Hiding in Downtown East Costa Sands... for 3 days! :)
With my lovely squad mates. :))
I love them luhh!!
28/12/09
First day check in, faced some problems.
We needed someone who was 18 yrs and above to help us sign in.
An unexpected aid came, very lucky of us, it so happens that Peter the Head councillor was also having chalet there so he was kind enough to help us sign in. And he is 18.
Damn thankful to him lorr!! Thanks eyh bro!
So into the room. Throw everything into one corner and watch TV.
Haha :)
Then i cant remember exactly what we did.
After a few hours, we went to find FOOD!! VERY HUNGRY!!
KFC...sian...but nevermind larhs...
Went to find a gift for the Gift-Xchange session!
Unfortunately, Xiang Yi, Priya, and before that Khalid and Soon Lam went home. :(
Gift-Xchange session was postponed to the next day.
Went back to the room.
Booked 11.30pm tickets for Avatar...
It ended around 2am plus.
After which we went back to the room again to watch Pirated New Moon.
I swear the quality damn shit (what do you expect? pirated sia.)
Almost the whole show, people were complaining about the lousy and plus totally irrelevant subtitles and the only thing we could see was all black screen. ;)
Haha :)
That ended around 4am.
Some others played Taiti the whole night/morning
The boys was super noisy.
Then everyone tired already... Sleeping time.
But the guys keep slamming each other.
We get to bed at 4 but we can only sleep until it was 5am.
Super funny sia the guys!
Keep laughing and shouting siott.
And some random stuffs.
A totally MAD night!
Everybody siao already...
Even then after 5am some still cannot sleep.
29/12/09
Second day... woke up at 7am. Seriously cannot sleep.
Toss and turn, toss and turn.
Suddenly got people open the fridge, drink water and look for food. ''_''
And then around 10 am i went home.
Bought school books at Bowen and disturbed the Sec 3 PDS training.
Hehe ;)
Damn tired.
Then went back to chalet.
In the bus, sleeping.
Oyeah, saw Hariz and Khalid a couple of times.
Outside school and at the bus Interchange. @.@
I think they were stalking me... haha... perasan sakk...bahaha :0
Reached chalet... Hoohaah hoohaah again.
Gift-Xchange!!
Jon Lim got my elmo and i got Nabil's Cadbury Chocolate. :)
Im not a fan of chocolates larh... But nevermind larh, its the thought that counts. :)
And Nabil got a pillow from Dou Heng! Cute sakk.
Haha
Then the guys went swimming.
BBQ nite.
Amira came! woohoo! Long time never see her seyhh.
BBQ lasted for quite some time.
Food! Food! Food! Food!
By 10pm, people started to head home.
After cleaning up, we had a personal talking session. :)
Talked about BGR and Npcc! Relive all the memories. :))
Fabulous!
Slept at 4am again...
30/12/09
Home Sweet Home Not!
Dont feel like going home.
Want to stay longer seyhh.
Check Out and went to Hougang Mall eat at MacD.
Everyone was so zombied.
Too tired...
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Sunday, December 27, 2009
One Hell oF a Rideeeee!!!
yoohoo people!!
Just got back from a cool ride @ Pulau Ubin with Fam.
We went on a more rougher route.
We had to overcome steep slopes, muddy and rocky terrain.
How unlucky i was, i got a heavy bike. I dont know how or why. But it is a real challenge for me. It takes out a lot of my energy.
But hell, i may look like those unactive people, but looks are deceiving, im sporty alright.
Come on, i may look like some simple ordinary chic, but who knows i have commanded a squad??
So back to the story, woke up in the morning depart for Pulau Ubin, rent a bike and then off to campsites.
I love it when you cycle down hill, at high speed, bends and all the stuffs.
And i overcomed my high speed-steep slope fear.
Im so in it again now.
Wanna do it, do it, again again!!
We even cycled to Npcc Camp Resilience.
Then it started to drizzle, but who cares?? We just continued.
It lasted for almost 3 hours before we returned the bike and then went to Changi Village for our lunch.
Back in the car, 3 of us dozed off.
teehee :)
Today Rocks! I hope tomorrow will too! :)
Tomorrow is SQUAD CHALET. Woohoo. And most importantly, my pay will be in.
I need the munneh!!
Just got back from a cool ride @ Pulau Ubin with Fam.
We went on a more rougher route.
We had to overcome steep slopes, muddy and rocky terrain.
How unlucky i was, i got a heavy bike. I dont know how or why. But it is a real challenge for me. It takes out a lot of my energy.
But hell, i may look like those unactive people, but looks are deceiving, im sporty alright.
Come on, i may look like some simple ordinary chic, but who knows i have commanded a squad??
So back to the story, woke up in the morning depart for Pulau Ubin, rent a bike and then off to campsites.
I love it when you cycle down hill, at high speed, bends and all the stuffs.
And i overcomed my high speed-steep slope fear.
Im so in it again now.
Wanna do it, do it, again again!!
We even cycled to Npcc Camp Resilience.
Then it started to drizzle, but who cares?? We just continued.
It lasted for almost 3 hours before we returned the bike and then went to Changi Village for our lunch.
Back in the car, 3 of us dozed off.
teehee :)
Today Rocks! I hope tomorrow will too! :)
Tomorrow is SQUAD CHALET. Woohoo. And most importantly, my pay will be in.
I need the munneh!!
Friday, December 25, 2009
Short blog post, i suppose!!
Greattt!!!
And its Merry Christmas!!
Work was as per normal, not much of a very long queue. expecting it actually.
Did cashiering for 1 and a half hours and then the rest of the day, we were doing packing.
Cool or whatt??
I only made a sales of about $300+
Usually it would be almost $9 000...and sometimes more than that.
Released from work early today... 2 hours early i tell you. Out intentions of collecting more pay, crushed!!
BUSTED.
Received gifts from Mira and Hamidah!!And then candy canes, chocolates and a keychain. I liikee!!!
Anyways, met up with Rosma during/after work.
Then all the five of us, went to our favourite spot at Hougang Mall.
Slacked there!!
Talk talk and laugh laugh like mad people.
Then got this security guard, very funny and very very talkative. But he is cool. I mean, he was trying to advise us... sort of...
Neyh...i dont know how to describe that part.
Cool day yeahh!!
Had fun with my buddies!! Yeah, you guys rock! Love you guys!!
Time is too short, so i will say it now before its too late.
You guys, make my life a whole lot Brighter and definitely Interesting!!
I'm referring to ALL OF YOU, that has made a great impact in my life! And i thank all of you for that!
And im reading Being A Happy Teen!! Its very interesting. Laughing to myself.
Good for people, who always feel miserable or facing a never-ending problems.
And to those who think that their parents dont give a damn or dont care for them and to those who is so fucking rude to their parents. For God's sake, if you want people to understand you, why dont you try to understand people?! Remember that your parents are also humans and no humans are perfect. SO dont expect them to be perfect in taking care of your ass! I just fucking hate it, when someone just post on their blog (telling the whole world) talking about how much they hate their parents and bla bla about parents not understanding them. Its just fucking annoying! I know that its your damn fucking blog and you have every right to write about anything you like to. But please, give your parents and yourself some respect. Do you realise how people think of you when you write bad stuffs about your parents on your blog?? Its such a pain in the NECK! Just remember where you came from. You were a product of your Dad's sperm and your Mom's egg. Got That? If you hate them, you hate yourself. If you have something to complain about your parents, please dont do it on your blog, do it somewhere else as long as its out of bounds to public. Geeshhh!
And if you got a problem with this paragraph of mine. I wont mind debating. ;) bring it on.
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Eye Drops
Yeehoo people!!
Wondering why im blogging at this time?? haha
I skipped work sio!!
Tsk tsk tsk.
Anyway i got my reasons ohkay?!!
I was sick and my eyes were creating a huge problem.
Went to Polyclinic, get it checked. Waited for so long, only to get Eye Mo!! wasted sia. But at least get MC. hehehex
Tomorrow, is Christmas!!
Preparing mentally, for havoc tomorrow!! hahax
mampus ko Hy!!
Wondering why im blogging at this time?? haha
I skipped work sio!!
Tsk tsk tsk.
Anyway i got my reasons ohkay?!!
I was sick and my eyes were creating a huge problem.
Went to Polyclinic, get it checked. Waited for so long, only to get Eye Mo!! wasted sia. But at least get MC. hehehex
Tomorrow, is Christmas!!
Preparing mentally, for havoc tomorrow!! hahax
mampus ko Hy!!
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Faaaannnntaaasssstttiiicc!!!
hey people!!
Hhaha, had a fantastic day today.
Work was alrights...
Though i wasnt feeling well.
Carrefour was damn packed lah. Customers kept coming and coming and you just couldnt get the space to breathe.
Haiiishh...
Then after break, i told my supervisor that i wasnt feeling well and to just let me do some packing.
A lot of people told me to go home, but heyyy, i survived the day mann!
Yeapps...cool cool cool.
They sent me to Atrium, the wine fare thingy... Alamak!! See a lot of wines!! I wonder how they taste like.... ooppss.
I makan sup tulang!!!! Yummyy!! :)
Im so full!!! :P
Hhaha, had a fantastic day today.
Work was alrights...
Though i wasnt feeling well.
Carrefour was damn packed lah. Customers kept coming and coming and you just couldnt get the space to breathe.
Haiiishh...
Then after break, i told my supervisor that i wasnt feeling well and to just let me do some packing.
A lot of people told me to go home, but heyyy, i survived the day mann!
Yeapps...cool cool cool.
They sent me to Atrium, the wine fare thingy... Alamak!! See a lot of wines!! I wonder how they taste like.... ooppss.
I makan sup tulang!!!! Yummyy!! :)
Im so full!!! :P
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Heart Ache
What's this pounding in my chest? Why do these tears keep flowing down my cheeks? My heart throbs in pain with the realization of just how much I care for you, my sobs remain within me, though the hurt I experience is too much to keep sealed. You done it again, done it to me, added another deep, painful memory to my collection. You healed my recent scars and mended my broken spirit, made me believe that I could love once again, then tossed me aside without a care. The promises you made were but more lies, the smile that plays upon your lips hide the way you truly think of me, the glimmer in your eyes must be created by the exhilaration you get while you watch me fall easily into your well-planned trap.
Who do you think you are? To take my heart, offer me more than anything I ever asked for, and then rip it all away without a warning. You say you care, that you don't mean to and don't want to hurt me, yet it's all you've done since I expressed my feelings. Your cruelty has taken over, and you now see how weak I have become. You take advantage of the fact that I trust you so easily, plotting every scheme you can think of the night before you take action. Then, with more confidence than a grown, proud man, you pounce on me when I'm oblivious. I handed you my heart and soul, I allowed myself to be the true me, and you shredded every ounce of trust I had for you.
You do these things which add gashes to my heart, you say these words which drains every thought of love I had. You do and say these things... I can't trust you anymore, I know you'll just hurt me again... Yet, even as my heart cries out in anguish, I continue to feel that unwanted love for you... With a heart-ache and a heart break, with tears staining my face, I still love you.
Half Day- Im Barney-ing!!
Hola people!!
Im bored...
Just finished watching tv. Damn, so boring. Listen to music, watched Oprah Winfrey, Hi-5 and Barney.
Haiiishh...
Mum said, if bored then clean the house. I said sian!! I dont want do house chores lah.
Wahh seyh, Mohan today last day at work... Sad lah pantart!!! He is so funny lah, if no more him, then work is superly boring!!
Aiyayayah, no more interest to work lah.
Yesterday, carrefour called asking whether i can work today... I said NO. Sian...
Now im waiting for 5pm, then get ready to pick up sister from the airport.
Barney! Barney! Purple Dick!!
Somebody, anybody? Entertain me!!
Im bored...
Just finished watching tv. Damn, so boring. Listen to music, watched Oprah Winfrey, Hi-5 and Barney.
Haiiishh...
Mum said, if bored then clean the house. I said sian!! I dont want do house chores lah.
Wahh seyh, Mohan today last day at work... Sad lah pantart!!! He is so funny lah, if no more him, then work is superly boring!!
Aiyayayah, no more interest to work lah.
Yesterday, carrefour called asking whether i can work today... I said NO. Sian...
Now im waiting for 5pm, then get ready to pick up sister from the airport.
Barney! Barney! Purple Dick!!
Somebody, anybody? Entertain me!!
Monday, December 21, 2009
Cycling!!
Woohoo!! Had a super great day today with besties Rosma, Priya and Xiang Yi.
Eventhough its only the four of us, it was reeealllyyy FUUUUNNN!!
Yeah... from Bowen to Hougang Mall to get ourselves some snacks and then to Pasir Ris.
There were a lot of empty unoccupied BBQ pits, but we chose to sit on the "rock"/ breakwater. The wind was supppperrr strong!! Mad-women hair!!
And so we munch on our snacks while enjoying the scenery. Avoiding to look at the lower part (not really nice, got rubbish), the upper part was more interesting. You could see the like duhh, sea, ships and the opposite island... ;)
Then it started to drizzle, so we pack up and migrated.
Walked under the rain.
Walked all the way to the Bicycle Rental Kiosk.
Paid $5 for 2 hours. Not bad actually considering that the bike looks super Not Rusty!
And so this 4 *planless girls, cycled from one end to another.
*Planless because when we went there we didnt really have any plans.
We just do whatever we felt like doing. :)
In the end, Xiang Yi and Rosma never swam.
After returning the bicycle, we took the bus to the Interchange and walked to White Sands. Hungry...but dont know what to eat. I guess everyone is now just so sick of fast foods. Sat at MacD, trying to find an idea of what to eat.Half-hearted to eat at MacD. It took us some time before we decided to just go and buy something and EAT IT! I think i hate Mc Spicy. :[
After that, walked around and bused home.
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For the past hour that i have been blogging.
I have been pinching my nose...
I really cant stand the smell.
Because somebody in the room has been farting like a Farting Machine/ Mad Cow!
And the stink fills the whole room!
I feel intoxicated!!
The contaminated air makes it so hard to breathe in Oxygen!
And that somebody refuse to fart somewhere else.
My gooosssshhh!!
I had to wait for 20 seconds before i can really get Fresh Air!!!!
Eventhough its only the four of us, it was reeealllyyy FUUUUNNN!!
Yeah... from Bowen to Hougang Mall to get ourselves some snacks and then to Pasir Ris.
There were a lot of empty unoccupied BBQ pits, but we chose to sit on the "rock"/ breakwater. The wind was supppperrr strong!! Mad-women hair!!
And so we munch on our snacks while enjoying the scenery. Avoiding to look at the lower part (not really nice, got rubbish), the upper part was more interesting. You could see the like duhh, sea, ships and the opposite island... ;)
Then it started to drizzle, so we pack up and migrated.
Walked under the rain.
Walked all the way to the Bicycle Rental Kiosk.
Paid $5 for 2 hours. Not bad actually considering that the bike looks super Not Rusty!
And so this 4 *planless girls, cycled from one end to another.
*Planless because when we went there we didnt really have any plans.
We just do whatever we felt like doing. :)
In the end, Xiang Yi and Rosma never swam.
After returning the bicycle, we took the bus to the Interchange and walked to White Sands. Hungry...but dont know what to eat. I guess everyone is now just so sick of fast foods. Sat at MacD, trying to find an idea of what to eat.Half-hearted to eat at MacD. It took us some time before we decided to just go and buy something and EAT IT! I think i hate Mc Spicy. :[
After that, walked around and bused home.
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I am one who believes that Love Can Be Nurtured. Nurtured Love Got Hurt.
And that only time can heal the wounds.
21 days has past.
I still need time to heal.
I feel sick!
9 more days! Thats all i have.
I have got to Stand Up.
Got to move on!
You are never coming back anyway.
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For the past hour that i have been blogging.
I have been pinching my nose...
I really cant stand the smell.
Because somebody in the room has been farting like a Farting Machine/ Mad Cow!
And the stink fills the whole room!
I feel intoxicated!!
The contaminated air makes it so hard to breathe in Oxygen!
And that somebody refuse to fart somewhere else.
My gooosssshhh!!
I had to wait for 20 seconds before i can really get Fresh Air!!!!
Sunday, December 20, 2009
And yea...my prepaid low Again...
I cant reply, so i will just say this.
To those who is going cycling tomorrow, meet at Bowen at 10.00am since you guys requested that.
I have not decide on the venue, so that one will be an open decision. We will decide when we meet okay?
And for those looking for jobs. There is vacancy at Vivo's Timezone as informed by my friend. So if you are interested, go there to find out more. :)
I cant reply, so i will just say this.
To those who is going cycling tomorrow, meet at Bowen at 10.00am since you guys requested that.
I have not decide on the venue, so that one will be an open decision. We will decide when we meet okay?
And for those looking for jobs. There is vacancy at Vivo's Timezone as informed by my friend. So if you are interested, go there to find out more. :)
Avatar
Im back!!! Back from watching AVATAR!!!!!!!!!!
I think its super gerekkk!!!
Love the movie mannn!!
Extra-ordinary graphic effects. Great sound effects. The whole movie was Magnificent!!
They let the audience be immersed with the characters.
At some point of time, you feel anger and then you feel like there is still hope.
And sometimes you just wished you could be living in that kind of place. How not??
Trees and flowers that lights up at night. Opportunity to ride on a "dragon" but known as banshees... You and an animal, special bonding. You get to control an animal. To be part of the people, the Omanicaya, a Navi. And so much more.
If life was like that, it will be super interesting.
And then my last sentence would be, I HATE GREEDY PEOPLE <> WHO DESTROYS LIFE FOR MONEY! Its like Blood Diamond.
And i had Black Pepper Chicken. It's spicy. I mean thats the whole purpose, but yeah, its spicy and its chicken. Im getting sick of KFC.
Had a Great day!
I think its super gerekkk!!!
Love the movie mannn!!
Extra-ordinary graphic effects. Great sound effects. The whole movie was Magnificent!!
They let the audience be immersed with the characters.
At some point of time, you feel anger and then you feel like there is still hope.
And sometimes you just wished you could be living in that kind of place. How not??
Trees and flowers that lights up at night. Opportunity to ride on a "dragon" but known as banshees... You and an animal, special bonding. You get to control an animal. To be part of the people, the Omanicaya, a Navi. And so much more.
If life was like that, it will be super interesting.
And then my last sentence would be, I HATE GREEDY PEOPLE <> WHO DESTROYS LIFE FOR MONEY! Its like Blood Diamond.
And i had Black Pepper Chicken. It's spicy. I mean thats the whole purpose, but yeah, its spicy and its chicken. Im getting sick of KFC.
Had a Great day!
Shooosh!!! Im reading
"Into the hands of every individual is given a marvelous power for good or evil-the silent, unconcious, unseen influence of his life. This is simply the constant radiation of what man really is, not what he pretends to be." -William George Jordan
Okay yeaps, im reading like finally during the holidays!! bahaxx
The 7 Habits Of Highly Effective People.
Powerful Lessons in Personal Change.
Its a cool book, though for people like me who have tendencies to left a book half-read, i will try to complete it. Because i find it useful and i think i want to practice them.
And the quote above, meaningful right??
I will come up with more, whenever there is in the book. :)
Saturday, December 19, 2009
I love the people!
I have been thinking. And this thinking saddens me.
I have to resign soon, and i am so gooooiiiinnnngggg to miss my newly-made friends. They are a bunch of awesome people! And i am lucky enough to have them and to be surrounded by friendly people like them especially when it is my first workplace!
Nevertheless, i still have to think about my studies. Its TOP in the List!
They make working a great experience.
When scanning items bores you over time, its the people that drives you to work.
When you are sad because of a customer, they are there to tell you "eyh chill ah! ..."
2nd January isnt far.
I want to make my time here a fruitful one.
And yes, i think after 'O's i want to come back and work, but that depends who still works there.
And yeah, i love my job!
Work today was super hectic.
The queue was super long.
And people dont just buy 2-3 items, they buy a full-trolley of items.
I was doing B2. Where delievery is more often made.
And my hand still pain larh seyh!!
Why do they make me suffer??
Carried a lot of heavy items. Cartons of can drinks, dozens of wine bottles, dozen pints of milk and the list goes on. It was super tiring. But lucky me, i have people helping me to carry all the heavy items, some customers even offered to help (i love these kind of customers). 8)
And yeah, time flies fast when you are busy.
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And yes people, next week i will be busy.
From Monday to Saturday.
So if you intend to ask me out, please consider Sunday.
Monday> Going cycling
Tuesday> She's coming back!
Wednesday> Work
Thursday> Work
Friday> Hey its Christmas!! Work
Saturday> Work
Sunday> Free.
Book me early or else i will be somewhere else with someone else.
Heat Blast smokes??
... :(
He still is cute, but neyh nevermind, since my friend also likes him, i might as well just give way.
And please eyh, i give way, but please dont be too over emotional, its so dramatic. jangan nanti, resign dia cut lagi... macam case Lutfi. Selenger! ;)
I have to resign soon, and i am so gooooiiiinnnngggg to miss my newly-made friends. They are a bunch of awesome people! And i am lucky enough to have them and to be surrounded by friendly people like them especially when it is my first workplace!
Nevertheless, i still have to think about my studies. Its TOP in the List!
They make working a great experience.
When scanning items bores you over time, its the people that drives you to work.
When you are sad because of a customer, they are there to tell you "eyh chill ah! ..."
2nd January isnt far.
I want to make my time here a fruitful one.
And yes, i think after 'O's i want to come back and work, but that depends who still works there.
And yeah, i love my job!
Work today was super hectic.
The queue was super long.
And people dont just buy 2-3 items, they buy a full-trolley of items.
I was doing B2. Where delievery is more often made.
And my hand still pain larh seyh!!
Why do they make me suffer??
Carried a lot of heavy items. Cartons of can drinks, dozens of wine bottles, dozen pints of milk and the list goes on. It was super tiring. But lucky me, i have people helping me to carry all the heavy items, some customers even offered to help (i love these kind of customers). 8)
And yeah, time flies fast when you are busy.
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And yes people, next week i will be busy.
From Monday to Saturday.
So if you intend to ask me out, please consider Sunday.
Monday> Going cycling
Tuesday> She's coming back!
Wednesday> Work
Thursday> Work
Friday> Hey its Christmas!! Work
Saturday> Work
Sunday> Free.
Book me early or else i will be somewhere else with someone else.
Heat Blast smokes??
... :(
He still is cute, but neyh nevermind, since my friend also likes him, i might as well just give way.
And please eyh, i give way, but please dont be too over emotional, its so dramatic. jangan nanti, resign dia cut lagi... macam case Lutfi. Selenger! ;)
Friday, December 18, 2009
Results are Out!!
Foohhhh!!!
You know what? I think im quite lucky. First, i didnt get punished for my negligence at work or maybe not yet. Second, my results turns out great!!
I liiiikkkeeee.... ;)
Hehe... Super fun day!!
Was working in the morning. And then had to rushed to school. Its a weird feeling when you change from your work uniform to your school uniform. Its like work-girl to school-girl transformation. teehee :)
And yeah, finally after the what-seem-to-be-hours speech by Principal and Vice-Principal results are finally announced.
And i must say, im proud of myself and it was really unexpected. I thought i really did badly but then they always say, expect the unexpected. :)
And in total i scored 11 credits, 3 points away from the unexpected top student. Not bad at all!!
And the best thing is, all my best friends managed to get promoted too! Yippie!!
Rosma and Shahira really gave me a suspense larh. They cried...then at that time i was the first to get my results, waiting for theirs and i was like, what the hell happened, is it good news or bad news??
I was totally speechless when i got my results. The teachers was asking, "So do you want to continue to Sec 5 or opt for Higher Nitec?" and i answered, "I dont know!!, I havent decide yet..."
And i really Thank God, Alhamdulillah!!
And as promised, i will be a good girl!!
Im soooo going to give my 120% attention to my studies! No boys!! Just Studies and Npcc.
I want to give myself the very best. 8)
Cooool!!!
And yeah...enough of that boy and lets just continue with a fresh paragraph.
So! After our results and i would like to take this opportunity to really thank Priya and Xiang Yi for coming down to meet us, really appreciate it. Thank You very much!! :)
Oyeah, after our results went to eat at MacD, then we went to AMK to catch a movie. And how lousy, its was fully booked. So we had yoghurt and walked around. I hate walking around, i had enough of walking around at carrefour, helping customers to look for items. Then we headed for Hougang Mall, there is no place called home-Hougang. Went to arcade, i dont know how much they spent on arcades, okay!! This is why, my mother never encourage going to arcades, they are so addictive, LAN games too!! And i only contributed $1. They got pissed off. But then after that, treat them bubble tea since their pockets are all burnt thanks to arcade! ;0
Hmmm...Speaking of LAN-games i kind of miss going to NetForce Games with brothers,we used to go there and have a Need For Speed challenge. haiishh
And this is not gossip, its the fact. When you have evil plans up your sleeves with the desire to see someone fail, your plan just backfires and instead you are the one who failed! And i will say, Booyah!! Serves you right and face-flat!!
And i love my carrefour friends!! They are so funneh!!
And thanks Syamirul, i learnt a new short phrase from you, "Beautiful Tragedy", i think its really cool. And i liiikkkkeee...
Heat Blast!! My Ben-10!!
Shoooshhh...
And did i mention? I saw Mrs Samuel, my P6 teacher at carrefour last week?
I miss her so very much!
She was my most favourite fierce teacher ever!! She retired last year by the way.
You know what? I think im quite lucky. First, i didnt get punished for my negligence at work or maybe not yet. Second, my results turns out great!!
I liiiikkkeeee.... ;)
Hehe... Super fun day!!
Was working in the morning. And then had to rushed to school. Its a weird feeling when you change from your work uniform to your school uniform. Its like work-girl to school-girl transformation. teehee :)
And yeah, finally after the what-seem-to-be-hours speech by Principal and Vice-Principal results are finally announced.
And i must say, im proud of myself and it was really unexpected. I thought i really did badly but then they always say, expect the unexpected. :)
And in total i scored 11 credits, 3 points away from the unexpected top student. Not bad at all!!
And the best thing is, all my best friends managed to get promoted too! Yippie!!
Rosma and Shahira really gave me a suspense larh. They cried...then at that time i was the first to get my results, waiting for theirs and i was like, what the hell happened, is it good news or bad news??
I was totally speechless when i got my results. The teachers was asking, "So do you want to continue to Sec 5 or opt for Higher Nitec?" and i answered, "I dont know!!, I havent decide yet..."
And i really Thank God, Alhamdulillah!!
And as promised, i will be a good girl!!
Im soooo going to give my 120% attention to my studies! No boys!! Just Studies and Npcc.
I want to give myself the very best. 8)
Cooool!!!
AndAnd by the way, i saw that Boy today!!
Tsk tsk tsk, saw him outside school gate, with dyed hair and trying to spray black. Yo!! It doesnt work lah. (he got caught anyways)
And yeah, i really dont need that arrogant and egoistic look. A simple Hi and Bye would really do you good. Come on, dont you think you owe me an APOLOGY!?? Redeem yourself lah dude!!
I was being nice when i smiled at you owkay!!
And arent you like going to ask me "How am i?" or "How was your results??"
geesshh!!
And girls!! These kind of guys, they aint worth your time. They are just simply a 4-letter-word that begins with the alphabet 'J'. But then im being too nice to call you this, some people would have encouraged me to say something more worse and more vulgar. But lucky you, i dont usually curse people that much or at least i always try to limit myself the degree of my vulgar languages.
And i shall declare that liking you in the first place was a HUGE Mistake. Thus, i WILL bury this Chapter of My Life here! With a thumb-size Full-Stop! And i dont think there is a need for your apology anyway, you dont seem to have the grief in you. And i totally understand why you cant even make an eye-contact when i persistently tried to and you just avoid it. Literally, you are a Loser! My mum, my dad, my brothers and sisters wanted You to know that.
And i dont think so that you may be reading this. 89% unlikely.
But i hope that maybe some of your friends might come by and stumble upon this and perhaps would help me to pass this message to you.
Things like this go around very fast. It wont be a problem.
You Suck Big Time. Muahahaxx
I would really like to pass this message to you directly. And i tried but i realised that i NO Longer have your number. So yeapps. :) And i almost forgot, Congratulations for your results. :)
And yeah...enough of that boy and lets just continue with a fresh paragraph.
So! After our results and i would like to take this opportunity to really thank Priya and Xiang Yi for coming down to meet us, really appreciate it. Thank You very much!! :)
Oyeah, after our results went to eat at MacD, then we went to AMK to catch a movie. And how lousy, its was fully booked. So we had yoghurt and walked around. I hate walking around, i had enough of walking around at carrefour, helping customers to look for items. Then we headed for Hougang Mall, there is no place called home-Hougang. Went to arcade, i dont know how much they spent on arcades, okay!! This is why, my mother never encourage going to arcades, they are so addictive, LAN games too!! And i only contributed $1. They got pissed off. But then after that, treat them bubble tea since their pockets are all burnt thanks to arcade! ;0
Hmmm...Speaking of LAN-games i kind of miss going to NetForce Games with brothers,we used to go there and have a Need For Speed challenge. haiishh
And this is not gossip, its the fact. When you have evil plans up your sleeves with the desire to see someone fail, your plan just backfires and instead you are the one who failed! And i will say, Booyah!! Serves you right and face-flat!!
And i love my carrefour friends!! They are so funneh!!
And thanks Syamirul, i learnt a new short phrase from you, "Beautiful Tragedy", i think its really cool. And i liiikkkkeee...
Heat Blast!! My Ben-10!!
Shoooshhh...
And did i mention? I saw Mrs Samuel, my P6 teacher at carrefour last week?
I miss her so very much!
She was my most favourite fierce teacher ever!! She retired last year by the way.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Bleargh!
Hello people!!
Last night forgot to charge my battery then this morning, battery flat. Just now, on my phone already got 14 messages... Alamak!! haha
Paiseyh, sorry never reply your messages.
Tomorrow, taking results... scared seyh...nervous like mad!! @.+
Even then tomorrow morning must work from 10-1pm... *****
Only got 1 hour from work to school. And better still need bring uniform to work. Leyceyh larh seyh!
Anyway Goodluck to those taking their results tomorrow. :)
Andand, nothing happened at work... I wonder what happened to my "punishment"
And this one sucks, my favourite first manager is going to leave soon. Really love her mann!! She's the coolest!!
And im wondering what to get for christmas gift exchange, and most importantly,to who shall i give??
Came to work, with a bandage around my wrist and people thought i hurt myself. =.=
How many times must i say??
And there is this salesperson, who approached me to talk about credit cards, mygawd!
Why some people just cant accept it when people say no? example: me!
I am like offering you a free drink and food and you said no!? Nevermind, next time i wont offer you anything. Im fed up of being "rejected". Ya' know!
Last night forgot to charge my battery then this morning, battery flat. Just now, on my phone already got 14 messages... Alamak!! haha
Paiseyh, sorry never reply your messages.
Tomorrow, taking results... scared seyh...nervous like mad!! @.+
Even then tomorrow morning must work from 10-1pm... *****
Only got 1 hour from work to school. And better still need bring uniform to work. Leyceyh larh seyh!
Anyway Goodluck to those taking their results tomorrow. :)
Andand, nothing happened at work... I wonder what happened to my "punishment"
And this one sucks, my favourite first manager is going to leave soon. Really love her mann!! She's the coolest!!
And im wondering what to get for christmas gift exchange, and most importantly,to who shall i give??
Came to work, with a bandage around my wrist and people thought i hurt myself. =.=
How many times must i say??
And there is this salesperson, who approached me to talk about credit cards, mygawd!
Why some people just cant accept it when people say no? example: me!
I am like offering you a free drink and food and you said no!? Nevermind, next time i wont offer you anything. Im fed up of being "rejected". Ya' know!
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Pwned!
Pwned!
I LOVE this videoh!!
Haha, i was laughing my ass...
You should watch more of their video, whenever you are bored. teehee :)
And yeah, i just changed my blogskin.
Time for a change.
Still i will stick to my favourite colours. teehee :)
I LOVE this videoh!!
Haha, i was laughing my ass...
You should watch more of their video, whenever you are bored. teehee :)
And yeah, i just changed my blogskin.
Time for a change.
Still i will stick to my favourite colours. teehee :)
Face Off
Somehow, i dont look forward to work tomorrow and i think the only solution to that is to totally forget that i had problems at work. Then act like im surprised upon hearing it. hahas, like that would work, but most importantly, is to settle the problem as soon as possible and not have it interrupting my sanity.
And yeapps, i am looking forward and not looking forward to results this Friday.
First things first, i dont know what they have in store for me in that certificate.
But i really want to know what my fate is.
Next, there is possibility that i will see that guy.
Because i will admit, that few weeks has past and yet i still havent accept the fact.
And i am hoping that after that, i can just drift away from the past and sail out into the open sea.
Its going to be hard, but it doesnt mean that it cannot be done, either way for my own sake, i will still have to do it. Its a do or die.
Spent my morning, doing the laundry and clearing my wardrobe which almost looks like rubbish storage center. haha... i keep chunking in everything inside the wardrobe. The "chunking and next time i will fold it up" attitude. This is the case of, i took out a shirt but decided not to wear it and dump it back inside. :) teehee
Last night was FUN sleeping alone. But i had the door slightly open. But in the morning when i woke up, it was wider and i saw a figure beside me... My mom was looking for something in my sis's wardrobe lahhh. Where is the knock before you enter culture?? But then again, she is my mom...Sweeeet...
And right now, there is only me and my brother at home and we have no idea what to eat. And it has been quite sometime since we ate Maggi... Maggi, menu of the day...
And yeapps, i am looking forward and not looking forward to results this Friday.
First things first, i dont know what they have in store for me in that certificate.
But i really want to know what my fate is.
Next, there is possibility that i will see that guy.
And i dont know how i should react to that.But one thing i am hoping for from this short meet-up is me learning to let go, including forgiving him and letting the whole past rest in peace.
Should i pretend like i never see him??
Should i give him a pissed off face?
Or should i just smile?
Because i will admit, that few weeks has past and yet i still havent accept the fact.
And i am hoping that after that, i can just drift away from the past and sail out into the open sea.
Its going to be hard, but it doesnt mean that it cannot be done, either way for my own sake, i will still have to do it. Its a do or die.
Spent my morning, doing the laundry and clearing my wardrobe which almost looks like rubbish storage center. haha... i keep chunking in everything inside the wardrobe. The "chunking and next time i will fold it up" attitude. This is the case of, i took out a shirt but decided not to wear it and dump it back inside. :) teehee
Last night was FUN sleeping alone. But i had the door slightly open. But in the morning when i woke up, it was wider and i saw a figure beside me... My mom was looking for something in my sis's wardrobe lahhh. Where is the knock before you enter culture?? But then again, she is my mom...Sweeeet...
And right now, there is only me and my brother at home and we have no idea what to eat. And it has been quite sometime since we ate Maggi... Maggi, menu of the day...
Monday, December 14, 2009
I Love My New Boyfriend!!
Yeahh!!! His name is Mikhail!! Yeahh!!!
haha!! Its super cool and i love it so much!! Yupp its an IT, my phone lah!!
I decided to call it Mikhail!! And my new boyfriend.
haha... I sound so retarded. haiish, signs that i am super bored!!
This one is specifically for someone: Dear, my life is so boring without you, but baby had wished that your life would have sucked MORE!! Bluueekk!! hate you hate you hate you!
Okay, back to where we stopped from the previous post.
So i met them at YCK pri at 1pm or rather 1:12pm, i was late for 12 minutes. Not bad actually!! Here comes the part where i WILL COMPLAIN!! Back then i was complaining why we had to meet there, and now there is a very good reason why i should be MAD at that idea too!! First, the weather is freaking hot, next from my house to YCK, its quite a distance, and then found out that the very place that we are heading to is Hougang Plaza, which is beside Hougang Mall!! I could have took bus 72 to Hougang Interchange goddammit! Make me walk all the way, for NOTHING! Phiishh!
So reached there, went to the place, but it was fully booked and we had to wait. And keeping in mind that we dont know how to play pool, we decided to change our plan to Bowling at Kovan, and then upon reaching Hougang NEL, we decided, No, we dont want to go Bowling, instead we went to Dhoby Ghaut...visited Carrefour to meet Huda, Fareez and Khalid and some other colleagues. Bought chocolates and then we continued our journey to Marina Bay...thought of taking the Free shuttle service but then since bus 400 came first, we took that one instead... Reached there, first it felt like as if we are walking in Great Wall of China...bahahxx, so we mess around there, had ice-cream and walked around like nobody's business... Sat for hours and watched the sea and some mat sallehs...hoohoo then continued walking... Toured the exhibition and snap a few photos.
Continued out crap-talking and then off we go to the sky park.
On the way home, saw a lot of Bangladeshis...and plus the place was so dusty... You can get sore-eyes by just walking there. haiish...
Then trained back to Hougang, went to Hougang Mall again for a meal at KFC.
Then i meet Mom, Dad and Bro @ NTUC FAIRPRICE to shop for groceries, but most of the time i was Missing In Action, got separated a lot of times. bahahx, if at Carrefour, i would have took some time before i finally found them.
kkay kayy kaay... had a lot of fun today with my boyfriend. :)
Priya, cheer up okay!!!
Wei Wei, get something to do!, Get a life. I pity you sia, got absolutely nothing to do.
Rosma, i love your new blog skin.
Huda, you are good!!
Shahira, your hands look ugly. Im not impressed. I hope you will be happy with the scars that it left. :)
Rouhui, im looking forward to chalet.
Khalid, please dont quit so early.
And everyone, please take care of yourselves.
Someone died recently... me.
Coii!! why am i cursing myself? alamakk!
They left me sleeping alone in Singapore...
Greattt!! 1st sis, is on a business trip... 2nd sis is in Vietnam, fighting mosquitos and lizard and complaining... im sleeping alone tonight. Anybody care to accompany me?? haha
Im scared...
haha!! Its super cool and i love it so much!! Yupp its an IT, my phone lah!!
I decided to call it Mikhail!! And my new boyfriend.
haha... I sound so retarded. haiish, signs that i am super bored!!
This one is specifically for someone: Dear, my life is so boring without you, but baby had wished that your life would have sucked MORE!! Bluueekk!! hate you hate you hate you!
Okay, back to where we stopped from the previous post.
So i met them at YCK pri at 1pm or rather 1:12pm, i was late for 12 minutes. Not bad actually!! Here comes the part where i WILL COMPLAIN!! Back then i was complaining why we had to meet there, and now there is a very good reason why i should be MAD at that idea too!! First, the weather is freaking hot, next from my house to YCK, its quite a distance, and then found out that the very place that we are heading to is Hougang Plaza, which is beside Hougang Mall!! I could have took bus 72 to Hougang Interchange goddammit! Make me walk all the way, for NOTHING! Phiishh!
So reached there, went to the place, but it was fully booked and we had to wait. And keeping in mind that we dont know how to play pool, we decided to change our plan to Bowling at Kovan, and then upon reaching Hougang NEL, we decided, No, we dont want to go Bowling, instead we went to Dhoby Ghaut...visited Carrefour to meet Huda, Fareez and Khalid and some other colleagues. Bought chocolates and then we continued our journey to Marina Bay...thought of taking the Free shuttle service but then since bus 400 came first, we took that one instead... Reached there, first it felt like as if we are walking in Great Wall of China...bahahxx, so we mess around there, had ice-cream and walked around like nobody's business... Sat for hours and watched the sea and some mat sallehs...hoohoo then continued walking... Toured the exhibition and snap a few photos.
Continued out crap-talking and then off we go to the sky park.
On the way home, saw a lot of Bangladeshis...and plus the place was so dusty... You can get sore-eyes by just walking there. haiish...
Then trained back to Hougang, went to Hougang Mall again for a meal at KFC.
Then i meet Mom, Dad and Bro @ NTUC FAIRPRICE to shop for groceries, but most of the time i was Missing In Action, got separated a lot of times. bahahx, if at Carrefour, i would have took some time before i finally found them.
kkay kayy kaay... had a lot of fun today with my boyfriend. :)
Priya, cheer up okay!!!
Wei Wei, get something to do!, Get a life. I pity you sia, got absolutely nothing to do.
Rosma, i love your new blog skin.
Huda, you are good!!
Shahira, your hands look ugly. Im not impressed. I hope you will be happy with the scars that it left. :)
Rouhui, im looking forward to chalet.
Khalid, please dont quit so early.
And everyone, please take care of yourselves.
Someone died recently... me.
Coii!! why am i cursing myself? alamakk!
They left me sleeping alone in Singapore...
Greattt!! 1st sis, is on a business trip... 2nd sis is in Vietnam, fighting mosquitos and lizard and complaining... im sleeping alone tonight. Anybody care to accompany me?? haha
Im scared...
Love my New Toy :))
So hello again people!
Went to Yishun. Last night's meeting was pretty good, i think everything i piecing up great. I can picture the event larh seyh!! I hope everything will be smooth because 9 months isnt that long after all. Ended around 10pm, reached home about 11 plus and was hungry so we called McD Delivery. Teppanyaki Burger!! My fave!!
Great or what?? MacBreakfast and MacSupper!!
My gooshh!! Results are like this Friday!! OMG!!! I am so Frightened!! Will i be killed or will i be spared?? Somehow, im thinking this week, is the week that i should be 24 hours cautious. I have to watch out for work and results. Im am so seriously going to be DEAD!
But still there are good news, found out that i will be receiving an Edusave Award, and EAGLES Award. I just hope that these are good omens. Please i beg you GOD!!! Get me to SEC 5 and i promise i will be a GOOD GIRL for the Year 2010!!
(innocent face :))
Speaking of my new toy...
Im busy trying to transfer all my music (a must) and pictures..
Meeting people at 1pm at Yio Chu Kang primary... why there?? I have to walk long distance tauuuu!!! Playing Pool?? I dont have any idea of how to play that...
Went to Yishun. Last night's meeting was pretty good, i think everything i piecing up great. I can picture the event larh seyh!! I hope everything will be smooth because 9 months isnt that long after all. Ended around 10pm, reached home about 11 plus and was hungry so we called McD Delivery. Teppanyaki Burger!! My fave!!
Great or what?? MacBreakfast and MacSupper!!
My gooshh!! Results are like this Friday!! OMG!!! I am so Frightened!! Will i be killed or will i be spared?? Somehow, im thinking this week, is the week that i should be 24 hours cautious. I have to watch out for work and results. Im am so seriously going to be DEAD!
But still there are good news, found out that i will be receiving an Edusave Award, and EAGLES Award. I just hope that these are good omens. Please i beg you GOD!!! Get me to SEC 5 and i promise i will be a GOOD GIRL for the Year 2010!!
(innocent face :))
Speaking of my new toy...
Im busy trying to transfer all my music (a must) and pictures..
Meeting people at 1pm at Yio Chu Kang primary... why there?? I have to walk long distance tauuuu!!! Playing Pool?? I dont have any idea of how to play that...
Sunday, December 13, 2009
I so L.O.V.E. Today!!! :)
OMG!!! I love today very very very very much!!! And I Love Him too!!!!! (Him refers to my Dad)
I am so bloody damn happy and excited!!! My gossh!!!
See!!! Good things still turn up even when you are in trouble.
And i realise that, even when things go bad, there are still good ones to look forward to. Phehehe :)
And with everything that is going on, i forgot that today is Sunday.
Hehs, went shopping @ Tampines Mall with family...Mom, Dad, Bros, 1st Sis and Future Bro-in-law...
Guess what i bought for myself???
I got a new handphone!!! Fuuyoo!!!
My dad, paid it for me but i still have to pay him back...
This is what i call, get the item first and pay later. :))
I got an LG GT505.
Even though i had wanted the GM730, this one isnt that bad either. In fact, i got it at a good price since it was on a promotion. Greattttt!!!
And then, mom and i got ourselves a pair of Levi's jeans. Cooooooool!!!
Then we went to look for a wallet for myself. I needed a new one. :)
And mom got herself a bag too!
Then next we went to eat at a food court @ Century Square, ate yong tau foo/fu.
After eating, went to the Atrium of Century Square, bought a bottle of Adidas perfume and some other stuffs.
Today is just my day.
Love it mann!!!
This is just the perfect time for everyone to go on a shopping spree...
They have sales everywhere.
Gerrreekkann??!!
Shahira, jangan jealous eyh, i got my phone first!! Bleahhxx ;)
And i have to go now... Following 1st sis visit the catering service for her wedding preparations...
Ciao!!
Love you people!!
I am so bloody damn happy and excited!!! My gossh!!!
See!!! Good things still turn up even when you are in trouble.
And i realise that, even when things go bad, there are still good ones to look forward to. Phehehe :)
And with everything that is going on, i forgot that today is Sunday.
Hehs, went shopping @ Tampines Mall with family...Mom, Dad, Bros, 1st Sis and Future Bro-in-law...
Guess what i bought for myself???
I got a new handphone!!! Fuuyoo!!!
My dad, paid it for me but i still have to pay him back...
This is what i call, get the item first and pay later. :))
I got an LG GT505.
Even though i had wanted the GM730, this one isnt that bad either. In fact, i got it at a good price since it was on a promotion. Greattttt!!!
And then, mom and i got ourselves a pair of Levi's jeans. Cooooooool!!!
Then we went to look for a wallet for myself. I needed a new one. :)
And mom got herself a bag too!
Then next we went to eat at a food court @ Century Square, ate yong tau foo/fu.
After eating, went to the Atrium of Century Square, bought a bottle of Adidas perfume and some other stuffs.
Today is just my day.
Love it mann!!!
This is just the perfect time for everyone to go on a shopping spree...
They have sales everywhere.
Gerrreekkann??!!
Shahira, jangan jealous eyh, i got my phone first!! Bleahhxx ;)
And i have to go now... Following 1st sis visit the catering service for her wedding preparations...
Ciao!!
Love you people!!
Saturday, December 12, 2009
My life at stake
Hey yo whats up people?!!
Really, i miss you people. Frankly, i dont know who i am exactly referring to.
Neyahhahax
Honestly right, i am scared to go to work next week...Because i am in a big big double triple in trouble. Shucks!!! Lousy seyh. This week i am so bad-lucked. Stupid machine breakdown, i still have to pay, and due to my own negligence, maybe i still have to pay. And my life is at stake, and its in the mercy of my boss!!Please i beg you, spare me!!! (Praying like mad) (wont be able to sleep tonight)
Haiish, sian.
Thenthen today early in the morning, at work, bored so i thought to myself, that maybe i should just give another chance, chance for what(?)i dont know...dont ask me, those who know, good for you, those who dont know you can play assumptions with yourself then. But then ahh, during break, talked with my girlfriend Shahira and found out that the guy that i like turns out to be a Bastard also. haiyahh... Sian... Then must find a replacement as said by Shahira. She asked me to find another one. LOL, she make it sound so easy...hhmmm
And i just want to complain here, Am i like magnetic to Jerks and Basses?? Why is it that guys that i like are always somewhat a nonsense?? bleaargghh. Phhuiii!!!
After hearing the story, i was thinking(W)was better... haiishh
And today,not only I receive a bad news, Shahira did too. We found out that the guy that she likes is resigning... And today was like his last day working with Shahira... Tomorrow will be his last day. I know how she feels. Its a heart pain, after all he was the one who helped her heal her wounded heart. At least he was the one who kept her alive, lifted her spirits, gave her the reason to hold on. And i bet when she reads this, she will be so touched that in the next few seconds tears are rolling down her cheeks. And i will say girlfriend, its okay we are in the same boat. :)
I feel sad too...Haiiish...why must he resign so early. School havent started yet larh!!
By the way, girlfriend i am MAD at YOU! BODDOHH!!! Why the hell did you cut yourself??
And please larh, when you cut, please cut nicely, at least make it look like a barcode and not some UGLY lines everywhere. Geesshhh!! You need some lessons on that. Use proper materials to do so.
Tips before you start to do it: The PUD Method!!!
1)Prepare wet tissues
2)Use a clean pen-knife and not some dumb compasses or whatever you call it.
3)Decide on how many slashes you want to make, how long and how deep.. kkay kayy??
And by the way, relax suaa, i dont play with pen-knifes already!! Blueeks. I cut NO MORE!! I promised with (W), so i shall keep it.
You see, when i make promises with someone i trust, i keep it and not suddenly change my mind and then just walk off. Bleaahh...
And i replied to all of your tags. And thank you guys for making my blog lively when i am not around. And when i am dead, please continue to do so. Because i am soOo going to be DEAD;work problem... shITT!!! Im scared... @.@
Blogger creating problem again.
Shoots, imissyou.
Why am i still thinking of you?
Really, i miss you people. Frankly, i dont know who i am exactly referring to.
Neyahhahax
Honestly right, i am scared to go to work next week...Because i am in a big big double triple in trouble. Shucks!!! Lousy seyh. This week i am so bad-lucked. Stupid machine breakdown, i still have to pay, and due to my own negligence, maybe i still have to pay. And my life is at stake, and its in the mercy of my boss!!Please i beg you, spare me!!! (Praying like mad) (wont be able to sleep tonight)
Haiish, sian.
Thenthen today early in the morning, at work, bored so i thought to myself, that maybe i should just give another chance, chance for what(?)i dont know...dont ask me, those who know, good for you, those who dont know you can play assumptions with yourself then. But then ahh, during break, talked with my girlfriend Shahira and found out that the guy that i like turns out to be a Bastard also. haiyahh... Sian... Then must find a replacement as said by Shahira. She asked me to find another one. LOL, she make it sound so easy...hhmmm
And i just want to complain here, Am i like magnetic to Jerks and Basses?? Why is it that guys that i like are always somewhat a nonsense?? bleaargghh. Phhuiii!!!
After hearing the story, i was thinking(W)was better... haiishh
And today,not only I receive a bad news, Shahira did too. We found out that the guy that she likes is resigning... And today was like his last day working with Shahira... Tomorrow will be his last day. I know how she feels. Its a heart pain, after all he was the one who helped her heal her wounded heart. At least he was the one who kept her alive, lifted her spirits, gave her the reason to hold on. And i bet when she reads this, she will be so touched that in the next few seconds tears are rolling down her cheeks. And i will say girlfriend, its okay we are in the same boat. :)
I feel sad too...Haiiish...why must he resign so early. School havent started yet larh!!
By the way, girlfriend i am MAD at YOU! BODDOHH!!! Why the hell did you cut yourself??
And please larh, when you cut, please cut nicely, at least make it look like a barcode and not some UGLY lines everywhere. Geesshhh!! You need some lessons on that. Use proper materials to do so.
Tips before you start to do it: The PUD Method!!!
1)Prepare wet tissues
2)Use a clean pen-knife and not some dumb compasses or whatever you call it.
3)Decide on how many slashes you want to make, how long and how deep.. kkay kayy??
And by the way, relax suaa, i dont play with pen-knifes already!! Blueeks. I cut NO MORE!! I promised with (W), so i shall keep it.
You see, when i make promises with someone i trust, i keep it and not suddenly change my mind and then just walk off. Bleaahh...
And i replied to all of your tags. And thank you guys for making my blog lively when i am not around. And when i am dead, please continue to do so. Because i am soOo going to be DEAD;work problem... shITT!!! Im scared... @.@
Blogger creating problem again.
Shoots, imissyou.
Why am i still thinking of you?
Friday, December 11, 2009
Thats not my name.... :(
hey hey hey... posting here...
Eventhough tomorrow must wake up early in the morning... as early as 5am...haiish... working...
But looking forward to it though. :))
So its 2nd sis's 3rd day in Vietnam, hints are telling me that she is burning ass there...
Anyways, sis enjoy your day, cos everynight im enjoying the space, the whole queen size bed all to myself.
Hmmm.... Huda and Fareez joined the Carrefour family too!!!
And guess who is their trainers...?? Its none other than me and Shahira. S U R P R I S E!
My jaw-dropped at first when they asked me to train Fareez...like i just started not a month ago (hello!!!). But good lah like that, means they trust me/us. :))
But everything went fine though. Except that i lost $19, and they wrote my name on that list, now everybody knows me. But that lost, wasnt my fault, its that damn machine that hanged, okay if you dont get what i mean: machine suddenly shut off!! And they didnt do any post void. Bloody hell!
At least im not the worst on that list. haiyah!!!
Randomly: I prefer my name to be spelt and pronounced as Hyriah, not KHAIriah (with the strong emphasis on Khai, those are only appropriate when you call a guy's name like KHAIril, KHAIrul... get it??), its a silent K, you get me (??), and NO its not Khairah, nope not Kahirah, and definitely not Shahirah by the way its spelt Shahira. Please!! I rather be called Khai, though i hate it. Just call me Hy, if you have difficulties pronouncing my name. They call me Khai, they call me Khairah, they call me Kahirah, but thats NOT MY NAME!! THAT'S NOT MY NAME.
Im thinking of working on Mondays too!!
Note: I know i kind of make it sound like i like that guy and stuffs... i mean his cool and all. But, there is just something that is pulling me back, and im not sure either if its the right thing to do. And you guys are excited for me, and for yourself that im finally or am trying to move on, but please do me a favour, pull me back. Dont support the idea. I said NO for many of a reasons at which i am not sure of myself yet... pathetically...but yeahh, just stop me from feeling it "IT". I dont want to get involved with this things again, partly the reason why i am denying that i like that guy. Liking only is already a sin for me. But i will admit, he does make me melt...when he smiles.
I mean he is irresistable. That is why i find it very irritating!!! I cannot resist him.
If i can resist other people, why cant i resist him??? Irritating larh seyh! Even when i am typing this, im smiling to myself, cos i remembered his face.
But still...no way!!
I cant bring myself to that anymore.
Cant find that bad girl in me anymore.
Arrghh!! Can somebody help me?? Get me out of here.
Eventhough tomorrow must wake up early in the morning... as early as 5am...haiish... working...
But looking forward to it though. :))
So its 2nd sis's 3rd day in Vietnam, hints are telling me that she is burning ass there...
Anyways, sis enjoy your day, cos everynight im enjoying the space, the whole queen size bed all to myself.
Hmmm.... Huda and Fareez joined the Carrefour family too!!!
And guess who is their trainers...?? Its none other than me and Shahira. S U R P R I S E!
My jaw-dropped at first when they asked me to train Fareez...like i just started not a month ago (hello!!!). But good lah like that, means they trust me/us. :))
But everything went fine though. Except that i lost $19, and they wrote my name on that list, now everybody knows me. But that lost, wasnt my fault, its that damn machine that hanged, okay if you dont get what i mean: machine suddenly shut off!! And they didnt do any post void. Bloody hell!
At least im not the worst on that list. haiyah!!!
Randomly: I prefer my name to be spelt and pronounced as Hyriah, not KHAIriah (with the strong emphasis on Khai, those are only appropriate when you call a guy's name like KHAIril, KHAIrul... get it??), its a silent K, you get me (??), and NO its not Khairah, nope not Kahirah, and definitely not Shahirah by the way its spelt Shahira. Please!! I rather be called Khai, though i hate it. Just call me Hy, if you have difficulties pronouncing my name. They call me Khai, they call me Khairah, they call me Kahirah, but thats NOT MY NAME!! THAT'S NOT MY NAME.
Im thinking of working on Mondays too!!
Note: I know i kind of make it sound like i like that guy and stuffs... i mean his cool and all. But, there is just something that is pulling me back, and im not sure either if its the right thing to do. And you guys are excited for me, and for yourself that im finally or am trying to move on, but please do me a favour, pull me back. Dont support the idea. I said NO for many of a reasons at which i am not sure of myself yet... pathetically...but yeahh, just stop me from feeling it "IT". I dont want to get involved with this things again, partly the reason why i am denying that i like that guy. Liking only is already a sin for me. But i will admit, he does make me melt...when he smiles.
I mean he is irresistable. That is why i find it very irritating!!! I cannot resist him.
If i can resist other people, why cant i resist him??? Irritating larh seyh! Even when i am typing this, im smiling to myself, cos i remembered his face.
But still...no way!!
I cant bring myself to that anymore.
Cant find that bad girl in me anymore.
Arrghh!! Can somebody help me?? Get me out of here.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
She's going off...
Hehs...
I have decided to change my mind and continue my post...
Priya, if you are feeling empty, im feeling empty too.
Much more emptier.
So we both are going to keep telling each other to Cheer Up.
haiish...
Tomorrow...work... sian liao...Because this time round tomorrow im going to be bombarded by Khalid with his never ending questions...80% is going to be stupid questions... Like can bring bag or not?? huh huh huh??
And Khalid, Good Job.
See!! I told you so... you will have fun.
Make more friends and you are going to have more fun.
My back still aching seyh...
haiiyayyaya...
Today, nothing much happened.
Stayed at home most of the time.
2nd sis last minute fell sick.
She's flying off to Vietnam tomorrow morning.
Will be there for TWO weeks.
Sian... nobody to touch at night. sounds wrong...but yeah... going to miss her i guess...eventhough i know she wont miss me... that sucker!!! bahahax
I miss you too Priya!!
I miss my squadmates!!
I have decided to change my mind and continue my post...
Priya, if you are feeling empty, im feeling empty too.
Much more emptier.
So we both are going to keep telling each other to Cheer Up.
haiish...
Tomorrow...work... sian liao...Because this time round tomorrow im going to be bombarded by Khalid with his never ending questions...80% is going to be stupid questions... Like can bring bag or not?? huh huh huh??
And Khalid, Good Job.
See!! I told you so... you will have fun.
Make more friends and you are going to have more fun.
My back still aching seyh...
haiiyayyaya...
Today, nothing much happened.
Stayed at home most of the time.
2nd sis last minute fell sick.
She's flying off to Vietnam tomorrow morning.
Will be there for TWO weeks.
Sian... nobody to touch at night. sounds wrong...but yeah... going to miss her i guess...eventhough i know she wont miss me... that sucker!!! bahahax
I miss you too Priya!!
I miss my squadmates!!
Monday, December 7, 2009
~
Yesterday was a great day! Had a freaking lot of fun @ Sentosa.
I was the only girl who never swam, never bring any extra clothes, clearly a plain laziness on my part.
So all i did, was watched the sea, watch them and look after the stuffs. Did i mention?? 70% of the time, i was munching and drinking... damn full.
Hahhs...
Took a lot of photos, but yeah, none of them is with me.
Superb day!!
We had MacBreakfast and MacDinner, cool or what??!!
I can get FAT seyh... hmmm must exercise more and eat more fruits. :)
However, somewhere along the way, my mind slipped away, and so did my heart.
The day ended with tears.
And somehow, everyone in the house seem to know what had happened. I thought i hid it pretty well. But i guess the flaws was still recognisable.
Perhaps this happened because somehow your name was mentioned several times yesterday.
And everytime it was about you, i get tongue tied.
And last night, i voiced out my heart.
It got so bad that i couldnt pull myself together.
I wanted to cry it all out.
I didnt want to bury it inside anymore.
Because the pain was suffocating me.
Even with all the distractions i put myself through, you were somehow, unavoidable.
Even with all the lies i make myself believe in, you were somehow, unforgettable.
I cant...cant do it anymore.
That puzzle i made for you.
I cherished the moments when i made that for you. Still clear in my mind.
I gave you my heart. If we ever have to part. Dont forget to remember me.
And your version.
Somehow im tied to it.
But then i had to twist it a little, so i wont be bounded by it.
We never have to part, but you wanted it so its not necessary for me to remember you anyway. =)
Haiiish...
Im still not over you.
Yesterday i terribly missed you.
But now, that is forbidden.
My heart should never felt that way.
It made me weak, you made me kneal down, you made me surrender to circumstances.
When i shouldnt have.
When i should have not swallowed my pride.
I wanted to vent that anger.
Vent it on myself.
I had wanted to place a broken glass in my hands and fist it tightly.
I was so close to that last night.
Now, shall i hurt you first or directly to myself?
I remembered everything you said.
And honestly, i went from one flirtatious guy to a guy who was supposedly known to be a "loyal" guy, yeah you!! I thought it was a good idea. But i guessed, both ways, both guys burnt me alive. I dont know what the hell or which part i went wrong to deserve this fuck!!!!Its a fuck fuck fuck word!!!
I am so frail that it took me only 2 guys to tell myself, Hy, you Suck in this things, give it up!!!
Im burnt, im ruined, im gone.
I am so fucked up with myself!!
That if i continue with this post with this kind of anger. Its going to be censored!!
You make me lose control.
I couldnt find the answers to my questions.
I couldnt find the part when you could have lied.
Your eyes couldnt have lied.
It is in the eyes, i remember of someone, it is in the eyes that i understand people, it is in the eyes that allows me to trust someone.
You must have created the most beautiful lie and i must have been the perfect denier.
I understand the need to let you go, but if my heart was resisting it how could i??
Shouldnt have gave you my heart.
Yet again, my perceptions have deceived me.
Try breaking a piece of glass with your bare hands, see if that hurts.
I was the only girl who never swam, never bring any extra clothes, clearly a plain laziness on my part.
So all i did, was watched the sea, watch them and look after the stuffs. Did i mention?? 70% of the time, i was munching and drinking... damn full.
Hahhs...
Took a lot of photos, but yeah, none of them is with me.
Superb day!!
We had MacBreakfast and MacDinner, cool or what??!!
I can get FAT seyh... hmmm must exercise more and eat more fruits. :)
However, somewhere along the way, my mind slipped away, and so did my heart.
The day ended with tears.
And somehow, everyone in the house seem to know what had happened. I thought i hid it pretty well. But i guess the flaws was still recognisable.
Perhaps this happened because somehow your name was mentioned several times yesterday.
And everytime it was about you, i get tongue tied.
And last night, i voiced out my heart.
It got so bad that i couldnt pull myself together.
I wanted to cry it all out.
I didnt want to bury it inside anymore.
Because the pain was suffocating me.
Even with all the distractions i put myself through, you were somehow, unavoidable.
Even with all the lies i make myself believe in, you were somehow, unforgettable.
I cant...cant do it anymore.
That puzzle i made for you.
I cherished the moments when i made that for you. Still clear in my mind.
I gave you my heart. If we ever have to part. Dont forget to remember me.
And your version.
Somehow im tied to it.
But then i had to twist it a little, so i wont be bounded by it.
We never have to part, but you wanted it so its not necessary for me to remember you anyway. =)
Haiiish...
Im still not over you.
Yesterday i terribly missed you.
But now, that is forbidden.
My heart should never felt that way.
It made me weak, you made me kneal down, you made me surrender to circumstances.
When i shouldnt have.
When i should have not swallowed my pride.
I wanted to vent that anger.
Vent it on myself.
I had wanted to place a broken glass in my hands and fist it tightly.
I was so close to that last night.
Now, shall i hurt you first or directly to myself?
I remembered everything you said.
And honestly, i went from one flirtatious guy to a guy who was supposedly known to be a "loyal" guy, yeah you!! I thought it was a good idea. But i guessed, both ways, both guys burnt me alive. I dont know what the hell or which part i went wrong to deserve this fuck!!!!Its a fuck fuck fuck word!!!
I am so frail that it took me only 2 guys to tell myself, Hy, you Suck in this things, give it up!!!
Im burnt, im ruined, im gone.
I am so fucked up with myself!!
That if i continue with this post with this kind of anger. Its going to be censored!!
You make me lose control.
I couldnt find the answers to my questions.
I couldnt find the part when you could have lied.
Your eyes couldnt have lied.
It is in the eyes, i remember of someone, it is in the eyes that i understand people, it is in the eyes that allows me to trust someone.
You must have created the most beautiful lie and i must have been the perfect denier.
I understand the need to let you go, but if my heart was resisting it how could i??
Shouldnt have gave you my heart.
Yet again, my perceptions have deceived me.
Try breaking a piece of glass with your bare hands, see if that hurts.
Saturday, December 5, 2009
Hello hello and hello people.
Im back and im not DEAD yet..hehe
So let me see, this past few days, same, working, and i had to work overtime yesterday. Damn bloody TIRED.
My legs feel like nak mampus already.
This morning almost overslept.
Hehs, me and Shahira came a little late.
Today i had to do the POSB counter. Damn complicated sia. I was wondering why they had to asked me to do it when there is like a few old-timers who can do it, why ask a 1 month experienced girl to do??
Luckily i learned fast, but i was very very nervous!!!
Then after that, my partner had to go for her break, so left me alone down there. Sialan... haiish
But not that bad anyway, its just time-consuming. oops
Then went to break alone, because Shahira went home early. She wasnt feeling well. haiish...im alone again. phiish
Other than that, i was so pissed with Esprit, yeah i said it.
Is Singapore so big that it takes a week for my Jacket to arrive and Tampines One from dont know where Novena?? huh? huh? huh? Take so long for what sial? Its not like its from overseas import to Singapore right right right? Bodoh sial!!
Oyeah, i must say this. KHALID IS WORKING AT CARREFOUR TOO!!!
He works 6 days!!! Monday to Saturday!!
Now he has work!!
And i would LOVE to see him SUFFER the first few days!!! muahahah
I hope he gets Fancy as his trainer, she is good and naggy!! :))
And Khalid, Carrefour got a lot of pretty girls, go pick one!!! hahaxx ;)
-oh-Oh-oh, I found out that Nadu's dad is working at Carrefour too. No wonder, like familiar...but i had no idea. And i also know where she is working...haha... shall go there and eat some time. Pizza smells delicious, right Raihan??
oH-MY-gOD suddenly that guy's face pops out... no!!!!
And yeah, forgetting him was too easy.
Maybe, i didnt like him in the FIRST PLACE either!!! HAhah!
Tsk tsk tsk, He really plays dirty, but he doesnt know that i played dirtier even before he did.
Im so OVER you!!!!
And soon soon soon i think i will forgive you...
And maybe soon soon soon i wont hate you.
takes time lah. :)
Cant wait for tomorrow, im begging my dad to let me join. Daddy please!!!!!!
Im begging begging youuuuuuu!!!!
New song that i have been blasting into my ears...
I'm on my way
I'm on my way to lose it all
I'm a stranger to myself, I can't go on
I'm all outta space
And I'm surrounded by the wall
I believe that my mind has caught a million storms
Falling down
When you lose all that you are
I surrender
I kneal down
I surrender...
I'm outta faith
I think I'm frail design of life
Deep inside in denial
The shades have grown in silence
I hide my face
I close my eyes
Deep inside in my mind the pain has
corner around me
Falling down
When you lose all that you are
I surrender
I kneal down
I'm dying to find the reason to hold on
Call the lies! Call the lies!
I surrender...
Im back and im not DEAD yet..hehe
So let me see, this past few days, same, working, and i had to work overtime yesterday. Damn bloody TIRED.
My legs feel like nak mampus already.
This morning almost overslept.
Hehs, me and Shahira came a little late.
Today i had to do the POSB counter. Damn complicated sia. I was wondering why they had to asked me to do it when there is like a few old-timers who can do it, why ask a 1 month experienced girl to do??
Luckily i learned fast, but i was very very nervous!!!
Then after that, my partner had to go for her break, so left me alone down there. Sialan... haiish
But not that bad anyway, its just time-consuming. oops
Then went to break alone, because Shahira went home early. She wasnt feeling well. haiish...im alone again. phiish
Other than that, i was so pissed with Esprit, yeah i said it.
Is Singapore so big that it takes a week for my Jacket to arrive and Tampines One from dont know where Novena?? huh? huh? huh? Take so long for what sial? Its not like its from overseas import to Singapore right right right? Bodoh sial!!
Andandand, Shahira please stop teasing me with that guy... i dont like him, or maybe i do, but at any case, NO! Its a NO! No way im getting involve in this messed up affairs again.Shooh shooh shooh all those thoughts!! Stop daydreaming!! Remember, you are there to work, your mind musnt fly away to somewhere else!! But i saw him today!! :) Heartbeat a little off. But still NO!!!!!!!!!!!
Oyeah, i must say this. KHALID IS WORKING AT CARREFOUR TOO!!!
He works 6 days!!! Monday to Saturday!!
Now he has work!!
And i would LOVE to see him SUFFER the first few days!!! muahahah
I hope he gets Fancy as his trainer, she is good and naggy!! :))
And Khalid, Carrefour got a lot of pretty girls, go pick one!!! hahaxx ;)
-oh-Oh-oh, I found out that Nadu's dad is working at Carrefour too. No wonder, like familiar...but i had no idea. And i also know where she is working...haha... shall go there and eat some time. Pizza smells delicious, right Raihan??
oH-MY-gOD suddenly that guy's face pops out... no!!!!
And yeah, forgetting him was too easy.
Maybe, i didnt like him in the FIRST PLACE either!!! HAhah!
Tsk tsk tsk, He really plays dirty, but he doesnt know that i played dirtier even before he did.
Im so OVER you!!!!
And soon soon soon i think i will forgive you...
And maybe soon soon soon i wont hate you.
takes time lah. :)
Cant wait for tomorrow, im begging my dad to let me join. Daddy please!!!!!!
Im begging begging youuuuuuu!!!!
New song that i have been blasting into my ears...
Surrender By Entwine
I'm on my way
I'm on my way to lose it all
I'm a stranger to myself, I can't go on
I'm all outta space
And I'm surrounded by the wall
I believe that my mind has caught a million storms
Falling down
When you lose all that you are
I surrender
I kneal down
I surrender...
I'm outta faith
I think I'm frail design of life
Deep inside in denial
The shades have grown in silence
I hide my face
I close my eyes
Deep inside in my mind the pain has
corner around me
Falling down
When you lose all that you are
I surrender
I kneal down
I'm dying to find the reason to hold on
Call the lies! Call the lies!
I surrender...
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
one step at a time
Hello, people...
I am tired and i am sick.
I am shivering right now. Its weirdly cold.
I know i should be resting, but even then i wont be sleeping, and if i dont sleep, means i will be staring at the empty ceiling and then this brain of mine starts thinking and thinking wont be a great idea for the next few days...
Went to work as usual, but on the way... i sort of think about something and got emotional.
So i shoo-ed those thoughts away.
Concentrated on my work.
They were gone.
Then break had to come, and i was left alone.
Got someone to text me.
And to that person, i really appreciate it.
Oyeah, and then Huda and Fareez came...
I shock siott...
I was thinking why this customer never put their items.
Then see their face, like familiar.
Then ough...its them.
I slow reaction larh seyh...
Thanks guys for the concern.
And no worries, i will be strong!!
As strong as Popeye!!
And thanks everyone for wanting to help me!!
I am really touched.
I really need you guys to distract me.
If my mind is not with my body, please please please pull my mind back. :)
And Shahira...tsk tsk tsk...
Tak habis-habis.
Good for you larh.
Happy larh sikit kan, kalau tidak asyik emo jerrr...
WoW, Khairul, that song you told me, Welcome Home by Coheed and Cambria
Is it one of the songs that you are currently playing?
Anyway... the lyrics are cool, but the words are kinda too harsh, even then, i have a very perfect person to dedicate the song too...hahah pfft...
I am tired and i am sick.
I am shivering right now. Its weirdly cold.
I know i should be resting, but even then i wont be sleeping, and if i dont sleep, means i will be staring at the empty ceiling and then this brain of mine starts thinking and thinking wont be a great idea for the next few days...
Went to work as usual, but on the way... i sort of think about something and got emotional.
So i shoo-ed those thoughts away.
Concentrated on my work.
They were gone.
Then break had to come, and i was left alone.
Got someone to text me.
And to that person, i really appreciate it.
Oyeah, and then Huda and Fareez came...
I shock siott...
I was thinking why this customer never put their items.
Then see their face, like familiar.
Then ough...its them.
I slow reaction larh seyh...
Thanks guys for the concern.
And no worries, i will be strong!!
As strong as Popeye!!
And thanks everyone for wanting to help me!!
I am really touched.
I really need you guys to distract me.
If my mind is not with my body, please please please pull my mind back. :)
And Shahira...tsk tsk tsk...
Tak habis-habis.
Good for you larh.
Happy larh sikit kan, kalau tidak asyik emo jerrr...
WoW, Khairul, that song you told me, Welcome Home by Coheed and Cambria
Is it one of the songs that you are currently playing?
Anyway... the lyrics are cool, but the words are kinda too harsh, even then, i have a very perfect person to dedicate the song too...hahah pfft...
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Accidentally
Hello hello people!!
Lets start off the post with happy stuffs eventhough today, 1st Dec happens to be One of my most suckiest days!!
Accidents:
Early in the morning i accidentally swallowed a whole cup of Listerine. Phuuekk!!
And then while eating half-boiled egg, i accidentally poured too much Soya Sauce and then too much pepper.
The egg turns out to be a sweet-sandy-half-boiled-egg.
Selenge of me...
But i kinda enjoy being selenge..bhahah! :)
Then went to Hougang Mall with Bro to get some stuffs...
Then 3pm had to came.
I dreaded...
After he explained, i just said i understand him.
And then he continued.
While he was talking i removed the key chain he gave to me that i was holding on to.
And i returned it to him.
I dont want to keep it anymore.
He asked if i was okay?
I just said yeah im okay with it, when deep down inside it was like 9/11.
I guess the wall came tumbling down destroying the city...
I acted like as if it didnt matter to me.
All i was thinking of was, i had to get out of there as soon as possible.
Because im about to break.
I didnt want to fall right infront of him.
It felt as if a knife stabbed right through my heart.
And the piercing feeling was unbearable.
I said i was fine, i said i was okay, i said i had expected it, but i had still hoped that it wont turn out this way.
And by the way, you chose a perfect date to say all this stuffs.
I dont blame you either...
Anyway, lets not make myself sound so pathetic.
It may take a while for my heart to heal.
But at least he is OUT of my MIND!
And I just want to move on.
I just hope i could do that.
I just hope the people around me can help me with that.
I feel so hopeless now.
Lets start off the post with happy stuffs eventhough today, 1st Dec happens to be One of my most suckiest days!!
Accidents:
Early in the morning i accidentally swallowed a whole cup of Listerine. Phuuekk!!
And then while eating half-boiled egg, i accidentally poured too much Soya Sauce and then too much pepper.
The egg turns out to be a sweet-sandy-half-boiled-egg.
Selenge of me...
But i kinda enjoy being selenge..bhahah! :)
Then went to Hougang Mall with Bro to get some stuffs...
Then 3pm had to came.
I dreaded...
It was almost as if i was expecting it to come, eventhough i had imagined the worst.
Turns out what i had feared was a reality.After he explained, i just said i understand him.
And then he continued.
While he was talking i removed the key chain he gave to me that i was holding on to.
And i returned it to him.
I dont want to keep it anymore.
It was a heart shaped key chain given to me with his heart not into it.
He asked if i was okay?
I just said yeah im okay with it, when deep down inside it was like 9/11.
I guess the wall came tumbling down destroying the city...
I acted like as if it didnt matter to me.
All i was thinking of was, i had to get out of there as soon as possible.
Because im about to break.
I didnt want to fall right infront of him.
And by the way, you chose a perfect date to say all this stuffs.
I dont blame you either...
Anyway, lets not make myself sound so pathetic.
It may take a while for my heart to heal.
But at least he is OUT of my MIND!
And I just want to move on.
I just hope i could do that.
I just hope the people around me can help me with that.
I feel so hopeless now.
It was so easy for you to say all those.
Now i will just say,
I will act as if you have never existed in my life.
I will act as if i have never known you.
I will act as if it never happened.
And i dont ever want to see you again.
And waiting for you has never been part of me.
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