Accidentally

Hello hello people!!
Lets start off the post with happy stuffs eventhough today, 1st Dec happens to be One of my most suckiest days!!

Accidents:
Early in the morning i accidentally swallowed a whole cup of Listerine. Phuuekk!!
And then while eating half-boiled egg, i accidentally poured too much Soya Sauce and then too much pepper.
The egg turns out to be a sweet-sandy-half-boiled-egg.
Selenge of me...
But i kinda enjoy being selenge..bhahah! :)

Then went to Hougang Mall with Bro to get some stuffs...

Then 3pm had to came.
I dreaded...

It was almost as if i was expecting it to come, eventhough i had imagined the worst.

Turns out what i had feared was a reality.
After he explained, i just said i understand him.
And then he continued.
While he was talking i removed the key chain he gave to me that i was holding on to.
And i returned it to him.
I dont want to keep it anymore.

It was a heart shaped key chain given to me with his heart not into it.

He asked if i was okay?
I just said yeah im okay with it, when deep down inside it was like 9/11.
I guess the wall came tumbling down destroying the city...
I acted like as if it didnt matter to me.
All i was thinking of was, i had to get out of there as soon as possible.
Because im about to break.
I didnt want to fall right infront of him.

It felt as if a knife stabbed right through my heart.

And the piercing feeling was unbearable.

I said i was fine, i said i was okay, i said i had expected it, but i had still hoped that it wont turn out this way.

And by the way, you chose a perfect date to say all this stuffs.
I dont blame you either...


Anyway, lets not make myself sound so pathetic.
It may take a while for my heart to heal.
But at least he is OUT of my MIND!
And I just want to move on.
I just hope i could do that.
I just hope the people around me can help me with that.
I feel so hopeless now.

It was so easy for you to say all those.

Now i will just say,

I will act as if you have never existed in my life.

I will act as if i have never known you.

I will act as if it never happened.

And i dont ever want to see you again.

And waiting for you has never been part of me.

And well done, for being the first guy that i have ever hated.