Hello hello and hello people.

Im back and im not DEAD yet..hehe
So let me see, this past few days, same, working, and i had to work overtime yesterday. Damn bloody TIRED.
My legs feel like nak mampus already.
This morning almost overslept.
Hehs, me and Shahira came a little late.
Today i had to do the POSB counter. Damn complicated sia. I was wondering why they had to asked me to do it when there is like a few old-timers who can do it, why ask a 1 month experienced girl to do??
Luckily i learned fast, but i was very very nervous!!!
Then after that, my partner had to go for her break, so left me alone down there. Sialan... haiish
But not that bad anyway, its just time-consuming. oops
Then went to break alone, because Shahira went home early. She wasnt feeling well. haiish...im alone again. phiish

Other than that, i was so pissed with Esprit, yeah i said it.
Is Singapore so big that it takes a week for my Jacket to arrive and Tampines One from dont know where Novena?? huh? huh? huh? Take so long for what sial? Its not like its from overseas import to Singapore right right right? Bodoh sial!!

Andandand, Shahira please stop teasing me with that guy... i dont like him, or maybe i do, but at any case, NO! Its a NO! No way im getting involve in this messed up affairs again.Shooh shooh shooh all those thoughts!! Stop daydreaming!! Remember, you are there to work, your mind musnt fly away to somewhere else!! But i saw him today!! :) Heartbeat a little off. But still NO!!!!!!!!!!!

Oyeah, i must say this. KHALID IS WORKING AT CARREFOUR TOO!!!
He works 6 days!!! Monday to Saturday!!
Now he has work!!
And i would LOVE to see him SUFFER the first few days!!! muahahah
I hope he gets Fancy as his trainer, she is good and naggy!! :))
And Khalid, Carrefour got a lot of pretty girls, go pick one!!! hahaxx ;)

-oh-Oh-oh, I found out that Nadu's dad is working at Carrefour too. No wonder, like familiar...but i had no idea. And i also know where she is working...haha... shall go there and eat some time. Pizza smells delicious, right Raihan??

oH-MY-gOD suddenly that guy's face pops out... no!!!!


And yeah, forgetting him was too easy.
Maybe, i didnt like him in the FIRST PLACE either!!! HAhah!
Tsk tsk tsk, He really plays dirty, but he doesnt know that i played dirtier even before he did.
Im so OVER you!!!!
And soon soon soon i think i will forgive you...
And maybe soon soon soon i wont hate you.
takes time lah. :)


Cant wait for tomorrow, im begging my dad to let me join. Daddy please!!!!!!
Im begging begging youuuuuuu!!!!

New song that i have been blasting into my ears...

Surrender By Entwine

I'm on my way
I'm on my way to lose it all
I'm a stranger to myself, I can't go on
I'm all outta space
And I'm surrounded by the wall
I believe that my mind has caught a million storms
Falling down
When you lose all that you are

I surrender
I kneal down
I surrender...
I'm outta faith
I think I'm frail design of life
Deep inside in denial
The shades have grown in silence
I hide my face
I close my eyes
Deep inside in my mind the pain has
corner around me
Falling down
When you lose all that you are

I surrender
I kneal down
I'm dying to find the reason to hold on
Call the lies! Call the lies!
I surrender...

one step at a time

Hello, people...
I am tired and i am sick.
I am shivering right now. Its weirdly cold.
I know i should be resting, but even then i wont be sleeping, and if i dont sleep, means i will be staring at the empty ceiling and then this brain of mine starts thinking and thinking wont be a great idea for the next few days...
Went to work as usual, but on the way... i sort of think about something and got emotional.
So i shoo-ed those thoughts away.
Concentrated on my work.
They were gone.
Then break had to come, and i was left alone.
Got someone to text me.
And to that person, i really appreciate it.
Oyeah, and then Huda and Fareez came...
I shock siott...
I was thinking why this customer never put their items.
Then see their face, like familiar.
Then ough...its them.
I slow reaction larh seyh...
Thanks guys for the concern.
And no worries, i will be strong!!
As strong as Popeye!!
And thanks everyone for wanting to help me!!
I am really touched.
I really need you guys to distract me.
If my mind is not with my body, please please please pull my mind back. :)

And Shahira...tsk tsk tsk...
Tak habis-habis.
Good for you larh.
Happy larh sikit kan, kalau tidak asyik emo jerrr...


WoW, Khairul, that song you told me, Welcome Home by Coheed and Cambria

Is it one of the songs that you are currently playing?
Anyway... the lyrics are cool, but the words are kinda too harsh, even then, i have a very perfect person to dedicate the song too...hahah pfft...

Accidentally

Hello hello people!!
Lets start off the post with happy stuffs eventhough today, 1st Dec happens to be One of my most suckiest days!!

Accidents:
Early in the morning i accidentally swallowed a whole cup of Listerine. Phuuekk!!
And then while eating half-boiled egg, i accidentally poured too much Soya Sauce and then too much pepper.
The egg turns out to be a sweet-sandy-half-boiled-egg.
Selenge of me...
But i kinda enjoy being selenge..bhahah! :)

Then went to Hougang Mall with Bro to get some stuffs...

Then 3pm had to came.
I dreaded...

It was almost as if i was expecting it to come, eventhough i had imagined the worst.

Turns out what i had feared was a reality.
After he explained, i just said i understand him.
And then he continued.
While he was talking i removed the key chain he gave to me that i was holding on to.
And i returned it to him.
I dont want to keep it anymore.

It was a heart shaped key chain given to me with his heart not into it.

He asked if i was okay?
I just said yeah im okay with it, when deep down inside it was like 9/11.
I guess the wall came tumbling down destroying the city...
I acted like as if it didnt matter to me.
All i was thinking of was, i had to get out of there as soon as possible.
Because im about to break.
I didnt want to fall right infront of him.

It felt as if a knife stabbed right through my heart.

And the piercing feeling was unbearable.

I said i was fine, i said i was okay, i said i had expected it, but i had still hoped that it wont turn out this way.

And by the way, you chose a perfect date to say all this stuffs.
I dont blame you either...


Anyway, lets not make myself sound so pathetic.
It may take a while for my heart to heal.
But at least he is OUT of my MIND!
And I just want to move on.
I just hope i could do that.
I just hope the people around me can help me with that.
I feel so hopeless now.

It was so easy for you to say all those.

Now i will just say,

I will act as if you have never existed in my life.

I will act as if i have never known you.

I will act as if it never happened.

And i dont ever want to see you again.

And waiting for you has never been part of me.

And well done, for being the first guy that i have ever hated.