Grave??? Right now i'm denying

I was okay in school... but as soon as i reach home.
I was down with flu, slight fever, cramps and also my ever-constipation (is my spelling right??) haix.. whatever larh haven't dismiss anything for the past few days. geeeezz why am i saying this anyway??

I realise something today, as hard as i am trying, but not a single tear will drop... ????
My tears are dried up?? I lost the ability to feel?? So many possibilities, yet no answers. Okay whatever.

Anyway, i was thinking of. Playing the guitar for the performance... How about... Your Guardian Angel?? I love that song. Accoustic. My sis can teach me... wooohhooo Greatness of having so many siblings. Plays guitar, drums, gamers, its wonderful. However, sometimes you might feel like you want to kickass someone.

Oya.. today english oral right?? I think i was blabbering all the way and was not serious.
During picture description, i was talking about recount when i accidentally said "....blablabla". I mean what the hell?? As soon as i realise i made the mistake,I made a face and i think the teacher saw that. i did it so many times. And i said "lah" and "mah". An asshole i am!!! TOOT!!!

Currently, i'm so tied up...

By the way, we are going no where... So hopefully, the conversation ends here. I already made up my mind. I know if i fall, everything will be lost. If i need, i'll steal some crayons from Elmo and paint my life back myself. Hehex.

I told you, my darker side is escaping. I'm going to use my manupulative mind again aren't i?? Khai... keep your mind to yourself, for goodness sake!!! I'm a liar and i'm heartless. Start loving me!!!
what the hell is wrong with me?? Think!!! Think!! Think!!