Videos!!!

How to be a Gangster

It may be outdated for some, but i dont know and i just know it cos my bro asked me to watch it... and i enjoyed myself... bahaha


go see for yourself.... very funny!! haha

After So Long...

Happy Birthday Wadiiiiii!!!!!!!

Feeling better after being sick for one night and half a day...
Thanks to someone i'm feeling much better. hhehe
Goshhhh, i miss you seyh...
Let me count, how many days ...10 days!!!
And the worst thing is, i'm begging almost everyone, to top up my prepaid...
I can die, even for one day of without you.
Geee, im being so mushy and stuff.. okay stop it khai!!! CUT!

So after so long of not posting... sadly i have nothing to to post about...
I know im down right such a boring person and so not involved with the world...
Kaykay, i promise myself that i would spent my holidays wisely and not waste away my left 2 months of holiday.

Anyway i keep saying that i want to do this and that, but my ass is not moving...Dont know why...Somebody push my ON button please??

Just finished my O level maths... i hope i pass, i mean i did a god forsaken total of 14 maths worksheets in like what?? One-two weeks??? Made a new record!! Whooaah!! WOW!

So!!! Anyone going GYM any soon?? If you are, please invite me?? Because if im going to the GYM alone then i might need to ring a stranger to accompany me.. Malek??That gym trainer i met at night cycling?? Lost his number...sian...
Furthermore, im still in study mood. Yeah, shocking isnt it?? Me?? Still want to study?? So unbelievable.
Yeayea...I'm so random.

Talk about today... went to school, as an extra student of Cikgu Juriah... Ask for worksheet but in the end never do, i did Higher Malay Paper instead... Sorry!!! But i will still do though... but just dont know when...bahhahaxx
I was the good student there... (innocent face :) ) Diligently doing my work... :0
Speaking of innocent face rite, especially My innocent face, i observed that whenever i told someone that i am or was innocent...i get this face from them....sort of like... "Is she serious or what??" and with all that suspicious looks...and crooked eyebrows and in disbelief faces.
Doesn't anyone believe that I, Nur Hyriah Bte MyDad is INNOCENT!!??
But i can understand why also... haiishh
So am i innocent?? That still remains as a mystery for me to know and you to find out.

Oyeah, after that went to Shahira's place to see her new "friends".
They are as small as your fist.
I think they shit quite a lot too!! (seeing that Shahira's new friends keep shitting for almost every 3-6 minutes)
They are from the almost same species of the Rats...
Yeah you got that right if you dont then too bad... Its the hamsters...

The last time i held them was like before i turned 15,14,13, before i fractured my arm, before i was Primary 5.... So yeaps about (shit my maths has gone bad, count for me ah).
So its like my first second time holding them....
And for that first of second time of my holding them, something landed on my palm.
How disgusting is that??
Yess!! it shitted on my hand!!!
And i start panicking... So while making that eeeeee sound, Rosma helped me to get that thing off me and i
ran to the kitchen to wash my hands. (smelling my hands to check if the smell stick to my palm... thank god no...)
And then after that, they busy cleaning the thing and stuff...i cant even be bothered even though i was the one who suggested to do it...
And then after that, watced BOF...
And then after that, went home ...

So yeapps, this is my post and i hope some people are satisfied....
Sorry if i never post, sorry if you visited my blog only to find that i never update...
But please dont stop visiting my blog...
My blog policy has always been, blog only when you have something interesting to say. :')

Losing My Mind

Last night, had troubles trying to sleep...
Even though he messaged me, but i still couldnt sleep... It was almost 3 am... I'm still awake eventhough i swear i was damn tired...

I dont know what the hell is going on here. I kept dreaming about N level results... And God knows how many times i kept waking up from it. I am so freaking worried!!!
They say, every men will experience their greatest fall, but i just dont want mine to be this early.
And i was praying hard that even if i dont get my single digit, i just want to make it through...Now is that possible??
Oh God!!! Please give me your guidance. Please embrace me so that i feel calm and relax. Please show me the right path. Please let me get to Sec 5.

Yesterday, didnt do much of studying. But im glad to say that i completed all Paper 1 and some Paper 2. So probably today, i am going to complete not all but some of the leftovers.
The day was spent, studying in the morning, slept again until 2 in the afternoon and then study for a while, then i got fed up, ate my cookies and then im watching movies on the internet with my brother... Stopped watching at 9 plus...
I think im stress...the worst thing is im eating a lot of chocolates... Dude, didnt i dont really like eating chocolates?? I must have reached maximum level of stress.

So this is what i plan to do after my O level... I am so going to cycle to somewhere quiet and green. I need to keep in touch with the beauty of nature, it makes me calm... It would be better if i could go somewhere with waterfall... I want to go backpacking...but i cant, because why?? Because im only 16... and in my family, nobody gets their total freedom until they reach 21...how cruel is that??

Okay...back to today... after the nightmares... i woke up thinking of making pancakes... like why so random??... but the shit thing is, there is no milk... and who the hell is going to get milk?? Nobody!! Because why?? Because im the only one who is awake right now and i am not going down to the shop to get milk!

Shit.. im bored.
But im lazy.
Thought of cycling this morning... but lazy to unlock the bike chain... lazy to use the lift and get me and the bike downstairs... lazy to peddle...lazy to think where to cycle to. Oyeah, Hougang is a very boring place.

Haywired

I think im having moodswings... Like really... suddenly, i just feel like avoiding everyone.
So to anyone whom, i may have been harsh or rude to, my apologies...
Sorry, if i left without saying a word, sorry if i just decide to walk off, sorry if i pretend not to hear you, sorry if i dont talk much, sorry if i broke my promise and decide not to follow you, sorry sorry and sorry...
It would be best, to leave me alone for the time being.

Life right now for me is seriously, mind torturing...
I have to decide and so before i decide, dont ask me questions that i dont wish to answer and dont make me say something that may give you false hope... Understand?

Next, i have been very busy studying that i realise that i am losing my mind...
It is such a nightmare to be dreaming about MATHS!!
And the worksheets...i'm not done with them yet... like when??
So i gave up going out this week...with anyone...i want to stay home and overdose myself with numbers...
Till then, i will be gone.

...

Can i just pack up and run??
I want to have a peace of mind. Away from all of my problems... haiish
Tired.



All The Best and Good Luck For All Who Are Taking Their O-Levels!!!

Here I am

So here i am posting to appease someone who got pissed off with me for not updating.

To that person... relax lah... takkan tak post nak mengamuk?? bahhaha

Highlights for the past few days::

So anyway... this few days had to go to school. Hated that idea... haiishh

First, i hated the idea of coming back to school, but i had to...

Second, come to school only, that guy pick a fight.

i mean you are the guy, why cant you just give way and shut up...?

when you keep talking, you are just adding more anger... and the most freaking thing is when i gave in and just shut up he kept saying dont know what stupid thing like black man and asian people blabla... L

Like Freak you lah!!

I shut up already so just shut up lah!!!

And dont be so flattered that i apologise to you, its not even my fault... But since you were the fire i had to be the water right... Besides, i hate to fight with you and plus i am really tired of arguing... I'm not like last time when i love to argue okay...

Third, had to wake up early...

And oyeah, CONGRATS TO HAYATI AND SHAIRAZI!!!

bahhahax

I'm so happy for her. Like finally, a dream come true...hahhhhas

Went out with Wadi and watched 500 Days of Summer...
Fun day....
Sat at the skypark there and talk talk talk talk... Until late at night and i had to rush home...Bleahhx

Oyeah!!! CONGRATS TO 2ND SISTER AND RIZAL.
senyap-senyap eyh.... hmmph... bahahax

Oyeah!!! CONGRATS TO 1ST SISTER FOR MISSING HER ABANG!!
What the hell?? They are already engaged lah Khai... like duhh, they miss each other

Am i the only one single here?? pffttt


Thank you Shahira for the ointment...eventhough it stinks but i think the swell is subsiding...

All Out Of Love

I don't wanna hurt any more

I don't wanna hurt like I did before
You only made me cry
Tried to change my mind

I don't wanna feel insecure
And I don't wanna feel like I can't be cured
Though you don't want me to
I'll get over you


I can't keep comin' back for one last try
Let history repeat itself this time
I've been takin' all the blame but
I'll never make the same mistake again


Won't be that fool runnin' back to you
I won't fall apart like I used to do
Enough is enough
You've hurt me too much

Won't be that fool who keeps holdin' on
I can't stay here when the feeling's gone
Enough is enough
You've hurt me too much
I'm all out of love


I know we've been through this before
I know we've been through every open door
Tryin' to find a way
Back to yesterday

Now you've got to follow your heart
And though it will lead us so far apart
Some things you've got to do
When love's hurtin' you


I can't keep comin' back for one last try
Let history repeat itself this time
I've been takin' all the blame but
I'll never make the same mistake again

Won't be that fool runnin' back to you
I won't fall apart like I used to do
Enough is enough
You've hurt me too much


Won't be that fool who keeps holding on
I can't stay here when the feeling's gone
Enough is enough
You've hurt me too much
I'm all out of love


Won't be that fool runnin' back to you
I won't fall apart like I used to do
Enough is enough
You've hurt me too much


Won't be that fool runnin' back to you
I won't fall apart like I used to do
Enough is enough
You've hurt me too much


Won't be that fool who keeps holdin' on
I can't stay here when the feeling's gone
Enough is enough
You've hurt me too much
I'm all out of love

Sun underway

Okay.... my Sunday... and what a day...

I spent half of my day at Al-Mawaddah Mosque (the new mosque in Sengkang) helping out my sister with her event.

It like the End of Hari Raya Openhouse and i am suppose to assist a few kids for their performance.

And the kids were humble little fellas who are very super hyper active.

I shall say even though i spent quite sometime alone in a classroom not to mention charging my phone upon reaching there, the day went quite smoothly.

My Timeline:

9.30-11.30 Up and Ready, Reached the mosque

11.30-12.00 Wander around the Mosque, Sneak into a classroom.

                     [It was kinda weird enclosed by 4 white painted walls all alone, with the aircon that i kept adjusting because i felt no difference between the highest and the lowest temperature and i end-up dependent on the 4 ceiling fans switched on just for one bugger in the room, which is ME! And i am surrounded by many chairs, but only Me occupying one of them.]

12.00-3.00  Join Mum in a classroom filled with kids.

[For a few minutes, i was sitting in a corner or perhaps to be more specific, behind my mother...

It took me quite a while to eventually get more involved with the class.

And then i started playing with them.

And they so love-- Musical chair.

But apparently we had to focus more on practicing for their performance.

They were very confident with their performance and i am very proud of them.

I am very proud of my Children. hahax]

3.00-5.30   Performance time and  I. Just. Stare. Time

[So yeahh!! They performed and i cheered them on.

Hooray!!!

But they got kinda nervous during the performance...

But we all knew that they gave their best and they should be proud

of themselves for doing a very very good job for a first time performance.

And then after a whole tiring day, all of us filled our empty stomachs!! Nice food!!

And im Full!!

And im still Full!!!

Muahahahahahx

And then after finish eating...

Enjoyed the rest of the programmes eventhough i was not exactly paying attention.

I was texting most of the time.

And then finally, the finale and then im gone.

Kind of disappointed that my dad didnt win the lucky draw.

But neyhhh, it was a Fun day for me!!]

Oh well, its 17 today... :D

Hmmm... so met him in the morning.... and uhhuh... dear dear what time is it??
So we played Taiti... its like a showdown...hahax And i WON!! kwangkwangkwang...
He got to do some forfeit for that.... then we started talking.... and hmm... someone is such a filial son... but then he has to move off and so do i...
He helped his mom while i met my friends...
...

So we went to Ang Mo Kio Hub and bought tickets for 5. Tickets for Sorority Row which started at 5.55 pm and we had like 3 hours of dont know what to do.
Zoomed to Long John Silver for lunch... and here comes the part that got me pissed off.
We got settled down and all, bought our meals and then a group of low-lifes came in and sat at the table next to ours... Like seriously, they came in and made a huge fuss...
So this is what that had actually happened, at that moment errmm, Fareez wasnt around he went to look for a handphone shop (i think)... One of the guys sort of moved to our table and lay his freaking head on our table while teasing a friend of mine which was sitting beside me... And then one of his friend said something like "shiok ape kacau orang??" (fun is it to disturb people??)... I was thinking to myself... Yeah its fun right now for you, but not when i start to react.  Dude, i may be a girl, but you really dont want to mess with me because i wont hesistate even for a second to call the police. issshh irritating sia.. Feel like shouting FUCK OFF to them... Then Huda and Rosma went outside and tried to call Fareez... Fareez was already on Protective mode then... Lucky there is a guy.... if not we dont know what to do.... threaten to call the police??
Then after that we shifted to another vacant table.

But here is a paragraph that would really help you have a better picture of these low lifes...
There were about 6-7 of them mostly man and there is a women...mostly all were wearing singlets and shorts showing off their tattoo-ed covered bodies. But really... not intimidated. And there is this guy with all the tattoos walking like a bapok with his pot belly and butt sticking out...ewww And there is this other guy, the one who had his freaking head on our table, he wore a black shirt and no offence but he has an ugly face... with the ugly look and ugly behaviour overall he is UGLY! Real ugly and he probably smells bad too, maybe i should ask my friend... But the most pathetic thing about them is, a whole group of grown up boys were sharing a two meal food, and my conclusion is they probably dont have the money to afford a $4.95 meal and most likely they dont have a job. And higher probability that they spent their days lazing around and creating troubles for their lives and other people's lives who unfortunately bump into them.
...

Arcade...
Movie...
Shouting time again...
Seriously too violent and indecent for the innocent brain of mine...
But i still enjoyed it...Since im sitting in the middle of two people who have opposite reactions...
One side screaming, the other side just smiling... great... me?? i closed my mouth half of the show trying not to scream.

And then we home sweet home.

Funny thing is.... I realise that when i watch movies with my squad mates we mainly watched cartoons... but with my this group of friends we watched horror and violent movies, which obviously spells shouting and screaming... and im kind of tired trying to control myself from screaming out LOUD like some people.... i dont want to mention names, but she know who she is.... bahahhax

So here is a post about my day and i hope everyone else too had a great day today... =)

Yesterday's Story

Ohwell... we had maths class in the morning and something dumb happen....Like seriously, now i really know who are my real friends.
Thanks for the efforts but really no thanks.
I was put under a lot of pressure by my 1st sister who needed my help.
I was hesistant in the first place because i already knew that it was going to be very difficult.
But then i still gave it a try.
And then things just go wrong when i reached school.
I thought someone was really sincerely going to help me but then i realise i am being duped.
By the way, to that person, thanks for making someone who was sick and was sincerely wanting to help her sister run to school for NOTHING!
For your information that thing was important! At least it was important and it means a lot to my sister and to me, i thought i could repay her kindness by helping her out. Guess you never really knew how it feels like when you feel helpless and useless to a sister and not able to help a sister in need. And for that, she is not in talking terms with me...By the way, those words that you were trying to tell me... I couldnt care less... Besides what about the things you messaged about on the 13th??


So anyway, to mend my day... We as in Shahira, Rosma and I... we shopped at NTUC Fairprice for some instant pastas... then we headed for Shahira's house and got her kitchen smoking... Yeah... 3 anak daras cooking in the kitchen... the food turns out nice excluding the fact that it was instant... hahhax... but you get full very easily... Then slept at her house and then we went for night study... Then we talked and talked and talked...
Reached home about 9...

So that was my Yesterday.

Hahax...

So what have i been up to today??

Well i'm up to something...

And someone is not going to know what that something is..

Too Bad.

And i have been so busy with that something that someone

is probably feeling a little neglected. hahax

Sorry!!

And that something is not even finished yet.

But nevermind, i still have more time to finish it up.

I hope it turns out nice.

So other than busy with that something.

I am down with flu.

And its freaking irritating.

Then lil brother dont have to go school today

so we played Taiti together on the sofa.

And i swear its boring when only two people are playing.

And i am practicing so that i wont lose to that someone!!

Dont act okay!!

I am not as bad as you may think i am,

bluuueekk!!

Beware of my forfeit.

I think im going to make you do silly stuffs. hahax

Haunted

I dont know why... I feel so uneasy these days...
And its probably because i missed a lot of prayers and then everything just came rushing back to me.
Killing me.

One thing is related to penknives...
I know that i said i have already stopped but the thing is, i am often haunted by it. Its just that all this while, i manage to stop myself from doing it. But i'm not so sure about this time round...
I had a mini project that i was up to, and it requires me to use a penknife to cut something.
The best thing is, i am using it without the retractable thingy. Yupp just the knife itself.
I know its kinda crazy and thats why i gave up on that project and switched to another.
But even after that, the image of that knife keeps popping up in my mind. Then this morning i saw my dad using it, the same way that i did. The temptation was greater than ever and thank God my Dad was there, so i didnt dare to do it, but the knife was already in my hands and inches away from my wrist.
And the crazy thing is, right after i woke up after my short nap, the first thing that came to my mind was that stupid thing. And thats not the only thing that troubles me. I had all the flashback images running in my head. All the images from the past and especially those that i hate myself for it. Remembering about it is so horrible, its a horrible feeling. And as i'm typing here, i am crying. Disappointed with myself for it.
And right now, i am disappointed with myself, for not being able to resist the urge alone, making others worried.
But please dont be worried, that thing is nowhere near me.
I think the condition wont be as bad as this if i didnt have some friends harbouring thoughts of hurting themselves too. When i come across all these things, it gives me the idea to do it and duhh obviously i dont want to but very tempted to.
And oyeah, crying and writing about it makes me feel better. I just need to let it out and PRAY! Praying is my medicine!
But the period isnt over.
Im still thinking about it. shuckkks!!

13 October

Yesterday!! Woke up early in the morning with the intention to help around at Wadi's Mom's shop.
But then the plan did not work out due to some circumstances.
So anyway, after that decided to go out with someone...
But then someone, said 13th isnt a good day so never go out with him. hahahahax (rejected??) *_*"'
Then coincidentally, Shahira asked whether i wanted to go out somewhere, so i said hell yeah!! Because if i dont, i will be alone at home until somebody gets back from school or work. B.O.R.I.N.G
Then suddenly, somebody messaged whether want to go out with them go to the beach or somewhere.
That part, i was already half-hearted. Because i know i am going to feel so awkward.
But the best damn thing was, that guy who messaged gave us a timing, and we are like suppose to be there before the time is up. And i am like What The Fcuk???? And of course, i am always the rebellion one, i dont give a hoot! I just HATE it when people start to boss around when they are definitely NOT the Boss of ME!! I will listen if i feel like to. If i'm not then buzz off!!!
So yeapps, for your info that guy spoilt my 1 o'clock!
And then in the end we decided not to follow that screwed up guys!


So met at Hougang Point a 2pm. Got a call from Rosma that she's going to be late. Meanwhile, bought a new sandal and then went to Shahira's house to put my shoe there... Slack around until Rosma came and then she had some business to do...so waited for her again...
Soon after baby Dini is it?? Yeah she came. Shahira's mother was helping to babysit thats why.
Whooah, that girl damn cute and very quiet. I thought she was mute. neyahhahax.
And then i entertain her, got hyper and all and i sort of "bullied" her.
My mother instincts are developing. ahahax
Oyeah, did i mention?? We get all excited when the girl said something!! Lame i know but really, her voice was damn soft.
But i pity the girl, she had such a bad childhood...
I got so engrossed playing with her that we almost wanted to bring her along to watch movie. bleaarghhxx


Then headed for AMK Hub, bought our tickets. Our show started at 7.45 around there... So had our lunch/dinner at McD!! After that play at the arcade nearby. Shahira, as usual hitting plates hahax... No lah she play the drum thingy whereas Rosma and I we played the basketball thingy. With good teamwork even though we had many "disadvantages" our score was the highest there. Muahahax Play 3 times and then my hand want die already.
And i understand why my parents dont really encourage going to the arcade so often, you get so addicted very quickly and you waste a lot of money.
So we get lost from that place.
Then that guy messaged again and again he spoilt my mood this time my 6.30pm. (Wadi dont worry its not you)


Then bought our popcorns and corndog (quite nice leyh though it looks far from nice) hahax
Woooahhaoaahahax!!


So 3 girls sat at seat numbers 11, 12, 13... on the 13th of October to watch Phobia 2.... I sat at number 13.
I am so glad that i endured the whole 2 hours of heart beating faster and faster hours. I wont tell you about the show, you have to see it for yourself. If i tell, wont be a surprise anymore. All i can say is, it is really scary for me but funny at the end. By the 3rd scenario i really cant take it anymore but luckily they gave us a time to breathe before starting again all the maks and all the scrreeaamminggg.
Show ended at 10 pm.
Then everybody scared already...So i called for helpline!! 1800-WADI-0210
Took bus 159 to Hougang Point, sent Shahira back to her doorstep, took my shoes back and waited for Wadi at the bus stop.
We sent Rosma to her lift and then we are off to my house.
Reached home almost 11 plus...
3 days straight of going home very late.
Need to cool down for a while before my parents RRooaaRR!!


A day full of odd numbers and irony.
When i reached home i never got scolded or nagged at by my mother.
But instead i was listening to my 1st Sister being nagged about her wedding arrangement.
Sis, i know its very tiring to listen to her nag almost every night. But now you know!!!
Time is ticking. September 2010 is not far!!! muahahax

hahax... i have lots of purple dress this year!!

So anyway, this is just two of the pictures we took in the bus yesterday!!

So colourful right??!!

We have Brown, Pink, Purple, Green and Gray!!

But the guys spoil lah tak pakai baju melayu!!

Alasan, before that main arcade!

Main arcade tak boleh pakai baju melayu ke?!!

Mane semangat orang melayu??

hahax

So had lots of fun yesterday even though we only went to 4 houses.

Gerek!!!

Nurul Nadia nye rumah punya lah jauh kat marsiling...haiss...

Hampir sesat hahax

Duduk kat dalam bas aje dah berjam-jam!!

Padahal boleh naik MRT tapi satu mamat nye pasal, kita beraya dalam bas!! LOL

From 3-8pm, only 1 house!

Thanks Nurul for the 3 course meal!!

hahas

Appetizer, main course and desert!!

Nice and Yummyyummy!!

Everybody was starving lo at that time.

Havent eat lunch yet...

Then went to Shahira's house.

I play with her cat!!

I miss cuddling cats lohh!!

Then took a lot of pictures!!

Then Cikgu Farhanah's house and then Rosma's!!

Reach home around 11.

Lucky got Hariz.

Rayer with Friends!!

So yeapps, yesterday raya with Wadi, Fareez, Huda, Rosma, Ali, Asyraf, Qayyum and Fiona is it??
hahax...very FUN!!!
But very tiring too!! My legs are dying!!!
Reached home around 11 plus.
Wonder why my mum isnt worried about me...
Is it because he is there??
They trust him so fast meh??

And oyah see my mood if i feel like writing more some other time.

And i just want to make it short...
Pfft, silly me its the second time i almost trip and fall infront of him. And it is so so embarassing...
Ali thanks for being very irritating!! ahhax

Haiissh, its boring when your prepaid is low, because i have 3 words to say to you right now.

You are never going to get it!!

This post is especially for a friend of mine, whom i think talking to her makes no difference, then i rather post it to get it to her head!!!

You!! I really HATE your personal message on MSN!
I really feel like slapping your face!! You get that??!!
I dont care about what you think i am or who i think i am!
But you are never going to get back with that Bloody Bastard!!
Because why??
Because i am going to make sure you DONT!!
Can you please for the very first time, listen to people!!
Cant you get it??
We are trying to stop you from making the same repeated mistake!!!!!!!
And i am not trying to rule your life!
But can you please think deeper???!!
Your thinking is very shallow!!
And i freaking HATE IT, when you wished for DEATH!!
Can you please stop saying all those, saying is like praying!!!
Can you please think maturely!!??
One Life, One Soul, because of One Guy you are going to let it waste?!
How Dumb is that!!
Yeah, i am being kind of straight forward and rude, but this is the resort i had to take since talking to you nicely and politely trying not to offend you will not work!
Dude!! There are like millions of guys out there.
Dont you believe in soulmate??
That everybody has one... Its only about time that you will get to know yours...
Tell me!!!! Do you really want him back??
Do you really think that by going back to him will make you happy?
Are you 100% sure, you still want to give your all after all that he has done to you?
And if you have even the slightest doubt, then heed this advice let go of the thought of being together with him.
Think who made you suffer in this kind of state??
Who left you??

P.S I have never been so thoughtful and caring to a friend to this extent. And i certainly dont look like one...But you are the first, and that is probably because i was also at fault, but now i am trying real hard to fix it back and i know even if it is fixed, there will be scars left. But hey he has already disappointed me a whole lot, promise me you will not be the next...

And you have to understand, if i were to let you go back with him, its like me committing another crime. I dont understand why the fact is so oblivious to you when it is so obvious to me. If i let you go back with him its like me watching you jump from a building. Or am i being so overprotective of you, i just feel that its only going to get worse if you hold onto him, cant you see, you are not ready to take another fall with this.
I will be lying if i said i dont mind you still liking him, because i do. And you dont have to call him names if it hurts you, but to tell you the truth those words fits his shoes perfectly! I hate him for treating you this way, because i think you deserve better. But if you want to stay and wait for him, then fine, do whatever you like, and i wont stop you because this is my limit to helping you. You are on your own now. Cause we stop thinking alike ever since you missed him a lot! And its not about being a heartless girl, its about being heartless to someone who is heartless to you.

Because really!!! I LOVE YOU A LOT!! AS A BEST FRIEND!!! IT BREAKS MY HEART TO SEE YOU SO SAD AND SOMETIMES I REALLY FEEL LIKE I WANT TO SWITCH SOULS WITH YOU TO REPLACE YOUR BROKEN SOUL AND TO FEEL HOW YOU REALLY FEEL, BUT I CANT!! AND I AM SO SO SO SORRY!!! I AM SO SORRY THAT I CAN ONLY HELP YOU ONLY TO THIS MUCH!!!

Belated First Day Rayer Pictures!!

Ahahax... Candid!!

Daddy tengah masak eyh??

Mummy and Daddy!!

Its a Complete 8

Ladies In The House!

Man Of The House

Couples photo!

                                              3 Sisters!!

For those people who are so interested to know what colour i dyed my hair with, well this is it.
Well is it that obvious??

Good News!!

Whahax!!! I Finished My Meal, for the first time after so long!!!

Especially during my exam period!!

And i woke up at 2pm today!!

Pay back all my lost hours of sleep!!

I think i am all sick because of the stress!!!

But now, what the hell is there for me to stress about?

N.O.T.H.I.N.G

Muahhahahax

But not for long lah...

I must keep in mind that i still have two more major subject to ace!!

My O level Maths and Higher Mother Tongue!!

Arhh!!!

Oyeah, i almost forgot, i have mother tongue homework.

So!!!

Will be coming back to school often to see teachers for remedial lessons!!

I dont want my brain to rust!! Neyahhax

I am so happy for no reason!!! Or maybe there is??

I want to be myself again!!

The one and only, happy, random, hyper care-free, stress-free Hyriah!! hahahx

"It is not about the appearance and not about the Past, its all about, now and what you aim to do in future that matters to me."

"And if its about my thoughtless moves that makes you go crazy, then you better hold me tight or else i might just slip away."

(and you know what i mean)

I think my Karma is back and up up and away!!

Great Days Ahead i guess??

Hahax... Finally... I changed my blog skin...
Dummy sia, i just realised the problem why i cant edit it... haiisshh
Kay lah tired...
Shall post more later about yesterday.

Recently found out that i was promoted to Station Inspector.
Not informed, and just saw it at the notice board, so was wondering is it for real?? But it has already been confirmed... Hhaahax...
Makes me feel more determined to pass my N levels...
And speaking of the devil, N levels are over yesterday...
Not happy though...
I am so bloody damn worried about my results...
I want to get to Sec 5!!
But its already over, so just PRAY for the BEST!
And people, when you pray please pray that i will pass, besides it wont take much effort would it?? So please...
Yeass...hahaxxx


Glad that i managed to fix a proportion of my problems today...
I managed to keep my good relationship with Khalid.
Even though he sounded really dread about it.
But i promise you, that you made the right decision. hahax
Not together doesnt mean cant be friends, aites??
Even if doesnt change anything.

Yesterday, hang out with my bunch of siao friends...
But the thing is, they are and i am not.
First, no mood to stay at home and no mood to be happy hyper and blablabla...
Second, the place they go to wasnt so interesting for me, but i just gave it go.
Third, someone isnt with me...
Shahira, bought drumsticks, semangat sakk... hahax
Rosma, welcome to Orchard.


Okays... So holidays for me...
Had a rough idea of how i am going to manage my holidays meaningfully.

Whats up in my mind:
1st up, blood donation in November
2nd, NA chalet??
3rd, lets start gym session, and a more proper healthy lifestyle.
4th, shall i find a job??
5th, watch movies!!
And the list goes on.

So thats it for now...

Voices in My Head

Cos i had a bad day, i sang a sad song, now i'm staring at an empty wall, feeling empty inside.

I think i've got a problem...

I am so going to see a doctor. Or maybe not.

Loss of appetite.

My insomnia is back.

I feel like i want to vomit after eating.

Moodswings

Suckish...

Endure it Hyriah!!

Today will be the last paper...

Should be happy, but that is the thing. I am not happy!

I dont know what the hell i am feeling...

Hellish days -...no more... i am so going to miss waking up early... yea right!!

So that is one thing...

And then there is another.

I am in deep deep deep trouble.

Figuring out what to do. haiish

Tired of thinking.

Tired of solving.

Tired of fixing.

When is this ever going to end???

Feel like walking off, and not bother about it.

But this isnt just about me...phiiissh

I want to get sick and sleep all day and forget everything.

Then when i wake up, i will fix my life.

Sorry!!

I am so sorry a trillion sorry, to my baby dragon, RavenEden....
For leaving it, with no food, no drink and no love for 15 days...
Mummy didnt forget you okay...
haiish...busy with N level that i forgot i have dragon to take care of...
Ciao... i login just to post this??? alamakkk.... takperla.
whateverlah

I want to let whole world know!!!

Yeahh, you've got me. You swept me off my feet. Now i'm yours to keep. .<3







Khairul you are such a B++++++!!
I hate you to the core for what you have done to my dear friend!!
After all you have done to her, you still have the cheek to say, that She ruin your life!!??
WTh???
If i had known it earlier, i would have throw you in the dump and lock you in it!!
You are an ANIMAL!!
Freaking heartless!!
If only you would check up on her, now thanks to you!!! She's all down and moody!!
You stole the light and cheerfulness of her.
Now i understand why people fire up at the sight and thought of you.
Next time when i see you, dont ever give me that freaking innocent face!! Got that??
Because you disgust me!! Now i feel like vomitting!!
You suck like hell!!
Can you please change for GOD'S sake???

To the one i past

Stress!!! Tomorrow A. Maths, die!!!

Yesterday, She gave me back the heart i specially made for someone... i looked at it and my mind just go blank. The thing is, the heart was given back before i even moved on... that thing was like my heart that i gave to someone all out of love. I remembered how much effort i put in to make that thing. But looking at it, makes me dwell in the past. So She know what i did to it.
And of course, She was shocked. And we talked about it. Dont say, like as if i never cared about him. I do, but it was time that i let him go. Its not that i have never gave us a shot, its not that i have never believe in us, its not that i have never hold on to him. I did. And its not that i gave up on him. But its because i already fit my piece nicely into his life. We were together, i stayed with him with a reason...But on the way, we messed it up and we get confused, but now everything is much more clearer.
And if this specific him is reading... you should know, i still do check up on you, its looks to me that you are in a bad position, i can feel that you are suffering. But hey, you should know that there are a lot of other girls out there waiting for you to be with them, a lot of other girls who are wayyyy better than me, wayyy more understanding than i can be...
Where is that you i know, who is strong, brave and always thinking positive?? Dont let this change who you are. Look how far you have come, since we started from the beginning, you are a whole new person who people really like, unlike the old you who plays around with other people's feelings and people hate you for that. You have come so far, you wouldnt want an obstacle like me to ruin all your efforts, right??
I'm very sure, that you are going to get through with this.
Fate and miracle works in miraculous ways, its just time that will make us realise what our main purpose in life is.
I slipped away from your fingertips and there is no way that you could ever capture me back.
Please shut your eyes, stay calm, let go of all the pain and keep the hope high. This will go away swiftly when you stop thinking about what you have lost. For once, think about the goodness in me and not a person who has an evil plan. =)
And it is not in my place to make you feel better because i was the one who hurt you in the first place.
But please stop doing things that you yourself in the right state of mind would go against.
And im not going to be the one to heal your wounded heart like i have always do, someone else is going to do that. Just wait for her.

A New Fresh Page

Yeapps, September has ended.

And i am finally seeing a brighter life ahead.

What could be a better start of October to know that someone you like, likes you too.

And Yesterday marks our beginning.

In fact with him, i am more determined to start a new and leave the past behind.

And yes, my friends would have known how much i have gone through.

And i really want to thank them for always being there for me when i needed them.

And i cant believe i am crying right now as i am typing.

Even if the past was great i badly needed to start all over again.

So lets not be so emotional and lets start talking about the happy things that happened yesterday.

So yeapps, after school as usual i sat at the bench there, and Huda came and some of my friends who were there too, apparently sabotaged me.

I didnt ask for the chocolate but they went to tell Wadi that i want it and so he gave it to me. And of course, i was blushing. No really it was the most paiseh moment ever. hahx... and it made me smile to myself for the rest of the day.

And yeshhh, after that they had Graduation Ceremony... and Rosma and I was like the only Non-Graduates there. And they were like showing off.... but its okay....

Then after that they went to the canteen for the buffet.

And oyeah, he gave me a plate of munchies, eventhough there is no drink, but thats alright its still sweet of him.

And of course Rosma did dip in. ahahax

And Thanks you guys!!! for sabotaging us.

They left me and him alone at the bench.

And we get along quite fast...

And all in all, it was a GREAT day for both of us.

He sent me home last night.

i was jumping like mad last night.

Dear Wadi,

Thanks for the best day. And i hope we get to know each other much much much more better.

You really made me happy. I will never feel alone again with you by my side.

And i am really sorry to those that may have been hurt with this. You should move on too.