Not another person trying to be Suicidal??
Hey, its not like its the end of the world.
Just because of one problem, one person you want to end your life??
Come on larh, then what about me??
If you go, what about me??
You also want to leave me??
Not another friend... not this way... please don't ever say, the last good bye!!!
Because it really hurts badly...
Now i'm torn apart, again...
You are a guy, you should be more stronger than me.
I too have my problems, so many problems that sometimes i think what is the point of living??
Might as well make the last slash... But hell NO!!!
So loosing you will also add to my problems... please just try to SMILE even in the most ridiculous situations.
Not another unbeliever?? You guys are making me weak, mann!!! Be strong so that i can be strong too!! 4th person alrite... The next one will be a suicidal gathering hahaxx!!
Damn!! i just cant say the right words at the right time...
I want to end this!!!
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
10 Truths ABOUT ME!!
!0 Truths About Me:
1) I was a Tom-Boy (I will admit that...)
* More to guy-friends than girl-friends.
2) I steal for many occasions, but stopped since i joined NPCC!! =)
*Primary school stole some stickers and sticker album because i wasnt happy that the file is so expensive.... CHILDISH!! Stole permanent markers, ice-cream...list goes on... been there done that...
3)I have a flair in massage therapy.
*Used to massage my mom's leg whenever she gets back from work. =) Cheapest price $2 per hour, but dont expect so much!!!
4) Skip afternoon session school, after ngaji...hahaxx
*It was planned, the three of us (my siblings) wore jeans cause we know we are going to get caning. Doesn't really hurt, than wearing baju kurung and get caning. LOL. We went to play at the playground til late despite knowing that we have to go to school =)
5) BULLY!!
* i bullied my classmate from primary school... Saw her and felt bad, but she smiled...hahx, i was a bully, but i defended her from other bullies... =) Now, i dont bully anymore... I defend victims of bully who stand alone!! Anyway, those people who gang up on one person, please grow up because its lame, if you want to bully, one on one arh!! Dont be a COWARD!!
6) I love WATCHES!!!
7) I hate EGGS!!
8) I dont take sides, i'm neutral!!
*I look at my own point of view!! People dont tell me which side to take.
9) I cut myself!!
*I love to see blood.
10) I'm a LIAR!!
*For all you know, i might be lying about all these things. hehexx
1) I was a Tom-Boy (I will admit that...)
* More to guy-friends than girl-friends.
2) I steal for many occasions, but stopped since i joined NPCC!! =)
*Primary school stole some stickers and sticker album because i wasnt happy that the file is so expensive.... CHILDISH!! Stole permanent markers, ice-cream...list goes on... been there done that...
3)I have a flair in massage therapy.
*Used to massage my mom's leg whenever she gets back from work. =) Cheapest price $2 per hour, but dont expect so much!!!
4) Skip afternoon session school, after ngaji...hahaxx
*It was planned, the three of us (my siblings) wore jeans cause we know we are going to get caning. Doesn't really hurt, than wearing baju kurung and get caning. LOL. We went to play at the playground til late despite knowing that we have to go to school =)
5) BULLY!!
* i bullied my classmate from primary school... Saw her and felt bad, but she smiled...hahx, i was a bully, but i defended her from other bullies... =) Now, i dont bully anymore... I defend victims of bully who stand alone!! Anyway, those people who gang up on one person, please grow up because its lame, if you want to bully, one on one arh!! Dont be a COWARD!!
6) I love WATCHES!!!
7) I hate EGGS!!
8) I dont take sides, i'm neutral!!
*I look at my own point of view!! People dont tell me which side to take.
9) I cut myself!!
*I love to see blood.
10) I'm a LIAR!!
*For all you know, i might be lying about all these things. hehexx
Nur MOODY!!
Nur Khairiah Bte Kamir, today, felt very moody... =(
She doesn't really know what's the cause of it, probably because of yesterday, because in class she thought about something and almost cried...cant remember what it is...
But Khairiah doesn't want to be EMO all day...
So she wiped off her tears and starts interacting with the others and forget everything that happened yesterday and today...
So yeap thanks to him, she's moody but thanks to him too, that she's happy...
At first he told her he wont be able to make it (sad already) but at the end of the day, he still sent her home... or rather half way home... =)
She rather he give her (the other her, her) Barney than the Purple carebear (even if its the smaller version
=( hmmph)!! (...Purple dick...)
Oyeah, she saw her the her on the way home... =) She smiled, so she smiled back...
There's something different about you that made you special to me,
You make me cry...
You make me laugh...
You express yourself in very different manners that sometimes i just don't get it...
Your whispers and your talks speaks two different languages...
Sometimes you just know what to do to get my attention whenever i ignore you...
I prefer you when we are alone... =)
Cause you were brave enough to confess to me...
Quote of the day: Your actions today, will affect your tomorrow.
She doesn't really know what's the cause of it, probably because of yesterday, because in class she thought about something and almost cried...cant remember what it is...
But Khairiah doesn't want to be EMO all day...
So she wiped off her tears and starts interacting with the others and forget everything that happened yesterday and today...
So yeap thanks to him, she's moody but thanks to him too, that she's happy...
At first he told her he wont be able to make it (sad already) but at the end of the day, he still sent her home... or rather half way home... =)
She rather he give her (the other her, her) Barney than the Purple carebear (even if its the smaller version
=( hmmph)!! (...Purple dick...)
Oyeah, she saw her the her on the way home... =) She smiled, so she smiled back...
There's something different about you that made you special to me,
You make me cry...
You make me laugh...
You express yourself in very different manners that sometimes i just don't get it...
Your whispers and your talks speaks two different languages...
Sometimes you just know what to do to get my attention whenever i ignore you...
I prefer you when we are alone... =)
Cause you were brave enough to confess to me...
Quote of the day: Your actions today, will affect your tomorrow.
Monday, June 29, 2009
Brothers & Sisters
Was looking forward to school...
In the morning, everything was fine...
Then in the afternoon, during my afternoon class, found out that one of my relatives, has just passed away...
It took me by surprise.. and i had to go off earlier...
... I couldn't help but turn away, there was too much pain in their eyes...
All my condolences to the family...
May she rest in peace...
They has passed on,
the rest moves on...
Anyway... i don't know... i think i've lost a friend, a very close friend, because of some stupid silly mistake i made... but hey, at least i did try to apologise and mend the friendship, but if you cant accept my apology, or you hate me, what can i do?? Though i'll be lying that its okay, if you dont want to talk to me or what, i'll respect that... Its fine that you are avoiding me... Because i really hope that time, would sooner or later make you forgive me...
From now onwards, i dont see the point of hating other people...
In the morning, everything was fine...
Then in the afternoon, during my afternoon class, found out that one of my relatives, has just passed away...
It took me by surprise.. and i had to go off earlier...
... I couldn't help but turn away, there was too much pain in their eyes...
All my condolences to the family...
May she rest in peace...
They has passed on,
the rest moves on...
Anyway... i don't know... i think i've lost a friend, a very close friend, because of some stupid silly mistake i made... but hey, at least i did try to apologise and mend the friendship, but if you cant accept my apology, or you hate me, what can i do?? Though i'll be lying that its okay, if you dont want to talk to me or what, i'll respect that... Its fine that you are avoiding me... Because i really hope that time, would sooner or later make you forgive me...
From now onwards, i dont see the point of hating other people...
Whats the point of making other people's life miserable.
So for me... now everybody is my friend. Or so if they choose otherwise...
And especially, why should a muslim hate another muslim??? PEACE!!
Every muslims are my brothers and sisters!! =)
LOVE NOT HATE!!!
So for me... now everybody is my friend. Or so if they choose otherwise...
And especially, why should a muslim hate another muslim??? PEACE!!
Every muslims are my brothers and sisters!! =)
LOVE NOT HATE!!!
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Interesting Taxi Drivers
My journey to and fro to Joo Chiat Complex was very interesting...
Because the taxi drivers made it interesting!!!
To Joo Chiat:
We took the taxi from the wrong side of the road, cause i realised the taxi driver had to go a big round... Then i was making that simple comment... Then this driver had to get offended, and was like nagging, that we should have done this or done that...lablablar... i act as if i was asleep... plus he was dragging about it...
From Joo Chiat:
My mother and i was like arguing who should get in first cause we both don't like to seat in the center... Then the driver made a comment..."Why need to fight...seat on top of the taxi also can, blablabla, drag again"
Then he ask us which road to take larhs... then when we say, he ask more questions...
He ask us questions but refuse to take our answer and argued about it and we were like ?_?, then he answered his own question...?_?...but nevermind, but very cute siak... No larh, no larh...
Because the taxi drivers made it interesting!!!
To Joo Chiat:
We took the taxi from the wrong side of the road, cause i realised the taxi driver had to go a big round... Then i was making that simple comment... Then this driver had to get offended, and was like nagging, that we should have done this or done that...lablablar... i act as if i was asleep... plus he was dragging about it...
From Joo Chiat:
My mother and i was like arguing who should get in first cause we both don't like to seat in the center... Then the driver made a comment..."Why need to fight...seat on top of the taxi also can, blablabla, drag again"
Then he ask us which road to take larhs... then when we say, he ask more questions...
He ask us questions but refuse to take our answer and argued about it and we were like ?_?, then he answered his own question...?_?...but nevermind, but very cute siak... No larh, no larh...
BWSS PDS=EXCELLENT
Whooah, just watch the video...and i'm awed!!
Good job everyone!!!!!!!!
With perseverance comes excellence!! PEACE!!
It is super super FABULOUS!!
PDS has improved a lot.
Lets continue to make BWSS PDS a success!! =)
Good job everyone!!!!!!!!
With perseverance comes excellence!! PEACE!!
It is super super FABULOUS!!
PDS has improved a lot.
Lets continue to make BWSS PDS a success!! =)
Today Is Sunday
It must be something...
Too much of missing, that i dreamt of someone last night...
He was the last person i message...
And i can't concentrate on my revision...
Today is Sunday, tomorrow is Monday, Monday is weekday, weekdays are School Days, School Days are Study Days... am i happy about it??...well... for one reason that drives me to go to school is him and also my friends. Schools are the days when you can meet your friends and not necessarily fork out $$$... The other that makes me abstain form schooling is the thought that i haven't done my malay homework... Yupp, its still not done yet...
Okay...So i'm going to set my Resolutions for the next semester...
~Be Academically Disciplined
~Cease the use of Vulgarities... (this is going to be hard, but i MUST)
~BE A GOOD CITIZEN.
I'll have to rid the Holiday Hyriah, aka, slacker...
Will be wearing My Councillor Tie back, so have to behave myself... yet again...
Too much of missing, that i dreamt of someone last night...
He was the last person i message...
And i can't concentrate on my revision...
Today is Sunday, tomorrow is Monday, Monday is weekday, weekdays are School Days, School Days are Study Days... am i happy about it??...well... for one reason that drives me to go to school is him and also my friends. Schools are the days when you can meet your friends and not necessarily fork out $$$... The other that makes me abstain form schooling is the thought that i haven't done my malay homework... Yupp, its still not done yet...
Okay...So i'm going to set my Resolutions for the next semester...
~Be Academically Disciplined
~Cease the use of Vulgarities... (this is going to be hard, but i MUST)
~BE A GOOD CITIZEN.
I'll have to rid the Holiday Hyriah, aka, slacker...
Will be wearing My Councillor Tie back, so have to behave myself... yet again...
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Thanks eyh...
Walaoweyhh, you guys go out for the Chong Pang thingy on our Squad's birthday, but never ask me...whether i want to go...
Like i don't want to see my brother perform is it??
At least say or ask larh, if you guys are going to watch the performance.
I wanted to go, but thought no one is going so i never go... wahh then, disappointed siak..
Thanks a lot eyh!! =)
At least can make this performance a reason to go out together rite.. Instead you guys go among yourselves. What the Heck larh?? Whatever larh!!
But its okay its alright.
Hyriah Forgives and May Forget...
Like i don't want to see my brother perform is it??
At least say or ask larh, if you guys are going to watch the performance.
I wanted to go, but thought no one is going so i never go... wahh then, disappointed siak..
Thanks a lot eyh!! =)
At least can make this performance a reason to go out together rite.. Instead you guys go among yourselves. What the Heck larh?? Whatever larh!!
But its okay its alright.
Hyriah Forgives and May Forget...
Anyway...
Happy Birthday Guys!!!
...
I read other people's blog...
And i feel like crying...
Another love's lost,
Another heart's shattered...
The World is such a Horrible place that i LoVe!!
This must have been a mistake.
It weren't meant to be.
And i feel like crying...
Another love's lost,
Another heart's shattered...
The World is such a Horrible place that i LoVe!!
This must have been a mistake.
It weren't meant to be.
Box of Pen Knives
Oyey, just remembered yesterday while shopping went to POPULAR Bookstore...
Then i saw this box of pen knives, i think got 12 inside and has a variety of colours, the blue one is nice...
Then i remebered the two pen knives i had the last time.
Both got thrown away i think...
So i was thinking... for those people who cut themselves and always got their pen knives snatched and thrown away this may be a good idea to buy the box of pen knives. You can always remind yourself that you have a box of them hahax!! =)
I almost thought of buying it...but on a second thought, i don't cut myself already, so what's the need??? LOLS =) =) =)
It has almost been 3 weeks...owwoww!! =)
Ever since, one needed to be stitched...
Then i saw this box of pen knives, i think got 12 inside and has a variety of colours, the blue one is nice...
Then i remebered the two pen knives i had the last time.
Both got thrown away i think...
So i was thinking... for those people who cut themselves and always got their pen knives snatched and thrown away this may be a good idea to buy the box of pen knives. You can always remind yourself that you have a box of them hahax!! =)
I almost thought of buying it...but on a second thought, i don't cut myself already, so what's the need??? LOLS =) =) =)
It has almost been 3 weeks...owwoww!! =)
Ever since, one needed to be stitched...
Endure
دائما كل العقبات حتى آخر رمق.
Whooah... Last night went home from shopping and was damn tired... Help sister scan some of her documents. then went to bed...
Woke up and i think i lost some memories again.
This has been happening like many many times.
Now i'm like cracking my brains, trying to remember what i did yesterday. Luckily i got blog about it yesterday.
But i can't remember who i was angry with regarding the previous post...hmm
I must have been very very angry to be blogging about it....
But anyway, i don't care liao...
Off studying now.
BYEBYE!!
Friday, June 26, 2009
My heart yearns for you,
Yet another day has past.
Swallowing all my memories.
Sinking all my thoughts and sorrows.
Anything is better than to be alone.
I'm not grieving for you
Nothing real love can't undo
I know i may have lost my way
But all paths leads straight to you
I long to be like you
Lie cold in the ground like you
There's room inside for two
I'm coming for you.
Time flies past.
The day is ending.
Time is running out,
Break my fall...
Yet another day has past.
Swallowing all my memories.
Sinking all my thoughts and sorrows.
Anything is better than to be alone.
I'm not grieving for you
Nothing real love can't undo
I know i may have lost my way
But all paths leads straight to you
I long to be like you
Lie cold in the ground like you
There's room inside for two
I'm coming for you.
Time flies past.
The day is ending.
Time is running out,
Break my fall...
Desires
Random talk here...
When i walk beside you, reach out and hold my hand.
When i'm in front of you, put your arms around me and pull me closer.
When i look into your eyes, kiss my lips gently...
I'm feeling random today...
Early in the morning did some self-revision and manage to do at least one of the malay homeworks. =)
May Allah bless his soul, Michael Joseph Jackson...
I did some cleaning up of my blog...
Remove a few stuffs, which was of no use...
Going to Compass Point later...hehex with sister.
Oyeah one more thing... i'm glad that you are happy now. But hey, you don't have to tell me every single thing that you guys did. Though i don't mind listening to them but especially those discreet stuffs you really don't have to tell me. Because that's personal and i DON'T want to know. I am happy for you but there is a fine line that we both have to obey. I don't mess with your stuffs so you don't mess up with my stuffs. We respect one another's space. Thank You!
(different person)
If you have some freaking problem with me can you just tell me. What's with the f-ing attitude... I'm glad that i don't have to see your freaking face!! Attention seeker!! SCREW YOU!!!
When i walk beside you, reach out and hold my hand.
When i'm in front of you, put your arms around me and pull me closer.
When i look into your eyes, kiss my lips gently...
I'm feeling random today...
Early in the morning did some self-revision and manage to do at least one of the malay homeworks. =)
May Allah bless his soul, Michael Joseph Jackson...
I did some cleaning up of my blog...
Remove a few stuffs, which was of no use...
Going to Compass Point later...hehex with sister.
Oyeah one more thing... i'm glad that you are happy now. But hey, you don't have to tell me every single thing that you guys did. Though i don't mind listening to them but especially those discreet stuffs you really don't have to tell me. Because that's personal and i DON'T want to know. I am happy for you but there is a fine line that we both have to obey. I don't mess with your stuffs so you don't mess up with my stuffs. We respect one another's space. Thank You!
(different person)
If you have some freaking problem with me can you just tell me. What's with the f-ing attitude... I'm glad that i don't have to see your freaking face!! Attention seeker!! SCREW YOU!!!
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Pass Out At Any Time
I'm having a very very bad headache... I think i'm getting fever soon... It feels like my head has its own heartbeat...
I got it ever since i stand under the sun for too long this morning during POP training.
Now i'm feeling very sick and going to pass out any time now.
Took 2 tablets of Panadol Extra which reminded me that last time i took all 5 in 1 hour and had a sleepless night cause i suffered great pain in my stomach... That was during my Stupid days...
So... after POP ate maggi at the void deck.
Went home then went out with friends to Hougang Mall.
Went to the library found some interesting books... then go arcade...
then i was sick so play only a few times...more of watching people play thats all... then went home again....then here i am.
My own quote for today "Whats the use of being pretty beautiful, but no one notices you, because you are insignificant?"
I got it ever since i stand under the sun for too long this morning during POP training.
Now i'm feeling very sick and going to pass out any time now.
Took 2 tablets of Panadol Extra which reminded me that last time i took all 5 in 1 hour and had a sleepless night cause i suffered great pain in my stomach... That was during my Stupid days...
So... after POP ate maggi at the void deck.
Went home then went out with friends to Hougang Mall.
Went to the library found some interesting books... then go arcade...
then i was sick so play only a few times...more of watching people play thats all... then went home again....then here i am.
My own quote for today "Whats the use of being pretty beautiful, but no one notices you, because you are insignificant?"
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
BLOODY HELL
OOOhhhh!! SHIT!!!
Alert!!! People...if you have my contact on MSN and you get weird links by me, please ignore it. Thank you.
I got tricked because they use my best friend's account..hmmmphh
I really thought it was real... Silly me.
Hahahax... i got phished!! geesshh...
FUCKER!!!!!
Bloody hell!! thanks to you i have to RESET all my passwords!!!
FUCK YOU!!!
TST Management My FOOT!!!
Alert!!! People...if you have my contact on MSN and you get weird links by me, please ignore it. Thank you.
I got tricked because they use my best friend's account..hmmmphh
I really thought it was real... Silly me.
Hahahax... i got phished!! geesshh...
FUCKER!!!!!
Bloody hell!! thanks to you i have to RESET all my passwords!!!
FUCK YOU!!!
TST Management My FOOT!!!
Deeper Conversations
خذني إلى أعمق المحادثة
. فقط يمكنك لي
. إذا كنت لا يمكن للعقل أن تخبرني كل ما تبذلونه من الآمال
والمخاوف
كل ما كنت تؤمن هل تحدث فرقا في العالم؟
I've been Thinking
I've been thinking and i think i owe some people an apology.
I want to apologise to you guys about what happen yesterday.
I didn't mean to tell anyone, but its just that before i talk to her i already told him that i found out something. Then when i talk to her, i promised or at least agreed not to tell anyone...Then after that he ask me what was it... i didn't want to tell but he persisted and then i reached the point of giving in....so i give in and told him... i really don't know what happen between him and her but my conscience says that i owe them an apology...i guess...i think i got her into some trouble...but then again...i don't know what happen and i don't want to make any assumptions...
So anyway... intended to watch Devdas... but then i couldn't find the DVD, then i saw Asoka..., but its pathetic, there is disc 2 and 3 but disc 1 is missing...haaiisshh
So forget it...instead i did some handicrafts...hehexxx
My own quote for today "Our past will cross roads in future."
I want to apologise to you guys about what happen yesterday.
I didn't mean to tell anyone, but its just that before i talk to her i already told him that i found out something. Then when i talk to her, i promised or at least agreed not to tell anyone...Then after that he ask me what was it... i didn't want to tell but he persisted and then i reached the point of giving in....so i give in and told him... i really don't know what happen between him and her but my conscience says that i owe them an apology...i guess...i think i got her into some trouble...but then again...i don't know what happen and i don't want to make any assumptions...
So anyway... intended to watch Devdas... but then i couldn't find the DVD, then i saw Asoka..., but its pathetic, there is disc 2 and 3 but disc 1 is missing...haaiisshh
So forget it...instead i did some handicrafts...hehexxx
My own quote for today "Our past will cross roads in future."
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Home Alone Again::::
I'm back to my care-free, stress-free self again!! & seriously i don't give a damn. My very own quote for today: "It is our misfortunes that shaped us of who we are today."
Now i'm seriously thinking that holidays aren't really fun especially when you are broke... haaaiisshh.
So today and tomorrow will be alone at home because 4/7 of us went to work, 1/7 gone for her busy schedules, 1/7 my babybro gone for UG camp, left only ME!!
Misery: starhub is being unreasonable, cant watch MTV!!! (sobbing)
I've got a pile of worksheets that needs to be checked.
Looking forward to meet friends later...
Okay!! Just now or perhaps hours ago...went out with friends and played badminton and yeapps had fun however it was very tiring. But at least i'm being active. Played singles, doubles, triples and driples...hahax. we've only 5 people... but i think the lesser the better.hahaxxx =)
Then met sister at Hougang Point bought some stuffs for dinner. And we cooked our very own home-made recipe. We called it Nameless Pasta. hehex...It has been very long since we cooked for dinner anyway. This is how really bad and how rarely people in the house cooks, we had no salts...sad-ed.
Ate while watching Jodhaa Akhbar again... i really like the movie...it is so enchanting, can never get tired of it. haaisshhhh
Hrithik Roshan is super hot and Aishwarya Rai is super beautiful...
I especially love this song...
What kind of love is this?
What kind of dream is this?
What kind of emotions have flooded in here?
Should try watching the whole movie... heart throbbing...
Ohh man... i think i'm in Bollywood madness. Tomorrow i want to watch Devdas.. Bestie!!!
Now i'm seriously thinking that holidays aren't really fun especially when you are broke... haaaiisshh.
So today and tomorrow will be alone at home because 4/7 of us went to work, 1/7 gone for her busy schedules, 1/7 my babybro gone for UG camp, left only ME!!
Misery: starhub is being unreasonable, cant watch MTV!!! (sobbing)
I've got a pile of worksheets that needs to be checked.
Looking forward to meet friends later...
Okay!! Just now or perhaps hours ago...went out with friends and played badminton and yeapps had fun however it was very tiring. But at least i'm being active. Played singles, doubles, triples and driples...hahax. we've only 5 people... but i think the lesser the better.hahaxxx =)
Then met sister at Hougang Point bought some stuffs for dinner. And we cooked our very own home-made recipe. We called it Nameless Pasta. hehex...It has been very long since we cooked for dinner anyway. This is how really bad and how rarely people in the house cooks, we had no salts...sad-ed.
Ate while watching Jodhaa Akhbar again... i really like the movie...it is so enchanting, can never get tired of it. haaisshhhh
Hrithik Roshan is super hot and Aishwarya Rai is super beautiful...
I especially love this song...
What kind of love is this?
What kind of dream is this?
What kind of emotions have flooded in here?
Should try watching the whole movie... heart throbbing...
Ohh man... i think i'm in Bollywood madness. Tomorrow i want to watch Devdas.. Bestie!!!
Monday, June 22, 2009
Attention!!
People for these few days... please don't ask me what i've been doing these days... because the ultimate answer for that is NOTHING!! Oh wow i did nothing.
Feel like going bowling... but no $$.
Excited for POP, and bemused by it...
Time flies so fast... four/ahalfyear past! So many PRECIOUS Memories!!
Okay... don't want to over-think about it.
Feel like going bowling... but no $$.
Excited for POP, and bemused by it...
Time flies so fast... four/ahalfyear past! So many PRECIOUS Memories!!
Okay... don't want to over-think about it.
22 JUNE
Today is a special day for me...
After NCOs only POP practice, went to Hougang Point eat at Mac. But i ate fruits instead hahax.. The watermelon juice not bad. I'll become the regular customer.Hehexx...
I LOVE FRUITS!!!
Then spent time with him! He is so funny!! Censored!!! Laugh laugh laugh!!!!
Went back to an empty house. lols very bored. Play computer now my face is stucked to the screen!!! Freaked out by a tiiiny wiiiny PEST!!! A COCKROACH!!!! Reminds me of my previous post. I don't dare go to the kitchen larrhhss...
Anyway... check out my arabic scroll!! hahax... went all the way to find the translation and found out that google has the service. haaissh... anyway i.love.it!!!
Added a few more songs
~Kylie Minogue fever...
~Anthem of our dying days
~ Check this one out!!! Last on the list. Abang Gorengan =)
After NCOs only POP practice, went to Hougang Point eat at Mac. But i ate fruits instead hahax.. The watermelon juice not bad. I'll become the regular customer.Hehexx...
I LOVE FRUITS!!!
Then spent time with him! He is so funny!! Censored!!! Laugh laugh laugh!!!!
Went back to an empty house. lols very bored. Play computer now my face is stucked to the screen!!! Freaked out by a tiiiny wiiiny PEST!!! A COCKROACH!!!! Reminds me of my previous post. I don't dare go to the kitchen larrhhss...
Anyway... check out my arabic scroll!! hahax... went all the way to find the translation and found out that google has the service. haaissh... anyway i.love.it!!!
Added a few more songs
~Kylie Minogue fever...
~Anthem of our dying days
~ Check this one out!!! Last on the list. Abang Gorengan =)
Sunday, June 21, 2009
What is my problem??
Hmmph...
~ It's hard for me to trust people. It takes months. I'm always suspicious about people.
~ I have short-term memory.
~ I can't memorise maths formula. Arghh... I have to keep referring. Time ticks. =)
~ I study for exams and after exams everything's gone. PPOOOFFF!!
Today woke up in the morning from a bad nightmare!!! Arrhhh...
What was my family doing in a empty dilapidated house??? ahaaiiishh...
But it's been long since i had a nightmare. SO QUITE NICE leyh???? Khai?? What the??
I'm seriously denying aren't i?? Hmmm...
Somehow something is telling me that i already know what i'm suppose to do.
I already know that whatever i'm doing these days is wrong but i'm still doing it...
I don't know. It seems that right now that i'm talking to myself while i'm blogging it. I'm being haunted... Something's misplaced... But don't be misunderstood... I'm writing and its physical but whatever i meant its abstract. Okay i should stop playing with my words.
Okay full stop here.
OMG!!! My sister is getting engaged??? I still can't believe.
Oyeah... just remembered she bought LEGO!! A 26 year old and a 16 year old playing LEGO! Ahahahxx. The child in me still exist.
haiishh. Suddenly i just feel eager to be an auntie... rosma has pretty and handsome niece and nephews. I want too!!
~ It's hard for me to trust people. It takes months. I'm always suspicious about people.
~ I have short-term memory.
~ I can't memorise maths formula. Arghh... I have to keep referring. Time ticks. =)
~ I study for exams and after exams everything's gone. PPOOOFFF!!
Today woke up in the morning from a bad nightmare!!! Arrhhh...
What was my family doing in a empty dilapidated house??? ahaaiiishh...
But it's been long since i had a nightmare. SO QUITE NICE leyh???? Khai?? What the??
I'm seriously denying aren't i?? Hmmm...
Somehow something is telling me that i already know what i'm suppose to do.
I already know that whatever i'm doing these days is wrong but i'm still doing it...
I don't know. It seems that right now that i'm talking to myself while i'm blogging it. I'm being haunted... Something's misplaced... But don't be misunderstood... I'm writing and its physical but whatever i meant its abstract. Okay i should stop playing with my words.
Okay full stop here.
OMG!!! My sister is getting engaged??? I still can't believe.
Oyeah... just remembered she bought LEGO!! A 26 year old and a 16 year old playing LEGO! Ahahahxx. The child in me still exist.
haiishh. Suddenly i just feel eager to be an auntie... rosma has pretty and handsome niece and nephews. I want too!!
To My Dearest Sec 3...
I hope you guys read this...
This is just something that i wanted you guys to know...because i don't think i'll have the opportunity to spent time and talk to you guys one on one...
For all of my NCO life, i've been stuck with you guys. I've seen potential in you guys the capability to lead a unit. You guys are a bunch of happy, hyper people who sometimes forget your responsibility and basic respect but even then i do believe you guys will lead the Unit to excellence. =)
Even though i've heard disappointment among you guys after the NCO Course, but hey cheer up it's not like its the end of the world.
Jealousy are bound to exist among squads but try to put aside ego and arrogance and enjoy the moment.
When we do something we always expect something in return, and when we don't we look down upon ourselves which of course is unhealthy. Instead we should take it as a lesson and learn from it. Reflect on them.
Nothing else is more precious than experience.
This year is a very critical year for you guys. Many things are going to happen.
But the most important thing is to remember to put aside your ego and arrogance but don't be too humble. Be united!! Be strong together!!
Later, when you guys get your postings... Try not to say the CIs are bias. Hehexx... But its going to happen anyway... Everyone stand at the same level. Everyone is a Sergeant. No one is bigger than the other okay!!!
This is just something that i wanted you guys to know...because i don't think i'll have the opportunity to spent time and talk to you guys one on one...
For all of my NCO life, i've been stuck with you guys. I've seen potential in you guys the capability to lead a unit. You guys are a bunch of happy, hyper people who sometimes forget your responsibility and basic respect but even then i do believe you guys will lead the Unit to excellence. =)
Even though i've heard disappointment among you guys after the NCO Course, but hey cheer up it's not like its the end of the world.
Jealousy are bound to exist among squads but try to put aside ego and arrogance and enjoy the moment.
When we do something we always expect something in return, and when we don't we look down upon ourselves which of course is unhealthy. Instead we should take it as a lesson and learn from it. Reflect on them.
Nothing else is more precious than experience.
This year is a very critical year for you guys. Many things are going to happen.
But the most important thing is to remember to put aside your ego and arrogance but don't be too humble. Be united!! Be strong together!!
Later, when you guys get your postings... Try not to say the CIs are bias. Hehexx... But its going to happen anyway... Everyone stand at the same level. Everyone is a Sergeant. No one is bigger than the other okay!!!
Saturday, June 20, 2009
How many can i post in A day?? ahhaaissh
Okay people listen up... Today "Professor" Hyriah is going to give tips to manage stress. Also Known As Stress Management! ahahx
~Breathe In & Breathe Out
When faced with stress, try this...
Breathe in through your nose.
Hold Your breath for a while.
Breathe out slowly...
Repeat.
* So people you don't just breathe for the sake of breathing.
~Talk to someone
Yak with a friend, vent your frustrations, tell them about your day. A simple conversation can go a long way to reduce stress.
* Vent your frustrations, but don't vent your anger at your friends.
~Laugh Out Loud (LOL)
Laughter is not only a good medicine, it is also contagious. Watching someone else have a good laugh can get you laughing and joining the fun too! A good laugh can help relieve the tension. So laugh the stress away.
* Laughing...
~Good Sleep
Your mind and body deserve a good sleep everyday. So, give yourself at least 6-8 hours of sleep each day.
* Sleeping..Mans's BEST hobby!! Too bad vampires don't sleep...
~Exercise & be happy
Exercise keeps you healthy and fit. It also releases endorphins which makes you feel good. So, exercise and lift your spirits! Gather a group of friends and start on a regular exercise routine today.
~Eat 2 fruits & 2 vegetables everyday
When faced with stressful situations, don't over indulge in caffeinated drinks and unhealthy snacks. Choose healthier options like fruits and vegetables. Remember 2 servings of fruit and 2 servings of vegetables everyday will keep you healthy.
* That's why you always see Bunny chewing his carrots.
~Think Positive
Say to yourself every morning:
- Today is going to be a great day!
- Things don't get better by worrying about them.
- I can do it!
- There is always something to be happy about!
- Life is great! make the best of it!
* Life is great!!! Stress Free Campaign!!!
~Find your own space...
Set aside at least 10 minutes for yourself everyday. During this "me time", put your work away and do something you really enjoy-take a walk along the beach or listen to your favourite music.
*Music...calms me down...
~Breathe In & Breathe Out
When faced with stress, try this...
Breathe in through your nose.
Hold Your breath for a while.
Breathe out slowly...
Repeat.
* So people you don't just breathe for the sake of breathing.
~Talk to someone
Yak with a friend, vent your frustrations, tell them about your day. A simple conversation can go a long way to reduce stress.
* Vent your frustrations, but don't vent your anger at your friends.
~Laugh Out Loud (LOL)
Laughter is not only a good medicine, it is also contagious. Watching someone else have a good laugh can get you laughing and joining the fun too! A good laugh can help relieve the tension. So laugh the stress away.
* Laughing...
~Good Sleep
Your mind and body deserve a good sleep everyday. So, give yourself at least 6-8 hours of sleep each day.
* Sleeping..Mans's BEST hobby!! Too bad vampires don't sleep...
~Exercise & be happy
Exercise keeps you healthy and fit. It also releases endorphins which makes you feel good. So, exercise and lift your spirits! Gather a group of friends and start on a regular exercise routine today.
~Eat 2 fruits & 2 vegetables everyday
When faced with stressful situations, don't over indulge in caffeinated drinks and unhealthy snacks. Choose healthier options like fruits and vegetables. Remember 2 servings of fruit and 2 servings of vegetables everyday will keep you healthy.
* That's why you always see Bunny chewing his carrots.
~Think Positive
Say to yourself every morning:
- Today is going to be a great day!
- Things don't get better by worrying about them.
- I can do it!
- There is always something to be happy about!
- Life is great! make the best of it!
* Life is great!!! Stress Free Campaign!!!
~Find your own space...
Set aside at least 10 minutes for yourself everyday. During this "me time", put your work away and do something you really enjoy-take a walk along the beach or listen to your favourite music.
*Music...calms me down...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY!!
HAPPY XXth BiRtHDaY!!!
Your 4th Child and 3rd Daughter here wishing you a great life ahead. Free from stress!! ahahaxx.
Happy always. A promise of a better life when i start working!! Bring you around the world okies!! Pilgrimage??
BEWARE of Menopause!! ahahaxx
CheerS!! Yeah nanti makan Sup Tulang!!! Happy nyer!!
Your 4th Child and 3rd Daughter here wishing you a great life ahead. Free from stress!! ahahaxx.
Happy always. A promise of a better life when i start working!! Bring you around the world okies!! Pilgrimage??
BEWARE of Menopause!! ahahaxx
CheerS!! Yeah nanti makan Sup Tulang!!! Happy nyer!!
YEAAHHH!!!
Okay then 2 more days...
22 June
Transformers!!!!!!
15 years and 1 month!!!
Mikhail & Me!! Always forever. Since we were babies! ahahax
22 June
Transformers!!!!!!
15 years and 1 month!!!
Mikhail & Me!! Always forever. Since we were babies! ahahax
Life In Mono
The stranger sang a theme,
From someone else's dream
The leaves began to fall
And no one spoke at all
But I can't seem to recall
When you came along
Ingenue,
Ingenue,
I just don't know what to do
The tree-lined avenue
Begins to fade from view
Drowning past regrets
In tea and cigarettes
But I can't seem to forget
When you came along
Ingenue,
Ingenue,
I just don't know what to do
Ingenue, I just don't know what to do
I've loved this song since i was in Primary school...
It calms me down... hehex
WWOWW, i'm getting darker and that sucks. Plus after those 3 days...i'm looking more like a zombie... Not enough sleep, and it looks like i could help to a few more hours of sleep...haaissshh..
Glad that i finish most of my homeworks except mother tongue again this morning.
No mood to do malay... i don't know why...
Today going to visit blogs... Deyyhh, sorry if i never tagged...or those Private blogs...Can't read...Going for a tagging and linking spree again!! ahahax!!!
From someone else's dream
The leaves began to fall
And no one spoke at all
But I can't seem to recall
When you came along
Ingenue,
Ingenue,
I just don't know what to do
The tree-lined avenue
Begins to fade from view
Drowning past regrets
In tea and cigarettes
But I can't seem to forget
When you came along
Ingenue,
Ingenue,
I just don't know what to do
Ingenue, I just don't know what to do
I've loved this song since i was in Primary school...
It calms me down... hehex
WWOWW, i'm getting darker and that sucks. Plus after those 3 days...i'm looking more like a zombie... Not enough sleep, and it looks like i could help to a few more hours of sleep...haaissshh..
Glad that i finish most of my homeworks except mother tongue again this morning.
No mood to do malay... i don't know why...
Today going to visit blogs... Deyyhh, sorry if i never tagged...or those Private blogs...Can't read...Going for a tagging and linking spree again!! ahahax!!!
Friday, June 19, 2009
Last Day of NCO Course!!! I'm free!!
I'm saying it as if i'm like the NCO trainee going through it ahahax.
But yeah, glad that it's over!!! FUUYOO!!
Last day, so took a lot of pics. But my face only a few.. I don't really like to take photos...hehex. Play police and murderer... Can you imagine?? Ncos and one extra person in Yellow playing that??? FUNN!!!
SSGT test. Congrats to them ahahax!!
NCO Course. Congrats to the new NCO. But dream on first!!! I haven't pass out yet!!
Even if i do... I'LL BE BACK!!!
Actually...right now... i'm so dead tired... leg cramp...then this Shafiq ask me help do the proposal...then all my sleeping plans are now postponed. Now don't feel like sleeping..haaaissshh!! Thanks Eyh!! But at least it doesn't take so much energy...ahahax...Anyway, its my pleasure to help!! =)
LOVE MY SQUAD MATES!!!
MIKHAIL LAURENS ABDULLAH AND ME!!!
...
Changing my song from hardcore to something more soothing...
I hope they have the song.. ahhax
But yeah, glad that it's over!!! FUUYOO!!
Last day, so took a lot of pics. But my face only a few.. I don't really like to take photos...hehex. Play police and murderer... Can you imagine?? Ncos and one extra person in Yellow playing that??? FUNN!!!
SSGT test. Congrats to them ahahax!!
NCO Course. Congrats to the new NCO. But dream on first!!! I haven't pass out yet!!
Even if i do... I'LL BE BACK!!!
Actually...right now... i'm so dead tired... leg cramp...then this Shafiq ask me help do the proposal...then all my sleeping plans are now postponed. Now don't feel like sleeping..haaaissshh!! Thanks Eyh!! But at least it doesn't take so much energy...ahahax...Anyway, its my pleasure to help!! =)
LOVE MY SQUAD MATES!!!
MIKHAIL LAURENS ABDULLAH AND ME!!!
...
Changing my song from hardcore to something more soothing...
I hope they have the song.. ahhax
Thursday, June 18, 2009
2nd day of NCO Course
LOL. So yeah, he came today... It was about time too!!
IMH!!!
Ahahax...so came early in the morning.
take care of casualties. Seriously, i suck in taking care of sick people. Plus its boring. The cadet resting, then u gt nothing to do, nothing to say... haaaiisshh
Then Khalid, Huda, Rosma come...
Then they say they too bored already liao...
And they wanted to go home... So i sian also liao...
Then no choice... requested to go home early. So here i am blogging!! hehex
But at least tomorrow i going mah... not that bad. Anyway they doing campcraft. Neyh...not my favourite.
Later doing homework... Hope to finish them up as soon as possible.
IMH!!!
Ahahax...so came early in the morning.
take care of casualties. Seriously, i suck in taking care of sick people. Plus its boring. The cadet resting, then u gt nothing to do, nothing to say... haaaiisshh
Then Khalid, Huda, Rosma come...
Then they say they too bored already liao...
And they wanted to go home... So i sian also liao...
Then no choice... requested to go home early. So here i am blogging!! hehex
But at least tomorrow i going mah... not that bad. Anyway they doing campcraft. Neyh...not my favourite.
Later doing homework... Hope to finish them up as soon as possible.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
EGGS!!
Waliao.... Why they eating eggs as if it doesn't harm their health??
The whole family are eating eggs except me...
Fried Eggs!!! They are a KILLER!!
I hate fried eggs!!!
High in cholestrol!! And its oily!!
Geeesshh
The whole family are eating eggs except me...
Fried Eggs!!! They are a KILLER!!
I hate fried eggs!!!
High in cholestrol!! And its oily!!
Geeesshh
NCO COURSE!!!
LOL!! Wake up early in the morning.
Just dump everything into my bag and shoebag.
Bring uniform, don't know for what sake...
So far... today...i think i spent fooling around.
I swear i wasn't even being serious.
Plus i was whining, through out the day.
And, today somehow the guys are targeting me, just because i'm the only girl around the whole day!! But cannot blame them also, they too were bored. So they find fault with me. hahax. And i was sarcastic towards them too!!
And we were like doing nothing also. Peeps.
Morning to lunch:
~clean up the store (it's damn neat...so happy!!)
~look after a couple of casualties
~do the damn attendance
~Start slacking...
Early in the morning, Kengy Sir damn scary. I don't know why,i NCO already but still scared. He did items checking...than those never bring need go home take...Whooahh Woops.
Lunch to evening: Best ever!! Ate KFC
~The guys...Yi Jin, Shafiq, Jon Chu, Jiawei go play basket ball with Kengy Sir... Whereas, Soon Lam and I play BINGO!! What have i turn Soon Lam into?? Sorry larhs.. Oyeah then Xiang Yi go home.
~Slack inside np store.
~join the sec 3 games
~then play basket ball again. This time i play. 4 guys 1 girl.. Haaaisshh
~then cabut...
So overall, today, was fun but in a sense also boring. Not to forget i...silly me!!
Tomorrow still need do pioneering... haix...
Just dump everything into my bag and shoebag.
Bring uniform, don't know for what sake...
So far... today...i think i spent fooling around.
I swear i wasn't even being serious.
Plus i was whining, through out the day.
And, today somehow the guys are targeting me, just because i'm the only girl around the whole day!! But cannot blame them also, they too were bored. So they find fault with me. hahax. And i was sarcastic towards them too!!
And we were like doing nothing also. Peeps.
Morning to lunch:
~clean up the store (it's damn neat...so happy!!)
~look after a couple of casualties
~do the damn attendance
~Start slacking...
Early in the morning, Kengy Sir damn scary. I don't know why,i NCO already but still scared. He did items checking...than those never bring need go home take...Whooahh Woops.
Lunch to evening: Best ever!! Ate KFC
~The guys...Yi Jin, Shafiq, Jon Chu, Jiawei go play basket ball with Kengy Sir... Whereas, Soon Lam and I play BINGO!! What have i turn Soon Lam into?? Sorry larhs.. Oyeah then Xiang Yi go home.
~Slack inside np store.
~join the sec 3 games
~then play basket ball again. This time i play. 4 guys 1 girl.. Haaaisshh
~then cabut...
So overall, today, was fun but in a sense also boring. Not to forget i...silly me!!
Tomorrow still need do pioneering... haix...
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
NCO Course 2009
Well, since i'm Sec 3 squad provost. Needless to say, i have to be there then...
Haixx... i've got no idea, what to do tomorrow.
I hope, without being told or informed, he would actually come.
But if he doesn't...I'm speechless then...
Haixx... i've got no idea, what to do tomorrow.
I hope, without being told or informed, he would actually come.
But if he doesn't...I'm speechless then...
Irritated. Agitated. Furiated.
Sudden hysteria just crept up on me.
Sudden urge to run away from all this mess.
I'm breaking out.
Excuses will always remain as an excuse and no reason can excuse it as an excuse!!!
You are being selfish.
I didn't want all of this, but have you ever asked me about this??
Had you known how i felt honestly.
Though i always said or look fine about it...well...the truth is NO.
I hated the thought of it.
I think it's just an excuse.
I feel like you are avoiding me.
I hate you for this.
I feel like you are hiding something from me.
I feel like you are not honest.
This is totally UNFAIR for me!!!
Fine!! Do whatever you want. Do whatever you like.
I hope one day you'll realise that you are losing someone... ME!!!
I want to go somewhere and find peace! Far away from all of this...
...
Went on a tagging and linking spree.
So people if you see your tagboard with Hyriah, Tagged!! that would be me. And probably i already linked you!!
But then saw something very touching then its also about love stuffs.
Suddenly, i just got frustrated. haaisshh!!
It doesn't make any sense to me actually.
Maybe, there's no such a thing as True Love.
People fall in and fall out of love!! That's the fact!! Even married couples do.
So what's more with US?? It's just too much to ask for, i guess...
KHAIRIAH!!! You are not an EMO kid, so slap your face and wake up and stop emoing!!
Bloody Shit!!
Neyhh... i think i'm having pms...thats all.
Going to get over it SOON!!!
Sudden urge to run away from all this mess.
I'm breaking out.
Excuses will always remain as an excuse and no reason can excuse it as an excuse!!!
You are being selfish.
I didn't want all of this, but have you ever asked me about this??
Had you known how i felt honestly.
Though i always said or look fine about it...well...the truth is NO.
I hated the thought of it.
I think it's just an excuse.
I feel like you are avoiding me.
I hate you for this.
I feel like you are hiding something from me.
I feel like you are not honest.
This is totally UNFAIR for me!!!
Fine!! Do whatever you want. Do whatever you like.
I hope one day you'll realise that you are losing someone... ME!!!
I want to go somewhere and find peace! Far away from all of this...
...
Went on a tagging and linking spree.
So people if you see your tagboard with Hyriah, Tagged!! that would be me. And probably i already linked you!!
But then saw something very touching then its also about love stuffs.
Suddenly, i just got frustrated. haaisshh!!
It doesn't make any sense to me actually.
Maybe, there's no such a thing as True Love.
People fall in and fall out of love!! That's the fact!! Even married couples do.
So what's more with US?? It's just too much to ask for, i guess...
KHAIRIAH!!! You are not an EMO kid, so slap your face and wake up and stop emoing!!
Bloody Shit!!
Neyhh... i think i'm having pms...thats all.
Going to get over it SOON!!!
Monday, June 15, 2009
BLOG MADNESS!!
Suddenly i feel like adding more stuffs into my blog...
But i think it's gonna make my blog look too messy.
So i would rather help a friend with her blog...
or should i make another blog?? haahaaxx
LOL, i actually created another blog...haaisshh
you-me-thing.blogspot.com.
I'm not done with it yet.
Still got a lot more to do. haaissh...
Why am i whining??
But i think it's gonna make my blog look too messy.
So i would rather help a friend with her blog...
or should i make another blog?? haahaaxx
LOL, i actually created another blog...haaisshh
you-me-thing.blogspot.com.
I'm not done with it yet.
Still got a lot more to do. haaissh...
Why am i whining??
Sunday, June 14, 2009
My Father's Father's Father
In lieu of FATHER'S DAY!!!
I don't know what has gotten into me, but just felt like writing it anyway.
My father's name is Kamir Bin Kayat.
Also known as Pak Kamir. hehex
He is a father of 5.
A Prison Officer, SSGT Kamir... woooohhh
I've always admire my Dad.
Eversince i was a toddler, i see my Dad as my Hero
DAD>HERO
He's been there for me.
He was my INSPIRATION.
He inspired me the first time i saw him in his Uniform.
I'm awed by his smart look.
Since then, i've had this ambition of becoming a Police Officer. And it still is.
(In a way, i'm so called carrying on the Police legacy in my family.)
I wanted to look as smart as him.
I wanted to be as disciplined as him.
I wanted to be as responsible as him.
I feel like becoming Him. Though excluding the gender, but to me, he is everything to me that is PERFECT. I want to be as PERFECT as Him.
He is so all-reliable man.
He cooks, he cleans, he sews, he does carpentery and the list goes on and on.
Sometimes i wonder, how was he brought up?
I could remember once when the four of us got Chicken-pox.
Dad, use to bathe us.
He would apply the lotions for us... Those were the memories.
And every night he would make sure that we were all asleep.
And we would always seat in between his kain while he's asleep on the sofa, it was like our very own playground slide.
Eventhough, he is always working different shifts now and then.
And we hardly spend time with him.
Furthermore, there was very rare opportunity that he could show that he cared for us, however deep in our hearts we knew it wasn't necessary for him to obviously show us that he cares.
That's because he show his care through inobvious ways.
The reason he goes to work everyday and never complaint.
The reason that he makes sure every one of us salam him whenever he goes to work.
The reason that he would make phone calls during his break and asked whether we've eaten yet.
The reason why, he always asked where we were going to.
The reason why, he always remind us not to stay out too long.
The reason why, he called everytime we were not back by 8.30pm.
The reason and the reason and the reason...
And every morning i would see him asleep on the sofa snoring... and thought to myself... Poor dad must have been very tired, from working night shifts. How could i ever repay?
Whenever we ask him this question, he would simply reply with "Belajar rajin-rajin, dapat kerja yang gaji besar dan jangan lupa diri."
Everytime, i hear this, i'm determined to do so. With that, i could shower him with love and more!!!
And he was the reason why i wanted to excel in my studies and NPCC.
As a daughter, i feel like it's a duty for the children to make their parents proud.
To witness their children, up on stage to receive an award is every parent's dream.
And to me as long as my father's name is announced after mine. I feel like i've done him proud.
It didn't matter to me that my name was announced but his name was, it makes a whole lot of difference. Nur Khairiah Bte Kamir.
In fact, i was irritated the first time i received my Npcc name tag and it didn't have his name plus, they spelt my name wrongly. Arrghh, so i had to make a new one with his name. I believe my brothers and sisters felt the same way too!
And everytime, i came back home with an award. I wanted to make sure that he acknowledged it. You may say, i bragged about it too!
I get very nervous if my academic results weren't good, expecting him to scold but he didn't. He just say, next time try to improve. And i was comfortable with that.
What more can i say? My dad was the first man i came to recognise. Most of all
I'M PROUD OF MY DAD!!!.
I've came to realise that i could probably write a book about him.
And for that, i want to wish my DAD, HAPPY PAPA DAY!!
Even millions of words can't explain my gratitude to him.
Some day, i'll find time to get photos of him.
I don't know what has gotten into me, but just felt like writing it anyway.
My father's name is Kamir Bin Kayat.
Also known as Pak Kamir. hehex
He is a father of 5.
A Prison Officer, SSGT Kamir... woooohhh
I've always admire my Dad.
Eversince i was a toddler, i see my Dad as my Hero
DAD>HERO
He's been there for me.
He was my INSPIRATION.
He inspired me the first time i saw him in his Uniform.
I'm awed by his smart look.
Since then, i've had this ambition of becoming a Police Officer. And it still is.
(In a way, i'm so called carrying on the Police legacy in my family.)
I wanted to look as smart as him.
I wanted to be as disciplined as him.
I wanted to be as responsible as him.
I feel like becoming Him. Though excluding the gender, but to me, he is everything to me that is PERFECT. I want to be as PERFECT as Him.
He is so all-reliable man.
He cooks, he cleans, he sews, he does carpentery and the list goes on and on.
Sometimes i wonder, how was he brought up?
I could remember once when the four of us got Chicken-pox.
Dad, use to bathe us.
He would apply the lotions for us... Those were the memories.
And every night he would make sure that we were all asleep.
And we would always seat in between his kain while he's asleep on the sofa, it was like our very own playground slide.
Eventhough, he is always working different shifts now and then.
And we hardly spend time with him.
Furthermore, there was very rare opportunity that he could show that he cared for us, however deep in our hearts we knew it wasn't necessary for him to obviously show us that he cares.
That's because he show his care through inobvious ways.
The reason he goes to work everyday and never complaint.
The reason that he makes sure every one of us salam him whenever he goes to work.
The reason that he would make phone calls during his break and asked whether we've eaten yet.
The reason why, he always asked where we were going to.
The reason why, he always remind us not to stay out too long.
The reason why, he called everytime we were not back by 8.30pm.
The reason and the reason and the reason...
And every morning i would see him asleep on the sofa snoring... and thought to myself... Poor dad must have been very tired, from working night shifts. How could i ever repay?
Whenever we ask him this question, he would simply reply with "Belajar rajin-rajin, dapat kerja yang gaji besar dan jangan lupa diri."
Everytime, i hear this, i'm determined to do so. With that, i could shower him with love and more!!!
And he was the reason why i wanted to excel in my studies and NPCC.
As a daughter, i feel like it's a duty for the children to make their parents proud.
To witness their children, up on stage to receive an award is every parent's dream.
And to me as long as my father's name is announced after mine. I feel like i've done him proud.
It didn't matter to me that my name was announced but his name was, it makes a whole lot of difference. Nur Khairiah Bte Kamir.
In fact, i was irritated the first time i received my Npcc name tag and it didn't have his name plus, they spelt my name wrongly. Arrghh, so i had to make a new one with his name. I believe my brothers and sisters felt the same way too!
And everytime, i came back home with an award. I wanted to make sure that he acknowledged it. You may say, i bragged about it too!
I get very nervous if my academic results weren't good, expecting him to scold but he didn't. He just say, next time try to improve. And i was comfortable with that.
What more can i say? My dad was the first man i came to recognise. Most of all
I'M PROUD OF MY DAD!!!.
I've came to realise that i could probably write a book about him.
And for that, i want to wish my DAD, HAPPY PAPA DAY!!
Even millions of words can't explain my gratitude to him.
Some day, i'll find time to get photos of him.
Kid's won't get It
Right now, i'm on a Project Title. Kid's won't get it.
This project is all about replacing simple words into something that is very tough and kid's won't get it.
For example;
> Rainbow we replace it with psychedelic spectrum.
> Dinosaurs are replaced with saurischians.
> Water is a substance made up of Hydrogen and Oxygen H2O.
> Happy is Eudaimonia....
Okay this is very lame.
P.S what ever that is stated here, may or may not be proven correct! teehee
This project is all about replacing simple words into something that is very tough and kid's won't get it.
For example;
> Rainbow we replace it with psychedelic spectrum.
> Dinosaurs are replaced with saurischians.
> Water is a substance made up of Hydrogen and Oxygen H2O.
> Happy is Eudaimonia....
Okay this is very lame.
P.S what ever that is stated here, may or may not be proven correct! teehee
Saturday, June 13, 2009
YayayaPapaya
Okay,okay...since someone updated and by popular demand... i shall update my blog then...
Let me rewind back what happened these few days...
Since previous post was about my guitar.
Lemme see, i've remembered all the chords that i need to know.
I still need to master my movement when changing chords...
So that's one thing.. Was pissed off with my sister of, whom, which i consulted, but ignored me.
By the way, sister you haven't tell me how the chord B is done. I've been asking you for dozens of time now....
Okay...then one early morning, wake up call by Khairul who was off to Malacca for what reasons i don't know just to ask me to help look after his girlfriend... waixxx Khai (me) what have i become?? A babysister??LOL.. But Khai (him) it's okay. She'll be doing just fine!! For that, you owe me a drink, plus...i'll list them down later when you're back. hahax
What have i been up to??
Errm...
I'm currently up to my weird activities...
Such as, sudden idea of becoming a vegetarian...
I swear it's not working. I'll rather starve then eat veggies!!!
I just wasted my money on salads... carrots?? yuckss!! I think i'll just stick to drinking carrot JUICE!!
Supposedly, a healthy diet...
This is my meal for lunch:
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Shouldn't have passed the Ice-Cream corner...
Thanks to Mum, i'm temporarily addicted to Pepsi. What the Hell??
That's why i switched to Smoothies..hehxxx
So i have also been helping out my sister for her engagement stuffs.
I love the glue gun!! Got my hand burnt a lot of times, Nice One!!
I shall not stress in the details...but yeap...have been venting anger through dancing. Feels really nice. Besides it's also a form of exercise. =)
That should be it then...
Have my brothers turned to Naruto maniacs?? OMG
Let me rewind back what happened these few days...
Since previous post was about my guitar.
Lemme see, i've remembered all the chords that i need to know.
I still need to master my movement when changing chords...
So that's one thing.. Was pissed off with my sister of, whom, which i consulted, but ignored me.
By the way, sister you haven't tell me how the chord B is done. I've been asking you for dozens of time now....
Okay...then one early morning, wake up call by Khairul who was off to Malacca for what reasons i don't know just to ask me to help look after his girlfriend... waixxx Khai (me) what have i become?? A babysister??LOL.. But Khai (him) it's okay. She'll be doing just fine!! For that, you owe me a drink, plus...i'll list them down later when you're back. hahax
What have i been up to??
Errm...
I'm currently up to my weird activities...
Such as, sudden idea of becoming a vegetarian...
I swear it's not working. I'll rather starve then eat veggies!!!
I just wasted my money on salads... carrots?? yuckss!! I think i'll just stick to drinking carrot JUICE!!
Supposedly, a healthy diet...
This is my meal for lunch:
....jpg)
Shouldn't have passed the Ice-Cream corner...
Thanks to Mum, i'm temporarily addicted to Pepsi. What the Hell??
That's why i switched to Smoothies..hehxxx
So i have also been helping out my sister for her engagement stuffs.
I love the glue gun!! Got my hand burnt a lot of times, Nice One!!
I shall not stress in the details...but yeap...have been venting anger through dancing. Feels really nice. Besides it's also a form of exercise. =)
That should be it then...
Have my brothers turned to Naruto maniacs?? OMG
To errhheemm... Sorry if i didn't reply your messages. That's because i don't feel like replying.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
10/06/09
Wake up earlier then supposed to...Pass Khairul the spanner...
Then he bring that thing to school??
Haixx. LOL!! =)
Then went school...
Damn tired and sleepy because of last night...
Can't keep awake, had to steal naps...
Then dear, was sicked.
Could feel his body was very hot...
Kesian dier...
But no matter how sick he is, he is still himself...energetic still want to play soccer...haixx...BOYS!!!
Then got NPCC...Discuss about a few stuffs.
Went home...
Then he bring that thing to school??
Haixx. LOL!! =)
Then went school...
Damn tired and sleepy because of last night...
Can't keep awake, had to steal naps...
Then dear, was sicked.
Could feel his body was very hot...
Kesian dier...
But no matter how sick he is, he is still himself...energetic still want to play soccer...haixx...BOYS!!!
Then got NPCC...Discuss about a few stuffs.
Went home...
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
UG LEADERS RULES!!
FUUUYOO!!!
Hahahaxx...
Had super FUN FUN FUN just now!!
Meet Rosma and Shairazi at the Bubble Tea Shop...then go to school together.
We went for the Girl Guides Campfire.
And it super rules!!
Eventhough, we don't really know all the songs... but who cares... just go with the flow!!
Me and Rosma and guys from NPCC and NCC was super bloody damn high!! Lorrxx =)
Hahaxx!
Will remember this night!!!
One Squad, One Heart!!!
Unity among Uniformed Groups!!
Today was SUPER BEST DAY!!!
Went school early, met him... Then sit together...
I love spending time with him!! LOL!!
Ahahahaxxx
Oya Congratulations to The New Love Birds!!
You guys are super fast!!
Thanks to ME!!
Hahahaxx...
Had super FUN FUN FUN just now!!
Meet Rosma and Shairazi at the Bubble Tea Shop...then go to school together.
We went for the Girl Guides Campfire.
And it super rules!!
Eventhough, we don't really know all the songs... but who cares... just go with the flow!!
Me and Rosma and guys from NPCC and NCC was super bloody damn high!! Lorrxx =)
Hahaxx!
Will remember this night!!!
One Squad, One Heart!!!
Unity among Uniformed Groups!!
Today was SUPER BEST DAY!!!
Went school early, met him... Then sit together...
I love spending time with him!! LOL!!
Ahahahaxxx
Oya Congratulations to The New Love Birds!!
You guys are super fast!!
Thanks to ME!!
Saper makan cili padi terasa lah pedas nye...
Hmmmm...
i wonder why she thinks she was the one i'm referring to who is pissed off with my post...
There got write her freaking name meyh???
To HELL, you are not the only HER i know.
Freaking pathetic girl!!
My eyes are perfectly fine but i wonder about your FREAKING EYES!!! At least i DON't WEAR SPECS!!!
FUCK YOU>FUCK WITH YOUR CHILDISH LAME GAMES>WHY DON'T YOU GROW UP AND STOP all YOUR "PLAYS"!!!
And OYA!!! Why don't you move on with your FREAKING FUCKED UP LIFE!!! OYA!!! YOU'VE GOT NO LIFE SO GET ONE!!!
SUCHANUISANCE!!!
Stop making yourself a LAUGHING STOCK!!!
HAHAHAHA!!!
YOU ARE DAMN RIGHT WE ARE DAMN GOOD!!!
i wonder why she thinks she was the one i'm referring to who is pissed off with my post...
There got write her freaking name meyh???
To HELL, you are not the only HER i know.
Freaking pathetic girl!!
My eyes are perfectly fine but i wonder about your FREAKING EYES!!! At least i DON't WEAR SPECS!!!
FUCK YOU>FUCK WITH YOUR CHILDISH LAME GAMES>WHY DON'T YOU GROW UP AND STOP all YOUR "PLAYS"!!!
And OYA!!! Why don't you move on with your FREAKING FUCKED UP LIFE!!! OYA!!! YOU'VE GOT NO LIFE SO GET ONE!!!
SUCHANUISANCE!!!
Stop making yourself a LAUGHING STOCK!!!
HAHAHAHA!!!
YOU ARE DAMN RIGHT WE ARE DAMN GOOD!!!
Monday, June 8, 2009
It's Just A Game!!
You can try to break us up.
But i'm not going to waste my time over lower-secondary children.
What goes around comes around.
My advice to you children is, "kalau ada jodoh tak akan ke mana."
I'm contented...
I'm happy, with who i am with...
My eyes see no one else but only you.
I want nobody, nobody but you.
Hahax...
Dear, everytime they put a test on us i know in the end...
It only makes us stronger and inseparable!!
Yeeehaawwwss!!
Ahahahhaxxx...
Fools won't get anywhere in this game.
Love is a Game for Two!
To hell, with the rest of you.
I seriously don't know what is going on here.
Someone is pissed off with my post and i don't get it why.
What has this got to do with her??
If she doesn't know, then this isn't her business...hhhmmm
But i'm not going to waste my time over lower-secondary children.
What goes around comes around.
My advice to you children is, "kalau ada jodoh tak akan ke mana."
I'm contented...
I'm happy, with who i am with...
My eyes see no one else but only you.
I want nobody, nobody but you.
Hahax...
Dear, everytime they put a test on us i know in the end...
It only makes us stronger and inseparable!!
Yeeehaawwwss!!
Ahahahhaxxx...
Fools won't get anywhere in this game.
Love is a Game for Two!
To hell, with the rest of you.
I seriously don't know what is going on here.
Someone is pissed off with my post and i don't get it why.
What has this got to do with her??
If she doesn't know, then this isn't her business...hhhmmm
ALL MY LOVING DAYS!!
YEEHEE!!!
Just got back and feel damn fresh!!
Hahax.. Class was great today!!=)
Sleepy though...
Then after school...Got NP POP training...
Had superb fun with my beloved squadmates!!
NCOs were all playing around!!
Laughing all the way...
Then ask Sec 2s come join...
They like KUKU stand there...
Blurr sotong!!!
They don't even know what to do lorrs.. LOL
But nevermind, this isn't an official training.
Thanks sec 2s for helping.. =))
By the way, the weather was freaking hot!!
Got roasted again!! Hahahx.
NEVERTHELESS, we NCOs HAD A WHOLE CHUNK OF FUN FUN FUN!!!
Just got back and feel damn fresh!!
Hahax.. Class was great today!!=)
Sleepy though...
Then after school...Got NP POP training...
Had superb fun with my beloved squadmates!!
NCOs were all playing around!!
Laughing all the way...
Then ask Sec 2s come join...
They like KUKU stand there...
Blurr sotong!!!
They don't even know what to do lorrs.. LOL
But nevermind, this isn't an official training.
Thanks sec 2s for helping.. =))
By the way, the weather was freaking hot!!
Got roasted again!! Hahahx.
NEVERTHELESS, we NCOs HAD A WHOLE CHUNK OF FUN FUN FUN!!!
Sunday, June 7, 2009
BOO YAA!!!
Days past... but you're gone...
Soon tomorrow i'll meet you again...
I feel like i don't know who you are already.
If i'm really worth keeping. Prove it to ME!
I've been occupying myself with a lot of things.
Done most of my homeworks except mother tongue.
Later i'm going out again...
Help and busy body-ing around...with Khairul. (Primary school friend)
Some bicycle stuff!!
Gonna be GEREK!!
I really don't understand..
Why is it that the other guys are treating me so nice but you are doing the opposite...
I'm intoxicated with your love and you are doing this to me...
Thanks a lot!!!!
Days without you went well though....
Don't worry, i'm still the same girl that you left.
Soon tomorrow i'll meet you again...
I feel like i don't know who you are already.
If i'm really worth keeping. Prove it to ME!
I've been occupying myself with a lot of things.
Done most of my homeworks except mother tongue.
Later i'm going out again...
Help and busy body-ing around...with Khairul. (Primary school friend)
Some bicycle stuff!!
Gonna be GEREK!!
I really don't understand..
Why is it that the other guys are treating me so nice but you are doing the opposite...
I'm intoxicated with your love and you are doing this to me...
Thanks a lot!!!!
Days without you went well though....
Don't worry, i'm still the same girl that you left.
Saturday, June 6, 2009
A day at the Beach, washes away my sorrow
Yehoos!!!
Just back and relaxing and freshed!!! Like the feeling..
But wow, today is so tiring!!! But it was damn great!!
Out at 10 am..
Reach there, never wait long...and i'm drenched!!!
Hariz brought a ball along...
Used that to help me in my inability to float... SAD!!! =(
In the water for hours i think...
Then dried up, eat.. go cycling but i rollerblade..
God... it was damn tiring... from one end to another...
But along the way...got a lot of whistles going on.. Thanks eyh...
then, surprise!!! Saw my primary school friend!!
Texting him now anyway...
Eyh... someone's in love again!!!
Aku sedang ingin bercinta karena...mungkin ada kamu di sini...
Shall not say who.. but before any misunderstanding..its DEFINITELY not ME!!
She likes that guy on his bike!! Fixing his brake...
I don't know what i'm doing...
Then MAKAN again!!
Oyah before cycling...we go playground play swing...
Then started thinking about sad thing as we look at the sea.. It was beautiful...
The area where the light blue sea meets the green sea...
Magnificent!!
Okay...then started talking about BGR and some BITCH!!!
Okay... Larrss.. today was a nice day...eventhough the guys had to went off earlier...
And SOMEONE refuses to talk to me for some LAME excuses!!
Oya...i forgot he's overseas... so sad cant message him... LAME!!!
teehee!!! MAYBE going put tomorrow help someone fix a bike!!!
Just back and relaxing and freshed!!! Like the feeling..
But wow, today is so tiring!!! But it was damn great!!
Out at 10 am..
Reach there, never wait long...and i'm drenched!!!
Hariz brought a ball along...
Used that to help me in my inability to float... SAD!!! =(
In the water for hours i think...
Then dried up, eat.. go cycling but i rollerblade..
God... it was damn tiring... from one end to another...
But along the way...got a lot of whistles going on.. Thanks eyh...
then, surprise!!! Saw my primary school friend!!
Texting him now anyway...
Eyh... someone's in love again!!!
Aku sedang ingin bercinta karena...mungkin ada kamu di sini...
Shall not say who.. but before any misunderstanding..its DEFINITELY not ME!!
She likes that guy on his bike!! Fixing his brake...
I don't know what i'm doing...
Then MAKAN again!!
Oyah before cycling...we go playground play swing...
Then started thinking about sad thing as we look at the sea.. It was beautiful...
The area where the light blue sea meets the green sea...
Magnificent!!
Okay...then started talking about BGR and some BITCH!!!
Okay... Larrss.. today was a nice day...eventhough the guys had to went off earlier...
And SOMEONE refuses to talk to me for some LAME excuses!!
Oya...i forgot he's overseas... so sad cant message him... LAME!!!
teehee!!! MAYBE going put tomorrow help someone fix a bike!!!
Friday, June 5, 2009
I HATE LIARS AND BACKSTABBERS!!!
Today was a lovely day...
Went to school earlier to meet him...
Sit in class...talk..talk.talk
Laugh...laugh..laugh
It was pretty much of how we were suppose to be.
Very idealistic
Then everything changed...
After maths class.
Ask me to meet him again..
He looked so serious...
Start talking...
I didn't expect this...
He told me not to be angry...
Okay...so i hear him out...
He said he want her to be his sister...
How wonderful was that??
I was trying not to be angry...
Then he continue...
Then i said...
but she hate you...
Then he said... That's why, the more she say she hate me the more i like her...
Okay...
Then he said he loved her...to her...i think..
wooww. Interesting sorry...Carry on...
After hearing that...
I said i hate him...
Then he told me never to say i hate him...
Okay...
I walked off, hoping to cool down...
I became emo...instead...
Go buy drink... drink half-way...
Then went to talk to him..
He pulled my hand and it hurt badly...
i didn't realise it was so bad...
Went to toilet again... wash off...sian...
Fight with some of my friends.
one of them actually cried..
Felt bad though..but still!!!!
And i'm not JEALOUS!! I'm PISSED OFF!!!
BULL SHIT!!
Broke down again...
Then talk to him...
He explain...blablablablabla..
Then we were okay again...
Wonderful??!!
I know someone lied...pretending to be doing something when you didn't...
It's okay.. Nevermind
I'm cool with it.
Left with no CHOICE!!!
Tell you what, i don't mind you being his sis.
it only means you'll be my sis too.
Went to school earlier to meet him...
Sit in class...talk..talk.talk
Laugh...laugh..laugh
It was pretty much of how we were suppose to be.
Very idealistic
Then everything changed...
After maths class.
Ask me to meet him again..
He looked so serious...
Start talking...
I didn't expect this...
He told me not to be angry...
Okay...so i hear him out...
He said he want her to be his sister...
How wonderful was that??
I was trying not to be angry...
Then he continue...
Then i said...
but she hate you...
Then he said... That's why, the more she say she hate me the more i like her...
Okay...
Then he said he loved her...to her...i think..
wooww. Interesting sorry...Carry on...
After hearing that...
I said i hate him...
Then he told me never to say i hate him...
Okay...
I walked off, hoping to cool down...
I became emo...instead...
Go buy drink... drink half-way...
Then went to talk to him..
He pulled my hand and it hurt badly...
i didn't realise it was so bad...
Went to toilet again... wash off...sian...
Fight with some of my friends.
one of them actually cried..
Felt bad though..but still!!!!
And i'm not JEALOUS!! I'm PISSED OFF!!!
BULL SHIT!!
Broke down again...
Then talk to him...
He explain...blablablablabla..
Then we were okay again...
Wonderful??!!
I know someone lied...pretending to be doing something when you didn't...
It's okay.. Nevermind
I'm cool with it.
Left with no CHOICE!!!
Tell you what, i don't mind you being his sis.
it only means you'll be my sis too.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
I LOVE TODAY!!!
...
Class started 10 am today.
Excited to go to school actually.
Class was fun.
Maths in maths homerrom, and it was so cold, and i forgot to bring my jacket...lol
Freezing.
And then after school, go out with him...
Had a lot of fun too!!
And he was so caring...
He saw it... and...
Then at 2.45 we go back school for NCO meeting for POP discussion.
We were discussing about the parade and blabla...
Honestly, i wasn't paying attention during the discussion...busy admiring someone.
Hahaxx LOL!!!
Went home...
Missing someone right now...
Class started 10 am today.
Excited to go to school actually.
Class was fun.
Maths in maths homerrom, and it was so cold, and i forgot to bring my jacket...lol
Freezing.
And then after school, go out with him...
Had a lot of fun too!!
And he was so caring...
He saw it... and...
Then at 2.45 we go back school for NCO meeting for POP discussion.
We were discussing about the parade and blabla...
Honestly, i wasn't paying attention during the discussion...busy admiring someone.
Hahaxx LOL!!!
Went home...
Missing someone right now...
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
breaking glasses
I saw a coca-cola cup that McD give away.
I feel like breaking it again. Sadist sia i.
Its fun to break stuffs.
Today, was the most tensed day ever for me...
I don't dare to look at him in the eye.
Last night, can't sleep...
Then first lesson, A.maths i was barely paying attention.LOL =)
Some more during physics, at lab seat in at the same table.
Then in class, i was so distracted. I kept looking at my wrist...
Told Rosma, then she go tell him. She don't know yet...
Then go maths homeroom for afternoon class.
He keep saying it was cold.
But today was really damn odd.
He seem different. He keep saying he crazy...???
And it was all just a misunderstanding...
Home alone again.
Hehex, i managed to do most of the homeworks.... gerek kan
Okay.. so alone... i can never be left alone at home. Too many disturbings.
I feel like breaking it again. Sadist sia i.
Its fun to break stuffs.
Today, was the most tensed day ever for me...
I don't dare to look at him in the eye.
Last night, can't sleep...
Then first lesson, A.maths i was barely paying attention.LOL =)
Some more during physics, at lab seat in at the same table.
Then in class, i was so distracted. I kept looking at my wrist...
Told Rosma, then she go tell him. She don't know yet...
Then go maths homeroom for afternoon class.
He keep saying it was cold.
But today was really damn odd.
He seem different. He keep saying he crazy...???
And it was all just a misunderstanding...
Home alone again.
Hehex, i managed to do most of the homeworks.... gerek kan
Okay.. so alone... i can never be left alone at home. Too many disturbings.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Grave??? Right now i'm denying
I was okay in school... but as soon as i reach home.
I was down with flu, slight fever, cramps and also my ever-constipation (is my spelling right??) haix.. whatever larh haven't dismiss anything for the past few days. geeeezz why am i saying this anyway??
I realise something today, as hard as i am trying, but not a single tear will drop... ????
My tears are dried up?? I lost the ability to feel?? So many possibilities, yet no answers. Okay whatever.
Anyway, i was thinking of. Playing the guitar for the performance... How about... Your Guardian Angel?? I love that song. Accoustic. My sis can teach me... wooohhooo Greatness of having so many siblings. Plays guitar, drums, gamers, its wonderful. However, sometimes you might feel like you want to kickass someone.
Oya.. today english oral right?? I think i was blabbering all the way and was not serious.
During picture description, i was talking about recount when i accidentally said "....blablabla". I mean what the hell?? As soon as i realise i made the mistake,I made a face and i think the teacher saw that. i did it so many times. And i said "lah" and "mah". An asshole i am!!! TOOT!!!
Currently, i'm so tied up...
By the way, we are going no where... So hopefully, the conversation ends here. I already made up my mind. I know if i fall, everything will be lost. If i need, i'll steal some crayons from Elmo and paint my life back myself. Hehex.
I told you, my darker side is escaping. I'm going to use my manupulative mind again aren't i?? Khai... keep your mind to yourself, for goodness sake!!! I'm a liar and i'm heartless. Start loving me!!!
what the hell is wrong with me?? Think!!! Think!! Think!!
I was down with flu, slight fever, cramps and also my ever-constipation (is my spelling right??) haix.. whatever larh haven't dismiss anything for the past few days. geeeezz why am i saying this anyway??
I realise something today, as hard as i am trying, but not a single tear will drop... ????
My tears are dried up?? I lost the ability to feel?? So many possibilities, yet no answers. Okay whatever.
Anyway, i was thinking of. Playing the guitar for the performance... How about... Your Guardian Angel?? I love that song. Accoustic. My sis can teach me... wooohhooo Greatness of having so many siblings. Plays guitar, drums, gamers, its wonderful. However, sometimes you might feel like you want to kickass someone.
Oya.. today english oral right?? I think i was blabbering all the way and was not serious.
During picture description, i was talking about recount when i accidentally said "....blablabla". I mean what the hell?? As soon as i realise i made the mistake,I made a face and i think the teacher saw that. i did it so many times. And i said "lah" and "mah". An asshole i am!!! TOOT!!!
Currently, i'm so tied up...
By the way, we are going no where... So hopefully, the conversation ends here. I already made up my mind. I know if i fall, everything will be lost. If i need, i'll steal some crayons from Elmo and paint my life back myself. Hehex.
I told you, my darker side is escaping. I'm going to use my manupulative mind again aren't i?? Khai... keep your mind to yourself, for goodness sake!!! I'm a liar and i'm heartless. Start loving me!!!
what the hell is wrong with me?? Think!!! Think!! Think!!
Give in?
I CAN'T!!!!!!!!
I feel like giving in to you.
Let you have the dream that you wanted.
I don't even know what to do...or why i'm doing it.
You are just 14 and yet you are suffering so much.
I feel that its unfair.
So i'm praying to God, to help lighten your burden.
I just can't see people in great difficulty.
I just feel like i have to do something and help.
But, i'm just 16.
What is there for me to help?? Pray.
Oh God, i'm feeling very hopeless. Can you please help, give me a sign. Give my friend a sign.
Twice i said - indirectly...
Someone said that if i talked about breaking up one more time, i might really get it. Close enough??
I can't make you forget him.
But perhaps i can make him remember you.
My deepest regrets and apologies to him.
My heart flooded with sorrow...
Don't add any more pain and make things any more harder than it already is.
I never gave up on anyone.
I'm giving up on myself.
My love for you always forever.
But i can't make you happy.
It's a pity he is unable to read this... i wish he would. And probably the next day... I'm already perishing.
The beautiful colours that once shaded my life is slowly fading.
This is not the end, its the beginning.
I feel like giving in to you.
Let you have the dream that you wanted.
I don't even know what to do...or why i'm doing it.
You are just 14 and yet you are suffering so much.
I feel that its unfair.
So i'm praying to God, to help lighten your burden.
I just can't see people in great difficulty.
I just feel like i have to do something and help.
But, i'm just 16.
What is there for me to help?? Pray.
Oh God, i'm feeling very hopeless. Can you please help, give me a sign. Give my friend a sign.
Twice i said - indirectly...
Someone said that if i talked about breaking up one more time, i might really get it. Close enough??
I can't make you forget him.
But perhaps i can make him remember you.
My deepest regrets and apologies to him.
My heart flooded with sorrow...
Don't add any more pain and make things any more harder than it already is.
I never gave up on anyone.
I'm giving up on myself.
My love for you always forever.
But i can't make you happy.
It's a pity he is unable to read this... i wish he would. And probably the next day... I'm already perishing.
The beautiful colours that once shaded my life is slowly fading.
This is not the end, its the beginning.
Monday, June 1, 2009
It's a BEAUTIFUL LIE & a PERFECT DENIAL
I am so frustrated. You see, i spent almost half a day watching some show from a website... anxious to know whose the winner but in the end they do not have the most important episode ever... the FINALE!!!! I just wasted my time!! Aaarrrgghhh
Anyway, other than waking up damn late this morning... Stomach ache...Mosquito bites...Scorching heat...other than that today was fine. Besides i was indoor most of the time.
I can't see why, some people could actually go out there and go cycling. Its freaking hot!!!???
We never communicate today. But its fine. A problem that i cannot know.
I think today, i answered the phone calls a little bit too lively...i think...and it was a man. Paiseh! I thought it was one of the Makchiks. Blurr sotong siak!
Not directing this part of the post to anyone. But kalau terasa let me know, i'll clear the air. I just want to express my opinion and my whirling thoughts.
Anyway, other than waking up damn late this morning... Stomach ache...Mosquito bites...Scorching heat...other than that today was fine. Besides i was indoor most of the time.
I can't see why, some people could actually go out there and go cycling. Its freaking hot!!!???
We never communicate today. But its fine. A problem that i cannot know.
I think today, i answered the phone calls a little bit too lively...i think...and it was a man. Paiseh! I thought it was one of the Makchiks. Blurr sotong siak!
Not directing this part of the post to anyone. But kalau terasa let me know, i'll clear the air. I just want to express my opinion and my whirling thoughts.
Your words contradicts at every thing you said and what you wrote.
It doesn't make any sense to me.
Him. Me. You.
It's hard to deny that somehow we link.
I can't help but think, what is your motive??
I can't just deny that you exist.
I can't believe a lie that you will forget him.
I can't make someone lie to themselves.
I know you are just trying to ignore the other part of you for other's sake.
So stop forcing yourself.
Stop trying to sacrifice something that you can never let go.
That part of you kept whispering to you to never let go.
I do too.
Why don't you think about your own happiness than about others?
I know that some day, i have to decide.
If you can't decide than i will.
One day, i'm going to make someone break his promise.
One day, i'm going to break my promise
One day, i'm going to let go.
One day, i'm going to keep turning back and regret.
I'm just not ready for this mess.
It is not my time.
Loosing something is still okay.
Loosing someone and saying its okay than that is a huge chunk of LIE!!
Don't cry. Fight for him.
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