bloom..bloom..

It really takes me a whole lot of courage, energy and inspiration for me to write a post!!
Because why...i don't really think so people read mine!!So hell with it!!But. since i feel like writing i will write!!

Wow i am damn happy!!!With my damn Results!i guess all this while my hardwork paid off!!!
Tell you the whole damn story...
First, damn nervous about my shooting!!!It rocks!!!I want do it again,sooner!!!
Remember the commands!!yeah!!
Load and ready!!
12 rounds FIRE!!!
Unload and showclear!!
12 rounds.That target is really really easy!!inside you get 5 points and outside you get 3 points.
mine i scored 9 in 3 out!!no misss!!
that makes 45+9=54!!haha
It really feels nice when you hold that deadly gun!!Not everyone gets to hold a gun!!!


Then, guess what? for teacher's day i have to dance that utmost embarassing indian dance.Seriously, ive never done this before!Just realise that im quite flexible,aite~!
But at last everything has ended!!Freed


With all this happening!i didn't remember about getting our term 3 results today,AT ALL!!In fact i forget about even taking the exam!!"Since when we had an exam???"said this to my friend.
Guess what...how wonderful it is...i got 1st in class and level.Never got that before...first time yeahhh.Always thought it was the other guy...should i say the name....erm....that korean guy larh....After forgetting about taking the exam i thought i got a bad results...sekali....................power.........goshhh.okay shouldn't elaborate much....is my spelling correct?????

Sec 2 Camp

You know seriously i've been writing this same old thing a lot of times...
First,was my reflections which my teacher asked for...second was my own diary...third was my blog....

Seriously its the same thing...
But to me this camp wasn't the best that i have ever had.The best one was still the npcc M'sia trip which really cool.Can you even imagine going to hta for the meeting and you see other schools in your area and you are like the chosen one among the other students nominated in other schools.
You get to know other students from a total strangers that turn to becoming ur friend from another far end of Singapore.It's just amazing...And i really hope that i get to go to another trip jjust like this they are all going to be part of me,part of my life my memories mine to own mine to cherish mine to love they are all in my heart and i can never throw them away they will always stay in me for all my life...
It's sad that it all started in just a snap and it ended in just a snap...How i wish it'll never end how i wish i could just stay and live in the life like almost fairytale to me whom not everyone gets to enjoyed it....I realised that in this life there is a lot to discover and all that you could do is to grab the opportunity and not let it slipped away...Life is very short eventhough you feel that there is more to come and that you are still young but time really flies so fast...There is one thing that you should all know that is not to regret of what good deed tht you have done you should just leave it alone and don't regret it because even if you regret it nothing can be undone.

Missing

"Missing"

Please, please forgive me,

But I won't be home again.

Maybe someday you'll look up,

And,

barely conscious,

you'll say to no one:

"Isn't something missing?"

You won't cry for my absence,

I know -

You forgot me long ago.

Am I that unimportant...?

Am I so insignificant...?

Isn't something missing?

Isn't someone missing me?

[Chorus:]

Even though I'm the sacrifice,

You won't try for me,

not now.

Though I'd die to know you love me,

I'm all alone.

Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,

But I won't be home again.

I know what you do to yourself,

I breathe deep and cry out,

"Isn't something missing?

Isn't someone missing me?"

[Chorus]

And if I bleed,

I'll bleed,

Knowing you don't care.

And if I sleep just to dream of you

I'll wake without you there,

Isn't something missing?

Isn't something...

[Chorus]

Bowen Npcc

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18-20 June ATC at Pulau Ubin

First day alredy late for the meeting in the school...
Took a ferry ride to Pulau Ubin from Changi beach.
Long way to the campsite
Pitch a tent.
Lunch,had to cook ourselves.No appetite seyh...
Suddenly stomach felt upset seyh after 5D of restaurant eating and suddenly you have to cook yourselves and the next thing you know you are going to eat maggi and canned food for the next 2D...Shock of the stomach life,lol!!!
We practiced songs for the campfire.
Campfire preparation...

While writing this post im only interested to write how i get to know what i didn't realise that happened to me at the camp only after flashing back then i realise it could be true...

After,return to mainland ate at mc donald since a lot of people are craving for cold coke and burgers!!!!!!!

This topic came out...Huda and Ros told me they saw some white figury...okay stopping here something just happened to me don't wish to continue once again if you want to know the story ask me personally...Shit that was creepy..

12-16 June...What i did??

12/06/2007

Stop by to Yong Peng..EAT!!
Felt like i know her...yahh i did...met her at npcc soccer match which we were disqualified due to unpunctuality!!!Infact,we had a friendly match with her school that was when Sabrina was called an IDIOT because we passed the ball to her she directly kick the ball OFFSIDE!!LOL!!Seriously,i don't know what she did as a soccer player in our school team.Ok,end about her here!!

Later that day,we went to Melaka High School.Had an afternoon tea,EAT!Tried to make friends with the students there...Had a presentation about their school...

After that,we visited the Central Melaka Police Station.Didn't went there last year when the school organised a trip to Malacca.Was served again,EAT!!Then we visited the christ church of Melaka and the buildings there went there quite a few times already...It was then,we were escorted by the police of Central Melaka already.Sadly,it was only one police car infront maybe they should have add behind and at the sides of the 3 buses too,hehe...Really honoured...It was one of the best part of the trip i could remember until NOW!!!By the way,they "escorted" us until the KL checkpoint i think...

Upon arrival at KL.Had dinner and debrief...lights off...

Seriously,in a day we eat a total of 7 times i think...including the ones we eat at the restaurants...Gain weight,seyhh!!!i hate that.


13/06/2007

Eat at the hotel's restaurant fo breakfast,EAT!
Go to Putrajaya Administrative Centre.Morning tea is the first we had upon reaching there,EAT!
Then,went to their Marine Base and if i'm not wrong it is situated not far from the Administrative Centre.Had a great boat ride there.Silly me,left my camera in the bus.One girl lost her hair net during the ride.For your information,we had to wear our full uniform that day and for the next 2 days...

Went back to the Admin. again to have our lunch if i'm not mistaken cannot remember larh a lot of times eat,EAT!Then,visit the Putrajaya Mosque muslim guys & girls are allowed to go for their prayers...Again went back to the Admin. again make new friends with Kadet Polis and don't know what tea,EAT!

Dinner after that back to hotel...
5 meals a day...


14/06/2007

Breakfast at the same place,EAT!
KL Police Training Station.Suddenly,no morning tea felt the hungriness...
Presentation about the history and more of that place and how the Royal Police Malaysia came about...

There,we saw how the officers were trained and also their k-9 unit.Cute lehh...Have this dog who just won't get off its handler's back!

Next stop,Police Diraja Malaysia museum...
Afternoon tea,EAT!

Has this one officer guiding through the galleries they have there...Suddenly,by the second gallery we had the officer all to ourselves that means my knew friends and I,which were all malay so he speak in malay larh.Gerek!!!Then,before we enter the third gallery suddenly the officer ask this question..."Kamu percaya pada hantu?" For the non-malay speaking people sake it means "Do you believe in ghosts?"So straight away i know that he is going to tell about ghost that may have happen in that third gallery and it was true...Ummm,if you are interested to know the story it might just be good if you come or contact me personally,seriously.I scared the ghost might haunt me if i published it here...

Later that day,we visited the KLCC Petronas Twin Towers.Usually,tourists are only allowed to go only to the 41 & 42 floor and only VIP's are allowed to go to the 85/86 floor doesn't that make us special...One fact as you go higher you have to change lifts and it just gets smaller to only 14 passengers and as you go higher you can feel the gravity pulling you i wonder how the officers that was with us in the lift going up and down a lot of times can stand it...It feels as if your ears are blocked and its not a nice thing...

Went shopping...Only for an hour and a half...
3 main meals a day and those serve by the places we visit you count how many times i eat?



15/06/2007

Visited Sultan Alam Shah school,a boarding school...All malay boys school!!
Suddenly,i realised a lot of the malay girls had their eyes in this guy by the name Zhariff,17.That one,you can slightly include me lah...To the girls he was irresistable but that one i'm not sure about myself...Some of the girls even took a lot of his pictures some even ask for my help to take for them since i'm a good photographer...so why not lah i help...Then while having tea,EAT!Suddenly,he came to our table and there was a vacant seat beside me so he asked"Don't mind me sitting here?"
So i replied "Up to you if you are ok with it because it is all girls table"
Eventually,he sat beside me and i did try to came up a topic to talk about because it was getting too quiet already...I think the girls in that table are too nervous already,haha!!I never took his pictures for myself seyhh...i don't give a damn it is all saved in my eyes.

Next was,Batu Caves.Climb up 272 steps lose weight.See the magnificant sight of the limestones that took a long time to shape itself,we were anxious of the monkeys...



16/06/2007

It seems like only yesterday we met...Now we are apart...sob sob
Seriously,the people i met during the Malaysia trip was great cannot name them...too many

Came back to Singapore seems like we just came back from a wonderland.Seriously,we had our photos taken by tourists when we were in our uniform everywhere we go even in the Hotel...Suddenly,we are the center of attraction...


Okay larh whats past is past only left to remain as sweet memories...

Monkeys doing that "thing"!!

Wahh!!So Long nvr blog.Busylah this few days..
Mid year exam is arnd e corner.STRESS!!.....

Juz now do marshall duty.LOL very funny!!WE doing marshall duty at Bishan Park 4 e annual cross country race...Still in "shock" i witness monkeys doing sexual intercourse.But i prefer monkeys better than humans...ewww.
Need description....well the male monkey was on top of the female monkey.Smhw the male monkey was like shaking his "butt"on top of the female private part.Wat a huge family of monkleys they've gt there...lol


After that,went 2 J8.Waste time there..watch movies quite touching...
Walk the same place/shop many many times.Honestly,i dunno wat the hell im doing there.Actually i very sleepy lor but 4 the sake of my squadmates i juz follow through lor...but had quite a fun time there...its gd that we actually hang out together frequently!!Tmrw leh,gt appointment with them again see their face again...go HM library STUDY.i dunno y must go study of all places..THERE!!

TIREDLARH!!...Huhhh,no more npcc 4 nex mnth??Aiyah,boring seyh...

Good News...maybe NOT

Rou Hui already has a .....?
Jia wei alredy has a ..m..?
Xiang Yi everyone has already know...?
Soon Lam likes....?
Ros trying to forget ....?
Huda i think she's ..... ?













Possible answers:

Rou Hui-mp3
Jia Wei-movie+mp3
lets skip Xiang Yi..
Soon Lam-ipod nano
Ros-her terribe past
Huda-that one im not sure lol

Warning!!
This may not be true!

The sun is sleeping quietly

Once upon a century

Wistful oceans calm and red

Ardent caresses laid to rest

For my dreams

I hold my life

For wishes I behold my night

The truth at the end of time

Losing faith makes a crime

I wish for this night-timeto last for a lifetime

The darkness around me

Shores of a solar sea

Oh how I wish to go down with the sun

Sleeping

Weeping

With you

Sorrow has a human heart

From my god it will depart

I'd sail before a thousand moons

Never finding where to go

Two hundred twenty-two days of light

Will be desired by a night

A moment for the poet's play

Until there's nothing left to say

I wish for this night-time...

I wish for this night-time...

Nemo_Nightwish...

This is me for forever

One of the lost ones

The one without a name

Without an honest heart as compass

This is me for forever

One without a name

These lines the last endeavor

To find the missing lifeline

Oh how I wish

For soothing rain

All I wish is to dream again

My loving heart

Lost in the dark

For hope I`d give my everything

Oh how I wish

For soothing rain

Oh how I wish to dream again

Once and for all

And all for once

Nemo my name forevermore

My flower, withered between

The pages 2 and 3

The once and forever bloom gone with my sins

Walk the dark path

Sleep with angels

Call the past for help

Touch me with your love

And reveal to me my true name

Oh, how I wish...

Nemo sailing home

Nemo letting go

Oh, how I wish...

Friday the 13th...

Yehh,sec 1's today receive their uniform!!
As you know,my bro is in np too.
I can tell you he was so excited!!You can know it from his expression on his face..

Today was the SI Promotion Ceremony...Hoorays!!
Chong Sian is now an SI!!The highest rank in npcc!!WOOWW!!!!!!
Also,Desmond Lee and Nurul Farhan has been awarded the 1ST Class Drill Badge...

Well the ceremony was a smooth one.Except that when the commander give the wrong command..LOL
It was quite a tiring one though.We were standing like almost the whole parade..We rehearse for quite a few times b4 the parade began...
After that,there were briefing,photo taking and continue as usual...PRACTICE!!!
But this time,the command was given by our fellow squadmate.Eventually,i volunteered.I was standing very far from them and had 2 shout very very loud!!! Errmm i've gt a sore throat...

We receive our Bronze nyaa booklet...Then,tomorrow will be our first activity to be recorded inside the booklet as we are going to do marshall duty at MINDS...Looking forward to it!!Thats all!!

NP Gerlzzz

Ask a Ninja: Question 24 "thr33"

You wouldn't believe dis i was really paying attention to dis!!LOL

Dat arse hole...

I am totally pissed off with dis fat ass guy Syed!!I was in skool after skool doing my freaking boring dc duty!!Honestly,i dunno wat he's doing in malay dance!He said np is boring,he is so nt open-minded!!He freaking ass still can say np is all abt pumping,i mean lyk wat the hell everyone around him is in np,dat time..He dare say dat infront of us some more in front of e npcc room.He's not in np ever b4 n still has e cheek to say dat!!Mayb yah,np is quite tough but wat rite does he hv to say dat.We in np oso nv complaint...Doesn't he ever know abt cca harmony??Mayb i don't really practice dis "cca harmony" thing but at least i nv said any bad things or insult other cca,honezly i don't hv e time to do such..Such a pain in the ass!!He oso gt complain abt one of e sec 1 cadets who is oso in malay dance(guy).He said dis boy no good larh,useless,problematic...look do i look lyk i care if he's lyk dat in malay dance then dat is ur prblm 4 wat i know is dat boy isn't like dat in np...so he can piss off!!!!!Arsehole!!!!!

While doing e dc duty,there was lyk 2-3 weak chickens(ex-np cdts) we were talking to them.There was lyk Ros,Soon Lam,my bro n me so one of us ask them y they quit np?Their ans was damn lame!!One of them say np boring,sir(lyk wat,oso dunno),mass pt too tough n wat e hell!!They think e others come, hving fun izzit?FREAK THEM!!!Np is lyk dat, there r times where we do hv fun and oso unhappy times.But obviously,we cannot alwayz hv fun in np there r alwayz serious times...Abt e tough mass pt,is nt lyk we r going to do pt 4eva,it won't last long.Even then we do pt only 4 lyk 45+-mins.Really lyk chickens...

Tolerance is e main point,a little tolerance won't harm rite?...Ok if the sir is lyk wat ur nt happy with it juz tolerate with it larh sooner or later he oso will pass out rite..alamak no patience at all larh!!!If u say np is boring,u hvn't been coming 4 np 4 a long long time hw would u know whether np is fun or nt?

To e sec 1s, there r really no reasons 4 y u should quit np,b united!!Go thru it all together no matter wat!!!

Down Right Lazy

Im bored but im lazy!!
I suppose ive got a homework to do,its maths!
Oh damn,ive got a maths test tomorrow...but im lazy...lazy to study
Totally,todae i dun 1 2 do anything that has to do with skool....
When's the nex holiday...
Dis sux!
Urmm,my sis plans to create our very own band.Our name has not yet been confirmed.
Soo,lookin' forward to dat.
'll be e keyboardist...mayb vocalist too...
It's not a bad idea but do i look lyk i hv e time to go jammin'?mayb yea...

So wateva,wish me luck 4 tml.

I guess today i am really free or im juz running from somethin'.Honezly,i've been going through a lot of embarassment!!!
I'm angry with myself!!
So much regret!!
If only i could turn back time!!
I promise it won't turn out to be like this!!
I'm sorry so so so so sorry!Pls forgive me!!
I didn't mean to hurt you!!
I feel like i would die!!
It hurts so much to hurt you!!

"Thoughtless"

All of my hate cannot be found

I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming

So you can try to tear me down

Beat me to the ground

I will see you screaming

Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies

Pushing all the mercy down, down, down

I wanna see you try to take a swing at me

Come on, gonna put you on the ground, ground, ground

Why are you trying to make fun of me?

You think it's funny? What the fuck you think it's doing to me?

You take your turn lashing out at me

I want you crying when you're dirty ass in front of me

All of my hate cannot be found

I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming

So you can try to tear me down

Beat me to the ground

I will see you screaming

Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies

I'm above you, smiling at you, drown, drown, drown

I wanna kill and rape you the way you raped me

And I'll pull the trigger

And you're down, down, down

Why are you trying to make fun of me?

You think it's funny? What the fuck you think it's doing to me?

You take your turn lashing out at me

I want you crying when you're dirty ass in front of me

All of my hate cannot be found

I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming

So you can try to tear me down

Beat me to the ground

I will see you screaming

All my friends are gone,they died (gonna take you down)

They all screamed, and cried

I'm gonna take you down

Gonna take you down [x3]

All of my hate cannot be found

I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming

So you can try to tear me down and

Beat me to the ground

I will see you screaming

All of my hate cannot be found

I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming

So you can try to tear me down

Beat me to the ground

I will see you screaming

"Like You"

Stay low.

Soft, dark, and dreamless,

Far beneath my nightmares and loneliness.

I hate me,

For breathing without you.

I don't want to feel anymore for you.

Grieving for you,

I'm not grieving for you.

Nothing real love can't undo,

And though I may have lost my way,

All paths lead straight to you.

I long to be like you,

Lie cold in the ground like you.

Halo,

Blinding wall between us.

Melt away and leave us alone again.

Humming,

haunted somewhere out there.

I believe our love can see us through in death.

I long to be like you,

Lie cold in the ground like you.

There's room inside for two and I'm not grieving for you,

I'm coming for you.

You're not alone,

No matter what they told you,

you're not alone.

I'll be right beside you forevermore.

I long to be like you, sis,

Lie cold in the ground like you did.

There's room inside for two and I'm not grieving for you.

And as we lay in silent bliss,

I know you remember me.

I long to be like you,

Lie cold in the ground like you.

There's room inside for two and I'm not grieving for you,

I'm coming for you.

I think i favour my np frenz more than my school frenz.Maybe because most of us here in np has an ambition of becoming a police of any sorts i even have this fren who wants to become a traffic police so hopefully one day while driving i met her.Who knows in future we saw a female traffic police on a scooter and that person could be someone we know....

Like me,i want and forever will,become a Crime Investigation Detective.I was inspired by my grandfather,father & uncle!!They were all from SPF.And on that day,when we went to the Police Heritage Centre.I got the sight of the uniform which my grandfather wore during his time.Cool isn't it?!!Hey,my father is 50 years old he's going to retire soon so why not i take over his place...Then i will be the third generation...Who knows i may influence my bro too...
And all this will take like another decade before it happens..lol

My main focus now is to spend more time at home with my parents don't wish to take them for granted(u know they won't be here forever),STUDY and become scholars,they say if you are a scholars there's a very high chance to becoming a commisioner(the highest rank in SPF).
This year is my streaming year can't fool around with my studies dude!

I think this month i'm alittle bit of STM.Yesterday,i experience it.I was in Pasir Ris sec hall and i tried to compare their hall with Bowen's,while trying to recall how Bowen's hall like i got confused with Xinmin pri(my former school) and Xin Min sec hall(where i receive my edusave $$).I successfully remember the "hall" through mr Farid because he's alwayz on the stage every morning.And our hall is twice bigger than Pasir Ris.Honestly,that school looks really damn old and creepy with the broken windows,dirty walls(aren't they gonna repaint them?),dark rooms and there was this place that actually looks like a prison to me!!lol

Pasir Ris sec offered ncc girls.The girls really look good in their uniform it reminds me of my mom who used to be in ncc during her time in sec sch.

Pasir Ris really needs a makeover.But their canteen has a bubble tea shop aka bubu tea shop.Maybe Bowen should also have one...that would really make our lives easier..lmao
Recently,i said something that actually pissed my frenz off i said i want to talk to Mrs D.And i said only that but they were all like already eee...i don't understand why

Then one day,when Mrs D was walking in the canteen i was excited(im sure all of you know what she did) i saw this one group of sec 1 girls (honestly they are guilty) quickly runaway as if they are being chased by a mad dog..haha.This one is even better listening to mp3 during recess time and get caught by D and the mp3 were immediately confiscated.

Idiots don't they know how to hide from being caught all this while i've been eating in class,listening to mp3 in class/canteen all mischieves that councillors aren't suppose to do have never been caught...yet...

Evanescence rocks!!!

My first favourite band!!

Alternative Rock...

Amy Lee!!!

That was so close

Today,we participated in the Captain's Ball competition.We were lucky that we get to the semi-final without even playing because the other team(Bedok South)was disqualified.The second match totally rocks.It was so close just 7-8!!Unfortunately,we lost to Greenview Sec in the third match...We ended up in 4th place.All it takes was to win that third match and maybe we could have got our hands on the bronze trophy.But,it didn't hurt much at all because the most important thing is that we enjoy the day.It was quite an experience though...
Even our soccer team lost.Some were really not happy they called the referee "kayu"(means that the referee is no good,useless)We had a lot of fun singing in the bus,some slept,like me listen to music..."bottle war"!!Then after that we hang around in the school compound for some time then we went to Hougang Point.We had dinner at KFC after that we walk around then came the idea of playing with the NTUC trolley.We put all our heavy bags inside and Rou Hui complaint she was tired so she sit inside the trolley.I think we are quite a public nuisance...lol

U don't even want to imagine

This hurts alot but its a new experience!!
Heyy,im new here and frankly i can get lost here.
Somebody outhere volunteer and guide me.Urghh,forget it ive already got somebody who is actually very near to me closer than you think!!

Today i had a trip to the Police Heritage Centre.
It actually boost me to actually go forth and be what im born to be.
I betta sleep NOW!Ive got a school to attend tomorrow!

Forgive Me

Forgive Me

Can you forgive me again?

I don't know what I said

But I didn't mean to hurt you

I heard the words come out

I felt that I would die

It hurt so much to hurt you

Then you look at me

You're not shouting anymore

You're silently broken

I'd give anything now to kill those words for you

Each time I say something I regret I cry

I don't want to lose you

But somehow I know that you will never leave me

Cause you were made for me

Somehow I'll make you see

How happy you make me

I can't live this life

Without you by my side

I need you to survive

So stay with me

You look in my eyes and

I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry.

And you forgive me again

You're my one true friend

And I never meant to hurt you