But then, it reminded me of a special day i had with him...
I still can't forget about that day...
Make me miss him more...
If he admires the sky, then i admire the rain...
The rain, sort of give me an extra energy...
And i used it wrongly...booshed!!!
I want it to rain everyday!!!
Who is that luckystar anyway??
Afiqah...LOL??
Phuehoba...lols =)
Have you ever thought about why your luckystar left you in the first place??
Well...its because of me... I'm a jinx!!
I turned you into a bad boy. That's why it left.
I'm guilty...
Don't you realise it??
Anyway, later at 2pm going out with Rouhui, Rosma, Montfort Guys, Khalid & don't know who (surprise??/shock??)... At AMK!! So stalkers!! I'm going Amk today, find me there i'll be wearing purple... hehex!! =)
What am i doing??
I'm reading the PAST!! I'm not suppose to!!
Shit larh...the past has never failed to break my heart.
Now i'm crying... why do i always find trouble for myself when i really dont have a problem. Tu name-nyer BODOH!!! Stinking piece of shit... How i wish i could just disappear, from the space of time and sent to the dinosaurs age?? Just Vanished!! Poooft!! How i wish i could just hide from that person, see from afar, how much that person will miss me when i'm gone...how long will that person wait for me...it really sucks that i am blabbering nonsense here... Blueekkk!! (slapping myself a gazillion time...)
Why can't i cut myself???
I'm like an addict trying to control herself. Phiissh!! (that is so exaggerated!!)
NO!! NO i'm not thinking about it! NO i'm not holding onto it! NO i don't have a tattoo at my left arm, its something else!! NO!! NO!! NO!! I'm screwed!!!
Its okay Hyriah, this is just a slip, a hiccup!! Things will get better... and it'll go away.
Some people just have the time to create stories and be someone else he/she is not, just to get attention... I wonder who will do that..For the past few years of my life, i'm shocked that many of my friends actually do that. why?? Have people not give you enough attention?? that you even have to go to that extent?? Even if it were to be for months months of lies, months of ignorance, months of denial, months of acts, months of betrayal, months of backstabs, months of disbeliefs... to those who know me really well, am i holding a grudge on that person?? because i want to forgive and forget, my grudge is a slow, painful killer for me...It eats me up from inside...
