Guess what???

I think i already know what he meant by "spoilt everything" just now...
So everything went wrong between you and her, and you are not happy, because i met her!!! And she told you off!!!
SPEECHLESS!!!

Maybe at the end of the day, you are not GOOD ENOUGH for me.

Why do we always make things complicated for ourselves??

I really don't know why.
I was so happy to see that guy in the morning.
And surprise surprise, suddenly, my hopes are all crushed!!! WAHAHA!!!
Saw him with another girl!!!WOWOWOW I know her.
Then one of my friends approach me asking me did you know about blablabla which of course i already knew, and asked "Aren't you angry??" i was like "Am i suppose to??" People tell me!!!
I feel so sick nowadays!!
Feel like crying again and again, till there is no more tears left!!!
But of course i have to keep telling myself to cool down and get a hold of myself.
STUPID!!!
You know WHAT??? I'm tired of this STINKING PIECE OF SHIT!!!
COME ON!!! Make up YOUR MIND!! DON"T KEEP ME WAITING!!!

And today, i decided to isolate myself from people especially him, since he need a break, i have taken out my SIM card so i that i can resist myself from messaging him!!! How am i suppose to trust you, when while it is is building up you keep hurting it??? Seeing you with another girl which obviously likes you really hurts me. Sometimes i feel like i don't want to talk to you anymore!!!! I wonder how people are going to contact me since i rarely go online, phone not available, contact my brother???HAHAHA

BEAUTIFUL LIES,PERFECT DENIAL!!!

Anyway, if he really does he'll try every means to contact me, maybe SUNDAY, i'll put my SIM back and check out who have contacted me. If none, then if it isn't strong enough then maybe i'll have to let it go.
TIME IS RUNNING OUT!!!
EXAMS are next week... Lets just get it done and over with!!

P.S what is it that i have spoilt?? What do you mean by, i spoilt everything sia???

Listening to ASMARADANA, i don't really understand the lyrics, but it seems to help me cool down!!

Stop hurting my barely breathing soul!! I BEG YOU!!!

Its as if i'm drowning and constantly struggling to get some air and people just keep pulling me deeper! I'm weakening. This is a challenge for me!!! Please please don't force me to such situations where i'll actually ignore that person really damn well as if he/she is like a stranger!!

Pls forgive me!!!

Dedicated for someone whom i hurt in my previous post...

Can you forgive me again?
I don't know what i said but i didn't mean to hurt you...
I hear this words coming out it felt like i would die that so much to hurt you
Your silent meant broken
I'll give anything now to kill those words for you
Each time i say something i regret, i cry i don't want to lose you.
But somehow i know you will never leave me again.

I can't live this life without you by my side, so stay with me.
I'm screaming inside that i'm so sorry.

Things couldn't have happened without a reason....

Am i so FORGIVING???

My simple life took a drastic change into a complicated one. WOOW!!
He never msg me today, so it was quite quiet for me.(At least i can focus on my studies)
I know i shouldn't think about it too much, it might just kill my brain cells. Hahax
And, if he really does, he won't rush me instead he would wait for me. Even if he go for other girls its not like its the end of the world. Time is on my side!! There are much more important things to think about then BGR!!

Anyway, MID-YEAR EXAMS are so damn like its next week!!! People, wake me up!!!
Don't wish to get distracted, hmmm...

I must really thank my best friends who were there to cheer me up that day, who made me laugh when i need it the most, who made me stop thinking about it!!! Huda, Rosma, Shairazi, Dou heng (thanx for the BOX of tissues), Priya, and MORE!!! Eating at KFC really HELPS!!!

Just so if he reads this, you surely are a good friend to have, one that is a MUST-HAVE friend, i acknowledge what ever you did for me, but i'm not sure about the idea of you hurting another person's feeling for me after you hurt MY feelings, if you really disagree and objects it... i rather sacrifice for other people's sake. All the best to you!!!

NP TRAININGS!!

Heys, we have about less than 4 trainings to go before POP.
I'm going to teach them as many advanced drills as possible.
hymm... i'm going to finish up what i'm suppose to do and then after that bye2 people!

Things aren't gonna be the same anymore...

Lately i've realised that so many things have changed. I really can't say that it has changed for the better or for the worst. But one thing for sure i'm not happy about it.

Things get more hectic,subjects gets harder to understand, friends can't even be trusted, what is there to say.

Ever felt that you regret joining this society???

Friends starts to drift apart and even i couldn't understand.
People i tell you, we are breaking apart!!!Whats the point of saying it, when we ourselves don't even make an effort to do it. 2 months is really short but here we are mistrusting each other. I kept thinking what is there to hide, why you act that way so much that you hurt many other people's feeling. I want to talk to you directly and find out more from yourself instead of theories from other people but i suppose you are BUSY... Anyway i'm not really sure about it either but congrats to whomever who got the BUC!!!

I'm tired of solving this mess since the last time!!! I think after POP, i'll have to say thats the end of our friendship. We go our own way!! It doesn't even matter. "The past was just a play for our future".