28/12/09-30/12/09 >>> SQUAD CHALET! :)

Hiding in Downtown East Costa Sands... for 3 days! :)
With my lovely squad mates. :))
I love them luhh!!

28/12/09
First day check in, faced some problems.
We needed someone who was 18 yrs and above to help us sign in.
An unexpected aid came, very lucky of us, it so happens that Peter the Head councillor was also having chalet there so he was kind enough to help us sign in. And he is 18.
Damn thankful to him lorr!! Thanks eyh bro!
So into the room. Throw everything into one corner and watch TV.
Haha :)
Then i cant remember exactly what we did.
After a few hours, we went to find FOOD!! VERY HUNGRY!!
KFC...sian...but nevermind larhs...
Went to find a gift for the Gift-Xchange session!
Unfortunately, Xiang Yi, Priya, and before that Khalid and Soon Lam went home. :(
Gift-Xchange session was postponed to the next day.
Went back to the room.
Booked 11.30pm tickets for Avatar...
It ended around 2am plus.
After which we went back to the room again to watch Pirated New Moon.
I swear the quality damn shit (what do you expect? pirated sia.)
Almost the whole show, people were complaining about the lousy and plus totally irrelevant subtitles and the only thing we could see was all black screen. ;)
Haha :)
That ended around 4am.
Some others played Taiti the whole night/morning
The boys was super noisy.
Then everyone tired already... Sleeping time.
But the guys keep slamming each other.
We get to bed at 4 but we can only sleep until it was 5am.
Super funny sia the guys!
Keep laughing and shouting siott.
And some random stuffs.
A totally MAD night!
Everybody siao already...
Even then after 5am some still cannot sleep.

29/12/09
Second day... woke up at 7am. Seriously cannot sleep.
Toss and turn, toss and turn.
Suddenly got people open the fridge, drink water and look for food. ''_''
And then around 10 am i went home.
Bought school books at Bowen and disturbed the Sec 3 PDS training.
Hehe ;)
Damn tired.
Then went back to chalet.
In the bus, sleeping.
Oyeah, saw Hariz and Khalid a couple of times.
Outside school and at the bus Interchange. @.@
I think they were stalking me... haha... perasan sakk...bahaha :0
Reached chalet... Hoohaah hoohaah again.
Gift-Xchange!!
Jon Lim got my elmo and i got Nabil's Cadbury Chocolate. :)
Im not a fan of chocolates larh... But nevermind larh, its the thought that counts. :)
And Nabil got a pillow from Dou Heng! Cute sakk.
Haha
Then the guys went swimming.
BBQ nite.
Amira came! woohoo! Long time never see her seyhh.
BBQ lasted for quite some time.
Food! Food! Food! Food!
By 10pm, people started to head home.
After cleaning up, we had a personal talking session. :)
Talked about BGR and Npcc! Relive all the memories. :))
Fabulous!
Slept at 4am again...

30/12/09
Home Sweet Home Not!
Dont feel like going home.
Want to stay longer seyhh.
Check Out and went to Hougang Mall eat at MacD.
Everyone was so zombied.
Too tired...

One Hell oF a Rideeeee!!!

yoohoo people!!

Just got back from a cool ride @ Pulau Ubin with Fam.
We went on a more rougher route.
We had to overcome steep slopes, muddy and rocky terrain.
How unlucky i was, i got a heavy bike. I dont know how or why. But it is a real challenge for me. It takes out a lot of my energy.
But hell, i may look like those unactive people, but looks are deceiving, im sporty alright.
Come on, i may look like some simple ordinary chic, but who knows i have commanded a squad??
So back to the story, woke up in the morning depart for Pulau Ubin, rent a bike and then off to campsites.
I love it when you cycle down hill, at high speed, bends and all the stuffs.
And i overcomed my high speed-steep slope fear.
Im so in it again now.
Wanna do it, do it, again again!!
We even cycled to Npcc Camp Resilience.
Then it started to drizzle, but who cares?? We just continued.
It lasted for almost 3 hours before we returned the bike and then went to Changi Village for our lunch.
Back in the car, 3 of us dozed off.
teehee :)

Today Rocks! I hope tomorrow will too! :)
Tomorrow is SQUAD CHALET. Woohoo. And most importantly, my pay will be in.
I need the munneh!!

Short blog post, i suppose!!

Greattt!!!
And its Merry Christmas!!
Work was as per normal, not much of a very long queue. expecting it actually.
Did cashiering for 1 and a half hours and then the rest of the day, we were doing packing.
Cool or whatt??
I only made a sales of about $300+
Usually it would be almost $9 000...and sometimes more than that.
Released from work early today... 2 hours early i tell you. Out intentions of collecting more pay, crushed!!

BUSTED.

Received gifts from Mira and Hamidah!!
And then candy canes, chocolates and a keychain. I liikee!!!

Anyways, met up with Rosma during/after work.
Then all the five of us, went to our favourite spot at Hougang Mall.
Slacked there!!
Talk talk and laugh laugh like mad people.
Then got this security guard, very funny and very very talkative. But he is cool. I mean, he was trying to advise us... sort of...
Neyh...i dont know how to describe that part.
Cool day yeahh!!
Had fun with my buddies!! Yeah, you guys rock! Love you guys!!
Time is too short, so i will say it now before its too late.
You guys, make my life a whole lot Brighter and definitely Interesting!!
I'm referring to ALL OF YOU, that has made a great impact in my life! And i thank all of you for that!

And im reading Being A Happy Teen!! Its very interesting. Laughing to myself.
Good for people, who always feel miserable or facing a never-ending problems.

And to those who think that their parents dont give a damn or dont care for them and to those who is so fucking rude to their parents. For God's sake, if you want people to understand you, why dont you try to understand people?! Remember that your parents are also humans and no humans are perfect. SO dont expect them to be perfect in taking care of your ass! I just fucking hate it, when someone just post on their blog (telling the whole world) talking about how much they hate their parents and bla bla about parents not understanding them. Its just fucking annoying! I know that its your damn fucking blog and you  have every right to write about anything you like to. But please, give your parents and yourself some respect. Do you realise how people think of you when you write bad stuffs about your parents on your blog?? Its such a pain in the NECK! Just remember where you came from. You were a product of your Dad's sperm and your Mom's egg. Got That?  If you hate them, you hate yourself. If you have something to complain about your parents, please dont do it on your blog, do it somewhere else as long as its out of bounds to public. Geeshhh!
And if you got a problem with this paragraph of mine. I wont mind debating. ;) bring it on.

Eye Drops

Yeehoo people!!

Wondering why im blogging at this time?? haha
I skipped work sio!!
Tsk tsk tsk.
Anyway i got my reasons ohkay?!!
I was sick and my eyes were creating a huge problem.
Went to Polyclinic, get it checked. Waited for so long, only to get Eye Mo!! wasted sia. But at least get MC. hehehex
Tomorrow, is Christmas!!
Preparing mentally, for havoc tomorrow!! hahax
 mampus ko Hy!!

Faaaannnntaaasssstttiiicc!!!

hey people!!
Hhaha, had a fantastic day today.
Work was alrights...
Though i wasnt feeling well.
Carrefour was damn packed lah. Customers kept coming and coming and you just couldnt get the space to breathe.
Haiiishh...
Then after break, i told my supervisor that i wasnt feeling well and to just let me do some packing.
A lot of people told me to go home, but heyyy, i survived the day mann!
Yeapps...cool cool cool.
They sent me to Atrium, the wine fare thingy... Alamak!! See a lot of wines!! I wonder how they taste like.... ooppss.

I makan sup tulang!!!! Yummyy!! :)
Im so full!!! :P

Heart Ache

What's this pounding in my chest? Why do these tears keep flowing down my cheeks? My heart throbs in pain with the realization of just how much I care for you, my sobs remain within me, though the hurt I experience is too much to keep sealed. You done it again, done it to me, added another deep, painful memory to my collection. You healed my recent scars and mended my broken spirit, made me believe that I could love once again, then tossed me aside without a care. The promises you made were but more lies, the smile that plays upon your lips hide the way you truly think of me, the glimmer in your eyes must be created by the exhilaration you get while you watch me fall easily into your well-planned trap.

   Who do you think you are? To take my heart, offer me more than anything I ever asked for, and then rip it all away without a warning. You say you care, that you don't mean to and don't want to hurt me, yet it's all you've done since I expressed my feelings. Your cruelty has taken over, and you now see how weak I have become. You take advantage of the fact that I trust you so easily, plotting every scheme you can think of the night before you take action. Then, with more confidence than a grown, proud man, you pounce on me when I'm oblivious. I handed you my heart and soul, I allowed myself to be the true me, and you shredded every ounce of trust I had for you.

 

   You do these things which add gashes to my heart, you say these words which drains every thought of love I had. You do and say these things... I can't trust you anymore, I know you'll just hurt me again... Yet, even as my heart cries out in anguish, I continue to feel that unwanted love for you... With a heart-ache and a heart break, with tears staining my face, I still love you.

Half Day- Im Barney-ing!!

Hola people!!
Im bored...
Just finished watching tv. Damn, so boring. Listen to music, watched Oprah Winfrey, Hi-5 and Barney.
Haiiishh...
Mum said, if bored then clean the house. I said sian!! I dont want do house chores lah.

Wahh seyh, Mohan today last day at work... Sad lah pantart!!! He is so funny lah, if no more him, then work is superly boring!!
Aiyayayah, no more interest to work lah.
Yesterday, carrefour called asking whether i can work today... I said NO. Sian...
Now im waiting for 5pm, then get ready to pick up sister from the airport.

Barney! Barney! Purple Dick!!

Somebody, anybody? Entertain me!!

My Big Girl!!

 RavenEden On DragonAdopters 

Cycling!!

Woohoo!! Had a super great day today with besties Rosma, Priya and Xiang Yi.
Eventhough its only the four of us, it was reeealllyyy FUUUUNNN!!

Yeah... from Bowen to Hougang Mall to get ourselves some snacks and then to Pasir Ris.
There were a lot of empty unoccupied BBQ pits, but we chose to sit on the "rock"/ breakwater. The wind was supppperrr strong!! Mad-women hair!!
And so we munch on our snacks while enjoying the scenery. Avoiding to look at the lower part (not really nice, got rubbish), the upper part was more interesting. You could see the like duhh, sea, ships and the opposite island... ;)
Then it started to drizzle, so we pack up and migrated.
Walked under the rain.
Walked all the way to the Bicycle Rental Kiosk.
Paid $5 for 2 hours. Not bad actually considering that the bike looks super Not Rusty!
And so this 4 *planless girls, cycled from one end to another.
*Planless because when we went there we didnt really have any plans.
We just do whatever we felt like doing. :)
In the end, Xiang Yi and Rosma never swam.

After returning the bicycle, we took the bus to the Interchange and walked to White Sands. Hungry...but dont know what to eat. I guess everyone is now just so sick of fast foods. Sat at MacD, trying to find an idea of what to eat.Half-hearted to eat at MacD. It took us some time before we decided to just go and buy something and EAT IT! I think i hate Mc Spicy. :[

After that, walked around and bused home.

~

I am one who believes that Love Can Be Nurtured. Nurtured Love Got Hurt.
And that only time can heal the wounds.
21 days has past.
I still need time to heal.
I feel sick!
9 more days! Thats all i have.
I have got to Stand Up.
Got to move on!
You are never coming back anyway.

~

For the past hour that i have been blogging.
I have been pinching my nose...
I really cant stand the smell.
Because somebody in the room has been farting like a Farting Machine/ Mad Cow!
And the stink fills the whole room!
I feel intoxicated!!
The contaminated air makes it so hard to breathe in Oxygen!
And that somebody refuse to fart somewhere else.
My gooosssshhh!!
I had to wait for 20 seconds before i can really get Fresh Air!!!!

And yea...my prepaid low Again...
I cant reply, so i will just say this.
To those who is going cycling tomorrow, meet at Bowen at 10.00am since you guys requested that.
I have not decide on the venue, so that one will be an open decision. We will decide when we meet okay?

And for those looking for jobs. There is vacancy at Vivo's Timezone as informed by my friend. So if you are interested, go there to find out more. :)

Avatar

Im back!!! Back from watching AVATAR!!!!!!!!!!


I think its super gerekkk!!!
Love the movie mannn!!
Extra-ordinary graphic effects. Great sound effects. The whole movie was Magnificent!!
They let the audience be immersed with the characters.
At some point of time, you feel anger and then you feel like there is still hope.
And sometimes you just wished you could be living in that kind of place. How not??
Trees and flowers that lights up at night. Opportunity to ride on a "dragon" but known as banshees... You and an animal, special bonding. You get to control an animal. To be part of the people, the Omanicaya, a Navi. And so much more.
If life was like that, it will be super interesting.
And then my last sentence would be, I HATE GREEDY PEOPLE <> WHO DESTROYS LIFE FOR MONEY! Its like Blood Diamond.

And i had Black Pepper Chicken. It's spicy. I mean thats the whole purpose, but yeah, its spicy and its chicken. Im getting sick of KFC.
Had a Great day!

Shooosh!!! Im reading

"Into the hands of every individual is given a marvelous power for good or evil-the silent, unconcious, unseen influence of his life. This is simply the constant radiation of what man really is, not what he pretends to be." -William George Jordan

Okay yeaps, im reading like finally during the holidays!! bahaxx

The 7 Habits Of Highly Effective People.
Powerful Lessons in Personal Change.

Its a cool book, though for people like me who have tendencies to left a book half-read, i will try to complete it. Because i find it useful and i think i want to practice them.

And the quote above, meaningful right??
I will come up with more, whenever there is in the book. :)

One thing

When i said, i was going to give my 120% attention on studies. No boys!! Just studies and Npcc.
Actually a little bit of boys would be fun. :)
I just need to know my limit. teehee
Thats all.

I love the people!

I have been thinking. And this thinking saddens me.
I have to resign soon, and i am so gooooiiiinnnngggg to miss my newly-made friends. They are a bunch of awesome people! And i am lucky enough to have them and to be surrounded by friendly people like them especially when it is my first workplace!
Nevertheless, i still have to think about my studies. Its TOP in the List!


They make working a great experience.
When scanning items bores you over time, its the people that drives you to work.
When you are sad because of a customer, they are there to tell you "eyh chill ah! ..."

2nd January isnt far.
I want to make my time here a fruitful one.
And yes, i think after 'O's i want to come back and work, but that depends who still works there.
And yeah, i love my job!

Work today was super hectic.
The queue was super long.
And people dont just buy 2-3 items, they buy a full-trolley of items.
I was doing B2. Where delievery is more often made.
And my hand still pain larh seyh!!
Why do they make me suffer??
Carried a lot of heavy items. Cartons of can drinks, dozens of wine bottles, dozen pints of milk and the list goes on. It was super tiring. But lucky me, i have people helping me to carry all the heavy items, some customers even offered to help (i love these kind of customers). 8)
And yeah, time flies fast when you are busy.


~

And yes people, next week i will be busy.
From Monday to Saturday.
So if you intend to ask me out, please consider Sunday.
Monday> Going cycling
Tuesday> She's coming back!
Wednesday> Work
Thursday> Work
Friday> Hey its Christmas!! Work
Saturday> Work
Sunday> Free.

Book me early or else i will be somewhere else with someone else.


Heat Blast smokes??
... :(
He still is cute, but neyh nevermind, since my friend also likes him, i might as well just give way.
And please eyh, i give way, but please dont be too over emotional, its so dramatic. jangan nanti, resign dia cut lagi... macam case Lutfi. Selenger! ;)

Results are Out!!

Foohhhh!!!

You know what? I think im quite lucky. First, i didnt get punished for my negligence at work or maybe not yet. Second, my results turns out great!!
I liiiikkkeeee.... ;)

Hehe... Super fun day!!
Was working in the morning. And then had to rushed to school. Its a weird feeling when you change from your work uniform to your school uniform. Its like work-girl to school-girl transformation. teehee :)

And yeah, finally after the what-seem-to-be-hours speech by Principal and Vice-Principal results are finally announced.
And i must say, im proud of myself and it was really unexpected. I thought i really did badly but then they always say, expect the unexpected. :)
And in total i scored 11 credits, 3 points away from the unexpected top student. Not bad at all!!
And the best thing is, all my best friends managed to get promoted too! Yippie!!
Rosma and Shahira really gave me a suspense larh. They cried...then at that time i was the first to get my results, waiting for theirs and i was like, what the hell happened, is it good news or bad news??
I was totally speechless when i got my results. The teachers was asking, "So do you want to continue to Sec 5 or opt for Higher Nitec?" and i answered, "I dont know!!, I havent decide yet..."

And i really Thank God, Alhamdulillah!!
And as promised, i will be a good girl!!
Im soooo going to give my 120% attention to my studies! No boys!! Just Studies and Npcc.
I want to give myself the very best. 8)
Cooool!!!

AndAnd by the way, i saw that Boy today!!
Tsk tsk tsk, saw him outside school gate, with dyed hair and trying to spray black. Yo!! It doesnt work lah. (he got caught anyways)
And yeah, i really dont need that arrogant and egoistic look. A simple Hi and Bye would really do you good. Come on, dont you think you owe me an APOLOGY!?? Redeem yourself lah dude!!
I was being nice when i smiled at you owkay!!
And arent you like going to ask me "How am i?" or "How was your results??"
geesshh!!
And girls!! These kind of guys, they aint worth your time. They are just simply a 4-letter-word that begins with the alphabet 'J'. But then im being too nice to call you this, some people would have encouraged me to say something more worse and more vulgar. But lucky you, i dont usually curse people that much or at least i always try to limit myself the degree of my vulgar languages.
And i shall declare that liking you in the first place was a HUGE Mistake. Thus, i WILL bury this Chapter of My Life here! With a thumb-size Full-Stop! And i dont think there is a need for your apology anyway, you dont seem to have the grief in you. And i totally understand why you cant even make an eye-contact when i persistently tried to and you just avoid it. Literally, you are a Loser! My mum, my dad, my brothers and sisters wanted You to know that.
And i dont think so that you may be reading this. 89% unlikely.
But i hope that maybe some of your friends might come by and stumble upon this and perhaps would help me to pass this message to you.
Things like this go around very fast. It wont be a problem.
You Suck Big Time. Muahahaxx
I would really like to pass this message to you directly. And i tried but i realised that i NO Longer have your number. So yeapps. :) And i almost forgot, Congratulations for your results. :)

And yeah...enough of that boy and lets just continue with a fresh paragraph.
So! After our results and i would like to take this opportunity to really thank Priya and Xiang Yi for coming down to meet us, really appreciate it. Thank You very much!! :)
Oyeah, after our results went to eat at MacD, then we went to AMK to catch a movie. And how lousy, its was fully booked. So we had yoghurt and walked around. I hate walking around, i had enough of walking around at carrefour, helping customers to look for items. Then we headed for Hougang Mall, there is no place called home-Hougang. Went to arcade, i dont know how much they spent on arcades, okay!! This is why, my mother never encourage going to arcades, they are so addictive, LAN games too!! And i only contributed $1. They got pissed off. But then after that, treat them bubble tea since their pockets are all burnt thanks to arcade! ;0
Hmmm...Speaking of LAN-games i kind of miss going to NetForce Games with brothers,we used to go there and have a Need For Speed challenge. haiishh


And this is not gossip, its the fact. When you have evil plans up your sleeves with the desire to see someone fail, your plan just backfires and instead you are the one who failed! And i will say, Booyah!! Serves you right and face-flat!!


And i love my carrefour friends!! They are so funneh!!
And thanks Syamirul, i learnt a new short phrase from you, "Beautiful Tragedy", i think its really cool. And i liiikkkkeee...
Heat Blast!! My Ben-10!!
Shoooshhh...
And did i mention? I saw Mrs Samuel, my P6 teacher at carrefour last week?
I miss her so very much!
She was my most favourite fierce teacher ever!! She retired last year by the way.

Bleargh!

Hello people!!

Last night forgot to charge my battery then this morning, battery flat. Just now, on my phone already got 14 messages... Alamak!! haha
Paiseyh, sorry never reply your messages.


Tomorrow, taking results... scared seyh...nervous like mad!! @.+
Even then tomorrow morning must work from 10-1pm... *****
Only got 1 hour from work to school. And better still need bring uniform to work. Leyceyh larh seyh!

Anyway Goodluck to those taking their results tomorrow. :)

Andand, nothing happened at work... I wonder what happened to my "punishment"
And this one sucks, my favourite first manager is going to leave soon. Really love her mann!! She's the coolest!!
And im wondering what to get for christmas gift exchange, and most importantly,to who shall i give??

Came to work, with a bandage around my wrist and people thought i hurt myself. =.=
How many times must i say??
And there is this salesperson, who approached me to talk about credit cards, mygawd!
Why some people just cant accept it when people say no? example: me!
I am like offering you a free drink and food and you said no!? Nevermind, next time i wont offer you anything. Im fed up of being "rejected". Ya' know!

Pwned!

Pwned!



I LOVE this videoh!!
Haha, i was laughing my ass...
You should watch more of their video, whenever you are bored. teehee :)

And yeah, i just changed my blogskin.
Time for a change.
Still i will stick to my favourite colours. teehee :)

Face Off

Somehow, i dont look forward to work tomorrow and i think the only solution to that is to totally forget that i had problems at work. Then act like im surprised upon hearing it. hahas, like that would work, but most importantly, is to settle the problem as soon as possible and not have it interrupting my sanity.

And yeapps, i am looking forward and not looking forward to results this Friday.
First things first, i dont know what they have in store for me in that certificate.
But i really want to know what my fate is.
Next, there is possibility that i will see that guy.

And i dont know how i should react to that.
Should i pretend like i never see him??
Should i give him a pissed off face?
Or should i just smile?

But one thing i am hoping for from this short meet-up is me learning to let go, including forgiving him and letting the whole past rest in peace.
Because i will admit, that few weeks has past and yet i still havent accept the fact.
And i am hoping that after that, i can just drift away from the past and sail out into the open sea.
Its going to be hard, but it doesnt mean that it cannot be done, either way for my own sake, i will still have to do it. Its a do or die.

Spent my morning, doing the laundry and clearing my wardrobe which almost looks like rubbish storage center. haha... i keep chunking in everything inside the wardrobe. The "chunking and next time i will fold it up" attitude. This is the case of, i took out a shirt but decided not to wear it and dump it back inside. :) teehee


Last night was FUN sleeping alone. But i had the door slightly open. But in the morning when i woke up, it was wider and i saw a figure beside me... My mom was looking for something in my sis's wardrobe lahhh. Where is the knock before you enter culture?? But then again, she is my mom...Sweeeet...

And right now, there is only me and my brother at home and we have no idea what to eat. And it has been quite sometime since we ate Maggi... Maggi, menu of the day...

I Love My New Boyfriend!!

Yeahh!!! His name is Mikhail!! Yeahh!!!
haha!! Its super cool and i love it so much!! Yupp its an IT, my phone lah!!
I decided to call it Mikhail!! And my new boyfriend.
haha... I sound so retarded. haiish, signs that i am super bored!!

This one is specifically for someone: Dear, my life is so boring without you, but baby had wished that your life would have sucked MORE!! Bluueekk!! hate you hate you hate you!

Okay, back to where we stopped from the previous post.
So i met them at YCK pri at 1pm or rather 1:12pm, i was late for 12 minutes. Not bad actually!! Here comes the part where i WILL COMPLAIN!! Back then i was complaining why we had to meet there, and now there is a very good reason why i should be MAD at that idea too!! First, the weather is freaking hot, next from my house to YCK, its quite a distance, and then found out that the very place that we are heading to is Hougang Plaza, which is beside Hougang Mall!! I could have took bus 72 to Hougang Interchange goddammit! Make me walk all the way, for NOTHING! Phiishh!

So reached there, went to the place, but it was fully booked and we had to wait. And keeping in mind that we dont know how to play pool, we decided to change our plan to Bowling at Kovan, and then upon reaching Hougang NEL, we decided, No, we dont want to go Bowling, instead we went to Dhoby Ghaut...visited Carrefour to meet Huda, Fareez and Khalid and some other colleagues. Bought chocolates and then we continued our journey to Marina Bay...thought of taking the Free shuttle service but then since bus 400 came first, we took that one instead... Reached there, first it felt like as if we are walking in Great Wall of China...bahahxx, so we mess around there, had ice-cream and walked around like nobody's business... Sat for hours and watched the sea and some mat sallehs...hoohoo then continued walking... Toured the exhibition and snap a few photos.
Continued out crap-talking and then off we go to the sky park.

On the way home, saw a lot of Bangladeshis...and plus the place was so dusty... You can get sore-eyes by just walking there. haiish...

Then trained back to Hougang, went to Hougang Mall again for a meal at KFC.

Then i meet Mom, Dad and Bro @ NTUC FAIRPRICE to shop for groceries, but most of the time i was Missing In Action, got separated a lot of times. bahahx, if at Carrefour, i would have took some time before i finally found them.

kkay kayy kaay... had a lot of fun today with my boyfriend. :)

Priya, cheer up okay!!!
Wei Wei, get something to do!, Get a life. I pity you sia, got absolutely nothing to do.
Rosma, i love your new blog skin.
Huda, you are good!!
Shahira, your hands look ugly. Im not impressed. I hope you will be happy with the scars that it left. :)
Rouhui, im looking forward to chalet.
Khalid, please dont quit so early.
And everyone, please take care of yourselves.
Someone died recently... me.
Coii!! why am i cursing myself? alamakk!


They left me sleeping alone in Singapore...
Greattt!! 1st sis, is on a business trip... 2nd sis is in Vietnam, fighting mosquitos and lizard and complaining... im sleeping alone tonight. Anybody care to accompany me?? haha
Im scared...

Love my New Toy :))

So hello again people!

Went to Yishun. Last night's meeting was pretty good, i think everything i piecing up great. I can picture the event larh seyh!! I hope everything will be smooth because 9 months isnt that long after all. Ended around 10pm, reached home about 11 plus and was hungry so we called McD Delivery. Teppanyaki Burger!! My fave!!
Great or what?? MacBreakfast and MacSupper!!

My gooshh!! Results are like this Friday!! OMG!!! I am so Frightened!! Will i be killed or will i be spared?? Somehow, im thinking this week, is the week that i should be 24 hours cautious. I have to watch out for work and results. Im am so seriously going to be DEAD!
But still there are good news, found out that i will be receiving an Edusave Award, and EAGLES Award. I just hope that these are good omens. Please i beg you GOD!!! Get me to SEC 5 and i promise i will be a GOOD GIRL for the Year 2010!!
(innocent face :))

Speaking of my new toy...
Im busy trying to transfer all my music (a must) and pictures..

Meeting people at 1pm at Yio Chu Kang primary... why there?? I have to walk long distance tauuuu!!! Playing Pool?? I dont have any idea of how to play that...

I so L.O.V.E. Today!!! :)

OMG!!! I love today very very very very much!!! And I Love Him too!!!!! (Him refers to my Dad)
I am so bloody damn happy and excited!!! My gossh!!!

See!!! Good things still turn up even when you are in trouble.
And i realise that, even when things go bad, there are still good ones to look forward to. Phehehe :)

And with everything that is going on, i forgot that today is Sunday.

Hehs, went shopping @ Tampines Mall with family...Mom, Dad, Bros, 1st Sis and Future Bro-in-law...
Guess what i bought for myself???
I got a new handphone!!! Fuuyoo!!!
My dad, paid it for me but i still have to pay him back...
This is what i call, get the item first and pay later. :))
I got an LG GT505.
Even though i had wanted the GM730, this one isnt that bad either. In fact, i got it at a good price since it was on a promotion. Greattttt!!!
And then, mom and i got ourselves a pair of Levi's jeans. Cooooooool!!!
Then we went to look for a wallet for myself. I needed a new one. :)
And mom got herself a bag too!
Then next we went to eat at a food court @ Century Square, ate yong tau foo/fu.
After eating, went to the Atrium of Century Square, bought a bottle of Adidas perfume and some other stuffs.
Today is just my day.
Love it mann!!!
This is just the perfect time for everyone to go on a shopping spree...
They have sales everywhere.
Gerrreekkann??!!

Shahira, jangan jealous eyh, i got my phone first!! Bleahhxx ;)


And i have to go now... Following 1st sis visit the catering service for her wedding preparations...
Ciao!!

Love you people!!

My life at stake

Hey yo whats up people?!!

Really, i miss you people. Frankly, i dont know who i am exactly referring to.
Neyahhahax

Honestly right, i am scared to go to work next week...Because i am in a big big double triple in trouble. Shucks!!! Lousy seyh. This week i am so bad-lucked. Stupid machine breakdown, i still have to pay, and due to my own negligence, maybe i still have to pay. And my life is at stake, and its in the mercy of my boss!!Please i beg you, spare me!!! (Praying like mad) (wont be able to sleep tonight)
Haiish, sian.

Thenthen today early in the morning, at work, bored so i thought to myself, that maybe i should just give another chance, chance for what(?)i dont know...dont ask me, those who know, good for you, those who dont know you can play assumptions with yourself then. But then ahh, during break, talked with my girlfriend Shahira and found out that the guy that i like turns out to be a Bastard also. haiyahh... Sian... Then must find a replacement as said by Shahira. She asked me to find another one. LOL, she make it sound so easy...hhmmm
And i just want to complain here, Am i like magnetic to Jerks and Basses?? Why is it that guys that i like are always somewhat a nonsense?? bleaargghh. Phhuiii!!!
After hearing the story, i was thinking(W)was better... haiishh

And today,not only I receive a bad news, Shahira did too. We found out that the guy that she likes is resigning... And today was like his last day working with Shahira... Tomorrow will be his last day. I know how she feels. Its a heart pain, after all he was the one who helped her heal her wounded heart. At least he was the one who kept her alive, lifted her spirits, gave her the reason to hold on. And i bet when she reads this, she will be so touched that in the next few seconds tears are rolling down her cheeks. And i will say girlfriend, its okay we are in the same boat. :)
I feel sad too...Haiiish...why must he resign so early. School havent started yet larh!!
By the way, girlfriend i am MAD at YOU! BODDOHH!!! Why the hell did you cut yourself??
And please larh, when you cut, please cut nicely, at least make it look like a barcode and not some UGLY lines everywhere. Geesshhh!! You need some lessons on that. Use proper materials to do so.
Tips before you start to do it: The PUD Method!!!
1)Prepare wet tissues
2)Use a clean pen-knife and not some dumb compasses or whatever you call it.
3)Decide on how many slashes you want to make, how long and how deep.. kkay kayy??
And by the way, relax suaa, i dont play with pen-knifes already!! Blueeks. I cut NO MORE!! I promised with (W), so i shall keep it.
You see, when i make promises with someone i trust, i keep it and not suddenly change my mind and then just walk off. Bleaahh...

And i replied to all of your tags. And thank you guys for making my blog lively when i am not around. And when i am dead, please continue to do so. Because i am soOo going to be DEAD;work problem... shITT!!! Im scared... @.@


Blogger creating problem again.
Shoots, imissyou.
Why am i still thinking of you?

Thats not my name.... :(

hey hey hey... posting here...
Eventhough tomorrow must wake up early in the morning... as early as 5am...haiish... working...
But looking forward to it though. :))

So its 2nd sis's 3rd day in Vietnam, hints are telling me that she is burning ass there...
Anyways, sis enjoy your day, cos everynight im enjoying the space, the whole queen size bed all to myself.

Hmmm.... Huda and Fareez joined the Carrefour family too!!!
And guess who is their trainers...?? Its none other than me and Shahira. S U R P R I S E!
My jaw-dropped at first when they asked me to train Fareez...like i just started not a month ago (hello!!!). But good lah like that, means they trust me/us. :))
But everything went fine though. Except that i lost $19, and they wrote my name on that list, now everybody knows me. But that lost, wasnt my fault, its that damn machine that hanged, okay if you dont get what i mean: machine suddenly shut off!! And they didnt do any post void. Bloody hell!
At least im not the worst on that list. haiyah!!!

 Randomly: I prefer my name to be spelt and pronounced as Hyriah, not KHAIriah (with the strong emphasis on Khai, those are only appropriate when you call a guy's name like KHAIril, KHAIrul... get it??), its a silent K, you get me (??), and NO its not Khairah, nope not Kahirah, and definitely not Shahirah by the way its spelt Shahira. Please!! I rather be called Khai, though i hate it. Just call me Hy, if you have difficulties pronouncing my name. They call me Khai, they call me Khairah, they call me Kahirah, but thats NOT MY NAME!! THAT'S NOT MY NAME.

Im thinking of working on Mondays too!!

Note: I know i kind of make it sound like i like that guy and stuffs... i mean his cool and all. But, there is just something that is pulling me back, and im not sure either if its the right thing to do. And you guys are excited for me, and for yourself that im finally or am trying to move on, but please do me a favour, pull me back. Dont support the idea. I said NO for many of a reasons at which i am not sure of myself yet... pathetically...but yeahh, just stop me from feeling it "IT". I dont want to get involved with this things again, partly the reason why i am denying that i like that guy. Liking only is already a sin for me. But i will admit, he does make me melt...when he smiles.
I mean he is irresistable. That is why i find it very irritating!!! I cannot resist him.
If i can resist other people, why cant i resist him??? Irritating larh seyh! Even when i am typing this, im smiling to myself, cos i remembered his face.
But still...no way!!
I cant bring myself to that anymore.
Cant find that bad girl in me anymore.
Arrghh!! Can somebody help me?? Get me out of here.

She's going off...

Hehs...
I have decided to change my mind and continue my post...
Priya, if you are feeling empty, im feeling empty too.
Much more emptier.
So we both are going to keep telling each other to Cheer Up.

haiish...
Tomorrow...work... sian liao...Because this time round tomorrow im going to be bombarded by Khalid with his never ending questions...80% is going to be stupid questions... Like can bring bag or not?? huh huh huh??
And Khalid, Good Job.
See!! I told you so... you will have fun.
Make more friends and you are going to have more fun.

My back still aching seyh...
haiiyayyaya...
Today, nothing much happened.
Stayed at home most of the time.
2nd sis last minute fell sick.
She's flying off to Vietnam tomorrow morning.
Will be there for TWO weeks.
Sian... nobody to touch at night. sounds wrong...but yeah... going to miss her i guess...eventhough i know she wont miss me... that sucker!!! bahahax

I miss you too Priya!!
I miss my squadmates!!

~

Yesterday was a great day! Had a freaking lot of fun @ Sentosa.
I was the only girl who never swam, never bring any extra clothes, clearly a plain laziness on my part.
So all i did, was watched the sea, watch them and look after the stuffs. Did i mention?? 70% of the time, i was munching and drinking... damn full.
Hahhs...
Took a lot of photos, but yeah, none of them is with me.
Superb day!!
We had MacBreakfast and MacDinner, cool or what??!!
I can get FAT seyh... hmmm must exercise more and eat more fruits. :)


However, somewhere along the way, my mind slipped away, and so did my heart.
The day ended with tears.
And somehow, everyone in the house seem to know what had happened. I thought i hid it pretty well. But i guess the flaws was still recognisable.
Perhaps this happened because somehow your name was mentioned several times yesterday.
And everytime it was about you, i get tongue tied.
And last night, i voiced out my heart.
It got so bad that i couldnt pull myself together.
I wanted to cry it all out.
I didnt want to bury it inside anymore.
Because the pain was suffocating me.
Even with all the distractions i put myself through, you were somehow, unavoidable.
Even with all the lies i make myself believe in, you were somehow, unforgettable.
I cant...cant do it anymore.
That puzzle i made for you.
I cherished the moments when i made that for you. Still clear in my mind.
I gave you my heart. If we ever have to part. Dont forget to remember me.
And your version.
Somehow im tied to it.
But then i had to twist it a little, so i wont be bounded by it.
We never have to part, but you wanted it so its not necessary for me to remember you anyway. =)
Haiiish...
Im still not over you.
Yesterday i terribly missed you.
But now, that is forbidden.
My heart should never felt that way.
It made me weak, you made me kneal down, you made me surrender to circumstances.
When i shouldnt have.
When i should have not swallowed my pride.
I wanted to vent that anger.
Vent it on myself.
I had wanted to place a broken glass in my hands and fist it tightly.
I was so close to that last night.
Now, shall i hurt you first or directly to myself?
I remembered everything you said.
And honestly, i went from one flirtatious guy to a guy who was supposedly known to be a "loyal" guy, yeah you!! I thought it was a good idea. But i guessed, both ways, both guys burnt me alive. I dont know what the hell or which part i went wrong to deserve this fuck!!!!Its a fuck fuck fuck word!!!
I am so frail that it took me only 2 guys to tell myself, Hy, you Suck in this things, give it up!!!
Im burnt, im ruined, im gone.
I am so fucked up with myself!!
That if i continue with this post with this kind of anger. Its going to be censored!!
You make me lose control.
I couldnt find the answers to my questions.
I couldnt find the part when you could have lied.
Your eyes couldnt have lied.
It is in the eyes, i remember of someone, it is in the eyes that i understand people, it is in the eyes that allows me to trust someone.
You must have created the most beautiful lie and i must have been the perfect denier.
I understand the need to let you go, but if my heart was resisting it how could i??
Shouldnt have gave you my heart.
Yet again, my perceptions have deceived me.




Try breaking a piece of glass with your bare hands, see if that hurts.

Hello hello and hello people.

Im back and im not DEAD yet..hehe
So let me see, this past few days, same, working, and i had to work overtime yesterday. Damn bloody TIRED.
My legs feel like nak mampus already.
This morning almost overslept.
Hehs, me and Shahira came a little late.
Today i had to do the POSB counter. Damn complicated sia. I was wondering why they had to asked me to do it when there is like a few old-timers who can do it, why ask a 1 month experienced girl to do??
Luckily i learned fast, but i was very very nervous!!!
Then after that, my partner had to go for her break, so left me alone down there. Sialan... haiish
But not that bad anyway, its just time-consuming. oops
Then went to break alone, because Shahira went home early. She wasnt feeling well. haiish...im alone again. phiish

Other than that, i was so pissed with Esprit, yeah i said it.
Is Singapore so big that it takes a week for my Jacket to arrive and Tampines One from dont know where Novena?? huh? huh? huh? Take so long for what sial? Its not like its from overseas import to Singapore right right right? Bodoh sial!!

Andandand, Shahira please stop teasing me with that guy... i dont like him, or maybe i do, but at any case, NO! Its a NO! No way im getting involve in this messed up affairs again.Shooh shooh shooh all those thoughts!! Stop daydreaming!! Remember, you are there to work, your mind musnt fly away to somewhere else!! But i saw him today!! :) Heartbeat a little off. But still NO!!!!!!!!!!!

Oyeah, i must say this. KHALID IS WORKING AT CARREFOUR TOO!!!
He works 6 days!!! Monday to Saturday!!
Now he has work!!
And i would LOVE to see him SUFFER the first few days!!! muahahah
I hope he gets Fancy as his trainer, she is good and naggy!! :))
And Khalid, Carrefour got a lot of pretty girls, go pick one!!! hahaxx ;)

-oh-Oh-oh, I found out that Nadu's dad is working at Carrefour too. No wonder, like familiar...but i had no idea. And i also know where she is working...haha... shall go there and eat some time. Pizza smells delicious, right Raihan??

oH-MY-gOD suddenly that guy's face pops out... no!!!!


And yeah, forgetting him was too easy.
Maybe, i didnt like him in the FIRST PLACE either!!! HAhah!
Tsk tsk tsk, He really plays dirty, but he doesnt know that i played dirtier even before he did.
Im so OVER you!!!!
And soon soon soon i think i will forgive you...
And maybe soon soon soon i wont hate you.
takes time lah. :)


Cant wait for tomorrow, im begging my dad to let me join. Daddy please!!!!!!
Im begging begging youuuuuuu!!!!

New song that i have been blasting into my ears...

Surrender By Entwine

I'm on my way
I'm on my way to lose it all
I'm a stranger to myself, I can't go on
I'm all outta space
And I'm surrounded by the wall
I believe that my mind has caught a million storms
Falling down
When you lose all that you are

I surrender
I kneal down
I surrender...
I'm outta faith
I think I'm frail design of life
Deep inside in denial
The shades have grown in silence
I hide my face
I close my eyes
Deep inside in my mind the pain has
corner around me
Falling down
When you lose all that you are

I surrender
I kneal down
I'm dying to find the reason to hold on
Call the lies! Call the lies!
I surrender...

one step at a time

Hello, people...
I am tired and i am sick.
I am shivering right now. Its weirdly cold.
I know i should be resting, but even then i wont be sleeping, and if i dont sleep, means i will be staring at the empty ceiling and then this brain of mine starts thinking and thinking wont be a great idea for the next few days...
Went to work as usual, but on the way... i sort of think about something and got emotional.
So i shoo-ed those thoughts away.
Concentrated on my work.
They were gone.
Then break had to come, and i was left alone.
Got someone to text me.
And to that person, i really appreciate it.
Oyeah, and then Huda and Fareez came...
I shock siott...
I was thinking why this customer never put their items.
Then see their face, like familiar.
Then ough...its them.
I slow reaction larh seyh...
Thanks guys for the concern.
And no worries, i will be strong!!
As strong as Popeye!!
And thanks everyone for wanting to help me!!
I am really touched.
I really need you guys to distract me.
If my mind is not with my body, please please please pull my mind back. :)

And Shahira...tsk tsk tsk...
Tak habis-habis.
Good for you larh.
Happy larh sikit kan, kalau tidak asyik emo jerrr...


WoW, Khairul, that song you told me, Welcome Home by Coheed and Cambria

Is it one of the songs that you are currently playing?
Anyway... the lyrics are cool, but the words are kinda too harsh, even then, i have a very perfect person to dedicate the song too...hahah pfft...

Accidentally

Hello hello people!!
Lets start off the post with happy stuffs eventhough today, 1st Dec happens to be One of my most suckiest days!!

Accidents:
Early in the morning i accidentally swallowed a whole cup of Listerine. Phuuekk!!
And then while eating half-boiled egg, i accidentally poured too much Soya Sauce and then too much pepper.
The egg turns out to be a sweet-sandy-half-boiled-egg.
Selenge of me...
But i kinda enjoy being selenge..bhahah! :)

Then went to Hougang Mall with Bro to get some stuffs...

Then 3pm had to came.
I dreaded...

It was almost as if i was expecting it to come, eventhough i had imagined the worst.

Turns out what i had feared was a reality.
After he explained, i just said i understand him.
And then he continued.
While he was talking i removed the key chain he gave to me that i was holding on to.
And i returned it to him.
I dont want to keep it anymore.

It was a heart shaped key chain given to me with his heart not into it.

He asked if i was okay?
I just said yeah im okay with it, when deep down inside it was like 9/11.
I guess the wall came tumbling down destroying the city...
I acted like as if it didnt matter to me.
All i was thinking of was, i had to get out of there as soon as possible.
Because im about to break.
I didnt want to fall right infront of him.

It felt as if a knife stabbed right through my heart.

And the piercing feeling was unbearable.

I said i was fine, i said i was okay, i said i had expected it, but i had still hoped that it wont turn out this way.

And by the way, you chose a perfect date to say all this stuffs.
I dont blame you either...


Anyway, lets not make myself sound so pathetic.
It may take a while for my heart to heal.
But at least he is OUT of my MIND!
And I just want to move on.
I just hope i could do that.
I just hope the people around me can help me with that.
I feel so hopeless now.

It was so easy for you to say all those.

Now i will just say,

I will act as if you have never existed in my life.

I will act as if i have never known you.

I will act as if it never happened.

And i dont ever want to see you again.

And waiting for you has never been part of me.

And well done, for being the first guy that i have ever hated.

I burnt my day...wwoopps

Hello fellow readers!!
This is like my last blog for today...
Just felt like blogging...

Wondering what i've been doing the whole day??

Well, woke up early found out 2nd sis purposely absent herself from school, then im thinking i have to lay my hands on the laptop first before she does...
Thats why i had a blog post earlier.
Then got bored...
And Hungry...
Had Maggi...sian...
But takper...
After that Madam at home (my mum) commanded me and my 2nd sis to shop for some stuffs at the supermarket...
And so we did.
We even surveyed Jollibean and Mr Bean.
The results: Mr Bean is much more better. It has more variety, the pancake is much more mouth-watering and the drinks has a more distinct flavourings and the pearl is much more chewy.
 After that, chit-chat with 2nd sis...
Mum and Dad, cooking in the kitchen.
We had Lontong Goreng and beef steak, using the beef we get from Hari Raya Haji...
Yummeh!!!
I eat like 2-3 times seyh.
Then after that...headache, went to sleep oh-no nap...
Then wake up again, 2nd sis watching CSI, after that we went to search  for some movies...
My-oh-my, my short term memory is getting from bad to worse.
I cant even remember what i watched a few hours ago...mak oii!!
I only remembered wanting to watch Veronika Decides To Die, but then it lag like one hell, so we got fed up.
And then wanted to watch Peter Pan but then after only a few minutes, found it boring...
What was the first movie we watched??
I seriously cannot remember.....
Ough ough it was the Planet 51...ahhh...
My memory isnt that bad anyway...
hehe
Oyeah then after that, had my prayers with dad, mum and sis...
My butt hit the wardrobe behind.
Almost wanted to laugh sia... and actually i did, i giggled throughout the prayers...
I know...my prayers not counted, wasnt serious...
Bad girl...
Better beg for forgiveness...
Siak aje Hy...
Then after prayers...
Saw 3 missed calls on my phone.
I suppose it was him.
He gave me a fright actually... Around dusk time calling, i tried to call back but duhh, unknown number...
Reminds me of Ju-On, The Grudge and so many other Thailand and Japanese horror movie...
Imagination run wild...

And anyway...thats all from this Not-Serious Hyriah...
Byebye and have a good nite rest...Peeps!!! :))

She is Back

Hey hey hey people!!!

 The ROCK CHIC is back!!

For Good!

I uploaded a few rock songs that i used to listen to back then..
Mostly Linkin Park, 3 Doors Down, Lacuna Coil, 30 Seconds To Mars...
I love these Rock Bands!!
I miss being rockish and punkish.
I think i have gotten a little softer after all that has and have been happening,
Now im all about being me!
Me, Myself & I!!

I believe being rock makes me happy!! hahahh


Yesterday was funny.
Sorry to you guys...im sorry i was being fickled minded and then at last minute i didnt join you guys.
Instead i went out with my 1st sister, besides it has been quite a long time since we both hang out together or else she is always shopping with her Fiance. Haha :)y
I finally fulfilled my Frappe Cravings.
Though i would prefer Starbucks, but Mc Cafe wasnt that bad anyway.. hehehh
Besides that, we also got ourselves a couple of T-shirts from UNIQLO, Notebooks from ArtBox and Sis got herself a bag...at below $20 actually $30 was the budget then...
Had a great day with sis!!
I love shopping with her.
And i think im back to Seaweed Shaker Fries Addiction...

Going out with my younger brother later, to treat him for some Mr Bean that he have been craving for...

~
Currently suffering from dry skins on my hand and around my eye and a flu.

Lacuna Coil

Entwined

And you take me over
Over again

I wonder how can I go on and on
when you want to bury my passion
You are the shell around
And I cannot escape
and I swallow my pride

Entwined together now
It's time to pass it over
(and you take me over, over again)
Entwined together now

And you take me over
Over again

I wonder
how can I live on and on
when you want to live in a hurry
You are the wall
-that I-
That I have to remove
And I swallow
I swallow my pride

Entwined together now
It's time to pass it over
Entwined together now
Entwined forever

And you take me over
Over again

Entwined together
Entwined forever

Heavens A Lie

Oh no,

here it is again
I need to know
when I will fall into decay

Something wrong
with every plan of my life
I didn't really notice that you've been here

Dolefully desired
Destiny of a lie

Set me free
your heaven's a lie
set me free with your love
set me free

(repeat 1x)

Oh no,
here it is again
I need to know
why did I choose to betray you

Something wrong
with all the plans of my life
I didn't realize that you've been here

Dolefully desired
Destiny of a lie

Set me free
your heaven's a lie
set me free with your love
set me free

Set me free your heaven's a lie
set me free with your love
set me free

Dolefully desired

Set me free
your heaven's a lie
set me free with your love
set me free

Its A Hyriah Story

This is a 2 days blog post.
Be prepared.
Ehehee.

Friday:
Went to work.
And then suddenly...the security guy asked my supervisor to "kidnap" me and Shahira.
At first both of us panic. Thought we did something wrong.
But suspense only.
Actually the store director, treat us for a breakfast at McD .
haha
So 8 malay people headed for McD.
Did i mention. 2 newbie girls and 6 old-timer guys...
Haha, me and Shahira just listened to what they were talking about.
They are a very funny bunch of people.

I'm starting to love work, thanks to the people there.
Hehee
Make a whole bunch of new friends.
Boys and girls.
Shahira....ehemm...Lutfi....
Me....ehemm....Nobody.
Kesian...sedih seyh.

Saturday:
After work shop with Shahira...
Yupp got our pay, 7 days work get like $250++
Imagine 1 month pay...haha Quite a huge sum.
So i got a $70 Esprit jacket...haha finally...I dreamt of it, you know...
And a pair of jeans.
Woohoo!!!
By the way...
A lot of nicknames for me: Mak Chik, Retard, Selenge...haha
Fun aper bully aku!!! hmmph!!

Im so distracted lately that sometimes i just lost my concentration in anything that i was doing.
Its so dangerous.
Got a couple of small cuts on my hands, i was too careless.
Did i say, i almost got knocked down??
I crossed the road without looking out for cars first.
And that the speed of the car, had actually saved my life.
Pheww...

Im trying my best to not think of you.
Andand dont let me tell myself that i am independent and that i dont need you.
Cos if i manage to do that, things Will get wrong.
Cos you were once the person that make me happy everyday.
Now you are just that blurrish figure that seems to fade.
Now even my Mum realise my changes.
Now even my Dad asked about you.
Tell me what shall i tell them.
Tell me what shall i do now?
Its your call.
Im not some puppet you play with.
Say it straight to my face.
Lets get it done and over with.
Cos right now, you are not hurting me, you are killing me.

Thinking Of You

The sun is going down on me
As she surrenders to the sea
So steal the night and fly with me
I'm calling, I'm calling


The moon is high on me and you
Is my message breaking through
Darkened skies that once were blue are falling
So hear me now


Calling out your name
Burning on the flame
Play the waiting game
Hear my calling, hear my calling


Forever and ever


Through distant lands, through mountain streams
My river's running through your dreams
There's an ocean in between
Forever and ever


Chasing shadows through the years
I whisper softly to my dear
Be sure to know that I am here
Forever


So hear me now


Calling out your name
Burning on the flame
Play the waiting game
Hear my calling, hear my calling


Whispers in the air
Hear a lover's prayer
I can feel you there
Hear my calling, hear my calling


No man is an island
That's an empty sin
Discovery is a journey
Just have to let me in


Calling out your name
Burning on the flame
Played the waiting game


Calling out your name
Burning on the flame
Play the waiting game
Hear my calling, hear my calling


Whispers in the air
Hear a lover's prayer
I can feel you there
Hear my calling, hear my calling


No man is an island
That's an empty sin
So steal the night and fly with me
I'm calling, hear my calling
~
I find today, weird.
Just weird.
Good day anyway. And no complaints from me. :)
Work was fine.
Tired
I saw you people, stealing glimpses of me.
And i find it kinda funny.
Mean of you to laugh at my blurness...

Selamat Hari Raya Haji To All Muslims!
...
How i wish i could attend  Hari Raya Haji Prayers at Mosque tomorrow.
But sadly i'm working...
Sigh...
Sad that i have to miss it.
Listening to takbir now, solemn.

XOXO

JustMeHyriah

If I am crazy then You are Blind Bluekk!!

Hello

Am here to post...like duhh

Released quite early from work today.

So happy!!

:)

This morning started work feeling hyper.

Greeted all the customers and it went smooth...except for some "not my fault" problems.

Customer last minute want to cancel item. So lecehh...

Honestly, i hate calling for supervisor's help, but what to do?...

And yeahh...again today... i got f***ed up with customers...

Early in the morning, got scolded "Crazy" for no f***ing valid reason.

Is it my problem that your eyes got problem?? Next time see properly can??

One advice for customers, read the price tag carefully before arguing as if you are right and i am wrong.

Customers are always right my FOOT!! That quote is just for the sake of being polite, okayy!!

And so, while checking the price for the customer, i took the chance to calm myself.

Sialan sia.

Curse the person all the way, reach counter never even look at his face.

But after all that happened, i heck care him and continued my work happily. 

bahahax

~

And again, my prepaid Zer0...

Insya-Allah i will top up my card for Important communication purposes.

This time, if for the sake of asking me what am i doing or whatsoever, dont expect me to reply okayy...sorryyy..

 ~
I saw your picture in facebook.
But i couldnt understand why i hold myself back from looking at it closer...
And i couldnt understand why i am scared to do so.
I Was and Am Alone.

XOXO

"Crazy"Hyriah

ermmm, must i say??

Finally, i put my ego down and text someone.

And blearghx, someone have not Yet replied.

~

And sorry guys i couldnt join and meet you guys at Huda's house...

Suddenly, i just lost my mood.

 ~

I was keeping myself busy half the day, watching Gossip Girl or to be more specific, staring at the TV.

Nothing goes in to my head... How come??

Well, hell yeah who gives a damn?

~

Phiissh... Sadly to say, i am in a dilemma and i am about to make a decision at which i am not ready to take and am not sure about.

I guess its about time.

Time to do something.

It has to have a good ending. 

~

Furthermore, i feel like an asshole lazying around at home other than the fact that i have been doing house cleaning almost everyday especially, days when i am not working.

This is just so bloody stupid.

I have nothing to do.

I wish mum and dad could send me to Africa.

Then maybe i could do some noble good deeds.

I am born to do something am i not?

Or at least, bring me somewhere i could get in touch with nature.

I need to find some thing to do to drag me out of this mere boredom.

Frankly speaking, i am tired of this current life im living right now. I want to be more active, and not just everyday listening to beeping sounds, the cash register and people complaining.

This "city" life of people bustling and lack of nature's touch is totally getting on to me.

I feel like playing hide and seek in the corn fields.

Sometimes i feel like im born in the wrong place and that i should be born somewhere else like in Norway, Finland or New Zealand or something.

NATURE is like my Antidote.

Without it, i feel sick.

I know there is a park outside my house, and from my balcony, its a magnificent view, but its just Not enough...

Oh-man, im complaining am i not??

Buhhh...

Well...anyways...

Thank Allah, for the great days i have had.

I just need to be patient.

My time will come.

And i meant time not as in death but, as in time for helping poor people. :)

~

And for the sad sad people out there.

Have faith.

Cheer up. :))

Seek help, when you realise that you obviously cannot help yourself.

No point hurting yourself.

(i am not referring to anyone in particular, but to anyone who is feeling sad lately.)

I was sad too.

XOXO

SmokedHyriah

Monday 23rd Nov like duhh!!

~

Feeling hyper alone today.

Woke up thinking of cycling...but then right, cycling alone not fun.

So end up, help to cook chicken rice and some garlic bread. yummy!! :)

Doing laundries too...

Hhaha, later going for a movie spree on the net.

Muahaha

Watched New Moon.

My god!!!!!!!

Still going to watch it in theatres... :))

Now i feel like re-reading Eclipse and Breaking Dawn...

Woots!!!

Watched Christmas Carol

Watched Bolt

Watched 2012

Sit at home one whole day watch movies with brother.

Fun siott!!

Ahahaxx

Tomorrow maybe i want watch One Tree Hill and Gossip Girl on Video On Demand..

kwangkwangkwang

~

Boy-o-boy...

Im listening to Rindu Serindu Rindunya on Youtube!!

Karaoke...

Shahira, our song!!! hahah

Wednesday at work sing again okay!?

LOL!

P.S i cant wait to work with him again...haha ooppss

Hopefully his counter is next to mine. bahaha ;)

Haha

Im trying to make someone jealous

so that maybe someone will text me??!

But i forgot, i had my phone switched off.

And by the way, this guy im talking about at work.

He is really nice and cute.

Infact i had lots of Fun talking and laughing with him.

~

Whenever i say i dont care, its only my cover line.

I care.

But because i care too much that it hurts.

haiishh...

~

On a random note: i miss my friends

And have a great night tomorrow handsome boys and pretty girls.

Dance your night away aites...

And i will see how i am going to meet you guys tomorrow night.

Perhaps sneaking in??

Yeahhh...

~

And 

Happy Birthday To Thiviya!!!

A lot to say...

 Hello people!!!

Time to post!!!

Wooohooo!!!

Okay anyway..these past few days a lot of things happened.

Fun stuffs and annoying ones too.

Mostly the annoying stuffs are caused by customers.

Quote "Customers have a lot of power, they have the power to either make your day OR SPOIL your day."
I was doing well all the while...but for the fact that her eyes tengok laut (mata kero), there write CASH PAYMENT ONLY big big also never see, then you want to complain... What can i do?? I just cant be bothered to entertain your STUPID nonsense. So i called the supervisor and pushed everything to him, at last the customer walk off...I say GOOD!! Block the way only!!! And spoil my day.

And no offence to my chinese friends but most of the irritating customers are chinese women.
Need to weight the fish inside also want to make a BIG FUSS!!
Then you want me do what??
Go inside and weigh it for YOU??
Come on lah, you think i have nothing better to do is it?
You are not the only customer okay.
People are waiting in line.
So argue and argue and argue, at last asked her MAID to go inside and weight it.
Maid take so long, come back see the price tag $7.90, then dont want to buy... chheh, freaking waste of my time.
I think wait for her, i can serve 4 customers sial...
But these things happens everyday!!!
Kind of getting used to it.

Then this one better, she said the shelf there shows it costs $1.00, but when scanned its cost $1.50... for a packet of tissue paper. Then argue and argue...I am a cashier and i dont know a hell about what is tagged and not tagged inside the big 2 story megamarket, you expect me to know every single price is it?? Those stuffs are handled by people from the inside, its a different department. And for a difference of $0.50, you dont want to buy and you want to complain...pfft...
Make me roll my eyes siol!! Like a lot of times.

Thenthen, a lot of our guys colleagues all cute cute siol, but haha, unfortunately i cannot open my eyes bigbig and see them as my potential because once in a while i will be loyal to one person if not mum will nag at me...
haha.... but Shahira enjoy seyh... not to say she has a crush with one of the guys... seriously that guy he looks like Rasyidin...please lah you have no better taste is it??
Shahira was acting so ngada-ngada and mentel, Rosma you can imagine her like that right... so i think you will pity me... even with me she act like that...me as another girl i obviously feel like vomitting la.
Come on, you behave that way only with guys and not girls like seriously stop it because its annoying.
No offence you can be that way while you are flirting with the guys, but not with me please...??

Work was actually fun and all, but these setbacks they are just trying to push me to my wits. Well i say, bring it on, lets see how long i can put up with this. :) Besides i was thirsty for a challenge. And i am going to take this my way... 

Oyeah, tuesday went out with Rosma, Priya and Shahira. Out to look for clothes for Rosma's dinner...
Then Friday, went out again look for her accessories...
Now its a complete dress.
Tuesday went to Tampines One...woohoo, saw this Esprit jacket, damn nice sia i even dreamt of it. Soooo going to get it. haha
Then went to Paya Lebar Singapore Post This Fashion...if im not wrong...
Hahas, i know most of the clothes there are for makciks!! But some still nice though...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DADDY YESTERDAY!!!

21st November

Rushed home from work to start baking...
Hahax.
Lights off, candles lighted up, doors open, no one in sight, lights on, everyone out and BOO!!!
Haha...
Fun night.
Dad, lets go shopping together okay when i get my pay... LOL!!!

21st November happens to be Ms Normala's wedding day.
haha....
Selamat Pengantin Baru!!!

...

Actually today wanted to go for the run but last minute, mum ask me to follow her go somewhere...sigh...
Meeting Huda and Priya soon too!!
I have no idea, how im going to rush from one place to another...think about it later then...haha


...

Its my blog remember??

I am not going to delete that post.
Because it clearly states that, it was A PIECE OF MY MIND!!
So if you are not happy with it, or if you are offended then DONT read it!!
So now you are going to tell me what to post and what not to post??
hahha!!
And i DONT remember writing your name in the post.

And who gives a damn to what other people may think?
They can think anything they want and i dont give a hoot!
And if you think i have become worst than before, then you dont even know me.
And i dont expect to achieve anything out of this...

Besides im not going to hang out with you guys anymore.
So just count me out.
Then you guys wont have to bother about me. Okay??

Life Is Beautiful

Life is beautiful
We live until we die

When you run into my arms
we steal a perfect moment
Let the monsters see you smile
let them see you smilling
Do I hold you too tightly?
When will the hurt kick in?

Life is beautiful, but it's complicated
We barely make it
We don't need to understand
There are miracles, miracles

Yeah, life is beautiful
Our hearts, they beat and break

When you run away from harm
Will you run back into my arms
Like you did when you were young?
Will you come back to me?
I will hold you tightly
When the hurting kicks in

Life is beautiful, but it's complicated
we barely make it
We don't need to understand
There are miracles, miracles

Stand where you are
We let all these moments pass us by
It's amazing where I'm standing

There's alot that we can give
This is ours just for the moment
There's alot that we can give.

Why the hell???

I'm here to blog.
Because i think i've had enough of being super emotional and sensitive for 6days5nights.
Sorry or maybe im not sorry at all for those whom i blast at in my previous post.
I really mean it.

Whole day, switched off my phone, so dont expect any replies from me.
My prepaid is getting low, and i dont think i want to top it up, i see NO point in doing so and it would be better that way. I shoosh, you shoosh. I dont talk, you dont talk. Lets just play this Unofficial DUMB Game.

So im tired of being moody and playing ignorance.
Some people are trying to reach out to me and i practically ignored them. Im sorry to Huda, i know you are trying to help, but lets just take it that i dont want any help. Just leave me alone??

Okaykay, tomorrow is going to be a suckish day.
Lil brother will be going for his Overseas Learning Journey...
Expecting to be all alone at home, going to be very stressing and depressing.
So im thinking i should go have a ride on a bicycle, to somewhere peaceful. Like where the hell is that??
I want to get lost...
I intend to ride until 11-12plus late at night...
And who the hell is going to stop me?

Im being emo again.
Fuck shit!!
Okay, Hy you've got to pull yourself together!!!!

XOXO

TryingHardHyriah

A Piece Of My Mind!

Heylo heylo heylo people!!!

Hmm...gone for 3 days siott!!

Okay so for the past few days, quite a number of things happened...

Not all is oh-so-good. Some SUCK big time!!!

3 days, weren't feeling happy or whatsoever. Lucky i work, forget all the problems for a few hours.

Mostly feeling monotonous.

Suck la.

But haha, we will get to that part later.

So!! Thursday! Happens to be my first day at work...

The manager was very very nice and friendly, i mean all the people there was very nice lah.

Enjoy the training. Learned very fast even though make a lot of mistakes, but nevermind lah, learn from mistakes!!

Break only for 30 minutes... no appetite to eat heavy meals, so just bought deserts at LJS.

Almost lost $5 Oopps

At 5pm we departed, and head home by NEL.

Damn tiring siott,at work stand for hours, going home also must stand.

Reached Hougang Station and took the bus..

Purposely took the longwinded route.

Reached home, dying to lepak.

Andandand, i touched a lot of pork siol, some damn big lah... haha

Next day! Friday!

Wake up early again.

Work, training again, learn more stuffs...

Then homed, at 6 plus.

Quickly shower and change for Campfire night,

It was raining heavily.

Then in the bus, people keep calling me telling me not to go. I just hang up on them.

I mean like what the FUCK???

It was suppose to be some kind of like a gathering for us right, isn't it??

And you think i want to miss it??

Like what the FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Duh!!! NO!!!!!!!!

And a little warm welcome would be GREATLY APPRECIATED!!!!!

And dont complain that you guys are so damn freaking tired!!!

Like who is NOT???

I just FUCKING got home from work, willing to sacrifice just so i could join you guys...

Its easy for you to say, "then dont come lah..." Like what the fuck??

You know if i had known that Rouhui wasnt coming, i wouldnt have wanted to come either!!

But then nevermind, i kept thinking that i wasnt coming just for you fuckers sake, i was coming to SUPPORT MY BROTHER, who apparently, could sense that i wasnt in a good mood....

Thanks you guys for the very nice welcome!! Really welcoming!!!

It was good that i was tired, because you know why, i would have wanted to leave as soon as possible!!

So kept all those aside and just try to chill out and enjoy the night.

And for those who "ran" for me, i really appreciate it, but if it isnt sincere, then next time dont even think of doing it. You put people in a very guilty position. It makes people feel bad for whatever things that they put you through unintentionally.

I didn't asked you guys to ran after me.

All i asked for is a GOOD navigator, and just fucking tell me, what the bloody UNIT number is!! Is that so hard??

Fuck whether or not im stopping at the Old Changi Hospital.

Fuck if its dark.

Fuck if it feels creepy.

Why would you want to care??

Dont care lah!!

Dont even give a FUCK!!

Do i look like someone who is so freaked out of creepy stuffs??

I could have reached there on my own, if you guys have just gave me the fucking unit no.!!

Dont give me your feelings as a reason to do anything for me.

So after campfire, went straight home, didnt even feel like talking to any of you guys.

The reason why i chose to take the bus alone instead of tagging along with you guys.

Any second i stayed with you guys, i would have got agitated.

And dont fuck talk about me having a fucking attitude problem.

Are you my father, to tell me what to do and what not to do??

I do whatever i feel like doing at my own expense, and its not you guys that will be burdened by it.

And by the way, if you werent coming to fetch me from the bus stop, i could have called for my brother instead.

This is BULLSHIT!!

Saturday!
Wake up as early as 5am.
This time, im on my own, open counter.
Nervous seyh, early in the morning, i blurr sotong sia...
But after break, everything went quite smoothly.
Then after work, met up with Khairil.
Watched Paranormal Activity.
haha...
Freaking scary sia, it feels so real...
On the way to the bus interchange, at the traffic light, something happened lah, Shahira freaked out, she shout i also shout siol...Bodow siott. Kurang asam nyer driver. Go on the siren, then got one head pop out of the window...haiish
Shahira, is so freaked out, that she had to call her mom to fetch her from the bus stop. afraid of taking the lift alone.
Reached the bus stop around 11.30pm...
Then walk home alone lahhs...
Then something happened on the way home...
Sial lah!!
That apek!!!!

Reached home, brother talk about his experience at camp.
A few paranormal activities going on.
He kena kacau seyh...
Bodohnye benda, anyhow touch touch my brother!

XOXO

FreakingFuckedUpHyriah