All In A Day's Work

Early in the morning, on the way to school, met up with Jia Wei and Soon Lam, we sort of "raced" to school. (i know its lame)
Jia Wei walk damn fast seyh..
Then Soon Lam, out of no where pinch my arm, TWICE!!! THANKS A LOT MANN!! There already got blue-black. Now got red!! ;(
Then at the corridor, saw Khalid and Rou Hui, so walked with them since we are in the same block... (I saying it as if we are living in hostels, hehex)

Then...PE Lessons, ran one round around school then "play" soccer with Khalid, Rosma, Kumar and Idris. Actually, i sat in the "middle" only...he saved me from a lot of hits.hahax

A.Maths test...i cock up sia...waliaoweyh...i think i fail again. Mr Yeo confirm piss off liao...phiish

English class, group up again... I.....nvm....

Then after school, walk with him to np store and saw J. Chu drinking water, then i smack his stomach then walked away...he was crying in pain larhs but i heck care...then go buy drink with Rosma and Huda...
Saw J.Chu coming after me... So i ran like hell from the canteen to np store, because i can only think of one way to escape, hide behind Khalid lorhhs... Shout for Khalid all the way from canteen. Running for my life!!!
My instincts were right, reach Khalid only, J.Chu stop chasing me. hehex

Then np... help around with the Sec 3s. Improve my calculation skill. LOL
As the Cadet Leaders and Sec 2s were going to HTA to collect their Ceremonial Uniform left only Sec 1s... Me, Farhan Sir, Jeremy Sir and the rest...
Farhan sick so he like want die the face... ahhax!!
Then Tian Soon Sir also came later... End up all of us dont know what to do with the Sec 1s because we weren't given any plans.
Do drills and Golden Eagle (Zhe Xuenn Eagle of the Day!!).
Sian already... went to sat at the bench do quick revision.
Play captain's ball with Sec 1s and CI's... i fell, scratched my leg...

I dont know why, but these few days i seem to be very clumsy...
Blue-black everywhere... Hit and bang on a lot of stuffs. Hit the chairs, wall, almost got stuck in the door, hit tables, almost bang on some people, where the hell is my sense of balance?? hiish!!



i know you are trying to teach me to be independent and not be too dependent on you but its ....

Kwang kwang kwang

Everyone wants to be loved!! =)

One scumbag maggot, trying to act smart! Like seriously!! What a insensitive remark!?? phiish.
Anyway, not going to waste my breathe on that...

School as usual...yeahhs...went school alone again.
i seem to walk faster when alone. Because usually with brother, we would take our own sweet time... yeapps

Suddenly, i enjoy doing maths. Cant stop doing the revision book... need to focus on other subjects liao... =)

English lesson grouped with him.
Fun to have him around.hehex
But Ms Chua absent, so class was boring felt like sleeping but cant because he wont let me. =(
Then CE, i cannot angkat already, so dozed off.
Woke up, had to do the thingy...I blurr but i still did it!!


Anyway... i cant wait for 24th August too!! Or maybe after 'N' levels??

Went home with him, then he talked about something that beats the closest to my heart...end up crying infront of him...
haiish, i feel damn bad, damn guilty and i'm sorry to her.
But the sweet thing is, he was there comforting me and even wiping away my tears. I'm so thankful.
And he is none other than Khalid. Thank you very very much! =)
Loves

HYRIAH ZHOU

Me, me ,Me, ME, mE and more ME!!!

The Bowen NPCC 7 Core Values

Loyalty To Unit

Leadership

Discipline

Professionalism

Fighting Spirit

Aethics

Care For Cadets

Very random...yeahs...right?? I miss NP!!

My Top Priority now is to CONCENTRATE ON MY STUDIES!!

I miss my Stress-free and Care-free life!!

I want it back!! Going to get it back!!

Curious about what could have happened, if only i had say NO in the beginning....

So...Today school was okay.

In the morning, saw a few students washing cars...for fund raising i think... for the past few years many had been doing that...not something new i guess...

Surprisingly, today we never fought ahahx... but a bit irritated by him.

After school, help around with the sec 3s... So nice to help around.

Sec 2s looked very stress... hahax...told them to chill, but haiish

But heyys... i saw someone...i saw him!!

After that, sit outside np store..talked to Riduwan and Rafiq...

Then talked to Hayati my Girlfriend!!! Also with two sarcastic dummies, Ali and Khairil i think...

That Ali one day... i'll team up with Rosma and Huda, bash him up!! Like seriously!!

My dear little brother was sick today... went school alone...very quiet...no one to talk to... because he is forever quiet, i'm the one that talk the most...look at my left, look at my right all i see is my shadow... tomorrow, will be walking to school alone again.. =(

Prabhu!!! Where are you???

Independence Day

Single-hood

Independence Day! Freedom!

benefits of it:::
You can go around liking any guy and no one can stop you.
You dont have to keep telling the other person what you've been doing.
You can message anyone you like.
Blablabla

Disadvantages:::
You see your ex, with another girl... It shucks but hey, you must be happy for him right??
Love is about sacrificing for the happiness of others. Being happy for your loved ones...
Your ex, ignores you... but hey, look around you there is a bunch of other people out there,though its not the same.
You miss your ex, badly... like real bad...
For the first few days, you feel like going back to him... But after a few weeks, you'll learn to get the hang of it...and slowly you'll adapt to your life alone... Miss independent!!



Prabhu got in-house suspension.
Stupid larh he... just stop larh rather than all this troubles...phiish
faster come back school larh.

I'M SICK!!

I'm sick and tired of thinking about all of this.
I dont know whats right and whats real anymore.

Now i think i'm better off standing alone. All alone.
I shall be myself again...
Piece back my broken heart.
The real fact is LOVE Sucks!!
It sucks like hell!!
I think hell can be better!!
I hate!! I hate!! I hate!! I hate!!
When it has recovered, i'm going to keep my heart all for myself.
Keep the door locked!!
From now onwards i dont believe in LOVE!!!
IT SUCKS!!

So whats gonna be??
Once or twice was enough then it was all in pain.
Time starts to fly, before you knew it, you're frozen.


I'm leaving everything behind.
Thanks for keeping me waiting for your answer.
Now i think i have enough...
I'm not waiting anymore...
From now onwards, i'm selfish and i dont think about others.
Hate me all you want!!
But this is ME!!! The Real ME!!
I'm a HATER not a LOVER!!
BYE!BYE!



Anyway, its already 3.15, suppose to meet my friend at 3.00...
I'm not even ready yet....

ONE SQUAD 250709

Hahax!!! whooah....i dont like the word ex...i simply dont and for many reasons... hahax

So Yeapps...woke up early but later...
I bathe too long...hahax...
He waiting downstairs complaining liao...

So anyway, reach school...then remembered that i forgot to bring rubber band...phissh
lalala...

Due to the weather, our parade took place in the hall... Nicely done!!
Mid-parade, kind of lost my concentration...
i was thinking that this was actually our last parade, last march off..i felt solemn and a sense of lost... Now every Friday, what shall i do?? No more NPCC!! Now what can i talk about with my squad mates?? No more NPCC!! Now every afternoon, where shall i hang out?? No more NPCC!! Its like my whole secondary school life revolves around NPCC. No more sedia, no more senang diri, no more hormat, no more.....no more....
But last minute kan chiong want to take off beret... SIOL!!

Then PDS performance!!! I'm so PROUD OF MUHAMMAD KHIDHIR BIN KAMIR!!! MKBK, NKBK COOL kan!!??
He rocks mann!!! And so is the other PDS Members!! Brother-sister rules!! Kapo' awards..hahx!!
Congrats for the MOC award!! hehexx

Then, i must really thank the Sec 3 or rather Cadet Leaders for the very Good Job done!!
Mann!!! I'll miss you guys lotts!! And Maybe, next year we shall be colleagues!! work together. hmmm
I LOVE MY SEC 3s!!! And guys!! Thank you for the gift!! its very comfortable... i've got pictures to proof its usefulness!! One day will post it...L0L

Oyeah Congrats to Khalid and Rouhui for the Best Unit Cadet Award!! hahax



Then later went East Coast Park...hahax
On the way there, i kind of emo...
walk alone at the back... then i actually cried. for what and for why fuck?? Tried to forget and smile, but it was freaking hard!!
Lucky Shafiq got tissue, as he promised on Friday to bring it for us hahax!!
Then ate at McD...
Khalid, Nabil, Dou Heng, Yi Jin and Yi Xiong went off first... sorry guys but you guys miss a lot of FUN!!
Then later both Jonathans went off.
Play with sand, then submerge in water and draw on the sand..hahax..A whole stretch of "vandalism"!!!
Apparently, i dont have the photos.. maybe will get it from Jia Wei...soon


So thats all for today!!
Hmm... 4 years of friendship!!!! 4 years of Enthuism!!!! The best memories are made in Bowen NPCC!!
You guys will always be in my heart,whenever,wherever,however,whyever(??)whatever i may be!! love you guys loads!!

Racial Harmony Day Pictures and About Us

Prabhu... Handsome sia..


Me, Jiawei, Rosma and Shafiq

Cute sia they all...Observe...someone covered in a green plastic bag...

At last, stole some pictures!

hmmmph...

I dont know... this news might have brought a big smile on some people...

Yeapps, so we separated...yesterday...what can i say...

And you are probably confused now between two people...

And i shouldn't put you in such a situation.

I shouldn't.

Its really my fault. I shouldn't have asked you about it. And probably you would already be with her...by now...

Dear, just so you know, we are separating because we LOVE each other too much.

I want you to be happy. You want me to be happy. =)

But you are not going to be happy with me anyway...

And please dont change if you dont wish to. Just be yourself.

See the mirror in your eyes;

See the truth behind your lies

Your lies are haunting me!
See the reason in your eyes

Giving answer to the why:

Your eyes are haunting me!

Falling in & out of love in love, in love

Falling in & out of love your love, your love

1. History of your password:

Tipah tertipu...

2. Last text message received from.

Khalid

3. Last time you cried:

A few hours ago ?

4. Age you want to get married:

Hahx!!! Neyh...havent really thought about it

5. Current feeling:

i suck !

1. Gone on a date:

Hmmm....

2. Lost someone special:
Yes...Him

3. Been depressed:

Yes...how stupid i am

4. Been drunk and threw up:

I dont drink that

THIS MONTH HAVE YOU:

1. Made a new friend:

Yes...i think??

2. Laughed until you cried?

Yes... with Shahira at the library hahax!!

3. Met someone who changed your life:

Definitely

4. Found out who your true friends:

Yes... so what am i suppose to do??

5. Is there something you want to tell someone:

I really really am sorry...I still do...Will you???

6. How many kids do you want to have:

4

7. Do you have any pets:

Once...and it's name is Maya Isabella White Puteh Nyek Flora Rora Aura Aurora Blezynski

8. Do you wanna change your name:

No...I love the name but i dont fit it

9. What did you do yesterday:

racial harmony day...him and him...them...

10. Last time you had pizza:

Why ask such a question???

11. What time did you wake up today:

6.10 am

12. What were you doing at 10:30 p.m. last night?

Facebook...Blog

13. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life?

That stupid bicycle accident, wished it never happened

14. What are you listening to right now?

Over by Lindsay Lohan?

15. Most visited webpage?

My blog

16. Who made you sad?

Him...Him...myself...

17. Who made you happy?

Him...them...

18.Who are with you right now?

My brother

19. Say you were in a relationship for 2 years and your boy/girlfriend cheated on you:

I have nothing to say...Just walk off?? 2 years of your life...drained

20. What was the last conversation you had with your best friend about?

boys??

21. Your most recent ex says he/she hates you, you say:

Yyes...Please hate me.

22. Are you afraid of roller coasters?

Neyhhs ;

23. Would you rather go to a party in or out of town?:

In... what if i dont party??

24. What are you supposed to be doing right now?:

Study...

25. One wish?:

A bright future

26. How is life going for you right now?

Owwow...what a qs... very bleak

27. Who do you wish to see now?:

Him...!

28. Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth?:

Yes...Him...

29. Last person to comment you?:

God damn it!! Nobody??

30. Is there any meaning behind your profile song?:

Its singing my life

31. Do you believe what comes around goes around?:

Yupp! and they never stop. I cant catch it either

32. What is your favorite fruit?:

Mango

33. Do you trust people easily?:

I'm bloody damn naive!

34. Do you give out second chances easily?:

VERY EASILY!!

35. do you like hugs or do you freak when people hug you?:

i love it especially from......

36. Done anything illegal?

yeah...So??! !

37. Last received call.

My brother

38. Are you a lover or a fighter?

Both. I fight for my loved ones.

39. What color are your eyes?:

charcoal black

40. When was the last time you went out?

like everyday also!!!To school...=(

Eclipse

Frankly speaking, how i wish someone would just slit my throat...
stupid sia....got sore throat...flu...fever now... haiish

I'm such a bloody ass hole!!!
Why? Why? Why?

I've never imagined being the one to have said all those harsh hurtful words... What have i become??
I wasn't born and brought up to break other people's heart... Never was...I dont want it.... This is what happens when i dont make rational decisions. I hate myself!!
The more i tried to push you away, the closer i am to you.


22nd July... Beautiful day but sorrow filled the air...
The solar eclipse...
Syed's Birthday...
2nd month for a moment...
So many people cried larh, for God's sake.

Went home...
All alone in the room...
Crying for more than an hour.
I can't held it back.
The tears was flowing uncontrollably.
It took me that long, to compose myself back and clean myself...did my prayers begged for forgiveness, and prayed that he too will be at peace...
While praying also, almost cried...
Now my eyes are like swollen and red.....
My temperature is also rising...
I dont want to take any medicines...

I couldnt stop thinking about it...
And its all my fault!!!
My fault!!! My fault!!!

I'm so HEARTLESS!!!!!

Buried Myself Alive On The Inside.

WOOHOO!!! I'm so bloody damn happy and excited!!!! oKAY!! i've gone Totally Head over heels!! HAHX!!!

So anyway... I got what i wanted!!!
And heng arh, i never wear orange... because he wear orange and so is some other girls...Blueekk!!
So insincere...ask people to...haiyo!!!
You can take as many picture with as many girls as you want... i'll pretend i never see anything. hahaxxx


But short cut!!
Took a lot of pictures with so many people...But i own none of them...except that one picture!! The picture i took with...erhhemm... (its so obvious khai...) Dont get the wrong idea!! Huda thank you sooo very much!!! hahax!!!
Today Hyper sia!!!!!!!
I think...i think...i think...


So anyway, dont say THAT and ask me THAT...if you yourself aint sure about it...

Laugh lah, laugh lah now...we'll see who will have the last laugh!!!

Anyway... today...i totally kinda ignored him... Nothing to talk to him about also...He did talk to me, but i buat tak paham, tak dengar aje hahax!!
So what??!!

And!!! i saw someone i want to meet...Early in the morning and recess time... Finally, Luck was at my side!! ahax!!
Can't control my blushings...eeiish!!!
Hyriah's gone mad!!!

Oyeah...Just now...was doing some stuffs with candles... Then suddenly he messaged me...I read the message that after that, the candles went off... I tried to light it up back, but i cant... So i dont think after this there won't be us in the future anymore... To heck with your maximum and minimum!! Your principles... If it is so important, use them on other people, not ME!! phiishh!! I hate it!!!
But anyway, i breakdown just now too!! Because its like its 48 hours before.... but if that is what you want...

I MISS EVAN!!!!

Muahah!!! Miss watching all his films...

Concentrating on him instead of the story line..hahax....

Ben Joshua also not bad...hahax!!!

Listening to malay songs... Jiwang sakk....haiiyya!!

I'm Outta My Head

Okays.... Then.....
This morning...studied for a while...

12.30 met up with Shahira...Hariz last minute cant come...Phiiish!!
So off to Hougang Central... Replaced battery for my watch... Bought some other stuffs...
Then zoomed to Chinatown... Exchange Shahira's outfit... haiish...
Then confused don't know where else to go...
Vivo?? Very lazy want to walk around, plus its so boring larhs...
Geylang?? Saw the bak wa, remembered dendeng?... Now feel like eating that... But then there also must walk long distance...
Plaza Singapura?? Very the leyceh...
So you see...Two girls...Bnyk songeh...
End up went Compass Point, Seng Kang....
Still need walk but at least nearer to our houses...
So yeapps, hungry...ate at KFC...
Guess who we saw... Hariz!!! Tengah makan ye bang??
Then go window shopping...Tried on outfits... Then went library... Read magazines...
Laughing our asses out sia...
Funny pics... bahahx!! =)

Whole day... Kept thinking of someone
Can't wait for tomorrow!!


Reactions i get for selling my Everlast watch at $23...
Mum: Eyh!! You day light robbery eyhs... Give student price larh... (shocked sia... I thought $23 was good enough)
Dad: hahx!! Why sell?? Two watches better...mah...can keep changing.
Sis: Cant be bothered...

So yeapps!!
Insane sia!!

So...two days never message me...haiishh..What to do?? Blablabla anyway...
Forget who i was is it??
Anyway...hope you had fun during the weekends...Because i do!! =)
Hope you are okay too!! Hope you are happy!!
Hope she makes you happy!!
hahax!!
But i'm always thinking of you...

Me its not really the ME!!

I watched the walls around me crumble

But its not like I won't build them up again

So here's your last chance for redemption

So take it while it lasts because it will end

And my tears are turning into time

I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

[Chorus:]

I cant live without you

Can't breathe without you

I dream about you honestly

Tell me that its over

Because if the world is spinning and I'm still living

It wont be right if were not in it together

Tell me that it's over

And I'll be the first to go

Don't want to be the last to know

I won't be the one to chase you

But at the same time you're the heart that I call home

I'm always stuck with these emotions

And the more I try to feel the less I'm whole

My tears are turning into time

I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

[Chorus]

My tears are turning into time

I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

[Chorus]

Tell me that it's over

Over

Honestly tell me

Honestly tell me

Don't tell me that its over

Don't tell me that its over..

Single, single am not, single, single am not...haiiish...

What telah happened??

Heck care arh!!

Wont be right, ir we are not together...

Dont tell me that its over...

Boys will be boys...

Girls will be girls...

I'm jealous and i'm disappointed...but what can I do??

Currently, this song "Over" by Lindsay Lohan seems to be very close to my heart.

I'm stuck with these emotions...

I've been keeping this heart shut for quite a long time now...

I'm not sure if i know how to feel again...

It gets more tangled, rather...

And He...

He seems compatible with me??? hahaxxx

OMG!!! What am i thinking!!!

I need new environment, a whole new place!!

So then anyway...

Today...

Studied the whole morning...

Then helped Mum with some stuffs.

Refilled her medicines...

I'm a Potential Nurse...phiish

Then afternoon, went out...

Went Bugis to shop...

Mostly window shopping...hahx!!

But most importantly, got my Racial Harmony Day outfit!!

Love it!!!

Then went home...

They are watching Anugerah Planet Muzik...

I dont even get it...

I'm so unsupportive of malay song industry eventhough i listen to them...hahax

But whatever...as long as i'm HAPPY!

My head is spinning

yupp!! I was in Avian Club (i think thats the name) remembered i had my own bird... it pee-ed on my hand....lols...

today.. school was plain BORING!!! He heck care me sia... So heck care him back arh... Bluuek!!

so but at least in the evening was much much better...
POP training... end up doing maths hmwk....ask sec 2 fall in, ...then almost want to tekan the sec 2... but see their pity face haissh nevermind... I give mercy...see them tired...but i wasted their time on purpose...asking them questions.
Then Huda waited for her Tarzan... waited with her sambil cuci mata...muahahaxx
i admit that NCC guys are cute...
Huda's like so excited trying to match make me... lols...
setakat boleh lari cepat ape ada nye??
But he is a good guy...Can see larh...
Now i'm like going mad??!! Like why??!!
Scandalicious...

by the way...Syed about your request...it can definitely be done!!! Trust me...i'll help you...




There is something i'm feeling deep inside me....its not going to be a good thing.
i dont know how i should feel anymore...
Tainted... But a new feeling is starting to grow... Is this what you call love?? phissh...This is crazy...
i'm on a roller coaster!!


4 more days and this is happening...
Sorry, but i think you are loosing me. Quick before its too late.

Lalalalalalala Hyriah's World

Okays...this is super random of me, to be putting elmo's song in my blog... But heys i HAPPY!

Today, in school... Bashed a lot of people don't know why also...
Happy 16th Birthday To Shahira, Twins Durga And Devi!!

Sorry to Shahira...i kinda smack her really hard... lols...
So you see, people like me who rarely beat people doesn't mean we cant... i proved it too... And i even made a lasting effect... hahax

Then... actually if not for their birthday, i would have emo all day... sad very sad...super sad really sad...

Anyway, at least the problem is solved in a better way... Though not really the way i wanted it...But must sacrifice, must give and take... must top tolerance at all times... blablabla...

I really hope it gets better from here...

Wreckage Heart

So near yet so far...

My heart is a wreck now...
Keeping silent about it...

How i wished that we were in the same page, in the same book...
Dear, i wished i would understand you...
It is your call, no matter what... because if it isn't it wouldn't be fair.

It hurts the most, when your once sweet dreams are slowly drifting away... my life is so bleak...