if you know

I dont understand why i'm having this...
For the whole day, i've been checking my phone...hoping that someone's name will appear.
And i get all frustrated if it wasnt him.
I've been battling with the thought of messaging him.
Should i start it first or shall i wait for him to start it first??
My drafts are full, because i keep canceling the thought of sending the message.
Wondering if he knows that i'm pissed off with him.
That i dont feel like talking to him.
But the silence seems to get deeper.
Keep thinking of what i'm suppose to do next.
How shall i react at the sight of him.
Act as if i'm angry or just smile back or totally ignore him.

Okay...i sound like im thrashing around with this. {I'm HEARTLESS REMEMBER??}
I just dont ________________ anymore.
I'm finding the [\EXIT/] so dont worry...off any soon now and you are free to fly and suck the nectars of others. I just get easily irritated nowadays... Yupp, she's pretty and yupp, WHATEVER!! Dont speak, because i dont want to hear any of it.

You can sulk or brood about it, but i still wont give any hoots about it!