A Day Out

hehs... Went out with 2nd sis and lil bro.
Mrt-ed to Orchard. Walked around at Far East Plaza looking for my shoes. Saw a few nice ones, but the price was affordable but just not worth it and some were wayyy expensive.
Then we had our lunch at Dahlia Restaurant.
Walked and Mrt-ed to Bishan J8.
Decided to watch movies, but then something happened.
So Mrt-ed again to AMK.
Watched Legion, wanted to find out how stupid the show is.
A little waste of money but definitely amusing laughing at their storyline.
People!!! Do not watch Legion! It suck!!
Stupid crappy storyline.
And if you dont have a strong hold of a religion, you are so gonna be fooled by this movie.
Yeehaa!!

And anyway, i finally bought something that i had promised to someone. The question now is how to get it to her. Must find time.
And oops i didnt do my homeworks...
Tomorrow my sprint through them.
So thats it for now :)

Did that through scrapblog.

Look okay lah...

Anyway, my first try... teehee :D

My confessions:

I really dont know what i want.

I dont know how to react towards you.

Im not sure if its you that i need.

But somehow, i have seem to wrap myself around

by just being me.

I am weird.

I cant express myself right.

I laugh at a moment of sadness.

I smile at the moment of shock.

Im amuse at the sight of pain.

I cry at a celebration.

And persuading and consoling people have never been my thing.

If you dont want it, then thats okay. Whatever i will say.

I admit, if i see someone crying i dont know what to do.

If i see someone angry, i dont know what to say.

I feel awkward anyway.

I dont know how to show my farewell.

I depart and never look back.

It will took me a while before i realise it.

If you show me love.

I dont know how to show it back to you.

I feel lousy anyway.

But what can i say?

And half the time, i pretend like i dont care.

But then i do.

But people always misunderstood.

But do you think i care??

I hate to say this, but i have drifted away.

Further away from you.

Im neutral.

Between hate and love.

Im going with the flow.

To wherever it takes me.

Fly over the moon.

Nice moon tonight...

Finally can touch my computer...

Been busy for the past few days especially with PDS...
Wahhh, all our efforts and sweat are finally paid off, Bowen was selected to represent Singapore!!! Yeahh!!!
Im flying... oooohhh
Macau here i come!!!

Okay thats all that im posting.
Dont know what else to talk about.

Oyeah, went for shooting just now. Scored 28 points only. Still lousy. Haiyahh...

Cool english homework. Play with Scrapblog.

Im still unfixed.

Heart, im not ready to accept anyone.

Im not ready for you but im lost without you.

How i wish i could ignore you.
But i simply cant.

And you are not the reason why i want to hold on.

And im tired of love.

I need to be alone.

But im not sure if i want to be alone.

Let me settle my problems.

Let me find peace in the comfort of my own.

Let me be independent.

I need to fix myself.

Fix my broken heart.

Heal my saddened soul.

Nasty But Noble

Im starting off my blog with some of what you people might call "bitch-talking".

Hate is a strong word, but right now i just really really really dont like you. Everything about you pisses me off, it makes me want to fart at your very fugly face! You know, you may think you are cute and bla bla bla just because people at your home pampers you like some baby girl of theirs. But hey you are 15 going 16!!! You dont expect people to be oh-so-really-nice to you!! Dont ever think that you are cute! And I dont even know what is it that they see in you, probably you put a spell on them. You made my friend cry not once, not twice but thrice in a day!! Fuckdamnit! And i hate that!!

And to that guy, i really cant understand why in the first place that you actually liked her.
Are you f---ing  blind or what??
Cant you see?? She is only using you to get what she wants and when she does and gets tired of you, she will dumb you.
Think!! Remember!! Who have you been waiting for all this while before you got distracted with that girl. Remember, she has been waiting for you to ask her again. She has feelings for you! A pure one!!


Okay just ignored that part if you dont have any idea what im talking about.


And really, im just so evil...
Me and my prank smses... geeshhh
Seriously, what is it with girls sms-ing strangers with an excuse to make more friends. That is totally bullshit. Who knows if whoever you were messaging turns out to be some pervert, rapist or even a con man. Please lah girls, dont present yourself to criminal minds. You are just opening gates for them to take advantage of you.
And who the fuck has been spreading my number??
Im getting weird messages from weird people.
The last time was some Indonesian guy/gay calling me in the middle of the night like persistently. Despite all my rejections he kept calling me. And the best thing was after getting the fuck word from me, he said sorry and goodnight. Like what the fuck? My night has been ruined thanks to you!!


Tomorrow is Monday, Monday spells school.

Another Misery in My Life

Heart pain sia!!!!!!!!

I almost finished my video larh seyh.....
Then everything gone again!!!
Because of one ************ who accidentally switched off the lap top...
I havent even get to save the video.

ArggghhhhhhHHHhHhhhhhh!!!!! BOOOODDDOOOhhhh!!!!!

Fikir senang aper nak buat video!!! Taik!!

Off-Mood

Haisshhh... i just hope that it is a rumour.
Just as when i want to start respecting you. Just as when i thought that i could trust you.
If this turns out to be true.
Well, i will be superly unhappy about it.
I didnt give 4 years of my life for a shit nothing.

Telling us from the start is better than to keep it unknown from us, giving us fake hope and then getting disappointed after knowing the awful truth.
How can you fairly judge a crowd when you have only been looking at one?

I see you as a role model. I see you and i respected you. Please dont tell me that it is a mistake to do so.


Is there corruption in our system?



Anyway, i will randomly end my post by congratulating my friends on their 2nd month. Eventhough its only 2 months and its nothing much compared to some other couples. I wish you guys a long-lasting relationship. To the boy, you better treat the girl good. :)

And in two days, in case i dont get to post. Happy 9th monthsary?? To Huda and Fareez...

Who else??

Im bored and currently living a misery and nightmare.




I dream a lot, I know you say
You've got to get away
The world is not yours for the taking
Is all you ever say

I know I'm not the best for you
But promise that you'll stay
'Cause if I watch you go, you'll see me wasting
You'll see me wasting away

'Cause today you walked out of my life
'Cause today your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life

Goodbyes are meant for lonely people
Standing in the rain
And no matter where I go
It's always pouring all the same

These streets are filled with memories
Both perfect and in pain
And all I wanna do is love you
But I'm the only one to blame

'Cause today you walked out of my life
'Cause today your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life

(But what do I know if you're leaving?)
All you did was stop the bleeding
But these scars will stay forever
These scars will stay forever

And these words they have no meaning
If we cannot find the feeling
That we held on to together
Try your hardest to remember

Stay with me or watch me bleed
I need you just to breathe

'Cause today you walked out of my life
(Stay with me or watch me bleed)
'Cause today your words felt like a knife
(I need you just to breathe)
I'm not living this life

An asshole I Am.

Hmmm.... i dont know what i did...but i think i just locked my SIM card and i have no idea how to unlock it. Tried to call Starhub a couple of times but to no avail. Too busy to serve me i guess... sad seyh... i want cry to sleep lah.
 Tapi, one thing im relieved about is that i didnt foolishly locked my phone. So still can use my phone but currently incontactable.

Andand, this week i feel really sick and i suck. Like a Dumbass Hyriah.
I have super moodswings.
Always feeling like wanting to pick a fight or just total ignorance.

And today, i swear i wasnt in a peak of mood.
Last night found out about stuffs that i wasnt favourable of. It breaks my heart.
But nevermind, i must learn how to let go of the past. learn to let live with it.

Wednesday, went for campcraft training. Not in the team, but for the sake of looking around.
I mostly observed the flagstaff. Im experienced but it was like 2 years ago, so i have yet to remember all the small details and stuff. Trying to recall them all.
Anyways, campcraft team... Its probably because it has been weeks since they last trained. So i think they needed the time to get back on track, get themselves tuned in to campcraft channel. But they are wayyyyy out of timing. Come on guys!! Give me a better timing. :)
Needs a lot of patience, perseverance, speed and knowing-what-to-do-next.
Competition is in a month's time. Not much of training left. So need to buck up eyhhs...
Pitied all the peggers who have injured themselves.
For all the trainings, i have never bled. I have a very soft skin that is sensitive of friction, it blisters almost everytime. It must have been the method you peg.


And im sorry if i hurt you.
Im just not ready. And im confused.

Nutshell!

One whole week in a Nutshell.

Well, lets go by day.
Monday, received my 'O' Level result.
Maths B3 (not bad after constant failing of maths paper during exams)
HMT C6 (surprise to know that i passed. Because i have never passed HMT paper)
Though i should be crediting myself for getting such results but i feel like i can do much better.
So im re-taking my maths paper.
Oyeah, i didnt even bother to show my result slip to my parents.
Simply because its not really a good one. No point showing anyway. Wait until i get better results then i shall show it to them. teehee :)

Tuesday, nothing much happened. Not one that i can remember of.

Wednesday, same too.

Thursday, cant remember of any.


Friday, NPCC!! Sec One Orientation. Hmm... expecting a new batch of hyped cadets.
Great. Expecting a busy schedule for NPCC.

Saturday, today...
I shall post it tomorrow. Im tired. Yawn!!!

Now im fucking pissed off because i just typed a whole story and now i lost it!!!! FUCK!! Fuck!! Fuck!! I wanna cry!!!! NOw fuck hell i have to re-type again!!

nO fUCKING mOOD aLREADY lARH cb!!fUCK!! bloody hell!! bull shit! knn!! Fed up larh sial!!

Rolling on my bed laughing, cursing, and feel like crying because i wrote it damn long and now its just gone poof!! Just like that!!
Now am i crying or laughing??

I think im getting my period soon because i just cant control my emotions!! Banging my head on the pillow!!! Bad mood. Bad mood. Bad mood!!!

CCA Openhouse

hehs.. im not in the mood to blog but im bored.
So perhaps i will just make it short.

Cca openhouse went smoothly but then, i didnt think we managed to get many people to sign up, but hopefully we would at least get about 30 cadets to join us. Everything else was great. We really have to give the credits to the current ncos, they really did a good job. Nice one guys!! Especially the gift, that one was a really great idea and it takes a lot of effort to do so. So sec 3s learn from them! Creative and Hardworking!! However, the cadets somehow didnt really impress me as well as the ncos did. During the march around the school especially which made the nco and seniors ncos frustrated due to their so spiritless and totally uncoordinated marching. I meant what happened?? Did we not practice our drills on Friday? Whats the point of training but in the end not doing it right on the actual day? And also, making a fool out of yourself? The parents were literally giggling...
And the most irritating part is, to echo after your leader. Cant you cadets shout?
Is shouting something that is so hard to do?

Anyways tomorrow is Edusave Scholarship Award Presentation at Xinmin Sec... must wake up early..

330th post...

Happy People!!

Changed my blogskin again... I find everything on one page is way easier than buttons.
Its funny how i can actually find time to do all this complicating stuffs.
Luckily it didnt take me long to find a nice blogskin.

Done with my homeworks... yeah...except that out of laziness, i decided to skip my Geography revision.

Anyways... today, my eyes are making problems again... I hate it, hate it hate it very much. Why do i have too sensitive skin?? Goosshhh!! pfft
Hope it gets better and the faster it does, the better. Yeahh :)

Andand... yeah in one day i managed to watch four episodes of Vampire Diaries consecutively. Did my maths homework, english and part of physics. I intend to complete the physics paper during my free period.

O level results out next monday, 11/01.
Scared for my Maths and HMT paper.
I hope i pass my Maths so that i dont have to retake again. Because honestly, my maths are getting rusty, needs some sharpening.. Haiyoo.

Lastly, i love you people!
To those i might have scolded or show a little attitude, im sorry but
sometimes you just deserve it. Now i know why people dislike you. Hate is a strong word, but right now i really really really dont like you. Face it, you are one lousy ******. :|

my 329th post. :)

Hello people!!!
First day of school.
Feel super weird coming back to school.
Feel very alien-ed... ;)
phheehhehehe

Saw the timetable, and i realised i have a lot of free periods.
Slacking/ schooling... but hehee, nevermind lah, can use those periods to do revision... :)
Sounds rajin of me... ooopppss...macam aje...
Then anyway... after school... Go jalan-jalan...
Went to Hougang Point. McD full house only got the high table, not comfortable... so waited at KFC...but i wanted to eat ice-cream, KFC no ice-cream lah...so back again to McD. Wait for one auntie to eat finish, but she take damn long luhh... haiish. At last got seat...
Saw Afiqah a couple of times. Some times, buat tak nampak... sorry uhhs
She likes to daydream seyh...
Saw her staring at empty space like a lot of times...
Thinking about boyfriend is it?? ;) haha


A few add-ons...
Watched Alvin and the Chipmunks 2, yesterday with Rosma and Shahira. The two guys Hariz and Khairil dont want to watch so they ended up walking around E-hub and then later on went home. Why dont guys like cute stuffs?? They are missing too much FUN. teehee :)

Andand Shahira, Thank you for the uniforms!! :) I was planning to buy one, and just trying my luck by asking you if i could have one since you said you have a lot and some you dont even wear... but didnt think that you would really agree to that. :) Thank you babe!!

And yeah, Hayati i saw my name on your blog!! haha... thanks eyh... i wish i could actually join you guys in the sec one orientation. I had so much fun with you guys last year. i wanted to, but wast sure if i could haiisshh...but its okay its alright. at least i can still see you the rest of the year :) right??

And hey, Ms Normala is now a Police Officer?? Inspector Normala... Cool or whatt?? Im jealous... She is pretty and she is an officer. I think she just inspired me. awwww... and she is my form teacher!! And i am from 5A1...has always been since sec 1.
1A1. 2A1. 3A1. 4A1. 5A1.

Kau Ilhamku

Beribu bintang dilangit
Kini menghilang
Meraba aku dalam kelam
Rembulan mengambang
Kini makin suram
Pudar ilhamku tanpa arah

Sedetik wajahmu muncul
Dalam diam
Ada kerdipan ada sinar
Itukah bintang ataupun rembulan
Terima kasih ku ucapkan

Izinkan ku mencuri bayangan wajahmu
Izinkan ku mencuri khayalan denganmu
Maafkanlah oh...
Andai lagu ini
Mengganggu ruangan hidupmu
Kau senyumlah oh...
Sekadar memori
Kita di arena ini
Kau ilhamku
Kau ilhamku... 

Heyyo!!!

Urrrmmmm, above is a lyric of a very old song... I dont know why but recently i have been listening to old songs... neyh i think i just want to get that old feeling...hehe :)

And anyway, today happens to be my last day @ work...haiisshh, kinda heart-rending... would LOVE to stay longer but circumstances doesnt allow it, anyhow maybe im going back after 'O' level. Should i?

People @ Carrefour are good-natured and out-going.

I guess im really blessed to be working with them for my first work experience. :)

And i should say, i really learn a lot from this experience. Most important lesson is that, there are a whole lot of people from all walks of life. Its a real eye-opener that there are all kinds of people out there. Especially, making friends with a lot of people that lets you have a better understanding and introduces you to more stuffs. Though many of my colleagues smokes, and where at some point of time i am a little tempted but also there are some time when you tell them that you dont smoke, you are kind of proud of yourself. teehee :)

They are still good people, with a heart of gold.

School starts in 1 day.

Put your hands up!!!

yeehoo!!


On a random note, i think that if someone tells another person not to leave them...Isnt that kind of sound pathetic, that you have to ask/beg the person not to leave you. Its like, are you feeling insecure or what?? Saying, "dont ever leave me. Or else i am nothing without you." Is the same as saying, "dont ever leave me. You dont know what i can do to you." I think some of you might be laughing at this sentence but yeahh... thats what i think... Sometimes it sounds like a threat. Its just my thinking lah.. Kalau terasa, not my pasal... oopss=.='
And next is, whenever a guy promises to a girl, that they will always be there to help the girl whenever she faces a tragic incident...but here is the deal, most of the time they dont know that they are the cause of the tragic incident. So how are you going to help when you are the problem?? =.='
And pppplllleeaasseee!!! Dont tell me you need the 3 words, "I love you"... What??? Doesnt your partner tell you "i love you" enough??? =.='
And this is just a random note, i shall remind you again. If somehow you find any similarities to what you might have wrote on your blog. Please you might want to think again. These examples are actually taken from a person's blog but please dont think its yours. Think positive. Just think that i wrote it based on someone else's blog okay?? :)

I am laughing my ass out!!! hahahahxx :)

01/01/10>>> Cool huh?...

Heylo people!!

Dogs are also welcomed! :)

Hhhmmm, feel very lazy to go to work these days... Cant wait to get back to school. Yeahyeahyeah!! I miss school!!! :(


So the next few paragraphs are dedicated specially for 2009. :)
Honestly typing, some were wrote on a carrefour plastic bag...
Mostly its my reflection... It may get boring, but yeah whatever lah eyh...

2009 ~ A beautiful Tragedy

Well, i must say, last year wasnt a really hoohahh-feeling-good-everyday year.
Though for the first few months it felt like it, before everything changed. But yeah, i have past over it.

All the stress and sadness were a burden yet it was beautifully painful. These pains were made to last.

It still feels real, but its beginning to fade...

Life is never the same after all the dilemas.

I have changed and so has everyone else. Either good or bad. ;)
And definitely, everything that has happened has shaped me to what i am today.
From Npcc, Passing-Out-Parade that has made my squad wayyyy united! Indeed i love them very much and none can replace anyone of them. They are uniquely them that fills every space perfectly thats makes up a more than a billion words picture.
And most of all i would like to thank every friend and enemies for existing in my life. No friend, my life would be lonely. No enemy, my life wouldnt be so exciting. (I am someone who finds amusement in pissing people off, so if you layan me, you have just amused me...teehee)
Especially my friends who have been with me all along through thick and thin. Faced with many challenges, but still we hold on tight and stayed together.  Like a never-ending journey, we didnt know which path would lead us to where but we have never lost each other. And most importantly, THANK YOU for tolerating my nonsense all these years, understanding me and being with me! And i could continue bragging about you guys, but it still wouldnt be enough for me to say how thankful i am to God for creating my destiny that involves you people! :))

I have forgive and i have forget.
2010 is a new scrapbook for me to scribble on! Yeahhh!!!

Tomorrow last day of work. I wanna cry. 8'(