.

It was a heart shaped key chain given to me with his heart not into it.

He asked if i was okay?
I just said yeah im okay with it, when deep down inside it was like 9/11.
I guess the wall came tumbling down destroying the city...
I acted like as if it didnt matter to me.
All i was thinking of was, i had to get out of there as soon as possible.
Because im about to break.
I didnt want to fall right infront of him.

~~It felt as if a knife stabbed right through my heart.~~

~~And the piercing feeling was unbearable.~~

I said i was fine, i said i was okay, i said i had expected it, but i had still hoped that it wont turn out this way.

And by the way, you chose a perfect date to say all this stuffs.
I dont blame you either...

Anyway, lets not make myself sound so pathetic.
It may take a while for my heart to heal.
But at least he is OUT of my MIND!
And I just want to move on.
I just hope i could do that.
I just hope the people around me can help me with that.
I feel so hopeless now.

It was so easy for you to say all those.

Now i will just say,

I will act as if you have never existed in my life.

I will act as if i have never known you.

I will act as if it never happened.

And i dont ever want to see you again.

And waiting for you has never been part of me.

And well done, for being the first guy that i have ever hated.

I burnt my day...wwoopps

2009-11-30T22:47:00.001+08:00

Hello fellow readers!!
This is like my last blog for today...
Just felt like blogging...

Wondering what i've been doing the whole day??

Well, woke up early found out 2nd sis purposely absent herself from school, then im thinking i have to lay my hands on the laptop first before she does...
Thats why i had a blog post earlier.
Then got bored...
And Hungry...
Had Maggi...sian...
But takper...
After that Madam at home (my mum) commanded me and my 2nd sis to shop for some stuffs at the supermarket...
And so we did.
We even surveyed Jollibean and Mr Bean.
The results: Mr Bean is much more better. It has more variety, the pancake is much more mouth-watering and the drinks has a more distinct flavourings and the pearl is much more chewy.
After that, chit-chat with 2nd sis...
Mum and Dad, cooking in the kitchen.
We had Lontong Goreng and beef steak, using the beef we get from Hari Raya Haji...
Yummeh!!!
I eat like 2-3 times seyh.
Then after that...headache, went to sleep oh-no nap...
Then wake up again, 2nd sis watching CSI, after that we went to search for some movies...
My-oh-my, my short term memory is getting from bad to worse.
I cant even remember what i watched a few hours ago...mak oii!!
I only remembered wanting to watch Veronika Decides To Die, but then it lag like one hell, so we got fed up.
And then wanted to watch Peter Pan but then after only a few minutes, found it boring...
What was the first movie we watched??
I seriously cannot remember.....
Ough ough it was the Planet 51...ahhh...
My memory isnt that bad anyway...
hehe
Oyeah then after that, had my prayers with dad, mum and sis...
My butt hit the wardrobe behind.
Almost wanted to laugh sia... and actually i did, i giggled throughout the prayers...
I know...my prayers not counted, wasnt serious...
Bad girl...
Better beg for forgiveness...
Siak aje Hy...
Then after prayers...
Saw 3 missed calls on my phone.
I suppose it was him.
He gave me a fright actually... Around dusk time calling, i tried to call back but duhh, unknown number...
Reminds me of Ju-On, The Grudge and so many other Thailand and Japanese horror movie...
Imagination run wild...

And anyway...thats all from this Not-Serious Hyriah...
Byebye and have a good nite rest...Peeps!!! :))

She is Back

2009-11-30T10:03:00.001+08:00

Hey hey hey people!!!

The ROCK CHIC is back!!

For Good!

I uploaded a few rock songs that i used to listen to back then..
Mostly Linkin Park, 3 Doors Down, Lacuna Coil, 30 Seconds To Mars...
I love these Rock Bands!!
I miss being rockish and punkish.
I think i have gotten a little softer after all that has and have been happening,
Now im all about being me!
Me, Myself & I!!

I believe being rock makes me happy!! hahahh

Yesterday was funny.
Sorry to you guys...im sorry i was being fickled minded and then at last minute i didnt join you guys.
Instead i went out with my 1st sister, besides it has been quite a long time since we both hang out together or else she is always shopping with her Fiance. Haha :)y
I finally fulfilled my Frappe Cravings.
Though i would prefer Starbucks, but Mc Cafe wasnt that bad anyway.. hehehh
Besides that, we also got ourselves a couple of T-shirts from UNIQLO, Notebooks from ArtBox and Sis got herself a bag...at below $20 actually $30 was the budget then...
Had a great day with sis!!
I love shopping with her.
And i think im back to Seaweed Shaker Fries Addiction...

Going out with my younger brother later, to treat him for some Mr Bean that he have been craving for...

~
Currently suffering from dry skins on my hand and around my eye and a flu.

Lacuna Coil

2009-11-30T09:17:00.000+08:00

Entwined

And you take me over
Over again

I wonder how can I go on and on
when you want to bury my passion
You are the shell around
And I cannot escape
and I swallow my pride

Entwined together now
It's time to pass it over
(and you take me over, over again)
Entwined together now

And you take me over
Over again

I wonder
how can I live on and on
when you want to live in a hurry
You are the wall
-that I-
That I have to remove
And I swallow
I swallow my pride

Entwined together now
It's time to pass it over
Entwined together now
Entwined forever

And you take me over
Over again

Entwined together
Entwined forever

Heavens A Lie

Oh no,

here it is again
I need to know
when I will fall into decay

Something wrong
with every plan of my life
I didn't really notice that you've been here

Dolefully desired
Destiny of a lie

Set me free
your heaven's a lie
set me free with your love
set me free

(repeat 1x)

Oh no,
here it is again
I need to know
why did I choose to betray you

Something wrong
with all the plans of my life
I didn't realize that you've been here

Dolefully desired
Destiny of a lie

Set me free
your heaven's a lie
set me free with your love
set me free

Set me free your heaven's a lie
set me free with your love
set me free

Dolefully desired

Set me free
your heaven's a lie
set me free with your love
set me free

Its A Hyriah Story

2009-11-29T12:08:00.000+08:00

This is a 2 days blog post.
Be prepared.
Ehehee.

Friday:
Went to work.
And then suddenly...the security guy asked my supervisor to "kidnap" me and Shahira.
At first both of us panic. Thought we did something wrong.
But suspense only.
Actually the store director, treat us for a breakfast at McD .
haha
So 8 malay people headed for McD.
Did i mention. 2 newbie girls and 6 old-timer guys...
Haha, me and Shahira just listened to what they were talking about.
They are a very funny bunch of people.

I'm starting to love work, thanks to the people there.
Hehee
Make a whole bunch of new friends.
Boys and girls.
Shahira....ehemm...Lutfi....
Me....ehemm....Nobody.
Kesian...sedih seyh.

Saturday:
After work shop with Shahira...
Yupp got our pay, 7 days work get like $250++
Imagine 1 month pay...haha Quite a huge sum.
So i got a $70 Esprit jacket...haha finally...I dreamt of it, you know...
And a pair of jeans.
Woohoo!!!
By the way...
A lot of nicknames for me: Mak Chik, Retard, Selenge...haha
Fun aper bully aku!!! hmmph!!

Im so distracted lately that sometimes i just lost my concentration in anything that i was doing.
Its so dangerous.
Got a couple of small cuts on my hands, i was too careless.
Did i say, i almost got knocked down??
I crossed the road without looking out for cars first.
And that the speed of the car, had actually saved my life.
Pheww...

Im trying my best to not think of you.
Andand dont let me tell myself that i am independent and that i dont need you.
Cos if i manage to do that, things Will get wrong.
Cos you were once the person that make me happy everyday.
Now you are just that blurrish figure that seems to fade.
Now even my Mum realise my changes.
Now even my Dad asked about you.
Tell me what shall i tell them.
Tell me what shall i do now?
Its your call.
Im not some puppet you play with.
Say it straight to my face.
Lets get it done and over with.
Cos right now, you are not hurting me, you are killing me.

Thinking Of You

2009-11-26T19:59:00.002+08:00

The sun is going down on me
As she surrenders to the sea
So steal the night and fly with me
I'm calling, I'm calling

The moon is high on me and you
Is my message breaking through
Darkened skies that once were blue are falling
So hear me now

Calling out your name
Burning on the flame
Play the waiting game
Hear my calling, hear my calling

Forever and ever

Through distant lands, through mountain streams
My river's running through your dreams
There's an ocean in between
Forever and ever

Chasing shadows through the years
I whisper softly to my dear
Be sure to know that I am here
Forever

So hear me now

Calling out your name
Burning on the flame
Play the waiting game
Hear my calling, hear my calling

Whispers in the air
Hear a lover's prayer
I can feel you there
Hear my calling, hear my calling

No man is an island
That's an empty sin
Discovery is a journey
Just have to let me in

Calling out your name
Burning on the flame
Played the waiting game

Calling out your name
Burning on the flame
Play the waiting game
Hear my calling, hear my calling

Whispers in the air
Hear a lover's prayer
I can feel you there
Hear my calling, hear my calling

No man is an island
That's an empty sin
So steal the night and fly with me
I'm calling, hear my calling
~
I find today, weird.
Just weird.
Good day anyway. And no complaints from me. :)
Work was fine.
Tired
I saw you people, stealing glimpses of me.
And i find it kinda funny.
Mean of you to laugh at my blurness...

Selamat Hari Raya Haji To All Muslims!
...
How i wish i could attend Hari Raya Haji Prayers at Mosque tomorrow.
But sadly i'm working...
Sigh...
Sad that i have to miss it.
Listening to takbir now, solemn.

XOXO

JustMeHyriah

If I am crazy then You are Blind Bluekk!!

2009-11-25T19:05:00.002+08:00

Hello

Am here to post...like duhh

Released quite early from work today.

So happy!!

This morning started work feeling hyper.

Greeted all the customers and it went smooth...except for some "not my fault" problems.

Customer last minute want to cancel item. So lecehh...

Honestly, i hate calling for supervisor's help, but what to do?...

And yeahh...again today... i got f***ed up with customers...

Early in the morning, got scolded "Crazy" for no f***ing valid reason.

Is it my problem that your eyes got problem?? Next time see properly can??

One advice for customers, read the price tag carefully before arguing as if you are right and i am wrong.

Customers are always right my FOOT!! That quote is just for the sake of being polite, okayy!!

And so, while checking the price for the customer, i took the chance to calm myself.

Sialan sia.

Curse the person all the way, reach counter never even look at his face.

But after all that happened, i heck care him and continued my work happily.

bahahax

And again, my prepaid Zer0...

Insya-Allah i will top up my card for Important communication purposes.

This time, if for the sake of asking me what am i doing or whatsoever, dont expect me to reply okayy...sorryyy..

~
I saw your picture in facebook.
But i couldnt understand why i hold myself back from looking at it closer...
And i couldnt understand why i am scared to do so.
I Was and Am Alone.

XOXO

"Crazy"Hyriah

ermmm, must i say??

2009-11-24T19:14:00.001+08:00

Finally, i put my ego down and text someone.

And blearghx, someone have not Yet replied.

And sorry guys i couldnt join and meet you guys at Huda's house...

Suddenly, i just lost my mood.

I was keeping myself busy half the day, watching Gossip Girl or to be more specific, staring at the TV.

Nothing goes in to my head... How come??

Well, hell yeah who gives a damn?

Phiissh... Sadly to say, i am in a dilemma and i am about to make a decision at which i am not ready to take and am not sure about.

I guess its about time.

Time to do something.

It has to have a good ending.

Furthermore, i feel like an asshole lazying around at home other than the fact that i have been doing house cleaning almost everyday especially, days when i am not working.

This is just so bloody stupid.

I have nothing to do.

I wish mum and dad could send me to Africa.

Then maybe i could do some noble good deeds.

I am born to do something am i not?

Or at least, bring me somewhere i could get in touch with nature.

I need to find some thing to do to drag me out of this mere boredom.

Frankly speaking, i am tired of this current life im living right now. I want to be more active, and not just everyday listening to beeping sounds, the cash register and people complaining.

This "city" life of people bustling and lack of nature's touch is totally getting on to me.

I feel like playing hide and seek in the corn fields.

Sometimes i feel like im born in the wrong place and that i should be born somewhere else like in Norway, Finland or New Zealand or something.

NATURE is like my Antidote.

Without it, i feel sick.

I know there is a park outside my house, and from my balcony, its a magnificent view, but its just Not enough...

Oh-man, im complaining am i not??

Buhhh...

Well...anyways...

Thank Allah, for the great days i have had.

I just need to be patient.

My time will come.

And i meant time not as in death but, as in time for helping poor people. :)

And for the sad sad people out there.

Have faith.

Cheer up. :))

Seek help, when you realise that you obviously cannot help yourself.

No point hurting yourself.

(i am not referring to anyone in particular, but to anyone who is feeling sad lately.)

I was sad too.

XOXO

SmokedHyriah

Monday 23rd Nov like duhh!!

2009-11-23T18:12:00.001+08:00

Feeling hyper alone today.

Woke up thinking of cycling...but then right, cycling alone not fun.

So end up, help to cook chicken rice and some garlic bread. yummy!! :)

Doing laundries too...

Hhaha, later going for a movie spree on the net.

Muahaha

Watched New Moon.

My god!!!!!!!

Still going to watch it in theatres... :))

Now i feel like re-reading Eclipse and Breaking Dawn...

Woots!!!

Watched Christmas Carol

Watched Bolt

Watched 2012

Sit at home one whole day watch movies with brother.

Fun siott!!

Ahahaxx

Tomorrow maybe i want watch One Tree Hill and Gossip Girl on Video On Demand..

kwangkwangkwang

Boy-o-boy...

Im listening to Rindu Serindu Rindunya on Youtube!!

Karaoke...

Shahira, our song!!! hahah

Wednesday at work sing again okay!?

LOL!

P.S i cant wait to work with him again...haha ooppss

Hopefully his counter is next to mine. bahaha ;)

Haha

Im trying to make someone jealous

so that maybe someone will text me??!

But i forgot, i had my phone switched off.

And by the way, this guy im talking about at work.

He is really nice and cute.

Infact i had lots of Fun talking and laughing with him.

Whenever i say i dont care, its only my cover line.

I care.

But because i care too much that it hurts.

haiishh...

On a random note: i miss my friends

And have a great night tomorrow handsome boys and pretty girls.

Dance your night away aites...

And i will see how i am going to meet you guys tomorrow night.

Perhaps sneaking in??

Yeahhh...

And

Happy Birthday To Thiviya!!!

A lot to say...

2009-11-22T10:16:00.002+08:00

Hello people!!!

Time to post!!!

Wooohooo!!!

Okay anyway..these past few days a lot of things happened.

Fun stuffs and annoying ones too.

Mostly the annoying stuffs are caused by customers.

Quote "Customers have a lot of power, they have the power to either make your day OR SPOIL your day."
I was doing well all the while...but for the fact that her eyes tengok laut (mata kero), there write CASH PAYMENT ONLY big big also never see, then you want to complain... What can i do?? I just cant be bothered to entertain your STUPID nonsense. So i called the supervisor and pushed everything to him, at last the customer walk off...I say GOOD!! Block the way only!!! And spoil my day.

And no offence to my chinese friends but most of the irritating customers are chinese women.
Need to weight the fish inside also want to make a BIG FUSS!!
Then you want me do what??
Go inside and weigh it for YOU??
Come on lah, you think i have nothing better to do is it?
You are not the only customer okay.
People are waiting in line.
So argue and argue and argue, at last asked her MAID to go inside and weight it.
Maid take so long, come back see the price tag $7.90, then dont want to buy... chheh, freaking waste of my time.
I think wait for her, i can serve 4 customers sial...
But these things happens everyday!!!
Kind of getting used to it.

Then this one better, she said the shelf there shows it costs $1.00, but when scanned its cost $1.50... for a packet of tissue paper. Then argue and argue...I am a cashier and i dont know a hell about what is tagged and not tagged inside the big 2 story megamarket, you expect me to know every single price is it?? Those stuffs are handled by people from the inside, its a different department. And for a difference of $0.50, you dont want to buy and you want to complain...pfft...
Make me roll my eyes siol!! Like a lot of times.

Thenthen, a lot of our guys colleagues all cute cute siol, but haha, unfortunately i cannot open my eyes bigbig and see them as my potential because once in a while i will be loyal to one person if not mum will nag at me...
haha.... but Shahira enjoy seyh... not to say she has a crush with one of the guys... seriously that guy he looks like Rasyidin...please lah you have no better taste is it??
Shahira was acting so ngada-ngada and mentel, Rosma you can imagine her like that right... so i think you will pity me... even with me she act like that...me as another girl i obviously feel like vomitting la.
Come on, you behave that way only with guys and not girls like seriously stop it because its annoying.
No offence you can be that way while you are flirting with the guys, but not with me please...??

Work was actually fun and all, but these setbacks they are just trying to push me to my wits. Well i say, bring it on, lets see how long i can put up with this. :) Besides i was thirsty for a challenge. And i am going to take this my way... 

Oyeah, tuesday went out with Rosma, Priya and Shahira. Out to look for clothes for Rosma's dinner...
Then Friday, went out again look for her accessories...
Now its a complete dress.
Tuesday went to Tampines One...woohoo, saw this Esprit jacket, damn nice sia i even dreamt of it. Soooo going to get it. haha
Then went to Paya Lebar Singapore Post This Fashion...if im not wrong...
Hahas, i know most of the clothes there are for makciks!! But some still nice though...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DADDY YESTERDAY!!!

21st November

Rushed home from work to start baking...
Hahax.
Lights off, candles lighted up, doors open, no one in sight, lights on, everyone out and BOO!!!
Haha...
Fun night.
Dad, lets go shopping together okay when i get my pay... LOL!!!

21st November happens to be Ms Normala's wedding day.
haha....
Selamat Pengantin Baru!!!

...

Actually today wanted to go for the run but last minute, mum ask me to follow her go somewhere...sigh...
Meeting Huda and Priya soon too!!
I have no idea, how im going to rush from one place to another...think about it later then...haha

...

Its my blog remember??

2009-11-17T10:27:00.002+08:00

I am not going to delete that post.
Because it clearly states that, it was A PIECE OF MY MIND!!
So if you are not happy with it, or if you are offended then DONT read it!!
So now you are going to tell me what to post and what not to post??
hahha!!
And i DONT remember writing your name in the post.

And who gives a damn to what other people may think?
They can think anything they want and i dont give a hoot!
And if you think i have become worst than before, then you dont even know me.
And i dont expect to achieve anything out of this...

Besides im not going to hang out with you guys anymore.
So just count me out.
Then you guys wont have to bother about me. Okay??

Life Is Beautiful

2009-11-16T20:48:00.002+08:00

Life is beautiful
We live until we die

When you run into my arms
we steal a perfect moment
Let the monsters see you smile
let them see you smilling
Do I hold you too tightly?
When will the hurt kick in?

Life is beautiful, but it's complicated
We barely make it
We don't need to understand
There are miracles, miracles

Yeah, life is beautiful
Our hearts, they beat and break

When you run away from harm
Will you run back into my arms
Like you did when you were young?
Will you come back to me?
I will hold you tightly
When the hurting kicks in

Life is beautiful, but it's complicated
we barely make it
We don't need to understand
There are miracles, miracles

Stand where you are
We let all these moments pass us by
It's amazing where I'm standing

There's alot that we can give
This is ours just for the moment
There's alot that we can give.

Why the hell???

2009-11-16T19:25:00.000+08:00

I'm here to blog.
Because i think i've had enough of being super emotional and sensitive for 6days5nights.
Sorry or maybe im not sorry at all for those whom i blast at in my previous post.
I really mean it.

Whole day, switched off my phone, so dont expect any replies from me.
My prepaid is getting low, and i dont think i want to top it up, i see NO point in doing so and it would be better that way. I shoosh, you shoosh. I dont talk, you dont talk. Lets just play this Unofficial DUMB Game.

So im tired of being moody and playing ignorance.
Some people are trying to reach out to me and i practically ignored them. Im sorry to Huda, i know you are trying to help, but lets just take it that i dont want any help. Just leave me alone??

Okaykay, tomorrow is going to be a suckish day.
Lil brother will be going for his Overseas Learning Journey...
Expecting to be all alone at home, going to be very stressing and depressing.
So im thinking i should go have a ride on a bicycle, to somewhere peaceful. Like where the hell is that??
I want to get lost...
I intend to ride until 11-12plus late at night...
And who the hell is going to stop me?

Im being emo again.
Fuck shit!!
Okay, Hy you've got to pull yourself together!!!!

XOXO

TryingHardHyriah

A Piece Of My Mind!

2009-11-15T12:55:00.000+08:00

Heylo heylo heylo people!!!

Hmm...gone for 3 days siott!!

Okay so for the past few days, quite a number of things happened...

Not all is oh-so-good. Some SUCK big time!!!

3 days, weren't feeling happy or whatsoever. Lucky i work, forget all the problems for a few hours.

Mostly feeling monotonous.

Suck la.

But haha, we will get to that part later.

So!! Thursday! Happens to be my first day at work...

The manager was very very nice and friendly, i mean all the people there was very nice lah.

Enjoy the training. Learned very fast even though make a lot of mistakes, but nevermind lah, learn from mistakes!!

Break only for 30 minutes... no appetite to eat heavy meals, so just bought deserts at LJS.

Almost lost $5 Oopps

At 5pm we departed, and head home by NEL.

Damn tiring siott,at work stand for hours, going home also must stand.

Reached Hougang Station and took the bus..

Purposely took the longwinded route.

Reached home, dying to lepak.

Andandand, i touched a lot of pork siol, some damn big lah... haha

Next day! Friday!

Wake up early again.

Work, training again, learn more stuffs...

Then homed, at 6 plus.

Quickly shower and change for Campfire night,

It was raining heavily.

Then in the bus, people keep calling me telling me not to go. I just hang up on them.

I mean like what the FUCK???

It was suppose to be some kind of like a gathering for us right, isn't it??

And you think i want to miss it??

Like what the FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Duh!!! NO!!!!!!!!

And a little warm welcome would be GREATLY APPRECIATED!!!!!

And dont complain that you guys are so damn freaking tired!!!

Like who is NOT???

I just FUCKING got home from work, willing to sacrifice just so i could join you guys...

Its easy for you to say, "then dont come lah..." Like what the fuck??

You know if i had known that Rouhui wasnt coming, i wouldnt have wanted to come either!!

But then nevermind, i kept thinking that i wasnt coming just for you fuckers sake, i was coming to SUPPORT MY BROTHER, who apparently, could sense that i wasnt in a good mood....

Thanks you guys for the very nice welcome!! Really welcoming!!!

It was good that i was tired, because you know why, i would have wanted to leave as soon as possible!!

So kept all those aside and just try to chill out and enjoy the night.

And for those who "ran" for me, i really appreciate it, but if it isnt sincere, then next time dont even think of doing it. You put people in a very guilty position. It makes people feel bad for whatever things that they put you through unintentionally.

I didn't asked you guys to ran after me.

All i asked for is a GOOD navigator, and just fucking tell me, what the bloody UNIT number is!! Is that so hard??

Fuck whether or not im stopping at the Old Changi Hospital.

Fuck if its dark.

Fuck if it feels creepy.

Why would you want to care??

Dont care lah!!

Dont even give a FUCK!!

Do i look like someone who is so freaked out of creepy stuffs??

I could have reached there on my own, if you guys have just gave me the fucking unit no.!!

Dont give me your feelings as a reason to do anything for me.

So after campfire, went straight home, didnt even feel like talking to any of you guys.

The reason why i chose to take the bus alone instead of tagging along with you guys.

Any second i stayed with you guys, i would have got agitated.

And dont fuck talk about me having a fucking attitude problem.

Are you my father, to tell me what to do and what not to do??

I do whatever i feel like doing at my own expense, and its not you guys that will be burdened by it.

And by the way, if you werent coming to fetch me from the bus stop, i could have called for my brother instead.

This is BULLSHIT!!

Saturday!
Wake up as early as 5am.
This time, im on my own, open counter.
Nervous seyh, early in the morning, i blurr sotong sia...
But after break, everything went quite smoothly.
Then after work, met up with Khairil.
Watched Paranormal Activity.
haha...
Freaking scary sia, it feels so real...
On the way to the bus interchange, at the traffic light, something happened lah, Shahira freaked out, she shout i also shout siol...Bodow siott. Kurang asam nyer driver. Go on the siren, then got one head pop out of the window...haiish
Shahira, is so freaked out, that she had to call her mom to fetch her from the bus stop. afraid of taking the lift alone.
Reached the bus stop around 11.30pm...
Then walk home alone lahhs...
Then something happened on the way home...
Sial lah!!
That apek!!!!

Reached home, brother talk about his experience at camp.
A few paranormal activities going on.
He kena kacau seyh...
Bodohnye benda, anyhow touch touch my brother!

XOXO

FreakingFuckedUpHyriah

wow

2009-11-11T20:31:00.001+08:00

with all the adjustment, the hole is big...
oh...man, blood is coming out and i dont know how to wrap it back..
i think my whole hand, sort of swelled up.
feel very dizzy,i want to vomit. nauseatic sia

What a Gr8 X-perience!!

2009-11-11T17:30:00.002+08:00

Lol!! Went for blood donation this morning...

Guess what happened haha...

Warning, it may cause some drowsiness after reading this...

So it begins... went through all the processes and passed all the check up...

And then i was lying on the chair...

Then, i found out that my vein was thin...

They almost wanted to cancel it, but then i prayed hard that they wont.

So they continued the donation processess...

First they inject the medicine that makes your hand numb...Not sure of what it is called..

Maybe i will ask them, on my next visit. :)

So with all the complications...this is what they did....

They put in the bigger syringe, and then pull it out slowly, and then they push it in back, and they did it a lot of times in, out in out in out, to make sure that the blood flows faster...and then they pull the syringe out again and lift it up, this time round the blood flowed faster and then it stops...and they checked the blood bag, and then again got some complications i dont understand what it is despite being told about the situation, but that nevermind lah, they were "playing" with that bag, something was wrong... got like one line of blood something like blood clog, but my blood still flowing...???... then my blood was very light coloured, lighter then the rest of my friend's...

And mine took so long lah, imagine how long that bloody syringe was in my hand...

Haslina, felt dizzy after that, nevermind, understandable lah, first timer mah!!

But got one handsome doctor assist her...i jealous lah seyh ..oyeah she even had extra hot milo sent to her...special or what??

Rosma and Nurul's was a smooth one...

Pathetically, Shahira, Again got rejected..for the same reason...sad siot!!

Now i'm like enduring the pain of my swell..

Got one big bruise siot...

It feels like one big batu in your hand.. Cannot bend my elbow..aiyoyo..

Sian lah, it may take 4-5 days to heal or best, 7-10 days...

I would prefer to take 7-10 days to heal...

Cant carry heavy stuffs liao...

And tomorrow...first day of work..woohoo!!

Oyeah, just now Again went to Suntec City... This time round, accompanied Shahira's cousin for job application.

Its lame for me, tomorrow must go there again...

Dah lah jauh, penat siot, kena pergi banyak kali...alamak...Dah jemu!!

Oyeah did i mention... i wrote in the application form that i weigh 55 (wasnt sure anyway)..then during the check up i found that i weigh only 47.9kg...I lose weight lah!!

AndAnd, for those going camp tomorrow, HAVE FUN BABES!!

XOXO

InPainHyriah:)

Goshh

2009-11-10T21:30:00.001+08:00

huh...must meet at 8.30??
wahh seyh. must wake up early lah like that...
Sian...
Why so early??
Im going nuts!!

BreakDown

2009-11-10T14:48:00.002+08:00

Had HMT paper today...
I suck...
haha

Went home straight after that...No mood to hang out.
Lie on my bed and cry.
Cried for so long.
I dont want to say why .........
Holding back these tears makes my heart feels so damn...hurt.
Nobody's fault.

You know, it comes to a point when everyone just needs to feel pampered.
Having someone to tell them that everything is going to be fine...
There is nothing to be scared or afraid of...
Just to reassure them.
But i cant have that.
And that the loneliness is killing me.
But i have to bear with it.
What if i say i dont want to be lonely anymore??
What if i say that even though having a lot of friends help...that there is always one person that could make things even better.
But i cant have that.

Blog hopping again...Go check out everyone's blog...
So sian lah... everybody talking about their boyfriend, their girlfriend... sian...
So i stopped, make me sad only...
Cry again lah!! Idiot!!
Go die lah Hy!!!
Just shut the fuck up!

Well anyway...going for blood donation tomorrow...
I hope they can take a lot a lot of my blood then, i will just faint in bed and dont come around.

You Found Me

2009-11-09T18:29:00.000+08:00

I found God
on the corner of First and Amistad
Where the west
was all but won
All along
Smoking his last cigarette
I said, where've you been?
He said, ask anything.

Where were you?
When everything was falling apart.
All my days spent by the telephone.
And all I needed was a call
It never came
To the corner of Firs tand Amistad

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late.
You found me, you found me.

But in the end
Everyone ends up alone
Losing hope
The only one who's ever known
Who I am, Who I'm not, Who I want to be
No way to know
How long she will be next to me

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late.
You found me, you found me.

I've been calling for years and years
and you've never left me no messages
Never sent me no letters

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late.
You found me, you found me.

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late.
You found me, you found me.

Feeling a little emotional here...

Woke up with the crazy idea of cooking....

So yeapps, i helped mum by cooking whereas she and dad gets ready for work.

Sotong masak merah is it??

Haha

Sweet and spicy just like me...hehe

Then the next crazy idea was to bake...

Hhaha...

Baked the Victoria Cream Cake i learnt from the course...

I was happily preparing all the ingredients until i finally realise that there was no egg...So i drag myself to NTUC bought some eggs, fruits and whipped cream.

Guess who i bump into... haha...Zamir...he doesnt seem to realise but neyh...nevermind...he was looking for whipped cream too...let me guess?? He is also baking the cake??LOL :'')

Anyway...bake bake and bake...

And the results is...the cake turns out pretty nice but weirdly there is a dent at the base and its quite tough... i think its too much of flour...

Nevermind... shall try again some other time :))

And then...

Watched television like after so long...

Mio TV is So Boring!!

Starhub is wayyy better!!

But then watched ONE TREE HILL on Video On Demand..

I cant resist my addiction...

I need to feed this addiction by watching it episode by episode until the whole season is over and i finally know whats the ending...

I cant wait for another day... shit...

I want to watch again!!

I want to continue watching!!

Oyeah... i am so bloody random with my crazy ideas when the fact is im suppose to be studying for tomorrow's paper...Oh well...If it means im dead with HMT, then im dead!! Screw my bahasa!! haha...I read books and studied peribahasa...but i get the feeling that im going to get brain dead tomorrow.

I wish someone could fetch me home tomorrow...

Like as if, he would...

Im being so emo nowadays and for what??

I dont know...

Its a feeling that i harbour but i couldnt express it well enough to tell him that i ____ him and that i ____him a lot. Ohh!! I did tell him, but did he even realise that i really reaaallly mean it?? and that i wasnt joking...Well it felt real for me...

i lost my heart somewhere down the road, he found it and never returned it to me...Kanasai!!

Why love is blind?

And i blinded myself with love?

It felt like as if im gambling with my heart...

Im so unsure about the future, but so sure of what i feel for him...

Im a ball rolling in the Super Space Ball Machine.

Bouncing up and down..up and down until i finally get into the "slot/hole" whatever they call it.

XOXO

FaceDirtWithFlourHyriah

Boo Yah!!!

2009-11-08T22:44:00.001+08:00

Halow halow halow people!!

This is going to be an effing long post...

Blog about yesterday and today!..hippie!!

Yesterday!

Went for Rosma's BBQ!

Yeah!!

Long ride to and fro Changi...

Visited Shahira's hideout...

hahax

Not really a hiding place though...But get to see a nice view of a rainbow!!

Hmmmm..... really nice...!!

Then eat a lot!!

I think i can get fat seyh if i stayed longer!!

The food nice lah thats why...

Then at around 7plus at which supposedly they were suppose to reach at 6 Khai---ril and Hariz came..

wait for them to eat and then cycled, skate and run...

Me, of course with my roller blades, Rosma and Shahira, bikers and Hariz (bare foot) and Khairil ran...

Toilet Expedition:

Actually not really expedition i just said it because im being lame!

Did i mention that the container toilet stinks like hell and my friends know how it really is...

So!

Instead of going for that toilet the 5 of us headed for another toilet which is quite far, the park beside SAF Terminal...

Hahax

Actually, i cant tahan already seyh...

But nevermind...still continued skating...

Then finally we found another container toilet...

Relieved at first and then spooked the next second.

Because why??

The toilet has NO lights and the place was damn dark!!

But we had no choice but to go inside and clear our businesses...

I was so damn scared that i had to drag Rosma in with me.

Plus, you know girls..we have that period thingy and changing it is a nuisance...

Plus i dont want to say anything else except for the fact that it was scary and someone was exposed!

Head home at 10 reach at 11.

I seriously have to do something about my timing because really, my parents are being suspiciously quiet and THAT is disturbing...

Because i know them so well.

They are quiet because they are waiting for the perfect timing for me to go overboard and then...... BOOM! Before you knew it i might be sentenced for Be Back Before Your Mum Gets Home!! ahaahax

Today:

Wake up early...Met up with Khalid...

Go bishan park and Ran.

Thanks bro, for making me run like wat?? 5km??

Hehe... but good though..

And my sincere appreciation for that, Thank You!

And the best thing is, i....terserempak with HIM!!!
HIM TAHU!!

After so long!!

Gosh...Even for a while... it made my Day!!

And the sad thing is, wont be seeing him for the next 1 week or so...

WHY??!!! :(

Rindu...rindu serindu-rindunya....(Shahira Diam!! Shhhsshh, no comments.) :)

XOXO

SmilingHyriah

Hell-Oh

2009-11-06T14:00:00.000+08:00

Did i just get myself a job??

Hahahx

This morning went to Suntec again for the interview...

Seriously, damn tiring seyh... walk from City Hall all the way..

Make friends with the security guard there, buat kelakar sak diorang...haha

Share the joy of being employed with them...

Anyway, pays off though...I got it!!

Best thing is, i am working with my friend.

Like same working days, same time and same place.

Frightened of the walking distance from City Hall to Suntec City Carrefour...we chose the one at Plaza Sing...Nearer to our house too!!

Im a working person now...oooooohh

I thought i had to sacrifice campfire night and my dad's birthday celebration but neyh...

Worked in the morning so still can go...hahax

Gerek kaper!!??

And ohyeah...i plan to bake a cake specially for Daddy's 52th Birthday...

Since i already learned how to make cakes, going to bake a fruit cake...hehe

But got problem lah seyh...

Dad's birthday falls on a Sat..

I work on Sat morning...prolly going to celebrate at night...where got time to bake seyh??

Friday also working seyh...

Mak lu...hahax takperlah figure it out later...

I figure working at Plaza Sing will be fun, after work can shopping/watch movies seyh..LOL =)

And sorry Khalid, never reply your message about the gym thing... my prepaid low lah...Lagipun, tengah interview...

Next time kaykay??

XOXO

TwinklingHyriah

Downright Bored and Miss You Hell Much!

2009-11-05T12:04:00.000+08:00

Okay... I have always tried to make my blog post short, but i always fail, in fact by writing this down its going to contribute to the length of the post...

Yeayea whatever...

You know... last night planned to go out with dear today...but suck! I forgot today got the job interview thingy.

Dear friends, if there is any important things that i should be reminded of due to my Short-Term-Memory (STM)

please tell me earlier?? Like a day before??

Its almost two weeks tau!!!

But Nevermind he promised to meet for awhile after Friday prayers and the day after...=)

Counting down...

And SHIT!!!! Prepaid Down!! Im going to go crazy!! NNNNNOOOOO!!!!
Dah tak dapat meet takpe lah, nie berbual pun tak boleh....Sedih tau...

Actually this story damn long already lah, but i thought i still want to type it out...

There was one time i chat with one of my friends, we talked about Npcc trip, then to her problems then back to Np stuffs... You know what i dreamt that night...

It goes like this...

First scenario... we went camping at some old haunted house...

Then one of the female teachers was found dead in the toilet... because she was having her period... And that teacher was someone we spoked about during our chat... she should know lah if she remembers it...

Funny sia...

Then scene..blur blur blur...

Suddenly at a shopping mall looking for Kiwi brand, Shoe polish.. with my siblings...

But i had trouble looking for the Kiwi because most of them was not in a good condition. Either the content came out and the tin was very dirty... I spent more than an hour looking for it. =.=

Then my face all dirty with Kiwi...

Like what the hell??

Then i forget already...

will be back posting...maybe... after the interview... :)

Wish me luck!!

XOXO

MissherdearHyriah

Why do all good things come to an end??

2009-11-04T19:44:00.000+08:00

Haiish... Why do all good things come to an end??

Was having a great start of the week... Cooking and all.

And i dont deny that now i might have an interest in cooking especially Pastries...

I wonder why, guys prefer western food and stuffs, but its good though especially now when local chefs are in high demand now adays...

Our mission accomplished.

Victorian/ Butterfly Cupcakes was a success. Its was AWESOME!

Really proud of ourselves... Never really thought i could achieve that... Wow!!

And it is really a good idea, to be wearing black t-shirt when you know you are going to handle with Hot stuffs. Really hot stuffs!! Totally overlooked that part.

Yeah... i took charge of everything that goes in and out of the Oven.

And that stupid oven gloves.. Really, not a Help! Got my beautiful soft fingers burnt blisters...

And not to mention... i was really having a bad day... Bad Mood... And those chinese guys... You guys are lucky that i controlled myself. Because really, with your suckish attitude and bloody behaviour, you guys were a PAIN IN THE NECK! Muddleheads!

And dont even expect any politeness from people, when you guys are always the Rude, Insensitive and Too Full of Yourselves ones!! And if you are deaf, i said "Excuse Me...", instead of "Get Lost!!" or better still "Fuck Off!!", i could but i didnt, so be Glad!! Know where you stand! If you want people to be kind towards you, then make sure you are kind towards people first. Gain some respect for yourselves, Dudes!

And supposedly wanted to go to the gym today...but had to cancel it because of some stupid stuffs...

So went back home early...

Ate some of the foods we brought home from school.

Yummy!!

Then yak with 2nd Sis... oohhh...i made her recall all the stuffs... Nice to know... really romantic sia that guy...

how i wish someone would do that for me... But nevermind lah kakak, i pray that after his NS, he will come back looking for you!!! And that recent ex of yours... XXxxXX tak gentlemen langsung. Good that you left him.

XOXO

HyriahMoody!

Shopping!!

2009-11-03T16:52:00.000+08:00

So yeap, reached school, thought i was late yet again...but nope...lucky me.

Settled down and we had Mocktails...
Then discussion...

And did i mention that Mr Haniz, came??
Yeapps, oh-well, did i mention that my friend was so overjoyed??
bahhahaxx
LOL!!

Oyeah, Mr Haniz also prepared a special pizza for the class...
And in the process of making it...
Little did he know that he was being observed closely, infact right infront of him. :)
That is until, I blurt it out, and shoots!! He heard it and very clearly!! Oopps!
Except for the one whom i was referring to, i guess she was too mesmerized with him that she doesnt even heard what i said. :)
Blearghxx

And then we went to Giant to shop for our tomorrow's "mission" ingredients...
And in total, we spent only about $27+ for all groups...
And we were praised for being wise buyers... can see why...
Who would be so cheapo to have sprayed tester perfumes all over their body??
Imagine going for a job interview, but then you had to drop by to some shop selling perfumes, to "borrow" their perfumes??

Befriend

2009-11-03T16:39:00.000+08:00

Whooah.... I just read one super long full of hatred post...
And I got a lot to say...
But dont worry, i will try to be More Tactful...

Its okay to be angry or super mad with someone and surely you can talk about this with your friends... and bear in mind that this is not considered as talking behind their back... everybody needs some people to confide in and tell how they really feel about another person... that is totally fine... but when you confide, dont just talk about the bad things, talk about the good things also, and then why not discuss about how to solve the matter...And dude and dudettes, misunderstandings are always bound to happen, reason being, people dont always think alike...

And lets say, if you dont like it when someone did something on you... why not tell them nicely face to face, and when you are angry, never take actions, because when you do, most of your actions are irrational...Tell them politely, that you dont like whatever things that they are doing to you. And not get so mad and frustrated about it. Because things like this, are considered small matters.

Lets say, if you dont trust this friend of yours... just listen to what they have to say, but that doesnt mean you have to believe them... it all depends, sometimes you may agree or disagree with them so judge base on your own judgement.
And to those hypocrites out there... it would be really nice to know that you are also someone who can be sincere in whatever you say or do...
My mom always say, if you want to hate someone, hate them and let them know that you hate them. At least you sincerely hate them. :)
You dont have to pretend to be nice to that person you dislike, just because they are with you, its unkind.

And if you have some problems with some of your friends, why not approach them and talk about it... Why keep it to yourself and create all kinds of assumptions and accusations and make matters worse??
Its not wrong to be open and honest right?? And for some special cases, you just need a liitle sarcasm to get back to their faces for saying mean things about you.

Settle your problems bravely, dont use all those Stupid ways, and i really mean stupid and coward ones.
Dont play behind, play it infront. That is if you have the Guts!
And dont use threats, cause its really not nice to do so...

Even if you are angry or confused, bear in mind that they are still your friends. Why such harsh and mean attitude?

Can't Take It Anymore

2009-11-02T21:24:00.000+08:00

Why is it everytime i tried to ignore you, you came rushing back into my mind?

Why is it everytime i tried to forget you, the more i think of you?

Why is it that for every step i take, i'm 2 steps aback..?

Why is it that at times like this, you had to hold on?

Why am i feeling suffocated?

Why am i feeling lost?

Why didn't i just stand back?

Why didn't i say the truth?

Why does the truth have to hurt?

Why does love have to hurt?

Am i confused?

Am i lost?

Was i right?

Was i wrong?

It wasn't meant to be.

It wasn't suppose to be like this.

And for every alternate phrases, i'm referring to two different people.

And for every second that i think about us, i'm wrapped with guilt.

~If i wish to disappear from each of your lives, will that be alright??

Anti-social

2009-11-02T19:13:00.001+08:00

You must be thinking, what this scum bag Hyriah is doing lately right?...
Well, she has been attending the Bridging Elective Modules.
Kinda fun...
At first, she thought she was going to sulk the whole course...
But neyh, that didnt happen...
Instead she find it kinda interesting!!
We got into groups of FOUR!!
Nurul Nadia, Nurul Shahira, Rosma and Me, we make up Blood Donors!
First day, was great actually....
Except that for our first time dish, it kinda suck...Because we accidentally put too much salt... So it was damn salty... Saper eyh, yang nak kahwin cepat?? hehe
We perpared, Chicken AlaKing and Pilaf Rice...
Should be interesting and delicious...
Hhaa

Second day, which is today....
Superbly FUN!!!
Because right, we made deserts, Victorian Sandwich, infused pear and ginger tea and main course, Mac and Cheese!!

I especially love the Victorian sandwich/cake!! haha
Im proud to say that our's turns out really nice!!! haha
Yummy, except that our noob decorations kind of ruin it a little!! bahahaxx
And for that, we were given the task to make victorian cupcakes on Wednesday for the presentation!! woots!!! so excited!!

And oyeah... the infused thingy...we did it right but it doesnt really taste good to us...because its ginger!!
Later i fart!! haha

And then... we prepared the Mac and Cheese, easy actually... but we cheated... Mr Haniz is it?? he helped us!! haha...he modified a little... almost got us into a hot soup.... bahhax

Highlight of the day.... that assistant, Mr Haniz or whatever, he is quite handsome for some especially for someone in my group, refer to my team member's list...guess who lah...
His eyes and his hair reminds me of Khalid, but only that this guy much more handsome and fairer ah...hahaxx Im not the only one who thinks likewise okay!!!
He very nice sia, he helped us and another group a lot, a bit bias ah but maybe because our group and the other group are those that are interested to do ones...(innocent face)
And i dont know why ah, one of my team member, blush sendiri sakk!! ahaha
We all keep teasing her sia... so fun... but sadly not sure whether he coming tomorrow, if he come confirm she happy like mad haha!!
Seriously random sia she... haha haiish im laughing to myself...
And right, i think she jealous because he talk to me... she from behind ask, what he say?? haha Kepo!!!
For me to know, you to find out!! bleahhs... just joking lah...
Im not interested with him anyway!!
You can have him!! haha

Speaking of boys!!
My0oh-My...
To boys out there, whom i have broke their heart, purposely or accidentally...
My apologies!!
I am no Bitch...
So girls out there who think i am... If you think you know me, then you dont... And dont say people, look at yourself first!! If you are 100% perfect, then you come and talk to me. If no then BUZZ OFF!!
And boys, not that i want to break your heart, but it was necessary i guess...
Yeayea whatever lah... i dont intend to get attached to anyone any soon anyway... Maybe next year...??
Good news to some and bad news to some....
Lets just be friends and get to know each other inside out if that is what YOU need.
Sick of waiting...

Besides being single and mingling around is fun, who is to stop you?? Nobody!!
And i have more better things to look forward to anyway...
Like looking for a job, which spells out going for an interview any soon...
Then, blood donation again... monitoring my diet!! No caffeine!!
Im so eager to see my bag of blood!!
Oh did i say, im O positive!! yeapp!!
Very on demand blood!!
Because i think its because, O can take only O... So people who in need of O blood type, can only get from people like me!! haha
Then the rest i dont know... My family, got A+, A, AB,O... left only my lil bro with an unknown blood type... Nevermind, next year i shall drag him!!
My goal is to reach 50 times of blood donation!! haha which will take me about 6-7 years...
Wow thats long!! Because we can donate only every 3 months
Oyeah, then i heard we can even donate our plasma, not plasma tv but those plasma that are found in our blood! Cool or what?!!! I want to go!!! Go save a life Hy!!!!
Oyeah, anybody interested to go for volunteering at AWWA??
Or does anybody knows how to??
Im so excited!
Woot!! im going to be free after HMT o level!!
Then im free like a bird...
Cant wait!!

Ciao, going night cycling soon!!

XOXO
that bloody heartbreaker

Videos!!!

2009-10-29T21:59:00.002+08:00

How to be a Gangster

It may be outdated for some, but i dont know and i just know it cos my bro asked me to watch it... and i enjoyed myself... bahaha

go see for yourself.... very funny!! haha

After So Long...

2009-10-29T20:52:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Wadiiiiii!!!!!!!

Feeling better after being sick for one night and half a day...
Thanks to someone i'm feeling much better. hhehe
Goshhhh, i miss you seyh...
Let me count, how many days ...10 days!!!
And the worst thing is, i'm begging almost everyone, to top up my prepaid...
I can die, even for one day of without you.
Geee, im being so mushy and stuff.. okay stop it khai!!! CUT!

So after so long of not posting... sadly i have nothing to to post about...
I know im down right such a boring person and so not involved with the world...
Kaykay, i promise myself that i would spent my holidays wisely and not waste away my left 2 months of holiday.

Anyway i keep saying that i want to do this and that, but my ass is not moving...Dont know why...Somebody push my ON button please??

Just finished my O level maths... i hope i pass, i mean i did a god forsaken total of 14 maths worksheets in like what?? One-two weeks??? Made a new record!! Whooaah!! WOW!

So!!! Anyone going GYM any soon?? If you are, please invite me?? Because if im going to the GYM alone then i might need to ring a stranger to accompany me.. Malek??That gym trainer i met at night cycling?? Lost his number...sian...
Furthermore, im still in study mood. Yeah, shocking isnt it?? Me?? Still want to study?? So unbelievable.
Yeayea...I'm so random.

Talk about today... went to school, as an extra student of Cikgu Juriah... Ask for worksheet but in the end never do, i did Higher Malay Paper instead... Sorry!!! But i will still do though... but just dont know when...bahhahaxx
I was the good student there... (innocent face :) ) Diligently doing my work... :0
Speaking of innocent face rite, especially My innocent face, i observed that whenever i told someone that i am or was innocent...i get this face from them....sort of like... "Is she serious or what??" and with all that suspicious looks...and crooked eyebrows and in disbelief faces.
Doesn't anyone believe that I, Nur Hyriah Bte MyDad is INNOCENT!!??
But i can understand why also... haiishh
So am i innocent?? That still remains as a mystery for me to know and you to find out.

Oyeah, after that went to Shahira's place to see her new "friends".
They are as small as your fist.
I think they shit quite a lot too!! (seeing that Shahira's new friends keep shitting for almost every 3-6 minutes)
They are from the almost same species of the Rats...
Yeah you got that right if you dont then too bad... Its the hamsters...

The last time i held them was like before i turned 15,14,13, before i fractured my arm, before i was Primary 5.... So yeaps about (shit my maths has gone bad, count for me ah).
So its like my first second time holding them....
And for that first of second time of my holding them, something landed on my palm.
How disgusting is that??
Yess!! it shitted on my hand!!!
And i start panicking... So while making that eeeeee sound, Rosma helped me to get that thing off me and i
ran to the kitchen to wash my hands. (smelling my hands to check if the smell stick to my palm... thank god no...)
And then after that, they busy cleaning the thing and stuff...i cant even be bothered even though i was the one who suggested to do it...
And then after that, watced BOF...
And then after that, went home ...

So yeapps, this is my post and i hope some people are satisfied....
Sorry if i never post, sorry if you visited my blog only to find that i never update...
But please dont stop visiting my blog...
My blog policy has always been, blog only when you have something interesting to say. :')

Losing My Mind

2009-10-25T10:00:00.001+08:00

Last night, had troubles trying to sleep...
Even though he messaged me, but i still couldnt sleep... It was almost 3 am... I'm still awake eventhough i swear i was damn tired...

I dont know what the hell is going on here. I kept dreaming about N level results... And God knows how many times i kept waking up from it. I am so freaking worried!!!
They say, every men will experience their greatest fall, but i just dont want mine to be this early.
And i was praying hard that even if i dont get my single digit, i just want to make it through...Now is that possible??
Oh God!!! Please give me your guidance. Please embrace me so that i feel calm and relax. Please show me the right path. Please let me get to Sec 5.

Yesterday, didnt do much of studying. But im glad to say that i completed all Paper 1 and some Paper 2. So probably today, i am going to complete not all but some of the leftovers.
The day was spent, studying in the morning, slept again until 2 in the afternoon and then study for a while, then i got fed up, ate my cookies and then im watching movies on the internet with my brother... Stopped watching at 9 plus...
I think im stress...the worst thing is im eating a lot of chocolates... Dude, didnt i dont really like eating chocolates?? I must have reached maximum level of stress.

So this is what i plan to do after my O level... I am so going to cycle to somewhere quiet and green. I need to keep in touch with the beauty of nature, it makes me calm... It would be better if i could go somewhere with waterfall... I want to go backpacking...but i cant, because why?? Because im only 16... and in my family, nobody gets their total freedom until they reach 21...how cruel is that??

Okay...back to today... after the nightmares... i woke up thinking of making pancakes... like why so random??... but the shit thing is, there is no milk... and who the hell is going to get milk?? Nobody!! Because why?? Because im the only one who is awake right now and i am not going down to the shop to get milk!

Shit.. im bored.
But im lazy.
Thought of cycling this morning... but lazy to unlock the bike chain... lazy to use the lift and get me and the bike downstairs... lazy to peddle...lazy to think where to cycle to. Oyeah, Hougang is a very boring place.

Haywired

2009-10-23T17:56:00.002+08:00

I think im having moodswings... Like really... suddenly, i just feel like avoiding everyone.
So to anyone whom, i may have been harsh or rude to, my apologies...
Sorry, if i left without saying a word, sorry if i just decide to walk off, sorry if i pretend not to hear you, sorry if i dont talk much, sorry if i broke my promise and decide not to follow you, sorry sorry and sorry...
It would be best, to leave me alone for the time being.

Life right now for me is seriously, mind torturing...
I have to decide and so before i decide, dont ask me questions that i dont wish to answer and dont make me say something that may give you false hope... Understand?

Next, i have been very busy studying that i realise that i am losing my mind...
It is such a nightmare to be dreaming about MATHS!!
And the worksheets...i'm not done with them yet... like when??
So i gave up going out this week...with anyone...i want to stay home and overdose myself with numbers...
Till then, i will be gone.

...

Can i just pack up and run??
I want to have a peace of mind. Away from all of my problems... haiish
Tired.

All The Best and Good Luck For All Who Are Taking Their O-Levels!!!

Here I am

2009-10-21T22:38:00.003+08:00

So here i am posting to appease someone who got pissed off with me for not updating.

To that person... relax lah... takkan tak post nak mengamuk?? bahhaha

Highlights for the past few days::

So anyway... this few days had to go to school. Hated that idea... haiishh

First, i hated the idea of coming back to school, but i had to...

Second, come to school only, that guy pick a fight.

i mean you are the guy, why cant you just give way and shut up...?

when you keep talking, you are just adding more anger... and the most freaking thing is when i gave in and just shut up he kept saying dont know what stupid thing like black man and asian people blabla... L

Like Freak you lah!!

I shut up already so just shut up lah!!!

And dont be so flattered that i apologise to you, its not even my fault... But since you were the fire i had to be the water right... Besides, i hate to fight with you and plus i am really tired of arguing... I'm not like last time when i love to argue okay...

Third, had to wake up early...

And oyeah, CONGRATS TO HAYATI AND SHAIRAZI!!!

bahhahax

I'm so happy for her. Like finally, a dream come true...hahhhhas

Went out with Wadi and watched 500 Days of Summer...
Fun day....
Sat at the skypark there and talk talk talk talk... Until late at night and i had to rush home...Bleahhx

Oyeah!!! CONGRATS TO 2ND SISTER AND RIZAL.
senyap-senyap eyh.... hmmph... bahahax

Oyeah!!! CONGRATS TO 1ST SISTER FOR MISSING HER ABANG!!
What the hell?? They are already engaged lah Khai... like duhh, they miss each other

Am i the only one single here?? pffttt

Thank you Shahira for the ointment...eventhough it stinks but i think the swell is subsiding...