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Please try not to scream when you see this. yes you.

Actually got more uhh.... but lazy uhh.

tired

Finally, i have the chance to sit and play!

I know that its kind of a little too late. But please, not that i dont want, but i cant, prepaid 0 and i never touch the computer.

So here it comes:

Happy Birthday to Dearest Huda!!!!

Happy Birthday to Dearest Rouhui!!!!

-My 17 yr old folks... :P

Infact i superdupergilerrabaksampaitaktercakap Miss you guys!!! Meeting you guys tomorrow!!! Yayyy!!! Feeling emotional now.


Once upon a time, there was a girl named hyriah. One day, she had to run 2.4km around her school. It was a cool breezy morning. While she was running, she was doing great one of the first few infact. Come second round, like a humpty dumpty she fall on the ground. Ouch! She continue to ran, upon reaching the school, she then decided to clean her wounds before starting her third round. And so she did that. She said "Its okay, end whatever you started." And to her surprise, even after the time wasted cleaning the wounds she managed to ran pass others and completed in 21 minutes.

Pds...super tiring. Hands and legs are cramped. For all the standing and chicken-wing.

Whoosh

Okay, i shall blog a "little" for today...

It was sports heats today...
Participated in 100m and 800m.
100m okay uhhs.
Felt like pee-ing, shit-ting and cramps all over. Felt like backing out at first. But they persuaded so okay luhhs. Just run.
800m, i swear this is the craziest stupidest thing i have ever done in my sport life.
For 5 years in school, i have never ran 200m and 400m. And suddenly 800m. Bodowww kan???
Never even had a trial round, never trained, never practiced.. My muscles all shock seyh...
Initially, i didnt want to run, but after the 1o0m it kind of boost my confidence so i just gave it a try. There were many sports people running. And i am of no match to them. I dont run often you see. In the end, came in 6/8 position. Damn shiok!! Damn happy larh seyh... Weird right?? At least not last. :) (not saying that its a bad thing, but it was my goal, just dont be the last.) Satisfied.
Thank you so very the much to those who supported and cheered me on. I ran in honour of you guys. THANK YOU!!!
Anyway... next on the list is PDS. Scary. This Friday, they are coming to watch. Die!! People, lets get our engine running. Just give it our best shot at Macau. Okay??!!

If we cannot be the best at least we all know we did our best!! :)

33 weeks of study week. Is it enough??

Just dont panic and dont stress yourself. Slow and steady, slow and steady.


Jia You to all!!! Sports day, tests, PDS, Speech day...

And oyeah, Congratulations to all Campcraft girls for being 9th out of 100+ other schools.
Really proud of you guys!! :) superfabulousmarvellousextremelygreat job!


Okay ciao, need to study... teehee...

pfft... *-*

Melodramatic

Hello... Okay great!! Im posting...
Thought of blogging for many many times but i never did.

First and foremost sorry guys!!!! I know i have missed out on a lot of study dates at Mac.
Blame the weather, it was so cooling to sleep but of course i didnt sleep the whole day.
Sorry Ros, Sha, Has, Kha, Dou, Har, Khi.
And you bet, i regret skipping that Saturday day out with you... even when i have to run. Goosh...
I see my phone expecting MIND-YOUR-OWN-BUSINESS to appear. Yes i named you that in my contacts. It was suppose to prevent nosy people from reading our texts but some still read and asked.
And im so unhappy that i cant text anyone. I wanted to ask my parents to top up for me but when i think again it will only piss them off... So nevermind.
Tomorrow schooling anyway.

And i must say today im bored. Im done with my homeworks and i cant find chemistry homework if there is in the first place.
Am i really done with my homework?
Half way through my revisions for Science. More to go.
Im thinking of re-reading the whole textbook for Humanities. Wah seyh... banyak kaper...


On a random note: I dont understand why some people want to pretend like they are some other race other than their own. Such a poser larh pleassseeee!!! Malay with over dyed BLONDE hair so tak kene cann??

There is this boy in school, prolly a sec 2 kid. He looks like a malay but i realised he was wearing a cross around his neck so maybe he is not and he is constantly tagged with a chinese girl. Mind you this girl looks fierce. But what disturbs me the most is that this boy when he smiles it look so bloody damn fake. Its like when he walks he is too full of himself that he feels everybody is watching him i bet he didnt even listen to whatever the girl was saying. But the irony here is that no one is watching him but he is watching people. He looks at you and give you the fake "macho" smile. And im thinking eeewww. *-*


When you didnt even try and you make assumptions that tells me what kind of a person you are.
One that i shouldnt even bother.

Study dudette

~Wow!! I realise that im not the only one that dislike you.
~And, will really appreciate it that you keep your hands off other girls since you already have a girlfriend.


Yesterday was Public Performance thingy. It was superb but i dont want to elaborate on it. People who go will know.
Love my brother.

Today is study study study. Been studying since 9am. Now is my short break. Back to studying soon. I hope these notes can help.
Homeworks:
Maths 8.2 & 8.3 (Thanks Ms Normala :D) Thanks for the practice that i needed.
English Compre 1 & 2 with summary. (Thanks Ms Chua for giving me something to read & to think during the "holiday")
SS essay on Venice (Thanks Mr Sng for the essay... i will squeeze my brain for that.)
did i miss anything out?


PS. im no being sarcastic

My prepaid is going low. I dont want to spend my holiday not being able to text you. Im saving it...
Would you say it please??

O----my.....Goodness...

Hello people!!

This is going to be a very short post...or so i hope.

Well, school has been okay... but the pressure of trying to memorise a whole load of facts is really getting tense. Its the whole book of Geography and Social Studies textbook and understanding Chemistry and Physics. Lots and lots of maths practice...

The warmness in your soul comforts me. Sometimes, i dont want to let it go.

And to HOT!!!, if you tell him who you are then he would thank you.

You & I

Hello humansx!!

My Sunday morning was spent, at Raffles Place!! I took part in the Blindfold Trail, Singapore Guiness Record. Apparently, it was organised by Club ESQ 165, and i was wondering why my friend didnt participate...Hmmm, i thought she was part of the Club...
Anyways, back on track, we had to complete the trail of 750m BLINDFOLDED!! Yeapp, with the scorching heat and being blind well all of that is a real challenge!! As many as 127 participants, shoulder to shoulder, blindfolded walked through the city with the help of the buddies to guide us through to avoid any accidents like banging into a pole or walking across the road... The buddies were great supporters cheering us on knowing that our hands, legs and mind cramped. The fact that when we walked through this places not knowing where you are or how the place looks like and the fact that people tell you that there is the Esplanade, The "Durian" but you cant see it, it gives you a wake up call... Hey you should appreciate the gift of sight that Allah has given to you, when some dont even get the chance to see the work of man-kind.
So overall, i had a nice experience and on top of that, i received a certificate of participation...and free FOOD!!! And im sure Lil Brother had a great time too! :)
The event ended around 12.00.
Took the MRT to Yio Chu Kang and bused home.
Reached home around 1.

Had an hour's rest and off i go to McD for study date with study mates... Teehee *-*
Did chemistry and maths... spent at least 4 hours there studying, laughing, eating and of course cuci mata!!! haha...

Then after that off we go to Hougang Ave 8 for Hayati's haircut... Bangsx!! Wakaka


On a random note:
Congrats to Girls' Campcraft Team for getting into Top 10!!

Thanks to HOT!!! for the tag... really... my brother would like to know the person who just praised him. He wanted to thank you in person. So let us know a little bit about you. Kays?? :P

To my lovely 1st sister, it breaks my heart to see you suffer a lot with your job, but nevertheless, sis DONT GIVE UP!! Lets show those people, what the KAMIRS' are made off. What doesnt kills us, makes us stronger!! Yeah!! Anyway, you got your hubby-to-be to make you happy always.

And my Big Bro, is going to be out of NS soon and pursuing his studies at Temasek Poly soon!!
Hooray!! Soon everyone will be in POLY!!

And i am so looking forward to our family year-end adventure!!

I miss you!!

Its the heart that stopped beating

When im with you, i forget the world.
When im with you, its you all i see.
What is this madness i feel?
You bring me to cloud nine.
But once i touch the ground, i know ive crossed the line.
Its knowing what i want, having to have what i need.
In my life its all about abiding.
And with you i can never be.
Why does it have to be?
Why do i have to end it?
How can i make you understand?
In this life, my heart can never be amend.
Its me not being able to let go.
Because its me im feeling sorry for.

Till that day...

If its a broken part, replace it.

If its a broken arm, then brace it.

If its a broken heart, then face it.

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

So, what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again?
Woooaaah, so I never want to leave you and the memories of us to see
I beg don't leave me

Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day ]
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home

Hello poeple!! Long time uhhs...
Lets get down the list.

Monday blues... didnt feel like doing anything, didnt feel like studying, listening or even bother about anything. Unfortunately, received my results. I had to do something. Calculate to see if i pass.

So far so good, none failed yet. Pending for social studies results to determine if i had done well for CT.

Though the satisfaction level wasnt really felt. But i should be grateful that i passed because some did even more worse. phiissh...

Tuesday, alls well ends well. Good day i supposed? Probably i felt happy after spending time with someone though we talk mostly crappy stuffs. I just love to piss him off. But i hope he knows that i didnt mean any of the mean stuffs.

Wednesday, i just wish it would rain some day sooner. Its getting really really humid. I could die of dehydration. Its like being baked in an oven.

And i am happy to say that i am getting the hang of practical science. Hope i can really do well for my 'O's. Even if i dont, i hope im not one of those who will commit suicide. Avoiding excessive stress, bad for my health.

Why do some people choose to live a obssesive studious life?? Morning school-study, afternoon tuition-study, night revision-study.

Oh my geesh... How do you live with that?? Is your life all about studying?? Where is the fun??

one word, respect.

Do not be nosy of other people's business. Ever heard of MIND-YOUR-OWN-BUSINESS before? yea so try to hide that low self-esteem of yours, really not necessary.
oh btw,I dont need TUITION to have naturally SMART BRAINS. peace!

If you chinese people wants to be racist, please remind yourselves on whose land you are living on-A MULTI RACIAL COUNTRY.
Haven't anything the government's been trying to teach ever get into your head?

Patience has its LIMITS, dont ever cross the line.
Now that i just had to post it here just means you went overboard, lady.

P.S i had to write this down because i feel that Singapore lacks of respect towards other races. what happen to all the RACIAL HARMONY thingy the government's been teaching us eversince i was born? if you wanna be racist, surrender yourself to the police.

i justify that i did not do anything wrong/crime or anything that breaks the law of the beautiful RACIAL HARMONY Singapore above. if you're pissed, that just goes to show that you're GUILTY and you know it. (:

I have No Idea

Hellosx Humansx!!

Okay... Changed my blog skin again... Cant find anything interesting that suits my taste well so i have decided to use the default templates as my last resort.

Common Test 1 has ended... A Great Relief eventhough i have much to regret about.
First was, not trusting my first guts and the reason why i hate to check my work... first answer correct, check, doubted, edit and then wrong... Phiiisssh...Lost 2 marks for that in Chemistry Paper... Second, why didnt it cross my mind? I memorised it but didnt thought of it. what the hell. Again lost 2 marks for Physics...
Maths... if its wrong it must have been careless.
English... always having the problem of choosing a question... and forgetting the format.
Geography... was fine... yeah...i practically wrote the notes here and got to know that some actually read it. hahax
Social studies...hmm i manage to complete both questions and i hope that spells PASS.
Whatever it is, i studied and did my best.

Cats and Roses

CNY reunion with beloved Squadmates soon!!
Miss them a lot!!!

i want to play guitar!!!

Geography: Types of Natural Vegetation

Natural vegetation: plants that grow with little or no human interferance.
Ecosystem: community of living organisms
Biome: the living part of an ecosystem

Forests: Tropical Rainforest, Temperate Deciduous Forest, Temperate Coniferous Forests
Grasslands: Tropical Grassland and Temperate Grassland
Deserts: Hot desert and Cold desert  (tundra)

Climate: the atmospheric condition of an area over a considerable period of time
               ~Temperature and Precipitation
Global Distribution of Natural Vegetation: closely related to the latitudes.


Tropical Rainforest:
-tropical equatorial climate
-high temp: about 27 dc
-high rainfall: above 1500mm
-constant throughout the year
-between 10 d N & S of the EQ
-Amazon basin, Congo Basin and SEA Basin

~Structure of Forest
[] 5 Vertical Layer
[] Emergent Layer: 30-50m. Crowns above the canopy layer
[] Canopy Layer: 15-30m. Umbrella-shaped crowns, wide and shallow, forms a continuous leaf cover.
[] Understorey Layer: 6-15m. narrower, oval-shaped crowns, grow where gaps in the canopy layer allow sunlight to pass through.
[] Shrubs layer: up to 6m. Tree saplings and woody plants
[] Undergrowth Layer: Max 5m. Grasses, mosses, ferns and fungi. Very little sunlight reaches this layer.

Epiphytes: Bird's Nest Fern and orchids. Grow on trees for physical support. Rainwater and decaying leaves provides nutrients and water for the plant.
Lianas: Thick woody vines that wind around trees to reach for sunlight. Up to 90m in length.
Parasitic Plants: strangling fig wraps itself around the trunk of its host tree to compete for space, sunlight and nutrients. Cause the death of the host tree.
Fungi thrive in dark, moist places conditions. Grows and feeds on decomposed fallen logs.
Leaf litter forms a layer of humus.

~Diversity of plant species
750 tree species and 1500 other plants species per hectare.

~Density
Extremely dense. Grows very closely to one another. Abundant vegetation.
Due to high temp. and rainfall throughout the year.

~Leaves
Evergreen, constant high rainfall.
Do not shed leaves.
Broad to maximise surface area for photosynthesis.
Waxy with drip tips, to allow rainwater to drain off easily. Prevents harmful bacteria from growing.

~Flowers and Fruits
Produce fruit throughout the year.
Colourful and sweet-smelling, to attract insects for pollination and animals for seed dispersal due to the still air below the canopy.

~Bark and Branches
Thin and smooth barks.
Branches only at the top 1/3 portion of trunks.

~Roots
Shallow and spread widely as they do not need to reach deep into the soil for nutrients.
Buttress roots, to support the great weight of trees.


Tropical Monsoon Forest:
-tropical monsoon climate
-high temp: about 26 dc
-high rainfall: over 1500 mm
-distinct wet and dry seasons.
-between 10 d & 25 d N & S of the EQ
-Mangalore

~Structure of Forest
[] 3 Vertical Layer
[] Canopy Layer: 15-30m. More spread out.
[] Understorey Layer: 6-15m.
[] Undergrowth: Max 6m. Bamboo thickets and grasses grow densely during wet, but sparse during dry season.

~Diversity of Plants
Around 200 species of plants per hectare. Due to inconsistent rainfall

~Density
Abundant and more spreaded. Crowns do not interlock. Dense undergrowth. Luxuriant during wet season.

~Leaves
Deciduous, shed leaves during dry season to minimise water loss through transpiration.
Waxy with drip tip.
Narrow leaves of bamboo plant.

~Flowers and Fruits
Bear fruit during dry season while they are leafless.

~Bark and Branches
Thick and coarse to protect the tree from heat and dryness during dry season. Withstand extreme heat from natural forest fires.
Branches are located at the middles of trunks. Sunlight is able to reach the lower parts of the forest.


Mangrove Forests:
-tropical climate
-coastal areas
-high temp: about 20 dc-30dc
-high rainfall: 1000-2000mm
-between 23.5 dc N & S of the EQ

~Structure of Forest
[] 3 Horizontal Zones
[] 2-40m. Average height: 15m. Muddy soil cannot support tall trees
[] Coastal Zone: nearest to the sea. Adapted to saltwater. Flooded during high tide. Breathing/aerial roots. Avicennia and Sonnaratia
[] Middle Zone: Prop/stilt roots. Rhizophora
[] Inland Zone: Least tolerant to saltwater. Knee-like roots. Bruguiera

~Diversity of plants
HALOPHYTES

~Density
Dense and luxuriant due to high temp and rainfall. Continuous canopy, compete for sunlight.

~Leaves
Evergreen. No seasonal change.
Broad with drip tip. Allow water to flow off easily.
Thick and leathery. Reduce water loss through transpiration.
Salt secretors, Avicennia: secretes excess salt on their leaves which are removed by wind or rain.
Salt filtrators, Sonnaratia, Rhizophora, Bruguiera: absorbs salt and removes excess salt by storing it in old leaves which then fall off.

~Flowers and Fruits
Colourful to attract insects for pollination.
Buoyant, float on water to be washed away to a new coastal area.
Fruits of the Rhizophora germinate while they are still on their parent tree and drop directly on the ground to take root. Elongated structure with sharp tips.

~Roots
Aerial roots exposed duting low tide, allows to take in oxygen.
Prop/stilt roots provides support for the trees on muddy soil.
Kneed roots provides support for trees on soft soil.


Coniferous Forest:
-cool temperate continental climate
-60 d & 70d N of EQ.
-experience seasonal change
-summer: 21 dc
-winter: -40 dc
-precipitation:  300-635mm throughout the year.
-Scandinavia, USA

~Structure of Forest
No distinct layer. Grow generally uniform height (20-30m). Grow close together.
Little undergrowth. Low amount of sunight.

~Diversity of plant species
Only a few. Pine, spruce and fir. Trees grow in pure stands or a mix of 2-3 species in an area.

~Density
Low temp and precipitation cannot support dense vegetation.

~Leaves
Do not shed leaves.  So that photosynthesis can still take place whenever temp rises above 6 dc.
Needle-like leaves have small surface areas that help to reduce water loss through transpiration. Store water for use during winter.

~Flowers and Fruits
Trees bear cones, part of the reproductive system. Female cones produce seed while male cones produce pollen. Dispersed by wind or animal.

~Bark and Branches
Thick barks to protect them from long cold winter. Flexible branches that slope downwards to enable snow to slide off easily.
Conical shape of trees also helps them to withstand strong winds.

~Roots
Trees have shallow, spreading roots which enable them to absorb water from melting snow.

makan, makan and more makan

Shiok ar!!! Today, went to Clarice's house after school of Chinese New Year celebration... She fed us with all the sweet stuffs and kuihs...their kuihs are almost the same as ours...Layered cake, pear, sweets and drinks... Too full after having our lunch in school...And back to school for NPCC.
Looked for Sec 1s, taught them basic drills and stuffs started to be harsh towards them. Blearghxx...
Well thats my style.

Then anyway... had a short talk with Ms James, she is really nice. Kind of miss her being my teacher because at least she cares. Met up with dearest Priya after NP... Chit-chat, catching up on her current affairs. Boys-studies-stress-cats-squadmates-kids-home sweet home.

Reach home, blablabla and eat SUP TULANG, woohoo!!! Damn shiok!! Yesterday had Pizza and today this, i wont be surprise if i actually get fat...oopsiee.

Now, learning how to play Use Somebody-Kings of Leon  on the guitar. Getting the hang of it. A good start for a newbie like me. Greatt!!! Off i go now. :D

Go study luhh!!

Ay Yaw!! Humansx!!

Percy Jackson is a real good show. Though some stuffs doesnt make sense, but drowning into the show is really painless. I  feel great after that. And i want more POPcorns!!! : P

Exams are this Friday!! Haiyah!! PANIC AT THE CLASSROOM!!!
DONT WASTE TIME! After some time that big quote pasted on the front wall, makes me shivers.
And i find myself, changing habits. Now i prefer to study at night. My once enthusiasm to write down notes are fading. I prefer to write less think deeper more.
I realise that i should learn to embrace Social Studies and start LOVING IT...

Sometimes i feel like i have switched souls with my brother...
He is getting more and more hardworking. Getting more of the spotlight. Being more enthusiastic.
Whereas, Me, im going slack, and not anymore of the spotlight and aint any more enthu.
The people in NPCC are different. Less of those shiok people!! Like my SQUADMATES!!
And i have to admit, NPCC is getting boring day after day. The only thing that interest me is PDS, the only challenging thing there is and not to forget Sec 1's, our future, because no offence the current batch of Juniors especially some knows no respect and are less reliable...haiishh
I guess, im just too tired and really cant be bothered anymore. My time has past, and now its my brother's turn.
And i am so PROUD OF MUHAMMAD KHIDHIR BIN KAMIR BIN KAYAT BIN KANAWI!!!
Yesh!! That is how you spell his name to all you admirers of him.

Tip: If you like him, be more friendly, because this one guy, doesnt socialise he knows only people who make an effort to make him know you.

Will it kill you to take it slow?

Yay!!! Blogging...

Interesting and non-interesting stuffs going on.

Lets take a few steps back into History.
14th February 2010
Special request by Mum that Me and Bro accompanied her to a Wedding Celebration at Woodlands...
The wedding card states the names of the Groom and Bride, the address, the map but not the bus that leads us to the place. Righttt... Took Mrt to Woodlands, intended to take the taxi from there to the venue but hell rightt, taxi stands there were like taxi stands in a Ghost Town, hardly see any taxis... Didnt waste any time, went down to the bus interchange and there lies the Great Map of Woodlands. okayyyyy....looked at it... And tadaa!!! We saw which bus stop we should alight and what bus to take. Isnt that great??!! Okayy!!! If only i could input a sound that plays the moment we were riding the bus...
Look left and look right. Looking out for the block numbers... And.... we missed the bus stop. Dropped at the next bus stop and reverse direction....
Finally!!!! Walk to find the block. But it was surprisingly quiet.
But then smarty pants Hyriah says why not we go upstairs...?? And there we go... Feels like an amazing race...
Eat drink eat drink then ciao... Waited at the nearest bus stop which only has one bus. And at the bus stop there were a few others... Waited and 15 minutes has past. And a bus came... Mum alerted us, then suddenly everyone else was standing...And the most cruel thing was the bus didnt even stop it was a OFF SERVICE bus. The next bus came but like the previous one. Then forget it. Bought ourselves a drink thanks to the humid weather that sucks up all the hydrates that we barely have. Went to the initial bus stop we stopped at.
And there lies an old man sleeping with his mouth wide open and like nobody's business. Funny thing is, he sleep but he doesnt move I made a comment in malay, but i said something like "He sleeps but he doesnt move at all, i wonder if he ever fell from the bench...could he be dead??" At my last word, he moved!! "Does he understand my language?" ooppsiee... then nevermind... the weather was scorching hot and my brother good heartedly fan that old man with my mum's hand fan. Everyone at the bus stop was laughing seyh...haha
Few minutes later, the bus came... Before that we made an effort to wake him up... "Oi oi, wake up lah, bus come already." In the bus cant stop laughing... "Bus come so late until the apek fell asleep."

Head home, stopped at McD for a while with friends... they were studying...


15th February 2010
Woken up by the sound of the Chinese road band... What was it really called anyway?
Cant sleep again after that. Nevermind... Started my studying for CT1.
All the way until afternoon.
Seriously, studying social studies never fails to make you sleepy.
Reading but nothing goes into my head. Change subject, Physics, Maths, Geog. Practically all the subject in one day. Damn tiring.
But i was going really slow.
Slow and steady. This year is an important year, stressful year. Ironically i worked hard last year for this year. Bleargghx
Better slow and steady rather than sprinting and get tired earlier. Right??
At least i still studied.

16th February 2010
Going out to watch movie with family!! Yayy!! After so long...
When everyone is a grown up, its hard to get everyone together.
Left only me and bro in our teens. The young ones...

Valentines day??

I dont celebrate Valentine's day. I cant understand why some Muslims out there make it into such a big deal...Dont they know??

Its history leads back to the Christian Priest Valentine. Its is said that once upon a time, the Roman Emperor, disallowed their men to get married reason being married men did not make good as a soldier. But then, this Priest Valentine had secretly performed marriage ceremonies...And he was arrested... At one time, the Emperor tried to persuade the Priest to converting to Roman paganism in a bid to save his life instead the Priest also tried to make the Emperor convert to Christianity. Both failed.

Instead of celebrating Valentine's day on the day itself... why not celebrate Lovers' day before or after?
At least that makes you look less like a fool about not knowing the meaning or the purpose of the celebration.

Priya!!!

I read Priya's blog and i was touched...
Im sorry about the blog. No intentions of blocking anyone from my blog. But my blog looks ugly with the background like dont know what...cant even read...

I Love My Priya!!!

And im happy for you!!!

Happy that you are happy in school!!!

That is what school should be right? Fun! (how i wish i could say that boldly.)

Grudge?

Hello people!! So sorry for the blog private stuff.... Something went wrong with my blogskin and i had to replace it but i just cant find any spare time to do that. So im just using my previous skin...

Anyway, since im on the computer, like finally... Maybe i will just blog a little bit.

A lot has been happening to me quite lately. And all i did was to let the matters rest without solving it yet.

Just want to say a few words...especially for someone whom i think still has a problem with me after all this while...
Why dont you just let go of the past? Just let go of whatever that has happened between us in the past. Why hold the grudge and hatred? After all, i did. I let go. I dont hate you. I dont blame you either for the mistrust, suspicion, tension and hate. Eventhough i still cant believe it, its like being stabbed in the back but then i dont care that much. Now that, you are with someone new, you are happy and i assume you have moved on. Then just forget everything. I thought we cleared things out between us or was all that just pretense?? But then again, i dont care. I just thought you should know that im happy for you anyway and i forgive and forget. Just hope you would to. Case close, after this i dont bother.



And people, dont judge people without even getting to know them. Because everytime you think you know that someone it is always the other way.  Dont judge people just because of some conflict you had in the past.
And to you, you dont know me. You only see me at my worst when greed took control of me. I was protecting what was mine at that time. Human-Greed. But im sure if you had took an extra step to knowing me better i am never the kind of person you think i am. PEACE :)


Off i go for Vampire Diaries...

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Eiiissshhh. I thought you were good, the nice polite one. But i guess not?? Tigers have permanent stripe that can never be altered even when you try hard.
If you have GOOD time management... then why are you struggling to do your homework?? Despite that, you make people wait for you. You took  15 mins to change to what? --Pt kit?? And by the way, do you know whats the meaning of respect? Dudette, who is the authority then?? I dont care whatever reasons you have, but when you are given instructions you jolly-well abide it. And just admit it you were late. And i have all the right to take actions, but did i? I just gave you a simple short advice that might sound like a warning. Dont have to be so brusque.  And since you can choose to do anything you want if you want to then why didnt you?? Why didnt you spare yourself the nag from me then?

What is true friendship? A true friend is someone who loves you unconditionally and who has always and will always be there for you. Someone who forgives you every time you screw up . ... True friendship demands total honesty. Being honest with God can be scary, because it means that you have to be honest with yourself.

I suck at being a friend...

Down with flu and God-knows what else...

OPuckYou

Why should i live up my life to your expectations?
Why should i live up my life to satisfy your wants and your needs?
You are not even my mother or father!!
I dont know why i even bother to bother.
Mygawd. Give me some space to breathe, Yaw??

Stop putting me in a bad position.
Making me feel bad if i were to decide either way.
OMummymummymummy!!!
Help me pleeeeaaassseee.......
I hate to hurt your feelings and i hate hurting my own feelings!!

Anyways, Priya you are dearly welcomed. See carebear, see me okay?? Fat hope for me right??
And enjoy school lah! :)

I never do any of my homework... im gonna be a deadskunk.

It was January back then but now its February :)

Had a great February start... Yeah right... Lots and lots of homework piled up... and piling up. Yeapp that includes my maths test paper 2 and oh by the way paper 1, i planned to fail it and then again i have SS essay, English essays and Chemistry test and more to come i feared... Singaporean students are equivalent to stressed students. Sometimes i thank God for choosing Singapore as my motherland, a disaster-free country but i just wish it had been an easier life for me...

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor


After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

A Day Out

hehs... Went out with 2nd sis and lil bro.
Mrt-ed to Orchard. Walked around at Far East Plaza looking for my shoes. Saw a few nice ones, but the price was affordable but just not worth it and some were wayyy expensive.
Then we had our lunch at Dahlia Restaurant.
Walked and Mrt-ed to Bishan J8.
Decided to watch movies, but then something happened.
So Mrt-ed again to AMK.
Watched Legion, wanted to find out how stupid the show is.
A little waste of money but definitely amusing laughing at their storyline.
People!!! Do not watch Legion! It suck!!
Stupid crappy storyline.
And if you dont have a strong hold of a religion, you are so gonna be fooled by this movie.
Yeehaa!!

And anyway, i finally bought something that i had promised to someone. The question now is how to get it to her. Must find time.
And oops i didnt do my homeworks...
Tomorrow my sprint through them.
So thats it for now :)

Did that through scrapblog.

Look okay lah...

Anyway, my first try... teehee :D

My confessions:

I really dont know what i want.

I dont know how to react towards you.

Im not sure if its you that i need.

But somehow, i have seem to wrap myself around

by just being me.

I am weird.

I cant express myself right.

I laugh at a moment of sadness.

I smile at the moment of shock.

Im amuse at the sight of pain.

I cry at a celebration.

And persuading and consoling people have never been my thing.

If you dont want it, then thats okay. Whatever i will say.

I admit, if i see someone crying i dont know what to do.

If i see someone angry, i dont know what to say.

I feel awkward anyway.

I dont know how to show my farewell.

I depart and never look back.

It will took me a while before i realise it.

If you show me love.

I dont know how to show it back to you.

I feel lousy anyway.

But what can i say?

And half the time, i pretend like i dont care.

But then i do.

But people always misunderstood.

But do you think i care??

I hate to say this, but i have drifted away.

Further away from you.

Im neutral.

Between hate and love.

Im going with the flow.

To wherever it takes me.

Fly over the moon.

Nice moon tonight...

Finally can touch my computer...

Been busy for the past few days especially with PDS...
Wahhh, all our efforts and sweat are finally paid off, Bowen was selected to represent Singapore!!! Yeahh!!!
Im flying... oooohhh
Macau here i come!!!

Okay thats all that im posting.
Dont know what else to talk about.

Oyeah, went for shooting just now. Scored 28 points only. Still lousy. Haiyahh...

Cool english homework. Play with Scrapblog.

Im still unfixed.

Heart, im not ready to accept anyone.

Im not ready for you but im lost without you.

How i wish i could ignore you.
But i simply cant.

And you are not the reason why i want to hold on.

And im tired of love.

I need to be alone.

But im not sure if i want to be alone.

Let me settle my problems.

Let me find peace in the comfort of my own.

Let me be independent.

I need to fix myself.

Fix my broken heart.

Heal my saddened soul.

Nasty But Noble

Im starting off my blog with some of what you people might call "bitch-talking".

Hate is a strong word, but right now i just really really really dont like you. Everything about you pisses me off, it makes me want to fart at your very fugly face! You know, you may think you are cute and bla bla bla just because people at your home pampers you like some baby girl of theirs. But hey you are 15 going 16!!! You dont expect people to be oh-so-really-nice to you!! Dont ever think that you are cute! And I dont even know what is it that they see in you, probably you put a spell on them. You made my friend cry not once, not twice but thrice in a day!! Fuckdamnit! And i hate that!!

And to that guy, i really cant understand why in the first place that you actually liked her.
Are you f---ing  blind or what??
Cant you see?? She is only using you to get what she wants and when she does and gets tired of you, she will dumb you.
Think!! Remember!! Who have you been waiting for all this while before you got distracted with that girl. Remember, she has been waiting for you to ask her again. She has feelings for you! A pure one!!


Okay just ignored that part if you dont have any idea what im talking about.


And really, im just so evil...
Me and my prank smses... geeshhh
Seriously, what is it with girls sms-ing strangers with an excuse to make more friends. That is totally bullshit. Who knows if whoever you were messaging turns out to be some pervert, rapist or even a con man. Please lah girls, dont present yourself to criminal minds. You are just opening gates for them to take advantage of you.
And who the fuck has been spreading my number??
Im getting weird messages from weird people.
The last time was some Indonesian guy/gay calling me in the middle of the night like persistently. Despite all my rejections he kept calling me. And the best thing was after getting the fuck word from me, he said sorry and goodnight. Like what the fuck? My night has been ruined thanks to you!!


Tomorrow is Monday, Monday spells school.

Another Misery in My Life

Heart pain sia!!!!!!!!

I almost finished my video larh seyh.....
Then everything gone again!!!
Because of one ************ who accidentally switched off the lap top...
I havent even get to save the video.

ArggghhhhhhHHHhHhhhhhh!!!!! BOOOODDDOOOhhhh!!!!!

Fikir senang aper nak buat video!!! Taik!!

Off-Mood

Haisshhh... i just hope that it is a rumour.
Just as when i want to start respecting you. Just as when i thought that i could trust you.
If this turns out to be true.
Well, i will be superly unhappy about it.
I didnt give 4 years of my life for a shit nothing.

Telling us from the start is better than to keep it unknown from us, giving us fake hope and then getting disappointed after knowing the awful truth.
How can you fairly judge a crowd when you have only been looking at one?

I see you as a role model. I see you and i respected you. Please dont tell me that it is a mistake to do so.


Is there corruption in our system?



Anyway, i will randomly end my post by congratulating my friends on their 2nd month. Eventhough its only 2 months and its nothing much compared to some other couples. I wish you guys a long-lasting relationship. To the boy, you better treat the girl good. :)

And in two days, in case i dont get to post. Happy 9th monthsary?? To Huda and Fareez...

Who else??

Im bored and currently living a misery and nightmare.




I dream a lot, I know you say
You've got to get away
The world is not yours for the taking
Is all you ever say

I know I'm not the best for you
But promise that you'll stay
'Cause if I watch you go, you'll see me wasting
You'll see me wasting away

'Cause today you walked out of my life
'Cause today your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life

Goodbyes are meant for lonely people
Standing in the rain
And no matter where I go
It's always pouring all the same

These streets are filled with memories
Both perfect and in pain
And all I wanna do is love you
But I'm the only one to blame

'Cause today you walked out of my life
'Cause today your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life

(But what do I know if you're leaving?)
All you did was stop the bleeding
But these scars will stay forever
These scars will stay forever

And these words they have no meaning
If we cannot find the feeling
That we held on to together
Try your hardest to remember

Stay with me or watch me bleed
I need you just to breathe

'Cause today you walked out of my life
(Stay with me or watch me bleed)
'Cause today your words felt like a knife
(I need you just to breathe)
I'm not living this life

An asshole I Am.

Hmmm.... i dont know what i did...but i think i just locked my SIM card and i have no idea how to unlock it. Tried to call Starhub a couple of times but to no avail. Too busy to serve me i guess... sad seyh... i want cry to sleep lah.
 Tapi, one thing im relieved about is that i didnt foolishly locked my phone. So still can use my phone but currently incontactable.

Andand, this week i feel really sick and i suck. Like a Dumbass Hyriah.
I have super moodswings.
Always feeling like wanting to pick a fight or just total ignorance.

And today, i swear i wasnt in a peak of mood.
Last night found out about stuffs that i wasnt favourable of. It breaks my heart.
But nevermind, i must learn how to let go of the past. learn to let live with it.

Wednesday, went for campcraft training. Not in the team, but for the sake of looking around.
I mostly observed the flagstaff. Im experienced but it was like 2 years ago, so i have yet to remember all the small details and stuff. Trying to recall them all.
Anyways, campcraft team... Its probably because it has been weeks since they last trained. So i think they needed the time to get back on track, get themselves tuned in to campcraft channel. But they are wayyyyy out of timing. Come on guys!! Give me a better timing. :)
Needs a lot of patience, perseverance, speed and knowing-what-to-do-next.
Competition is in a month's time. Not much of training left. So need to buck up eyhhs...
Pitied all the peggers who have injured themselves.
For all the trainings, i have never bled. I have a very soft skin that is sensitive of friction, it blisters almost everytime. It must have been the method you peg.


And im sorry if i hurt you.
Im just not ready. And im confused.

Nutshell!

One whole week in a Nutshell.

Well, lets go by day.
Monday, received my 'O' Level result.
Maths B3 (not bad after constant failing of maths paper during exams)
HMT C6 (surprise to know that i passed. Because i have never passed HMT paper)
Though i should be crediting myself for getting such results but i feel like i can do much better.
So im re-taking my maths paper.
Oyeah, i didnt even bother to show my result slip to my parents.
Simply because its not really a good one. No point showing anyway. Wait until i get better results then i shall show it to them. teehee :)

Tuesday, nothing much happened. Not one that i can remember of.

Wednesday, same too.

Thursday, cant remember of any.


Friday, NPCC!! Sec One Orientation. Hmm... expecting a new batch of hyped cadets.
Great. Expecting a busy schedule for NPCC.

Saturday, today...
I shall post it tomorrow. Im tired. Yawn!!!

Now im fucking pissed off because i just typed a whole story and now i lost it!!!! FUCK!! Fuck!! Fuck!! I wanna cry!!!! NOw fuck hell i have to re-type again!!

nO fUCKING mOOD aLREADY lARH cb!!fUCK!! bloody hell!! bull shit! knn!! Fed up larh sial!!

Rolling on my bed laughing, cursing, and feel like crying because i wrote it damn long and now its just gone poof!! Just like that!!
Now am i crying or laughing??

I think im getting my period soon because i just cant control my emotions!! Banging my head on the pillow!!! Bad mood. Bad mood. Bad mood!!!

CCA Openhouse

hehs.. im not in the mood to blog but im bored.
So perhaps i will just make it short.

Cca openhouse went smoothly but then, i didnt think we managed to get many people to sign up, but hopefully we would at least get about 30 cadets to join us. Everything else was great. We really have to give the credits to the current ncos, they really did a good job. Nice one guys!! Especially the gift, that one was a really great idea and it takes a lot of effort to do so. So sec 3s learn from them! Creative and Hardworking!! However, the cadets somehow didnt really impress me as well as the ncos did. During the march around the school especially which made the nco and seniors ncos frustrated due to their so spiritless and totally uncoordinated marching. I meant what happened?? Did we not practice our drills on Friday? Whats the point of training but in the end not doing it right on the actual day? And also, making a fool out of yourself? The parents were literally giggling...
And the most irritating part is, to echo after your leader. Cant you cadets shout?
Is shouting something that is so hard to do?

Anyways tomorrow is Edusave Scholarship Award Presentation at Xinmin Sec... must wake up early..

330th post...

Happy People!!

Changed my blogskin again... I find everything on one page is way easier than buttons.
Its funny how i can actually find time to do all this complicating stuffs.
Luckily it didnt take me long to find a nice blogskin.

Done with my homeworks... yeah...except that out of laziness, i decided to skip my Geography revision.

Anyways... today, my eyes are making problems again... I hate it, hate it hate it very much. Why do i have too sensitive skin?? Goosshhh!! pfft
Hope it gets better and the faster it does, the better. Yeahh :)

Andand... yeah in one day i managed to watch four episodes of Vampire Diaries consecutively. Did my maths homework, english and part of physics. I intend to complete the physics paper during my free period.

O level results out next monday, 11/01.
Scared for my Maths and HMT paper.
I hope i pass my Maths so that i dont have to retake again. Because honestly, my maths are getting rusty, needs some sharpening.. Haiyoo.

Lastly, i love you people!
To those i might have scolded or show a little attitude, im sorry but
sometimes you just deserve it. Now i know why people dislike you. Hate is a strong word, but right now i really really really dont like you. Face it, you are one lousy ******. :|

my 329th post. :)

Hello people!!!
First day of school.
Feel super weird coming back to school.
Feel very alien-ed... ;)
phheehhehehe

Saw the timetable, and i realised i have a lot of free periods.
Slacking/ schooling... but hehee, nevermind lah, can use those periods to do revision... :)
Sounds rajin of me... ooopppss...macam aje...
Then anyway... after school... Go jalan-jalan...
Went to Hougang Point. McD full house only got the high table, not comfortable... so waited at KFC...but i wanted to eat ice-cream, KFC no ice-cream lah...so back again to McD. Wait for one auntie to eat finish, but she take damn long luhh... haiish. At last got seat...
Saw Afiqah a couple of times. Some times, buat tak nampak... sorry uhhs
She likes to daydream seyh...
Saw her staring at empty space like a lot of times...
Thinking about boyfriend is it?? ;) haha


A few add-ons...
Watched Alvin and the Chipmunks 2, yesterday with Rosma and Shahira. The two guys Hariz and Khairil dont want to watch so they ended up walking around E-hub and then later on went home. Why dont guys like cute stuffs?? They are missing too much FUN. teehee :)

Andand Shahira, Thank you for the uniforms!! :) I was planning to buy one, and just trying my luck by asking you if i could have one since you said you have a lot and some you dont even wear... but didnt think that you would really agree to that. :) Thank you babe!!

And yeah, Hayati i saw my name on your blog!! haha... thanks eyh... i wish i could actually join you guys in the sec one orientation. I had so much fun with you guys last year. i wanted to, but wast sure if i could haiisshh...but its okay its alright. at least i can still see you the rest of the year :) right??

And hey, Ms Normala is now a Police Officer?? Inspector Normala... Cool or whatt?? Im jealous... She is pretty and she is an officer. I think she just inspired me. awwww... and she is my form teacher!! And i am from 5A1...has always been since sec 1.
1A1. 2A1. 3A1. 4A1. 5A1.

Kau Ilhamku

Beribu bintang dilangit
Kini menghilang
Meraba aku dalam kelam
Rembulan mengambang
Kini makin suram
Pudar ilhamku tanpa arah

Sedetik wajahmu muncul
Dalam diam
Ada kerdipan ada sinar
Itukah bintang ataupun rembulan
Terima kasih ku ucapkan

Izinkan ku mencuri bayangan wajahmu
Izinkan ku mencuri khayalan denganmu
Maafkanlah oh...
Andai lagu ini
Mengganggu ruangan hidupmu
Kau senyumlah oh...
Sekadar memori
Kita di arena ini
Kau ilhamku
Kau ilhamku... 

Heyyo!!!

Urrrmmmm, above is a lyric of a very old song... I dont know why but recently i have been listening to old songs... neyh i think i just want to get that old feeling...hehe :)

And anyway, today happens to be my last day @ work...haiisshh, kinda heart-rending... would LOVE to stay longer but circumstances doesnt allow it, anyhow maybe im going back after 'O' level. Should i?

People @ Carrefour are good-natured and out-going.

I guess im really blessed to be working with them for my first work experience. :)

And i should say, i really learn a lot from this experience. Most important lesson is that, there are a whole lot of people from all walks of life. Its a real eye-opener that there are all kinds of people out there. Especially, making friends with a lot of people that lets you have a better understanding and introduces you to more stuffs. Though many of my colleagues smokes, and where at some point of time i am a little tempted but also there are some time when you tell them that you dont smoke, you are kind of proud of yourself. teehee :)

They are still good people, with a heart of gold.

School starts in 1 day.

Put your hands up!!!

yeehoo!!


On a random note, i think that if someone tells another person not to leave them...Isnt that kind of sound pathetic, that you have to ask/beg the person not to leave you. Its like, are you feeling insecure or what?? Saying, "dont ever leave me. Or else i am nothing without you." Is the same as saying, "dont ever leave me. You dont know what i can do to you." I think some of you might be laughing at this sentence but yeahh... thats what i think... Sometimes it sounds like a threat. Its just my thinking lah.. Kalau terasa, not my pasal... oopss=.='
And next is, whenever a guy promises to a girl, that they will always be there to help the girl whenever she faces a tragic incident...but here is the deal, most of the time they dont know that they are the cause of the tragic incident. So how are you going to help when you are the problem?? =.='
And pppplllleeaasseee!!! Dont tell me you need the 3 words, "I love you"... What??? Doesnt your partner tell you "i love you" enough??? =.='
And this is just a random note, i shall remind you again. If somehow you find any similarities to what you might have wrote on your blog. Please you might want to think again. These examples are actually taken from a person's blog but please dont think its yours. Think positive. Just think that i wrote it based on someone else's blog okay?? :)

I am laughing my ass out!!! hahahahxx :)

01/01/10>>> Cool huh?...

Heylo people!!

Dogs are also welcomed! :)

Hhhmmm, feel very lazy to go to work these days... Cant wait to get back to school. Yeahyeahyeah!! I miss school!!! :(


So the next few paragraphs are dedicated specially for 2009. :)
Honestly typing, some were wrote on a carrefour plastic bag...
Mostly its my reflection... It may get boring, but yeah whatever lah eyh...

2009 ~ A beautiful Tragedy

Well, i must say, last year wasnt a really hoohahh-feeling-good-everyday year.
Though for the first few months it felt like it, before everything changed. But yeah, i have past over it.

All the stress and sadness were a burden yet it was beautifully painful. These pains were made to last.

It still feels real, but its beginning to fade...

Life is never the same after all the dilemas.

I have changed and so has everyone else. Either good or bad. ;)
And definitely, everything that has happened has shaped me to what i am today.
From Npcc, Passing-Out-Parade that has made my squad wayyyy united! Indeed i love them very much and none can replace anyone of them. They are uniquely them that fills every space perfectly thats makes up a more than a billion words picture.
And most of all i would like to thank every friend and enemies for existing in my life. No friend, my life would be lonely. No enemy, my life wouldnt be so exciting. (I am someone who finds amusement in pissing people off, so if you layan me, you have just amused me...teehee)
Especially my friends who have been with me all along through thick and thin. Faced with many challenges, but still we hold on tight and stayed together.  Like a never-ending journey, we didnt know which path would lead us to where but we have never lost each other. And most importantly, THANK YOU for tolerating my nonsense all these years, understanding me and being with me! And i could continue bragging about you guys, but it still wouldnt be enough for me to say how thankful i am to God for creating my destiny that involves you people! :))

I have forgive and i have forget.
2010 is a new scrapbook for me to scribble on! Yeahhh!!!

Tomorrow last day of work. I wanna cry. 8'(