A day has Past! Lived it well?

Heylo everyone!!!

So, its 22nd August 2009...
1st day of Ramadhan!!
Last night never slept until 2.30 am... slept at the sofa anyway, about 4 plus woke up for breakfast but half dead so didn't eat or drank much.
Rosma!! I also slept late but i woke up at 9!! hahax
Anyway i was joking only larh last night... (She was bored so she chatted with me, but i was watching drama "emo-ing", i had to tell her that she was disturbing me and i asked her to main jauh-jauh... but she's cool with it..right??)

Kaylah, met them at 11 because someone overslept! hahx
But still end up i was the last to arrive! hehx
Zoomed to Tampines, but someone anyhow change plan. But its okay, its alright, kesiannyer pasal aku ikutkan aje. Went to Kambing's void deck, then at 2pm we headed for Tampines Library. Quite crowded, so we occupied a corner and did our homework and revision. I wanted to go home earlier so about 4 we left.
Reach home around 5 plus, stomach growling so ape lagi tidur!!! muahahax!! Hibernating.
At 6 woke up, watch drama again until break fast!!
Sorry to mummy,never help her cook, but she already had enough manpower, kitchen too crowded liao hahax.

At first, very lazy to go Mosque go for tarawih...but am grateful that i went...
It was tiring, but the satisfaction overcomed it!!
Then listen to the preach by dont know which Ustaz...but the topic was cool.
It made me reflect on myself...
Eventhough i was staring on the carpet but the chain of words by the Ustaz was running in my mind.
I thought to myself, what type of Muslim am i?
Modern Muslim, behave like a muslim?
Modern, but doesnt even bother about Islam?
haiish...
Then i remembered my main purpose and goal at the beginning of the Year.
It was to be GooD,
One of them was to be a good muslim!!
Then i reflected all this while, what have i done?
Is slashing my wrist being a good muslim?
Islam taught us not to hurt others so, what more ourselves?
And all those things that i've done. Does it reflect me as a muslim?
I almost cried thinking about it.
Its never too late to repent and so that is what i am going to do from now on.
I still dont have an idea about what i am going to do...Perhaps a spiritual journey?? hahaxx
Grateful that i realised it now then later...


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Suddenly i feel like my shoulders are feeling the burden of my responsibilties.
In the morning, talked with mother about my results and stuffs...
She wanted me to become a Policewomen, as always, she wanted me to stick with that and i have no intention of changing it either.She's right about me,being comfortable in that kind of job. Besides i have great interest and passion in it. We discussed about the path i should take. So die die must take 'O' level. Regardless of its outcome.
So MUM, i'll make sure your wish will come true! For DAD too!!For Myself too!! AND!!
I realise i should also be a good role model especially being a Ustazah's sister. I have to protect the family's name and all. This is not just about me but about them too.
I'm responsible for my actions and of my brother. I need to help him, help himself!
So probably after this i wont have any time for others.
No time to worry about small stuffs and all.
Yes, i have changed. People do because it was about time.
Its my destiny.
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Just feel like saying it.
1st sis has a great job... Saw her peminat setia just now at the mosque. That kid really loves her. Remembered she was the one who was very excited when my sis got engaged, lol.


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I want to go for blood donation again!! =)

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10 years from now,
5 siblings, working!!
Fuuyoo!!
1st sis, teacher..
1st bro, aerospace engineer?
2nd sis, stll no idea what she wants to be??
Me, SPF??
Lil' brother, commando??

bahahx...Big dreams!!
Jiayou everybody...Lets head to that direction!