Give in?

I CAN'T!!!!!!!!

I feel like giving in to you.
Let you have the dream that you wanted.
I don't even know what to do...or why i'm doing it.
You are just 14 and yet you are suffering so much.
I feel that its unfair.
So i'm praying to God, to help lighten your burden.
I just can't see people in great difficulty.
I just feel like i have to do something and help.
But, i'm just 16.
What is there for me to help?? Pray.

Oh God, i'm feeling very hopeless. Can you please help, give me a sign. Give my friend a sign.

Twice i said - indirectly...
Someone said that if i talked about breaking up one more time, i might really get it. Close enough??

I can't make you forget him.
But perhaps i can make him remember you.


My deepest regrets and apologies to him.
My heart flooded with sorrow...
Don't add any more pain and make things any more harder than it already is.
I never gave up on anyone.
I'm giving up on myself.
My love for you always forever.
But i can't make you happy.


It's a pity he is unable to read this... i wish he would. And probably the next day... I'm already perishing.
The beautiful colours that once shaded my life is slowly fading.
This is not the end, its the beginning.