Anyway, other than waking up damn late this morning... Stomach ache...Mosquito bites...Scorching heat...other than that today was fine. Besides i was indoor most of the time.
I can't see why, some people could actually go out there and go cycling. Its freaking hot!!!???
We never communicate today. But its fine. A problem that i cannot know.
I think today, i answered the phone calls a little bit too lively...i think...and it was a man. Paiseh! I thought it was one of the Makchiks. Blurr sotong siak!
Not directing this part of the post to anyone. But kalau terasa let me know, i'll clear the air. I just want to express my opinion and my whirling thoughts.
Your words contradicts at every thing you said and what you wrote.
It doesn't make any sense to me.
Him. Me. You.
It's hard to deny that somehow we link.
I can't help but think, what is your motive??
I can't just deny that you exist.
I can't believe a lie that you will forget him.
I can't make someone lie to themselves.
I know you are just trying to ignore the other part of you for other's sake.
So stop forcing yourself.
Stop trying to sacrifice something that you can never let go.
That part of you kept whispering to you to never let go.
I do too.
Why don't you think about your own happiness than about others?
I know that some day, i have to decide.
If you can't decide than i will.
One day, i'm going to make someone break his promise.
One day, i'm going to break my promise
One day, i'm going to let go.
One day, i'm going to keep turning back and regret.
I'm just not ready for this mess.
It is not my time.
Loosing something is still okay.
Loosing someone and saying its okay than that is a huge chunk of LIE!!
Don't cry. Fight for him.
