Finally, i put my ego down and text someone.
And blearghx, someone have not Yet replied.
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And sorry guys i couldnt join and meet you guys at Huda's house...
Suddenly, i just lost my mood.
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I was keeping myself busy half the day, watching Gossip Girl or to be more specific, staring at the TV.
Nothing goes in to my head... How come??
Well, hell yeah who gives a damn?
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Phiissh... Sadly to say, i am in a dilemma and i am about to make a decision at which i am not ready to take and am not sure about.
I guess its about time.
Time to do something.
It has to have a good ending.
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Furthermore, i feel like an asshole lazying around at home other than the fact that i have been doing house cleaning almost everyday especially, days when i am not working.
This is just so bloody stupid.
I have nothing to do.
I wish mum and dad could send me to Africa.
Then maybe i could do some noble good deeds.
I am born to do something am i not?
Or at least, bring me somewhere i could get in touch with nature.
I need to find some thing to do to drag me out of this mere boredom.
Frankly speaking, i am tired of this current life im living right now. I want to be more active, and not just everyday listening to beeping sounds, the cash register and people complaining.
This "city" life of people bustling and lack of nature's touch is totally getting on to me.
I feel like playing hide and seek in the corn fields.
Sometimes i feel like im born in the wrong place and that i should be born somewhere else like in Norway, Finland or New Zealand or something.
NATURE is like my Antidote.
Without it, i feel sick.
I know there is a park outside my house, and from my balcony, its a magnificent view, but its just Not enough...
Oh-man, im complaining am i not??
Buhhh...
Well...anyways...
Thank Allah, for the great days i have had.
I just need to be patient.
My time will come.
And i meant time not as in death but, as in time for helping poor people. :)
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And for the sad sad people out there.
Have faith.
Cheer up. :))
Seek help, when you realise that you obviously cannot help yourself.
No point hurting yourself.
(i am not referring to anyone in particular, but to anyone who is feeling sad lately.)
I was sad too.
XOXO
SmokedHyriah
