BreakDown

Had HMT paper today...
I suck...
haha

Went home straight after that...No mood to hang out.
Lie on my bed and cry.
Cried for so long.
I dont want to say why .........
Holding back these tears makes my heart feels so damn...hurt.
Nobody's fault.

You know, it comes to a point when everyone just needs to feel pampered.
Having someone to tell them that everything is going to be fine...
There is nothing to be scared or afraid of...
Just to reassure them.
But i cant have that.
And that the loneliness is killing me.
But i have to bear with it.
What if i say i dont want to be lonely anymore??
What if i say that even though having a lot of friends help...that there is always one person that could make things even better.
But i cant have that.

Blog hopping again...Go check out everyone's blog...
So sian lah... everybody talking about their boyfriend, their girlfriend... sian...
So i stopped, make me sad only...
Cry again lah!! Idiot!!
Go die lah Hy!!!
Just shut the fuck up!


Well anyway...going for blood donation tomorrow...
I hope they can take a lot a lot of my blood then, i will just faint in bed and dont come around.