Sorry A Million Times

If you(to a specific person only) are reading this,you dont have to say that you are sorry.
I've heard it like a million times, but whenever i forgive you, you just took it for granted. And then we are back to square one. Over and over again... Like there is no way out...
And i hope that the 10 things that i told you, will help you think it through...

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Nowadays, going home from school is a dread.
No one is with me. I walk alone.
It just brings back a lot of memories...A whole chunk of them.
5 months of on and off.
The paths we took, the places we go, the things we did & the stuffs we talked about.
Everything comes back.
Sometimes i just wish there is another route i could take.
And those moments still plays in my mind.
When i look at these places i just want to ...
And now everything is burning into ashes. Pooff, just like that.
Now all i can see is a burning flame in my eyes.
I even imagined the carebear in flames. Owwow.. havent hug it for so long.
I think its better if i keep it in my wardrobe. Should i??

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I have to adjust my mindset of you.
Must not think that you are my boyfriend or were my boyfriend...
Must think that you are my b_____.
God knows how much i hate this!!!!!!!!!!!

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Calling me sister is like as if you ............!!
Forget it!
Its your lost anyway.

You just wasted a good person like ME!!!
Someone who is willing to forgive you, eventhough you keep repeating your mistakes.
Someone who is willing to stand up for you, eventhough sometimes you may be in the wrong.
Someone who is willing to listen to your problems.
Someone who is willing to spent time with you.
Someone who is willing to accompany you through ups and downs.
Someone who is willing to tolerate your nonsense.
And the rest you should know well.

It is just a PITY!
You should have think it through properly.

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Now off you go to your new "girl" friend.
Have lots of fun and enjoy messaging all those dumb girls.
After saying all this i really hope you will hate me. So i can be neither your sister nor a friend. =) I feel so relieve saying all this!!! WoowWwW!!!
And if you really know me.
You'll know which one said all these. =)

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you almost always pick the best times
to drop the worst lines
you almost made me cry again this time
another false alarm
red flashing lights
well this time I'm not going to watch myself die
I think I made it a game to play your game
and let myself cry
I buried myself alive on the inside
so I could shut you out
and let you go away for a long time

I guess it's ok I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask
nicer than that

I think the chain broke away
and I felt it the day that I had my own time
I took advantage of myself and felt fine
but it was worth the night
I caught an early flight and I made it home