I guess today i am really free or im juz running from somethin'.Honezly,i've been going through a lot of embarassment!!!
I'm angry with myself!!
So much regret!!
If only i could turn back time!!
I promise it won't turn out to be like this!!
I'm sorry so so so so sorry!Pls forgive me!!
I didn't mean to hurt you!!
I feel like i would die!!
It hurts so much to hurt you!!

"Thoughtless"

All of my hate cannot be found

I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming

So you can try to tear me down

Beat me to the ground

I will see you screaming

Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies

Pushing all the mercy down, down, down

I wanna see you try to take a swing at me

Come on, gonna put you on the ground, ground, ground

Why are you trying to make fun of me?

You think it's funny? What the fuck you think it's doing to me?

You take your turn lashing out at me

I want you crying when you're dirty ass in front of me

All of my hate cannot be found

I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming

So you can try to tear me down

Beat me to the ground

I will see you screaming

Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies

I'm above you, smiling at you, drown, drown, drown

I wanna kill and rape you the way you raped me

And I'll pull the trigger

And you're down, down, down

Why are you trying to make fun of me?

You think it's funny? What the fuck you think it's doing to me?

You take your turn lashing out at me

I want you crying when you're dirty ass in front of me

All of my hate cannot be found

I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming

So you can try to tear me down

Beat me to the ground

I will see you screaming

All my friends are gone,they died (gonna take you down)

They all screamed, and cried

I'm gonna take you down

Gonna take you down [x3]

All of my hate cannot be found

I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming

So you can try to tear me down and

Beat me to the ground

I will see you screaming

All of my hate cannot be found

I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming

So you can try to tear me down

Beat me to the ground

I will see you screaming

"Like You"

Stay low.

Soft, dark, and dreamless,

Far beneath my nightmares and loneliness.

I hate me,

For breathing without you.

I don't want to feel anymore for you.

Grieving for you,

I'm not grieving for you.

Nothing real love can't undo,

And though I may have lost my way,

All paths lead straight to you.

I long to be like you,

Lie cold in the ground like you.

Halo,

Blinding wall between us.

Melt away and leave us alone again.

Humming,

haunted somewhere out there.

I believe our love can see us through in death.

I long to be like you,

Lie cold in the ground like you.

There's room inside for two and I'm not grieving for you,

I'm coming for you.

You're not alone,

No matter what they told you,

you're not alone.

I'll be right beside you forevermore.

I long to be like you, sis,

Lie cold in the ground like you did.

There's room inside for two and I'm not grieving for you.

And as we lay in silent bliss,

I know you remember me.

I long to be like you,

Lie cold in the ground like you.

There's room inside for two and I'm not grieving for you,

I'm coming for you.

I think i favour my np frenz more than my school frenz.Maybe because most of us here in np has an ambition of becoming a police of any sorts i even have this fren who wants to become a traffic police so hopefully one day while driving i met her.Who knows in future we saw a female traffic police on a scooter and that person could be someone we know....

Like me,i want and forever will,become a Crime Investigation Detective.I was inspired by my grandfather,father & uncle!!They were all from SPF.And on that day,when we went to the Police Heritage Centre.I got the sight of the uniform which my grandfather wore during his time.Cool isn't it?!!Hey,my father is 50 years old he's going to retire soon so why not i take over his place...Then i will be the third generation...Who knows i may influence my bro too...
And all this will take like another decade before it happens..lol

My main focus now is to spend more time at home with my parents don't wish to take them for granted(u know they won't be here forever),STUDY and become scholars,they say if you are a scholars there's a very high chance to becoming a commisioner(the highest rank in SPF).
This year is my streaming year can't fool around with my studies dude!

I think this month i'm alittle bit of STM.Yesterday,i experience it.I was in Pasir Ris sec hall and i tried to compare their hall with Bowen's,while trying to recall how Bowen's hall like i got confused with Xinmin pri(my former school) and Xin Min sec hall(where i receive my edusave $$).I successfully remember the "hall" through mr Farid because he's alwayz on the stage every morning.And our hall is twice bigger than Pasir Ris.Honestly,that school looks really damn old and creepy with the broken windows,dirty walls(aren't they gonna repaint them?),dark rooms and there was this place that actually looks like a prison to me!!lol

Pasir Ris sec offered ncc girls.The girls really look good in their uniform it reminds me of my mom who used to be in ncc during her time in sec sch.

Pasir Ris really needs a makeover.But their canteen has a bubble tea shop aka bubu tea shop.Maybe Bowen should also have one...that would really make our lives easier..lmao
Recently,i said something that actually pissed my frenz off i said i want to talk to Mrs D.And i said only that but they were all like already eee...i don't understand why

Then one day,when Mrs D was walking in the canteen i was excited(im sure all of you know what she did) i saw this one group of sec 1 girls (honestly they are guilty) quickly runaway as if they are being chased by a mad dog..haha.This one is even better listening to mp3 during recess time and get caught by D and the mp3 were immediately confiscated.

Idiots don't they know how to hide from being caught all this while i've been eating in class,listening to mp3 in class/canteen all mischieves that councillors aren't suppose to do have never been caught...yet...

Evanescence rocks!!!

My first favourite band!!

Alternative Rock...

Amy Lee!!!

That was so close

Today,we participated in the Captain's Ball competition.We were lucky that we get to the semi-final without even playing because the other team(Bedok South)was disqualified.The second match totally rocks.It was so close just 7-8!!Unfortunately,we lost to Greenview Sec in the third match...We ended up in 4th place.All it takes was to win that third match and maybe we could have got our hands on the bronze trophy.But,it didn't hurt much at all because the most important thing is that we enjoy the day.It was quite an experience though...
Even our soccer team lost.Some were really not happy they called the referee "kayu"(means that the referee is no good,useless)We had a lot of fun singing in the bus,some slept,like me listen to music..."bottle war"!!Then after that we hang around in the school compound for some time then we went to Hougang Point.We had dinner at KFC after that we walk around then came the idea of playing with the NTUC trolley.We put all our heavy bags inside and Rou Hui complaint she was tired so she sit inside the trolley.I think we are quite a public nuisance...lol

U don't even want to imagine

This hurts alot but its a new experience!!
Heyy,im new here and frankly i can get lost here.
Somebody outhere volunteer and guide me.Urghh,forget it ive already got somebody who is actually very near to me closer than you think!!

Today i had a trip to the Police Heritage Centre.
It actually boost me to actually go forth and be what im born to be.
I betta sleep NOW!Ive got a school to attend tomorrow!

Forgive Me

Forgive Me

Can you forgive me again?

I don't know what I said

But I didn't mean to hurt you

I heard the words come out

I felt that I would die

It hurt so much to hurt you

Then you look at me

You're not shouting anymore

You're silently broken

I'd give anything now to kill those words for you

Each time I say something I regret I cry

I don't want to lose you

But somehow I know that you will never leave me

Cause you were made for me

Somehow I'll make you see

How happy you make me

I can't live this life

Without you by my side

I need you to survive

So stay with me

You look in my eyes and

I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry.

And you forgive me again

You're my one true friend

And I never meant to hurt you